Secrets and Lies
Chapter Thirty Four
-Alex POV-
It was nice to have my boyfriend back, the one I fell for months ago and it was great knowing that he changed himself to keep me in his life. It's now been two weeks since I found out and he's handling it really well, I expected him to be showing signs of withdrawal symptoms but nothing so far...maybe it just takes a while to kick in, but he's just still goofy old Jack right now.
Today I was going to see Rian as I hadn't done so in what now seems like forever, I was planning on telling him about us over the phone or Skype just to avoid seeing his reaction in person, but we've been best friends for years and I owe it to him I suppose, I shouldn't be scared about anything. I wonder if he would be surprised or if he would have expected it? Only one way to find out I suppose.
I was leaving home at about 3pm this afternoon, letting Jack get on with writing some material and experimenting with stuff and I think Kellin was coming over so he wouldn't be all alone seeing a I was ditching him for a few hours; I didn't exactly know what time I would be back so I told him to not wait up for me.
Pulling on my classic look; black skinnies and a flannel shirt, I styled my hair until it looked presentable and chucked on some Converse, the green matching my shirt. I walked back into the bedroom and over to the desk that Jack was sat at, scribbling away in his own lyric book and smiled at him, realizing how adorable he is all over again. ''Right, I'm off, I'll see you later...be good.'' I said kissing his cheek from behind and squeezing his shoulders.
''Aren't I always?'' He laughed, grinning back at me. ''Have fun and tell him I said hi.''
''I will do, same with Kellin, and tell him I'm sorry about the other week...'' I trailed off, now hanging my head in shame remembering that the last time I saw the Sleeping With Sirens vocalist is when I was throwing a bitch fit and he left.
''I'm sure he'll understand babe,'' he muttered making me meet his gaze by pushing my ringe out of the way. ''Now get your fat ass outta here!''
''Okay okay, I'm going!" I giggled, putting my hands in the air saying that I surrendered.
''I love you.''
''I love me more,'' I winked at him, earning a slap on the ass as I left the room and headed out to my same cruddy old car sat on the gravel driveway.
It was weird calling this place my home now, just because of the mere fact that not even a year ago I despised how cocky he was to have this place...and now it was mine too and I didn't have to spend God knows how much on it. WIN.
Rian lived about a half hour away from Jack's house so I made sure to bring a travel cup of iced tea with me and I plugged my phone into the speakers and let Blink 182 blare out. I was singing along at the top of my voice and drumming my fingers on the steering wheel making myself a one person band.
Pulling up to Rian's apartment block I suddenly thought that maybe this wasn't such a good idea...what if he hates me? No no no, I can't think like that. Breathe Alex, dammit. I opened the car door and stepped out making sure I locked it behind me as I knew that this was a rough neighborhood, I went inside and took the elevator up to his floor and knocking on the door with the number 23 on it.
After waiting outside a few moments, a very happy looking Rian appeared, his bright white teeth in a perfect straight smile. ''Long time dude!" He exclaimed pulling my in for a brief hug before showing me inside.
''It's been what...6 months or so?'' I asked kicking off my shoes in the hallway and following him into the kitchen where he offered me a bottle of Cola.
''Something crazy like that!" He replied, propping himself on the counter opposite me so I did the same. ''How've you been man?''
There's a question and a half. ''Pretty damn busy.'' I laughed, not even knowing where to start and taking a gulp of my soda. ''What about you and Cass?''
''Not too bad, not too bad...she actually got scouted the other week by a small label so hopefully things are starting to look up for her!"
''Aw dude that's awesome, tell her I said congrats!" I always remembered Cass having an amazing voice and I'm glad she has finally got someone to help her with it...obviously not the same kind of help I had, which I suppose is technically better seeing as she's done it all on her own.
It was as if Rian could read my mind because he soon flipped the conversation back around so I had to talk about myself again. ''Speaking of deals...how's your music going dude?'' He asked excitedly finishing off his refreshment and setting the empty bottle on the island next to him.
''I...uhh, it's going great, my boss is getting me to record a music video soon.'' I replied, scratching the back of my neck nervously knowing that I would have to bring up Jack soon.
''Oh awesome, the track is great too, I had my radio on like a little fangirl in the office." He beamed, smiling that toothy grin that kind of blinded you for a second.
''Thanks man mean's a lot.'' I mumbled, my hands now getting slightly clammy at the thought of coming out to my best friend.
''You alright there man?'' He asked, raising an eyebrow at me.
''Yeah I umm, I just have to tell you something and I don't know how you'll react-''
He hopped off of the side and walked over to me. ''You know you can tell me anything, right?''
''I know, I just....this is big.'' I sighed, still not making eye contact, my shoes now seeming far more interesting than looking my friend in the face.
''What's so big that you're afraid to tell me? We've known each other like 10 years now...''
''I uhh,'' I paused, taking a deep breath. ''I-I'm seeing someone-''
''Is it Lisa?'' He asked, stopping me mid-annunciation.
''....who?''
''Lisa. Y'know...girl you were almost with for like two years straight but never asked her out?''
Oh right...Lisa. She was a pretty cool girl and we got on well but she wasn't ever really my type, even when I didn't know my type was tall, skinny guys named Jack. ''Uhhh, no, someone else.''
A look of deep concentration spread across his face. ''Do I know her?''
They're a 'him'. ''Not personally, but you know of them.'' I replied, purposely not using a feminine word and hoping he would catch on, I mean, he is quite smart. But unfortunately for me...he didn't.
''What's her name?'' My best friend questioned.
Oh God, it's now or never I suppose. I took another deep breath and counted to three in my head so I could let it all out in one go. ''It'saguyI'mgoingoutwithaguy.'' I said muddling my sentence into one word.
''It's Jack, isn't it?''
What the-? Why is he not shocked and how the hell did he guess Jack straight away?! ''I uhh, yeah...kinda-''
''Thought as much,'' he smiled, ruffling my hair with his hand. ''I'm happy for you bro, really.''
I looked up at him properly now, and it was as if nothing had happened, he was stood there, same hapy facial expression as always. I must have looked like a lost puppy because he soon started speaking again. ''How could I tell? I always had an inkling about you Alex, even back in school, I just didn't want to mention it because of the Zack drama, y'know? Besides, you two are always together so it just kinda makes sense.''
After sitting down on the couch for a few hours talking about it, it was like a huge weight had been lifted off of my shoulders because I didn't have to hide anymore, I could be myself around one more person, thus bringing the total to 8 (including Jack, Joyce, Kellin and the Pierce boys) but I'm still not ready for my own parents to know, I'm not at that stage quite yet, it's just great having someone else I could be completely comfortable around.
I told Rian the whole story about the initial deal and how we ended up getting feelings for one another, which he said was ''typical Alex'' to go and fall in love, but it didn't really matter. I told him about the recent drug events and how Jack has stopped now and he was quite skeptical when I first brought it up, but once I kept telling him how much he's changed, I finally had him convinced; but he told me to be cautious none the less.
It was honestly great seeing Rian, just the two of us hanging out together like old times, but t had now gotten to 11pm so I decided to head back home and agree to call him more often, which I obviously agreed to.
Opening the front door everything was quiet and all of the lights were switched off, meaning Jack was already tucked up in bed. I stumbled my way into the kitchen and stripped into nothing but my boxers and throwing the rest of my clothes in the wash-basket next to the washing machine. I padded over to the stairs and grabbed the rail and using it for guidance as I climbed them one by one; once I reached the top I saw a dim light coming out of the gaps around our bedroom door that had been closed. I could now vaguely see what I was doing so I didn't have to guess and hope for the best, I made my way over to it and opened the door, seeing a very happy Jack sat on the end of the bed wearing sweats and no shirt, his hair sweeping across his forehead.
''Lexy, I missed you!" He cooed as I walked nearer to him.
My eyes trailed over his body and I bit my lower lip. ''Shut the fuck up.'' I whispered seductively as I pushed him back onto the bed and straddling his hips.
He didn't question it. He grabbed the nape of my neck and smashed his lips on to mine forcefully, I could feel his hardness underneath pressing on to my own which caused a soft moan to tumble from my lips. I ground down harder onto him, kissing the soft spot behind his ear that I know makes him to weak at the knees. It was like a re-run of New Year's Eve, filled with so much passion and love; but this time it was slightly needy, not that that was a bad thing in anyway shape or form, on Jack, it was kinda hot; it just got me wanting more and more and more, I wanted to explore every inch of his body, I wanted him to see how perfect he is and how greatful I am that he changed for me because he was accustomed to it for so long, I'm just really thankful.
Thankful for him opening up this new me; the one who accepts who I really am, the one who's now living the dream, the one who is on cloud nine, and most of all, the one who learnt how to fall in love with Jack fucking Barakat.
It was nice to have my boyfriend back, the one I fell for months ago and it was great knowing that he changed himself to keep me in his life. It's now been two weeks since I found out and he's handling it really well, I expected him to be showing signs of withdrawal symptoms but nothing so far...maybe it just takes a while to kick in, but he's just still goofy old Jack right now.
Today I was going to see Rian as I hadn't done so in what now seems like forever, I was planning on telling him about us over the phone or Skype just to avoid seeing his reaction in person, but we've been best friends for years and I owe it to him I suppose, I shouldn't be scared about anything. I wonder if he would be surprised or if he would have expected it? Only one way to find out I suppose.
I was leaving home at about 3pm this afternoon, letting Jack get on with writing some material and experimenting with stuff and I think Kellin was coming over so he wouldn't be all alone seeing a I was ditching him for a few hours; I didn't exactly know what time I would be back so I told him to not wait up for me.
Pulling on my classic look; black skinnies and a flannel shirt, I styled my hair until it looked presentable and chucked on some Converse, the green matching my shirt. I walked back into the bedroom and over to the desk that Jack was sat at, scribbling away in his own lyric book and smiled at him, realizing how adorable he is all over again. ''Right, I'm off, I'll see you later...be good.'' I said kissing his cheek from behind and squeezing his shoulders.
''Aren't I always?'' He laughed, grinning back at me. ''Have fun and tell him I said hi.''
''I will do, same with Kellin, and tell him I'm sorry about the other week...'' I trailed off, now hanging my head in shame remembering that the last time I saw the Sleeping With Sirens vocalist is when I was throwing a bitch fit and he left.
''I'm sure he'll understand babe,'' he muttered making me meet his gaze by pushing my ringe out of the way. ''Now get your fat ass outta here!''
''Okay okay, I'm going!" I giggled, putting my hands in the air saying that I surrendered.
''I love you.''
''I love me more,'' I winked at him, earning a slap on the ass as I left the room and headed out to my same cruddy old car sat on the gravel driveway.
It was weird calling this place my home now, just because of the mere fact that not even a year ago I despised how cocky he was to have this place...and now it was mine too and I didn't have to spend God knows how much on it. WIN.
Rian lived about a half hour away from Jack's house so I made sure to bring a travel cup of iced tea with me and I plugged my phone into the speakers and let Blink 182 blare out. I was singing along at the top of my voice and drumming my fingers on the steering wheel making myself a one person band.
Pulling up to Rian's apartment block I suddenly thought that maybe this wasn't such a good idea...what if he hates me? No no no, I can't think like that. Breathe Alex, dammit. I opened the car door and stepped out making sure I locked it behind me as I knew that this was a rough neighborhood, I went inside and took the elevator up to his floor and knocking on the door with the number 23 on it.
After waiting outside a few moments, a very happy looking Rian appeared, his bright white teeth in a perfect straight smile. ''Long time dude!" He exclaimed pulling my in for a brief hug before showing me inside.
''It's been what...6 months or so?'' I asked kicking off my shoes in the hallway and following him into the kitchen where he offered me a bottle of Cola.
''Something crazy like that!" He replied, propping himself on the counter opposite me so I did the same. ''How've you been man?''
There's a question and a half. ''Pretty damn busy.'' I laughed, not even knowing where to start and taking a gulp of my soda. ''What about you and Cass?''
''Not too bad, not too bad...she actually got scouted the other week by a small label so hopefully things are starting to look up for her!"
''Aw dude that's awesome, tell her I said congrats!" I always remembered Cass having an amazing voice and I'm glad she has finally got someone to help her with it...obviously not the same kind of help I had, which I suppose is technically better seeing as she's done it all on her own.
It was as if Rian could read my mind because he soon flipped the conversation back around so I had to talk about myself again. ''Speaking of deals...how's your music going dude?'' He asked excitedly finishing off his refreshment and setting the empty bottle on the island next to him.
''I...uhh, it's going great, my boss is getting me to record a music video soon.'' I replied, scratching the back of my neck nervously knowing that I would have to bring up Jack soon.
''Oh awesome, the track is great too, I had my radio on like a little fangirl in the office." He beamed, smiling that toothy grin that kind of blinded you for a second.
''Thanks man mean's a lot.'' I mumbled, my hands now getting slightly clammy at the thought of coming out to my best friend.
''You alright there man?'' He asked, raising an eyebrow at me.
''Yeah I umm, I just have to tell you something and I don't know how you'll react-''
He hopped off of the side and walked over to me. ''You know you can tell me anything, right?''
''I know, I just....this is big.'' I sighed, still not making eye contact, my shoes now seeming far more interesting than looking my friend in the face.
''What's so big that you're afraid to tell me? We've known each other like 10 years now...''
''I uhh,'' I paused, taking a deep breath. ''I-I'm seeing someone-''
''Is it Lisa?'' He asked, stopping me mid-annunciation.
''....who?''
''Lisa. Y'know...girl you were almost with for like two years straight but never asked her out?''
Oh right...Lisa. She was a pretty cool girl and we got on well but she wasn't ever really my type, even when I didn't know my type was tall, skinny guys named Jack. ''Uhhh, no, someone else.''
A look of deep concentration spread across his face. ''Do I know her?''
They're a 'him'. ''Not personally, but you know of them.'' I replied, purposely not using a feminine word and hoping he would catch on, I mean, he is quite smart. But unfortunately for me...he didn't.
''What's her name?'' My best friend questioned.
Oh God, it's now or never I suppose. I took another deep breath and counted to three in my head so I could let it all out in one go. ''It'saguyI'mgoingoutwithaguy.'' I said muddling my sentence into one word.
''It's Jack, isn't it?''
What the-? Why is he not shocked and how the hell did he guess Jack straight away?! ''I uhh, yeah...kinda-''
''Thought as much,'' he smiled, ruffling my hair with his hand. ''I'm happy for you bro, really.''
I looked up at him properly now, and it was as if nothing had happened, he was stood there, same hapy facial expression as always. I must have looked like a lost puppy because he soon started speaking again. ''How could I tell? I always had an inkling about you Alex, even back in school, I just didn't want to mention it because of the Zack drama, y'know? Besides, you two are always together so it just kinda makes sense.''
After sitting down on the couch for a few hours talking about it, it was like a huge weight had been lifted off of my shoulders because I didn't have to hide anymore, I could be myself around one more person, thus bringing the total to 8 (including Jack, Joyce, Kellin and the Pierce boys) but I'm still not ready for my own parents to know, I'm not at that stage quite yet, it's just great having someone else I could be completely comfortable around.
I told Rian the whole story about the initial deal and how we ended up getting feelings for one another, which he said was ''typical Alex'' to go and fall in love, but it didn't really matter. I told him about the recent drug events and how Jack has stopped now and he was quite skeptical when I first brought it up, but once I kept telling him how much he's changed, I finally had him convinced; but he told me to be cautious none the less.
It was honestly great seeing Rian, just the two of us hanging out together like old times, but t had now gotten to 11pm so I decided to head back home and agree to call him more often, which I obviously agreed to.
Opening the front door everything was quiet and all of the lights were switched off, meaning Jack was already tucked up in bed. I stumbled my way into the kitchen and stripped into nothing but my boxers and throwing the rest of my clothes in the wash-basket next to the washing machine. I padded over to the stairs and grabbed the rail and using it for guidance as I climbed them one by one; once I reached the top I saw a dim light coming out of the gaps around our bedroom door that had been closed. I could now vaguely see what I was doing so I didn't have to guess and hope for the best, I made my way over to it and opened the door, seeing a very happy Jack sat on the end of the bed wearing sweats and no shirt, his hair sweeping across his forehead.
''Lexy, I missed you!" He cooed as I walked nearer to him.
My eyes trailed over his body and I bit my lower lip. ''Shut the fuck up.'' I whispered seductively as I pushed him back onto the bed and straddling his hips.
He didn't question it. He grabbed the nape of my neck and smashed his lips on to mine forcefully, I could feel his hardness underneath pressing on to my own which caused a soft moan to tumble from my lips. I ground down harder onto him, kissing the soft spot behind his ear that I know makes him to weak at the knees. It was like a re-run of New Year's Eve, filled with so much passion and love; but this time it was slightly needy, not that that was a bad thing in anyway shape or form, on Jack, it was kinda hot; it just got me wanting more and more and more, I wanted to explore every inch of his body, I wanted him to see how perfect he is and how greatful I am that he changed for me because he was accustomed to it for so long, I'm just really thankful.
Thankful for him opening up this new me; the one who accepts who I really am, the one who's now living the dream, the one who is on cloud nine, and most of all, the one who learnt how to fall in love with Jack fucking Barakat.
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