Three Musketeers

I did nothing, Alex did nothing. No one did anything since that day. It seems a million years ago, Jordan and I have had many arguments but not to give her any inclination that Alex have feelings. He stays out of it. 6 Months have passed and I'm still with Andy. There are days when I'm fine when I may start to fall in love but then the tiniest thing will remind me of Alex and I'm back in whirlwind that this stupid fucking love affair. The nights were I have wished it him next to me and not Andy. Its terrible I know, I'm fucking horrible, call me a child of Lilith for all I give shit. But It's not like I fucked the guy which I haven't but have dreamed about but Andy don't know that. There are days when I'm bad when the depression becomes too much too handle and I just sit in my bunk and not do anything but watch boxsets of Supernatural. Andy understood, sometimes he'd come over sometimes he'd stay away. Right now we are on tour with All Time Low and A Day To Remember, Andy came along for a couple days.
"whats up?" Jack said walking into the bus. I sat on the couch in my onesie and glasses. Hair dreaded something I had done in the past six months. My hair in a bun.
"Nothing just tumblr as per usual"
"No Alex news?"
"Nope why would there be? I've told you nothing is gonna happen, I'm with Andy"
"You two are so fucking complicated. Why can't you two be together? Like what so hard?"
"The fact there's two other people involved its not worth the drama. Just drop it Jack-" I was silenced by the email I got from my dad
"Jasey??"
"Oh My god.....noooo this can't be happening" I just stared at my laptop tears streaming down my face. I ran out of the bunk and ran into Alex. He caught my elbows and simply asked whats up. Tears burst out "Its......My........Brother........He's......." Gulping for air in between tears. I didn't need to finish the sentence he knew what was coming next he pulled me in close and then walked me back to the bus where Jack sat staring at my laptop. Alex Crouched down in front of me.
"Ok now slowly tell me what's happened"
I took a deep breath and started " Well Charlie, works a Orlando's sea world and he was doing a simple session with Tili" The boys stared at me in confusion "Tilikum the main whale.....The Fucking fat one" Acceptance went across their faces "Then he took Tili took the back pool to calm him down, its a routine thing. Then Tili went for him, Well his foot and just took him down. Charlie is an experience diver so he can hold his breath but Tili didn't stop. He ate him. Trainers all around staring knowing they can't do anything." They just stared at me mouths wide open. " I don't blame Tilikum he shouldn't be there. None of them should. Because of Tili's bad experience at sealand in canada. He was basically bullied by the slimmer female whales and he developed a version of psychosis. So he is naturally more violent than most Killer whales. He's overweight even for a whale and his dorsal fin collapse has gotten worse and its fucking SEA FUCKING WORLD FAULT!" I was raging by now.
"She knows her shit"
"I do! I love orcas but sea world shouldn't be allowed. At all and I will do everything in my power to shut them down."
"Ok babe" Alex pulled me in for a hug.
"I better go tell Andy" I walked off and had the same the conversation with the same anger But I failed to mention the fact I told Alex before I told Andy. The next few days were rough but I got threw it in one piece. Then 3 days later when my life changed........... Hopefully for the better.
Me, Andy, Jack, Jeremy, Alex and Jordan were just sitting outside the bus having a few drinks. When suddenly Andy gets up and tells me to get up then next thing I know the kid is down on one fucking knee pulling a fucking ring box out of his hoodie pocket. Then my heart is racing, my hands are over my mouth and I'm in absolute shock. I dunno what to do or say.
"Jasey Rae Ferrana Will you do me the pleasure of marrying me?"
"OH MY FUCKING GOD.............Yeah" I nodded and started to crying as he slipped the ring on my finger. It was my favourite a single silver band with a topaz in the middle. For the next three days I just stared at my finger. Andy had to leave for him tour but I didn't care. I had suddenly realized that I was engage to a lad that I loved but I didn't know if He was the one. Because somewhere deep down inside me I knew that Alex was worth the risk but I didn't know if he thought the same about me. Alex then showed up at my bunk in tears. I jumped down and pulled him in.
"Whats happened sweetie?" I walked him over to the couch.
"Jordan cheated on me, she ended it"
I got up and ran out to his bus she was there packing her trampy shit away.
"HOW FUCKING DARE YOU" she tried to speak " NO YOU FUCKING LISTEN TO ME. I WILL DEFEND THAT LAD TILL THE DAY I DIE AND I WILL HURT ANYONE WHO HURTS. YOU DID IT WILLING AND YOU NEED GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE AND NEVER SHOW YOUR TRAMPY FACE AROUND HERE AGAIN. I DON'T CARE WHAT YOUR PATHETIC EXCUSE, YOU JUST THREW AWAY THE ONLY GOOD THING THAT WOULD COME TO YOUR LIFE YOU WILL NEVER EVER FIND A LAD AS ACCEPTING AS SWEET AS NICE AS ANYTHING LIKE ALEX AGAIN AND I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT. I HOPE YOU FEEL GUILTY AS SHIT FOR IT AND I HOPE YOU SPIRAL INTO A WHIRLWIND OF CRYING AND GUILT AND ALCOHOL. BECAUSE YOU ARE SCUM OF THE EARTH AND HE WAS ALWAYS TOO GOOD FOR YOU." I just stared at her anger pulsating threw my body. She walked past me with an ashamed look on her face. I walked back to the other bus feeling proud of my self, Alex was still there. He must of known. He smiled at me and pulled me close
"Jasey Rae Ferrana, you are the one I want to annoy for the rest of my life, You are my only one. Leave him for me, we can get married and have the picket fence, You are what I'm still here for.I love you" he pulled me in for a kiss

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