Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye
006
Rebecca’s POV
*Time Lapse*
It had been a term since I started at this school or a semester as they call it. I had managed to settle in quite easily considering everything that was going on. I would spend every moment with the boys and the girls, them taking me in from the first moment I met them, but yet I hadn’t told them. I hadn’t decided to confide in them my only secret, the one secret that had shattered my life back in Britain. I couldn’t find the confidence in myself to do so. Once I admit that secret then I would have to admit every dirty little secret that follows. Keeping them secrets was a safety net for me, I just had to be careful that I don’t break it.
* * *
I climb out of bed and quickly run into the bathroom showering myself quickly before dressing in my already picked out clothing, Jeans and band shirts. I expertly apply little make up and curl my hair a little bit. I notice the red has started to fade to a more ginger.Today was a Sunday meaning it was mine and Alex’s private day to hang out. Normally we would get up early and go out to breakfast (normally pancakes) and then we would hang out all day.
Ever since my first day here, Alex became my best friend, yet I couldn’t tell him, I couldn’t confide my secret in him. Now don’t judge me, I have tried to tell him on so many occasions, but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. What if he would turn on me? Or abandon me? I couldn’t have that; Alex had become my rock over the months since I had joined. At nights when I would wake up and cry, he would be on the other end of the phone waiting to comfort me, no questions asked. I could tell that it was eating up at him that I still had not confided in him everything, but how was I meant to do that when I couldn’t even bring myself to believe it was true.
I walk out of the bathroom ready an hour later, I lean over my bed to grab my phone from the bedside table. I unlock the phone to find a text from Alex.
To: Becchoe
From: Gasktart
I hope your awake now bitch, I want to go get my pancakes woman!
I laugh to myself before texting back.
To: Gasktart
From: Becchoe
Yes I’m awake you cock sucker, you can hurry up yourself I’m hank marvin.
I laugh at my use of cockney slang, remembering Alex’s british roots and hoping he will get the joke.
Quickly I slip on my shoes before walking over to my bedroom door. When I enter the kitchen I see my older brother Jake sat in the corner reading the latest issue of Kerrang Magazine that he gets sent over from the UK. He looks up when he hears me enter the room offering a small smile.
“Off for another date with Alex I see.” He asks a smirk playing on his face. I roll my eyes at his comment as he always trys to make out that I like Alex.
“How many times Jake…Alex is my best friend and nothing more. I don’t see him that way and he doesn’t see me.” I reply bluntly shrugging my shoulders…to be honest with you that’s not exactly the whole truth. I mean yeah I may not like him as much as I use to, but there was still that part inside of me that was screaming for him to notice me as more than a friend. When I became close to Alex I soon realised nothing was going to happen, he basically had girls throw themselves at him every day, willing to let him use them. I never liked the man whore part of Alex, but I just zoned that part of him out.
“Yeah yeah, that’s what you say…but I’ve seen the way you look at each other.” He replies rolling his eyes and going back to my magazine. What does he mean Alex looks at me in a certain way…Jake must be seeing things.
“whatever, anyway I’m going out bye.” I shout while walking out of the house. I notice Alex’s car at the bottom of the driveway. I smile before walking over and climbing into the car.
“Hello there my beautiful bestfriend.” Says Alex smiling at me.
“Hello twat face.” I reply poking my tongue out.
“You know sometimes you’re just a mean bitch.” He pouts before pulling away from my house.
“But you love me for it.”
“That I do.” He laughs before maintaining his concentration on the road. I smile before picking up Alex’s adapted iPod and searching through his music, looking for a good song to listen to. I click on is Green Day playlist and scroll through till I find one of my favourite songs by them.
Sit around and watch the tube, but nothings on
Alex turns to smile at me knowing how much I love this song. He starts to tap his thumbs on the steering wheel along to the beat. I start to sing along under my breath knowing all the lyrics to the song.
I change the channels for an hour or two
Twiddle my thumbs just for a bit
I’m sick of all the same old shit
In a house with unlocked doors
and I’m fucking lazy
I shoot a glance at Alex when I say ‘lazy’, he chuckes a bit when he notices me staring before both of us launching into the chorus singing at the top of our voices.
Bite my lip and close my eyes
Take me away to paradise
I’m so damn bored I’m going blind
And I smell like shit
I scream the ending to the chorus as we pull up at the red light causing an old lady on the sidewalk shoot a dirty glare at me. I burst out laughing as the song continues to play in the background. I hear Alex snigger beside me as he pulls away from the red light.
“You know, that’s only gonna happen to you, do you know that.” He says between laughs.
“Oh fuck off.” I say flipping him off and pulling my sunglasses out and putting them on my face. “Where are we going anyway?” I ask looking at the outside.
“Somewhere special now shhh.” He replies winking at me.
“but you said you wanted pancakes.” I question.
“I lied so I could surprise you.” He says smiling.
“and why do you need to surprise me?” I ask removing my sunglasses.
“Can one best friend not surprise the other?” he asks giving me a look that told me to shut up. I just leant back in my chair, letting whatever was going to happen to happen.
*Time Lapse*
It had been a term since I started at this school or a semester as they call it. I had managed to settle in quite easily considering everything that was going on. I would spend every moment with the boys and the girls, them taking me in from the first moment I met them, but yet I hadn’t told them. I hadn’t decided to confide in them my only secret, the one secret that had shattered my life back in Britain. I couldn’t find the confidence in myself to do so. Once I admit that secret then I would have to admit every dirty little secret that follows. Keeping them secrets was a safety net for me, I just had to be careful that I don’t break it.
* * *
I climb out of bed and quickly run into the bathroom showering myself quickly before dressing in my already picked out clothing, Jeans and band shirts. I expertly apply little make up and curl my hair a little bit. I notice the red has started to fade to a more ginger.Today was a Sunday meaning it was mine and Alex’s private day to hang out. Normally we would get up early and go out to breakfast (normally pancakes) and then we would hang out all day.
Ever since my first day here, Alex became my best friend, yet I couldn’t tell him, I couldn’t confide my secret in him. Now don’t judge me, I have tried to tell him on so many occasions, but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. What if he would turn on me? Or abandon me? I couldn’t have that; Alex had become my rock over the months since I had joined. At nights when I would wake up and cry, he would be on the other end of the phone waiting to comfort me, no questions asked. I could tell that it was eating up at him that I still had not confided in him everything, but how was I meant to do that when I couldn’t even bring myself to believe it was true.
I walk out of the bathroom ready an hour later, I lean over my bed to grab my phone from the bedside table. I unlock the phone to find a text from Alex.
To: Becchoe
From: Gasktart
I hope your awake now bitch, I want to go get my pancakes woman!
I laugh to myself before texting back.
To: Gasktart
From: Becchoe
Yes I’m awake you cock sucker, you can hurry up yourself I’m hank marvin.
I laugh at my use of cockney slang, remembering Alex’s british roots and hoping he will get the joke.
Quickly I slip on my shoes before walking over to my bedroom door. When I enter the kitchen I see my older brother Jake sat in the corner reading the latest issue of Kerrang Magazine that he gets sent over from the UK. He looks up when he hears me enter the room offering a small smile.
“Off for another date with Alex I see.” He asks a smirk playing on his face. I roll my eyes at his comment as he always trys to make out that I like Alex.
“How many times Jake…Alex is my best friend and nothing more. I don’t see him that way and he doesn’t see me.” I reply bluntly shrugging my shoulders…to be honest with you that’s not exactly the whole truth. I mean yeah I may not like him as much as I use to, but there was still that part inside of me that was screaming for him to notice me as more than a friend. When I became close to Alex I soon realised nothing was going to happen, he basically had girls throw themselves at him every day, willing to let him use them. I never liked the man whore part of Alex, but I just zoned that part of him out.
“Yeah yeah, that’s what you say…but I’ve seen the way you look at each other.” He replies rolling his eyes and going back to my magazine. What does he mean Alex looks at me in a certain way…Jake must be seeing things.
“whatever, anyway I’m going out bye.” I shout while walking out of the house. I notice Alex’s car at the bottom of the driveway. I smile before walking over and climbing into the car.
“Hello there my beautiful bestfriend.” Says Alex smiling at me.
“Hello twat face.” I reply poking my tongue out.
“You know sometimes you’re just a mean bitch.” He pouts before pulling away from my house.
“But you love me for it.”
“That I do.” He laughs before maintaining his concentration on the road. I smile before picking up Alex’s adapted iPod and searching through his music, looking for a good song to listen to. I click on is Green Day playlist and scroll through till I find one of my favourite songs by them.
Sit around and watch the tube, but nothings on
Alex turns to smile at me knowing how much I love this song. He starts to tap his thumbs on the steering wheel along to the beat. I start to sing along under my breath knowing all the lyrics to the song.
I change the channels for an hour or two
Twiddle my thumbs just for a bit
I’m sick of all the same old shit
In a house with unlocked doors
and I’m fucking lazy
I shoot a glance at Alex when I say ‘lazy’, he chuckes a bit when he notices me staring before both of us launching into the chorus singing at the top of our voices.
Bite my lip and close my eyes
Take me away to paradise
I’m so damn bored I’m going blind
And I smell like shit
I scream the ending to the chorus as we pull up at the red light causing an old lady on the sidewalk shoot a dirty glare at me. I burst out laughing as the song continues to play in the background. I hear Alex snigger beside me as he pulls away from the red light.
“You know, that’s only gonna happen to you, do you know that.” He says between laughs.
“Oh fuck off.” I say flipping him off and pulling my sunglasses out and putting them on my face. “Where are we going anyway?” I ask looking at the outside.
“Somewhere special now shhh.” He replies winking at me.
“but you said you wanted pancakes.” I question.
“I lied so I could surprise you.” He says smiling.
“and why do you need to surprise me?” I ask removing my sunglasses.
“Can one best friend not surprise the other?” he asks giving me a look that told me to shut up. I just leant back in my chair, letting whatever was going to happen to happen.
11/10/13