The Remains of my Wasted Youth
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Rebecca’s POV
“HOW COULD YOU?” I yell at Jack once everyone has left the bus, leaving only me and him.
“What?” he questions confused at my sudden outburst.
“I saw Max.” I say crossing my arms over my chest. At this his face turns to scared, causing him to look like a deer caught in headlights.
“Becz…I was just trying to protect you from him.” He says quietly.
“Protect me? I don’t need protecting! I wasn’t even hurt.” I shout back at him, anger pursuing through my veins.
“He kept trying to talk to you!!” He shouts back. “He wouldn’t leave you alone, I had to take matters into my own hands.”
“Why the fuck did you have to take matters into your own hand?” I shout back.
“Because you won’t tell Alex!” he yells back at me, glaring a little.
“Tell me what?” asks a voice from behind me. Suddenly Jack’s face drops causing me to turn around, coming face to face with Alex himself. I stand there looking bewildered, a sound never leaving mine or Jacks lips.
“Tell me what?” he asks again, this time with a little more attitude.
“Dude-” says Jack before he’s interrupted.
“Will someone fucking tell me what’s going on?” asks Alex, raising his voice slightly. At this I nod and gesture towards the back room. Jack goes to follow but I stop him.
“I can handle this Jack.” I say quietly.
“Rebecca I am so sorry, I know I thought he should know but not like this.” Jack explains.
“It’s fine, just let me deal with it.” I say before walking away and joining Alex in the back room, finding him now pacing around.
“What’s going on Rebecca?” he asks using my full first name, instead of shortening it how he normally does.
“There’s something I haven’t been completely honest about.” I sigh, sitting down on the sofa.
“Did you cheat?” he asks emotionless. At this my head snaps up to look at him.
“No! I would never cheat on you and you know that.” I reply, keeping eye contact with him. At this he visibly sighs and sits down next to me.
“Then what’s going on?” he asks.
“You know that boy from my hometown, he broke my heart and stopped talking to me along with everyone else when I moved here after my dad died.” I reply quietly.
“Yeah, he’s a massive prick.” He replies angrily.
“Well…he’s here…”
Max’s POV
I was sat on the tour bus in the back room, playing a small game of FIFA with Josh just after we had finished our set. I couldn’t concentrate though; especially after my encounter with Becca. The picture of her face was still stuck in my head when she saw my face, she looked scared and worried, like she truly cared about me. It was in that moment I saw the old Rebecca, not the one who hated me, but the one who run over scared and worried at the sight of me when I fell off my bike after showing off in front of her and having a deep cut on my leg.
And her face when I told her it was Jack, she looked both disgusted and surprised. I looked side stage a few minutes after walking on and she had disappeared, I even looked for her when I walked off stage but she was nowhere to be found so I just walked back to the bus with Josh.
I don’t know what it was but since seeing her again, I had this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach. The sort of feeling that intensified when I see her face, or how my thoughts never leave her. Deep down I knew what all these meant…but I just didn’t want to admit it, even if I knew they were true.
I l-
“WHERE THE FUCK IS HE?” comes a voice from the front of the bus. I jump from my thoughts from the sudden intrusion. Josh looks so shocked he doesn’t even pause the game, just stares at me, and then the door.
The door swings open revealing a very mad looking Alex…oh shit.
“YOU!” He screams pointing at me. Before he has a chance to launch at me Jack appears from behind him and holds him back along with Zack.
“HOW FUCKING COULD YOU. SHE NEEDED YOU.” He yells, pointing at me. Well I guess he knows.
“Alex, I think you should calm down mate.” Josh says quietly.
“SHUT THE FUCK UP JOSH, I AM JUST AS MAD AS YOU, YOU LEFT HER AS WELL.” He shouts at Josh.
“Alex, Josh done nothing…I was the one who told them not to speak to her.” I say quietly, ashamed with myself. Everything goes quiet around me, everyone staring at me while Alex just glares at me.
“Why?” he ask quietly, venom dripping from his voice. “Why did you take her friends away from her? Why did you abandon her like that? Why did you leave her feeling like she had nobody and that nobody cared?” he questions.
“I don’t know…I loved her Alex.” I say, enunciating ‘loved’ as past tense, I had to be careful what I said around Alex. “I loved her so much as she left my life, I couldn’t deal with only ever hearing from her, I needed to see her either all the time or just forget about her and move on with my life.” I reply quietly keeping my head down.
“Well you obviously didn’t love her enough to just abandon her.” Alex say bitterly.
“Alex, I loved her, I just had to look out for myself, and then when I saw her recently I realised all my mistakes and I’ve been trying to talk to her but either she wont listen or Jack stops me.” I reply my voice starting to break. “I especially wanted to apologise since I didn’t know I caused her to continue harming.” I say under my breath, causing Alex to snap his head up looking at me and for me to wish I said it quieter.
“You knew?” he questions quietly. “YOU FUCKING KNEW?” He shouts, anger cursing through his eyes.
“YOU FUCKING KNEW SHE SELF HARMED IN THE FIRST PLACE AND CONTINUED TO IGNORE HER WHEN SHE NEEDED YOU THE MOST?”
At this Alex breaks away from Jack and Zack's grip and lunges at me, punching me left, right and centre and me taking it, knowing I deserved it. Quickly though Zack and Jack pull him off me, leaving me winded and hunched over.
“I just want to apologise.” I weakly say.
“NO!” he shouts before shrugging the boys off him. I stand quiet as he walks up to me…
“If you want to continue to live, you will stay the fuck away from her, she doesn’t need you anymore…she has me.” He spits at me with venom in his voice before storming out and leaving the bus. Without uttering a word, Jack and Zack follow on his trail, leaving me and Josh in the backroom and Dan, Matt and Chris crowded round the door.
I wince at the pain as I try to stand myself up, causing the boys to rush forward to help me.
“NO!” I shout at them. “Leave me to do it.” I say quietly as I collapse on the sofa, leaning my head back and closing my eyes.
I hear everyone start to leave except for one.
“Max-”
“Just leave Josh.” I sigh quietly causing him to sigh and leave the room, closing the door behind him.
I deserve this.
“HOW COULD YOU?” I yell at Jack once everyone has left the bus, leaving only me and him.
“What?” he questions confused at my sudden outburst.
“I saw Max.” I say crossing my arms over my chest. At this his face turns to scared, causing him to look like a deer caught in headlights.
“Becz…I was just trying to protect you from him.” He says quietly.
“Protect me? I don’t need protecting! I wasn’t even hurt.” I shout back at him, anger pursuing through my veins.
“He kept trying to talk to you!!” He shouts back. “He wouldn’t leave you alone, I had to take matters into my own hands.”
“Why the fuck did you have to take matters into your own hand?” I shout back.
“Because you won’t tell Alex!” he yells back at me, glaring a little.
“Tell me what?” asks a voice from behind me. Suddenly Jack’s face drops causing me to turn around, coming face to face with Alex himself. I stand there looking bewildered, a sound never leaving mine or Jacks lips.
“Tell me what?” he asks again, this time with a little more attitude.
“Dude-” says Jack before he’s interrupted.
“Will someone fucking tell me what’s going on?” asks Alex, raising his voice slightly. At this I nod and gesture towards the back room. Jack goes to follow but I stop him.
“I can handle this Jack.” I say quietly.
“Rebecca I am so sorry, I know I thought he should know but not like this.” Jack explains.
“It’s fine, just let me deal with it.” I say before walking away and joining Alex in the back room, finding him now pacing around.
“What’s going on Rebecca?” he asks using my full first name, instead of shortening it how he normally does.
“There’s something I haven’t been completely honest about.” I sigh, sitting down on the sofa.
“Did you cheat?” he asks emotionless. At this my head snaps up to look at him.
“No! I would never cheat on you and you know that.” I reply, keeping eye contact with him. At this he visibly sighs and sits down next to me.
“Then what’s going on?” he asks.
“You know that boy from my hometown, he broke my heart and stopped talking to me along with everyone else when I moved here after my dad died.” I reply quietly.
“Yeah, he’s a massive prick.” He replies angrily.
“Well…he’s here…”
Max’s POV
I was sat on the tour bus in the back room, playing a small game of FIFA with Josh just after we had finished our set. I couldn’t concentrate though; especially after my encounter with Becca. The picture of her face was still stuck in my head when she saw my face, she looked scared and worried, like she truly cared about me. It was in that moment I saw the old Rebecca, not the one who hated me, but the one who run over scared and worried at the sight of me when I fell off my bike after showing off in front of her and having a deep cut on my leg.
And her face when I told her it was Jack, she looked both disgusted and surprised. I looked side stage a few minutes after walking on and she had disappeared, I even looked for her when I walked off stage but she was nowhere to be found so I just walked back to the bus with Josh.
I don’t know what it was but since seeing her again, I had this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach. The sort of feeling that intensified when I see her face, or how my thoughts never leave her. Deep down I knew what all these meant…but I just didn’t want to admit it, even if I knew they were true.
I l-
“WHERE THE FUCK IS HE?” comes a voice from the front of the bus. I jump from my thoughts from the sudden intrusion. Josh looks so shocked he doesn’t even pause the game, just stares at me, and then the door.
The door swings open revealing a very mad looking Alex…oh shit.
“YOU!” He screams pointing at me. Before he has a chance to launch at me Jack appears from behind him and holds him back along with Zack.
“HOW FUCKING COULD YOU. SHE NEEDED YOU.” He yells, pointing at me. Well I guess he knows.
“Alex, I think you should calm down mate.” Josh says quietly.
“SHUT THE FUCK UP JOSH, I AM JUST AS MAD AS YOU, YOU LEFT HER AS WELL.” He shouts at Josh.
“Alex, Josh done nothing…I was the one who told them not to speak to her.” I say quietly, ashamed with myself. Everything goes quiet around me, everyone staring at me while Alex just glares at me.
“Why?” he ask quietly, venom dripping from his voice. “Why did you take her friends away from her? Why did you abandon her like that? Why did you leave her feeling like she had nobody and that nobody cared?” he questions.
“I don’t know…I loved her Alex.” I say, enunciating ‘loved’ as past tense, I had to be careful what I said around Alex. “I loved her so much as she left my life, I couldn’t deal with only ever hearing from her, I needed to see her either all the time or just forget about her and move on with my life.” I reply quietly keeping my head down.
“Well you obviously didn’t love her enough to just abandon her.” Alex say bitterly.
“Alex, I loved her, I just had to look out for myself, and then when I saw her recently I realised all my mistakes and I’ve been trying to talk to her but either she wont listen or Jack stops me.” I reply my voice starting to break. “I especially wanted to apologise since I didn’t know I caused her to continue harming.” I say under my breath, causing Alex to snap his head up looking at me and for me to wish I said it quieter.
“You knew?” he questions quietly. “YOU FUCKING KNEW?” He shouts, anger cursing through his eyes.
“YOU FUCKING KNEW SHE SELF HARMED IN THE FIRST PLACE AND CONTINUED TO IGNORE HER WHEN SHE NEEDED YOU THE MOST?”
At this Alex breaks away from Jack and Zack's grip and lunges at me, punching me left, right and centre and me taking it, knowing I deserved it. Quickly though Zack and Jack pull him off me, leaving me winded and hunched over.
“I just want to apologise.” I weakly say.
“NO!” he shouts before shrugging the boys off him. I stand quiet as he walks up to me…
“If you want to continue to live, you will stay the fuck away from her, she doesn’t need you anymore…she has me.” He spits at me with venom in his voice before storming out and leaving the bus. Without uttering a word, Jack and Zack follow on his trail, leaving me and Josh in the backroom and Dan, Matt and Chris crowded round the door.
I wince at the pain as I try to stand myself up, causing the boys to rush forward to help me.
“NO!” I shout at them. “Leave me to do it.” I say quietly as I collapse on the sofa, leaning my head back and closing my eyes.
I hear everyone start to leave except for one.
“Max-”
“Just leave Josh.” I sigh quietly causing him to sigh and leave the room, closing the door behind him.
I deserve this.
Notes
So another update. I can't help but think this story is so much more dramatic than the first one...is that a good thing? or should more fluff be added? Also what do you guys think should happen? I'd love to hear some ideas?Let me know what you think!
I just started reading a few days ago, and I'd def read more! Love it!
2/28/17