It's been a week since the Paramore concert, and I've spent most of that time with Alex. We stayed at our own houses last night, as his Mum wanted to talk to him about something, but I was fine with that. It finally gave me a chance to clean the house from top to bottom. I started at the front door, I hoovered, scrubbed the floor and the walls, polished, brushed cobwebs away in every room until it was spotless. I then looked in the cupboards, there wasn't a lot of food left so I took that was left of the $500 and went shopping. I only ended up spending $70 of it. I brought it all home and put it away. I sat on the sofa, about to do some reading when there was a knock at the door. I got up, expecting it to be Alex, but when I opened the door, I came face to face with Jack.
"Um hi" He said.
"What do you want Jack?" I asked.
"Can I come in?" He asked back.
"I'm not sure f I'm comfortable with that, lets sit outside" I said. We sat facing each other on the path outside.
"Lauren, I just want to say I'm so sorry about the way I acted. I'm sure Alex told you the whole story of why I get that way, but I can't stand not being friends with you, please please forgive me" He begged.
"Alex did explain everything, but one thing he couldn't explain is the almost kiss. What the hell was that all about Jack?" I asked him.
"I don't know, it was an in the moment thing, I really do not know why I did that. You must understand how sorry I am, I miss being friends with you" He said,
"Let me talk to Alex first" I said.
"Can you not make the decision on your own?" He asked.
"Well, he knows you better, Jack" I said.
"That's true, so when are you next seeing him?"
"Later" I replied. He nodded.
"Well, I'll let you get on, please think about it Lauren, please" He said, then walked out. I stood up, took a deep breath and squeezed my eyes shut to stop the tears from flowing. I quickly ran back inside and curled up on the couch and just cried. I thought about my life, about Jack, Alex, my Parents, everything. All of a sudden, I felt as if I couldn't cope. I was hurting Jack by not being friends with him, but how did I know if he wouldn't hurt me again? I ran upstairs to the bathroom and threw open the cabinet. I took out the first bottle I could find and emptied its contents into my hand. I took the pills downstairs and got a glass of water. I swallowed the pills and took a swig of water. I then dropped the glass and sat on the floor. I cried and cried until I could start to feel the effects of the pills kicking in, and I was ready for death. I was just drifting off when I heard someone walk in.
"Lauren?" It was Alex. No he couldn't see me like this. I tried getting up, but I was too weak. He walked round the corner and looked at me, to the broken glass, back to me.
"Wha- what happened?" he asked, coming to sit next to me.
"P-pills" I mumbled, I saw the look of disbelief on his face before everything went black.

I woke up, the room was white and the lights were so bright I had to squint. I turned my head to the right and saw Alex asleep on an armchair. All of a sudden, doctors and nurses come rushing in and pushed Alex out of the room.
"Alex!" I screamed. No, I needed him here.
"Please, calm down Ma'am" A doctor said to me.
"No, I need Alex." I said.
"Ma'am, you're IV drip isn't working, you can see your friend in a minute." He said. I just stared at the ceiling while they worked on me. I let a few tears slip thinking about everything that I just did. I nearly caused Alex a whole world of pain. Poor him. I can't imagine what he must be feeling right now. I'm a horrible person.

Notes

Awh, sad chapter :c so, do you want Lauren to forgive Jack or not?
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