Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye
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Alex’s POV
I wanted to know why, why I couldn’t remember this girl I was meant to be in love with, but I have to admit, she is beautiful…beyond beautiful really. I shake my head as I sit up in bed, knowing sleep won’t come tonight. All I had been doing lately was sleeping; my mum was hoping enough bed rest would start to bring my memory back. I climb out of bed and put on my converse and hoodie over my pjs. Quietly I sneak out the house, managing to avoid every creak on the stairs and from making a noise closing the door.
I continue to walk round in the dark, my mind racing as I thought about everything that had happened in the last weeks. Nausea began to take over, a headache forming in the pit of my mind due to my racing thoughts when I noticed I was arriving outside of our local park. I walked in before noticing a couple in the distance, cuddled together on the swings…I made myself closer to the couple in question before realising who the couple was…it was Jack and Rebecca.
Jack’s POV
I kissed her! I had finally kissed her, this moment had been building up for ages. A moment I had dreamt about, thought about, a moment I seized. I had finally kissed her and it was…normal. I couldn’t help but let my heart sink at the fact the kiss was bland and imperfect. I also knew by how Rebecca hardly kissed back that the kiss done nothing for her as well. I couldn’t believe everything had come down to this, it was in that moment that I realised I did not care for Rebecca how I thought I did, I didn’t love her, I fell in love with the idea of her, this kiss confirmed everything, Rebecca was not mine…she never would be and I was okay with that. I was about to pull away when I heard my name called from the distance.
“Jack? Rebecca?” came a familiar voice as a shadowy figure walked towards us, the moonlight catching their features and answering the question in my mind.
“Alex?” questions Rebecca. Oh shit.
Alex’s POV
“Alex?” came Rebecca’s voice…her sweet, sweet voice, wait what?
And there it was, the burning pit in my stomach, the metallic bitter taste in my mouth, the ache scratching into my heart…I was jealous. Now don’t question why I was jealous…it just happened. I may not remember this girl that was stood in front of me…but my heart was telling me that she was mine and that I truly loved her…like deeply in love. And now, to be stood in front of my bestfriend kissing the girl my heart was aching for; but my mind didn’t know, it hurt.
“Alex..are you okay?” came Rebecca's voice zoning me out of my mind. I gave her a brief nod before questioning what was going on.
“Nothing…nothing special at all.” Came Jack’s voice from behind her. How he said it, the tone of his voice…it was like he regretted the witnessed kiss, like it meant nothing to him whatsoever, and Rebecca's reaction to his statement; it was like she agreed with him.
“I see…well its late, shouldn’t you be getting home Rebecca?” I ask looking from Jack to her. A flash of panic flashes across Jack’s face as he stands up.
“Shit! I should get home!” he shouts before noticing Rebecca again, realising he should probably take her home.
“Don’t worry mate, I will walk her home.” I answer his unasked question.
“Cheers Alex, I owe you man!” he yells before giving Rebecca a quick (yet awkward) hug goodbye.
“Well shall we?” I ask holding out my arm to Rebecca. She shoots me a quick smile before linking her arm in mine.
***
We walk around for what seems like hours, getting to know each other, when in reality we have only been walking the short distance from the park to her house. I realise our journey is coming to an end before I grab my opportunity to ask the question nagging at my sore mind.
“So what happened back there, between you and Jack?” I question turning her to look at me
as an embarrass blush creeps onto her perfect pale cheeks.
“He…kissed me.” She replies quietly.
“And?” I ask, my voice strained and ready to crack.
“I…felt nothing…it was like kissing my family…wrong and ewwy.” She replies scrunching up her adorable button nose. I can’t help but to let out a little chuckle, while in return causing her to giggle…a sound that’s music to my ears.
“I love that.” I say smiling.
“What?” questions Rebecca, a small smile gracing her cherry red lips, a sight my eyes cant help but wander to.
“You’re giggle…its perfect…as well as your smile.” I whisper, my voice barely louder than the wind.
“You always use to say that, even when we was just friends.” She whispers back, the face closer to mine.
“Well it looks as if I always spoke the truth.” I mumble, our lips centimetres apart.
She smiles again; the worlds most beautiful smile before our lips meet and mould together. They work in perfect rhythm against each other, like they both communicate love between them. The kiss wasn’t passionate, it wasn’t rough nor full of lust…it was love, a simple kiss that communicated our true feelings and highlighted that we were meant to be together, as if the stars had brought us together just for that one kiss.
Before I knew it Rebecca pulled away smiling, and it was then that it hit me…
I remembered everything.
I wanted to know why, why I couldn’t remember this girl I was meant to be in love with, but I have to admit, she is beautiful…beyond beautiful really. I shake my head as I sit up in bed, knowing sleep won’t come tonight. All I had been doing lately was sleeping; my mum was hoping enough bed rest would start to bring my memory back. I climb out of bed and put on my converse and hoodie over my pjs. Quietly I sneak out the house, managing to avoid every creak on the stairs and from making a noise closing the door.
I continue to walk round in the dark, my mind racing as I thought about everything that had happened in the last weeks. Nausea began to take over, a headache forming in the pit of my mind due to my racing thoughts when I noticed I was arriving outside of our local park. I walked in before noticing a couple in the distance, cuddled together on the swings…I made myself closer to the couple in question before realising who the couple was…it was Jack and Rebecca.
Jack’s POV
I kissed her! I had finally kissed her, this moment had been building up for ages. A moment I had dreamt about, thought about, a moment I seized. I had finally kissed her and it was…normal. I couldn’t help but let my heart sink at the fact the kiss was bland and imperfect. I also knew by how Rebecca hardly kissed back that the kiss done nothing for her as well. I couldn’t believe everything had come down to this, it was in that moment that I realised I did not care for Rebecca how I thought I did, I didn’t love her, I fell in love with the idea of her, this kiss confirmed everything, Rebecca was not mine…she never would be and I was okay with that. I was about to pull away when I heard my name called from the distance.
“Jack? Rebecca?” came a familiar voice as a shadowy figure walked towards us, the moonlight catching their features and answering the question in my mind.
“Alex?” questions Rebecca. Oh shit.
Alex’s POV
“Alex?” came Rebecca’s voice…her sweet, sweet voice, wait what?
And there it was, the burning pit in my stomach, the metallic bitter taste in my mouth, the ache scratching into my heart…I was jealous. Now don’t question why I was jealous…it just happened. I may not remember this girl that was stood in front of me…but my heart was telling me that she was mine and that I truly loved her…like deeply in love. And now, to be stood in front of my bestfriend kissing the girl my heart was aching for; but my mind didn’t know, it hurt.
“Alex..are you okay?” came Rebecca's voice zoning me out of my mind. I gave her a brief nod before questioning what was going on.
“Nothing…nothing special at all.” Came Jack’s voice from behind her. How he said it, the tone of his voice…it was like he regretted the witnessed kiss, like it meant nothing to him whatsoever, and Rebecca's reaction to his statement; it was like she agreed with him.
“I see…well its late, shouldn’t you be getting home Rebecca?” I ask looking from Jack to her. A flash of panic flashes across Jack’s face as he stands up.
“Shit! I should get home!” he shouts before noticing Rebecca again, realising he should probably take her home.
“Don’t worry mate, I will walk her home.” I answer his unasked question.
“Cheers Alex, I owe you man!” he yells before giving Rebecca a quick (yet awkward) hug goodbye.
“Well shall we?” I ask holding out my arm to Rebecca. She shoots me a quick smile before linking her arm in mine.
***
We walk around for what seems like hours, getting to know each other, when in reality we have only been walking the short distance from the park to her house. I realise our journey is coming to an end before I grab my opportunity to ask the question nagging at my sore mind.
“So what happened back there, between you and Jack?” I question turning her to look at me
as an embarrass blush creeps onto her perfect pale cheeks.
“He…kissed me.” She replies quietly.
“And?” I ask, my voice strained and ready to crack.
“I…felt nothing…it was like kissing my family…wrong and ewwy.” She replies scrunching up her adorable button nose. I can’t help but to let out a little chuckle, while in return causing her to giggle…a sound that’s music to my ears.
“I love that.” I say smiling.
“What?” questions Rebecca, a small smile gracing her cherry red lips, a sight my eyes cant help but wander to.
“You’re giggle…its perfect…as well as your smile.” I whisper, my voice barely louder than the wind.
“You always use to say that, even when we was just friends.” She whispers back, the face closer to mine.
“Well it looks as if I always spoke the truth.” I mumble, our lips centimetres apart.
She smiles again; the worlds most beautiful smile before our lips meet and mould together. They work in perfect rhythm against each other, like they both communicate love between them. The kiss wasn’t passionate, it wasn’t rough nor full of lust…it was love, a simple kiss that communicated our true feelings and highlighted that we were meant to be together, as if the stars had brought us together just for that one kiss.
Before I knew it Rebecca pulled away smiling, and it was then that it hit me…
I remembered everything.
Notes
Okay so this is second to last chapter, I decided to end this story quicker than I thought, don't want to drown it out for too long now do I? But have no fear, I already have a sequel planned out in my mind, I just need to know who would read it? So please comment if you would :) and comment your thoughts!Now on a completely different topic, I havent recently started to cover more songs on my youtube channel, I sing with either accompaning backing tracks or guitarists, heres my link please go check me out :) : https://www.youtube.com/user/leaamartin/videos
11/10/13