Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye
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So far the day hadn't been that bad, so when I sat down to lunch, I had this voice in the back of my mind telling me that today had so far been too good and that soon everything would go downhill, my expectations couldn't stay high, that’s not how my life is. Jack came to meet me from my class telling me I could sit with him and his friends at lunch. I couldn't help but let a grin form over my face, I had been terrified by the thought of having to spend lunch on my own. Me and Jack sat down at the table in the lunch hall and got into a long conversation about Blink, Jack had been so excited when I told him how much I liked them, he practically jumped up and down before telling me we were going to be best friends for life. I could see me and Jack becoming great friends, maybe not best friends as I normally didn't let people get that close to me, however we both had that bright personality, we were both the sort of person people could never get to shut up. After sitting there for what seemed like 5 minutes Jack suddenly jumped up and shouted at the top of his voice.
“ALEX!” the skunk haired boy screamed running over into the arms of a sandy haired boy who stood with his arms open. Everyone in the lunch room ignored them so it seemed like this was sort of an occurrence. The boy assumed to be Alex was followed by a tall boy with brown hair and a small girl with brunette hair at his side. Jack dragged the 3 over to the table and sat them down. Soon enough the girl noticed to me and turned.
“Hi I’m Kara, I’m guessing you’re new?” she said with the sweetest smile on her face. I smiled back and nodded my head.
“Yeah I’m Rebecca, I just moved here this summer.” I replied causing the sandy haired boy to look up.
“Do I hear a British accent from that side of the table?” asked the boy getting up and coming to sit next to me. Now I had to admit but this boy was cute, but not the sort of cute Jack was, Jacks an adorable cute whereas this boy, he was hot and he seemed to know it.
“Ermm yeah I guess you do” I laughed shrugging my shoulders “I’m Rebecca.” I say with a smile.
“Cool and I’m Alex, I’m from Britain too by the way, but my parents moved here when I was 7 meaning my British accent went.” He replies with a shrug. “You’ve met Kara, already know Jacky boy and that ugly potato next to her is Rian.” He continues pointing round the table.
“Oit, shut it Gaskarth, just cause we don’t all spend hours in the morning getting ready doesn’t mean we are any less good looking.” Retorts Rian, smirking at Alex.
“Just ignore them love, hey how about you and I get out of here and get too know each other for a while? My place is free.” he winks at me while smirking. I cant help but feel like this happens too other girls a lot, this kind of guy makes me sick.
“Oh see I would but I would like to try going my whole life without getting an STD.” I reply, no amusement or joking in my voice. I see behind me that Rian, Kara and Jack are all laughing at Alex, while Alex seems to find this subject unfunny.
“And what do you mean by that?” asks Alex eyeing me from across the table.
“Nothing just you seem to be that kind of boy.” I reply shrugging noticing Kara trying to stop herself from laughing.
“What kind of boy?” he asks.
“The kind of boy to use girls for sex then forget about them.” I reply shrugging as Kara bursts out laughing. Just as Alex is about to reply, Jack speaks up.
“I just wanna apologise now for Alex here, when he sees a pretty girl he seems to think he can get in her pants straight away as he thinks he is so hot when in fact he is nothing compared to me” jokes Jack trying to defuse the tension while slipping into the seat beside me. I can’t help but blush when he mentions the insane idea of me being pretty.
“Hey I’m hotter than you!” shouts Alex going back to joking by trying to push Jack out of his chair. For the next couple of minutes the pair continue to play fight before Kara gets my attention.
“Hey wanna get out of here?” she asks motioning to the toilets. I nod and stand up from the seat excusing myself, I don’t think the boys seem to mind as Rian is laughing and Alex and Jack are still fighting. Me and Kara walk into the toilets and she turns round to face me.
“I’m sorry about Alex back there…he can be like that with new girls.” She says with an apologetic smile.
“Hey nothing I haven’t ever handled before, just hope I didn’t come across as rude.” I reply.
“Oh no Rebecca, he’s been needing a female too turn him down for ages now, was getting a bit too cocky” she replies with a wink.
I smile at what she says realising she likes me for standing up to him. “Well if you’re sure and please call me Becca.” I answer
“So what do you think of Maryland Becca?” she asks with a smile on her face? “Actually scratch that; what do you think of America?”
“Well…its different.” I shrug.
“Awwww well I guess it’s bound to be.” She answers with the same smile on her face. “Why did you move here if I ask?” I wince at this question not sure what to say, I can already feel the tears forming in my eyes as I look into the mirror pretending to seem busy.
“Err family stuff.” I say not wanting to dwell on this subject anymore. Kara seems to know she’s touched on a touchy subject. She nods, mentions something about being here if needing to talk and asking if I’d like a few minutes alone. I nod at this as I notice that tears have started to fall from my eyes. For the next ten minutes I clean myself up and re-apply my smudged mascara, when I’m sure I no longer look like a panda, I exit the toilets and return to the lunch table. Jack seems to notice something in my mood has changed and moves closer to me so no one else will hear.
“Hey are you okay?” he asks, concern coating his voice.
“Yeah, yeah just my err…allergies.” I respond refusing to maintain eye contact, from across the table I notice Alex staring at me and Jack in a sort of…jealous way? Nah couldn’t possibly be that. For the last ten minutes of lunch Alex continues to stare at me, even when Jack returns to the conversation between Rian and Kara. I just shrug off Alex’s weird behaviour and excuse myself saying I have left something in the car. Slowly I walk out of the school and towards my car. As soon as I am in the comfort and safety of my own car I let the tears fall, not even trying to hold them back. I curse myself for being this way, it’s been ages now, I should be over this.
“ALEX!” the skunk haired boy screamed running over into the arms of a sandy haired boy who stood with his arms open. Everyone in the lunch room ignored them so it seemed like this was sort of an occurrence. The boy assumed to be Alex was followed by a tall boy with brown hair and a small girl with brunette hair at his side. Jack dragged the 3 over to the table and sat them down. Soon enough the girl noticed to me and turned.
“Hi I’m Kara, I’m guessing you’re new?” she said with the sweetest smile on her face. I smiled back and nodded my head.
“Yeah I’m Rebecca, I just moved here this summer.” I replied causing the sandy haired boy to look up.
“Do I hear a British accent from that side of the table?” asked the boy getting up and coming to sit next to me. Now I had to admit but this boy was cute, but not the sort of cute Jack was, Jacks an adorable cute whereas this boy, he was hot and he seemed to know it.
“Ermm yeah I guess you do” I laughed shrugging my shoulders “I’m Rebecca.” I say with a smile.
“Cool and I’m Alex, I’m from Britain too by the way, but my parents moved here when I was 7 meaning my British accent went.” He replies with a shrug. “You’ve met Kara, already know Jacky boy and that ugly potato next to her is Rian.” He continues pointing round the table.
“Oit, shut it Gaskarth, just cause we don’t all spend hours in the morning getting ready doesn’t mean we are any less good looking.” Retorts Rian, smirking at Alex.
“Just ignore them love, hey how about you and I get out of here and get too know each other for a while? My place is free.” he winks at me while smirking. I cant help but feel like this happens too other girls a lot, this kind of guy makes me sick.
“Oh see I would but I would like to try going my whole life without getting an STD.” I reply, no amusement or joking in my voice. I see behind me that Rian, Kara and Jack are all laughing at Alex, while Alex seems to find this subject unfunny.
“And what do you mean by that?” asks Alex eyeing me from across the table.
“Nothing just you seem to be that kind of boy.” I reply shrugging noticing Kara trying to stop herself from laughing.
“What kind of boy?” he asks.
“The kind of boy to use girls for sex then forget about them.” I reply shrugging as Kara bursts out laughing. Just as Alex is about to reply, Jack speaks up.
“I just wanna apologise now for Alex here, when he sees a pretty girl he seems to think he can get in her pants straight away as he thinks he is so hot when in fact he is nothing compared to me” jokes Jack trying to defuse the tension while slipping into the seat beside me. I can’t help but blush when he mentions the insane idea of me being pretty.
“Hey I’m hotter than you!” shouts Alex going back to joking by trying to push Jack out of his chair. For the next couple of minutes the pair continue to play fight before Kara gets my attention.
“Hey wanna get out of here?” she asks motioning to the toilets. I nod and stand up from the seat excusing myself, I don’t think the boys seem to mind as Rian is laughing and Alex and Jack are still fighting. Me and Kara walk into the toilets and she turns round to face me.
“I’m sorry about Alex back there…he can be like that with new girls.” She says with an apologetic smile.
“Hey nothing I haven’t ever handled before, just hope I didn’t come across as rude.” I reply.
“Oh no Rebecca, he’s been needing a female too turn him down for ages now, was getting a bit too cocky” she replies with a wink.
I smile at what she says realising she likes me for standing up to him. “Well if you’re sure and please call me Becca.” I answer
“So what do you think of Maryland Becca?” she asks with a smile on her face? “Actually scratch that; what do you think of America?”
“Well…its different.” I shrug.
“Awwww well I guess it’s bound to be.” She answers with the same smile on her face. “Why did you move here if I ask?” I wince at this question not sure what to say, I can already feel the tears forming in my eyes as I look into the mirror pretending to seem busy.
“Err family stuff.” I say not wanting to dwell on this subject anymore. Kara seems to know she’s touched on a touchy subject. She nods, mentions something about being here if needing to talk and asking if I’d like a few minutes alone. I nod at this as I notice that tears have started to fall from my eyes. For the next ten minutes I clean myself up and re-apply my smudged mascara, when I’m sure I no longer look like a panda, I exit the toilets and return to the lunch table. Jack seems to notice something in my mood has changed and moves closer to me so no one else will hear.
“Hey are you okay?” he asks, concern coating his voice.
“Yeah, yeah just my err…allergies.” I respond refusing to maintain eye contact, from across the table I notice Alex staring at me and Jack in a sort of…jealous way? Nah couldn’t possibly be that. For the last ten minutes of lunch Alex continues to stare at me, even when Jack returns to the conversation between Rian and Kara. I just shrug off Alex’s weird behaviour and excuse myself saying I have left something in the car. Slowly I walk out of the school and towards my car. As soon as I am in the comfort and safety of my own car I let the tears fall, not even trying to hold them back. I curse myself for being this way, it’s been ages now, I should be over this.
11/10/13