Alex watched our soundcheck and couldn't stop staring at him. Having opened up that much to my dad made me realize how much I was in love with him. I never open up to anyone but Alex so to open to my dad about something so personal was a strange experience. The show was fab and Charley are merch girl, came backstage and told me that Kat and Nikki had turned up. I was slightly pissed he turned up with Kat but oh well. I watched All Time Low's set, they played before we did. when we played I could see Alex and Andy watching from the side. The thoughts racing through my mind, that I couldn't hurt Andy but I was going to have to act on these feelings soon. The show went great and we met a lot of amazing fans; who told us about how much our music has saved us and I remember being in that position 5 years ago meeting green day and telling them how they saved me from drug addiction and suicide. I would have never of thought that in just a short 5 years I'd have people telling me the same. When we got out and showered we went for a drink. Bus call was late since we have a day off tomorrow. At the bar I was getting emotional since Andy wasn't talking to me and Jordan was all over Alex. I ran out of the bar, it was raining but I only put my hood up, I just started and didn't take long to come across a fountain. I sat on the edge crying, trying to make my mind up on what to do when someone came and stood in front of me. I looked up it was Alex. We both just stared at each other soaking wet for like 5 minutes in till he spoke.
"what are you doing?" He choked at the beginning
"Figuring out what to with my life" I answered
"Why what's happened?"
I stood up and stared at him again "Alex, I'm in love with you and I have been since I was 15. I have no idea what to do with these feelings. Because your off playing happy couples with Jordan and I'm with Andy. Him and I are pretending that we're happy but not as happy as we should be."
Alex's POV
Wow, she just told me she's loves you, don't just stare at her you idiot tell her you love her too.
"I love you too, have done since the day we first met. I named a song after you for christ sake, didn't you get the hint then? Don't think I'm happy with Jordan because I'm really not, would you be happy with someone who hated the girl who's been the love of your life and best friend since you we're 14? No you wouldn't. She makes my life a living hell. Do you know how many times this conversation has been played over in my head? more times than you and I both have been on this planet. But I'm now scared that the ending is not what I've planned out."
Jasey's POV
Wow was not expecting that.
"I want to be with you but I can't hurt Andy as much as I love you."
"I can't be with you in till I brake up with Jordan. You know I can stand the douche bag guys who go from girl to girl and cheats. Tell me I'm not going to become one of those" He grabbed my hands and pulled them to his chest. We were both crying
"You wont because I wont let you"