-Alex POV-

''Say goodbye to the halls and the classes
Say hello to a job and the taxes
The weekends with old friends spilling into 9 to 5 routine
Tell me how you feel over and done with
Like your life is a map with no compass to guide,
At the bar drinkin’ way too much
We sing along to "Forever Young".

So here we go again
Wishin’ we could start again

Wendy run away with me
I know I sound crazy
Don’t you see what you do to me?
I wanna be your lost boy
Your last chance, a better reality

Wendy we can get away
I promise if you’re with me, say the word and we’ll find a way
I can be your lost boy, your last chance
Your "everything better" plan
Oh, somewhere in Neverland
(Somewhere in Neverland)

We’ll start a life of the plain and the simple
Of great times with far better people
And weekends with our friends
Laughing about the wine that stains their teeth
We’ll talk about how your parents separated and
How you don’t wanna make the same mistakes as them
I’ll say it’s all about stickin’ it out
And trying to feel forever young

So here we go again
Wishin’ we could start again

Wendy run away with me
I know I sound crazy
Don’t you see what you do to me?
I want to be your lost boy
Your last chance, a better reality

Wendy we can get away
I promise if you’re with me, say the word and we’ll find a way
I can be your lost boy, your last chance
Your "everything better" plan
Oh, somewhere in Neverland

So here we go again
Wishin’ we could start again

Wendy run away with me
I know I sound crazy
Don’t you see what you do to me?
I want to be your lost boy
Your last chance, a better reality

Wendy we can get away
I promise if you’re with me, say the word and we’ll find a way
I can be your lost boy, your last chance
Your "everything better" plan
Oh, somewhere in Neverland
Oh, somewhere in Neverland
(Somewhere in Neverland)''

I'd finally submitted my second single to Austin and done the video for my first. This new song was clearly about Jack...the last day that we were together we watched Peter Pan, and it was perfect, well, until it all went downhill. Wendy represented Jack, and how he had changed me...the line ''I want to be your lost boy, your last chance, a better reality'' was exactly that, I wanted to be a better reality for him, better than the one he was in now, the one filled with drugs, hurt and lies.

Walking out really hurt him and I know that, but I can't just tell him that everything will be fine and dandy, because it won't. It hurt me just as much too, and if not, it hurt more. He was the first person who accepted me as me, and brought me out of my shell, and taught me it's okay to be whoever I want to be...but he really messed up this time.

These past few weeks I've been in the studio back in LA, the first few days I was with Rian and Cass but them being a couple just made me feel like a third wheel, so I left them to it. So here I am, in a cruddy hotel room all on my own for the first time in a while. It's weird as heck not having Jack around making dick jokes and being his stupid old self...but it gives me more time to get some work done, so I guess it all works out.

I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss him, because I did...I missed him so much that it hurt. But through the power of social networking, I could easily keep an eye on him and see what he's been getting up to. The only thing that had seemingly changed was his level of partying, but he's single now, he can do what he wants I suppose.

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I'd poured myself a black coffee and took a bowl out of the cupboard above the small kitchen sink - that's right, this is a fancy hotel with it's own small kitchen, I'm going up in the world - and took out a box of cereal. Leaning halfheartedly on the worktop, I poured the contents in and walked over to the fridge only to realize that there is no milk. Dammit.

I was already dressed so I slipped on a pair of Dunks and headed out to the small store on the corner. As I stepped outside the early May air hit my face, it wasn't particularly warm but it still made me pull my beanie further onto my head, I shoved my hands in the pockets of my Blink hoodie and made my way across the street to get the milk.

Luckily, I made my way there without attracting the attention of any possible fans and paid the cashier without any trouble either. It wasn't until I was leaving that something out of the corner of my eye drew my focus to it, it was a gossip magazine. I walked over to the stand and crouched down to get a closer look. On the cover was a huge picture of Jack being pulled away from another guy, the both of them being covered in blood and underneath was a caption reading ''Jay vs Jack, who would you back?'' I had no idea who 'Jay' was, but I flicked a few pages to read the article, and from what I could gather after finishing it, they had gotten into a fight after partying too hard. I hated seeing him in this state, hurt and confused, it killed my inside, and seeing this just pushed me over the edge. I need him back.

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I was sat on the edge of my hotel bed, cell phone in hand. Would he even pick up? Would he listen to what I had to say? Probably not, but at least if I did this I could say I tried.

My finger hovered over his contact as I hesitated, my breath beginning to shake from the nerves. As I pressed the button, I brought it up to my ear, hearing 5 or 6 rings before a croaky voice answered.

''He-hello? Alex?" Jack whispered down the phone.

I wasn't expecting him to pick up so I didn't really know what to say. ''Uhh, hi.''

There was a slight pause before he spoke again. ''I uh, I miss you Lex-''

''That's what I need to talk to you about,'' I sighed.

''Sorry,'' He interupted, apologising obviously because I didn't say it back. ''I just, I really want you back Lex, please, I'll do anything....anything,'' he started to sob down the phone. ''I love you.''

I felt like those three words hit me like a tonne of bricks. He sounded so sincere, like he'd learnt his lesson, but still, I wasn't going to let him back into my life in this state.

''I can't do this on my own baby, I need you,'' he continued. ''I need help.''

I stayed silent for a moment, wiping the stray tear that was falling down my face. I couldn't help but smile through the handset, happy that he finally realised there was a problem. ''I love you too Jay, and I promise, if you can get clean, things can go back to the way they were, you and me again.''

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After talking about it in more detail, Jack had decided to put himself into rehab. I was so proud of him for doing it, because doing something like that, especially when you're in the public eye, it's very brave.
He would be admitted tomorrow and staying in for a number of weeks, and I'm really happy to say that he seemed really determined, like he wants to change, and he wants to turn his life around.

I'm finally getting my Jack back, the one I fell for. And I couldn't be happier.

Notes

IT'S BEEN 2 WEEKS SINCE I LAST UPDATED AND I AM SO SO SORRY D:

I had two of my close friends commit suicide and it's been really hard, on top of that I've been put on new medication and I've had school stuff to deal with....

Things are getting back into routine now though so I should be getting back to normal with updates again. :)

Sorry once more for taking so long, please don't hate me :c

Thank you for reading if you still are though, means a lot :)

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