One Month Later

-Jack POV-

I didn't bring anything up about the party incident with Alex, and luckily he didn't question it, it's not anything life changing so I just don't see it as important, either that, or I'm too afraid of his reaction. Either way, he doesn't and won't know.

We went back to the studio and got on with our writing seeing as we only had another week here as it was now the end of February. I was so caught up in working with other artists that I completely forgot to write my own track! I sat down, locked myself in the tiny room and tried to get on with it, but my mind was all over the place and I had completely ran out of inspiration. I started twirling the pencil through my fingers, trying to push things about in my head hoping that it would spark an idea, but the only thing on my mind was Alex and how amazing he is for me and all the little things that I adore about him, the way he puts up with my shit and makes me smile whenever he's around. That's right, the Jack Barakat has feelings for someone, strong feelings; I can't hold them in any longer I swear to God. I'm going to mess it up sooner or later so I need to tell him, what've I got to lose?

My phone buzzed on the table in front of me, the vibrations causing it to rotate slightly.

From; Gaskank<3
- i have writers block, entertain me :( x

I smiled at the text before I tapped my fingers on the screen to reply.

To; Gaskank<3
- im stuck too :( come help me? ill make it worth ur while ;) x

Not even 30 seconds later I'd received another message.

From; Gaskank<3
- u dont need to tell me twice !!! on my way x

A couple of minutes later he came bounding into the room, picking up my habit of not knocking first, and jumped on me, attacking me with kisses. I'd last seen him a couple of hours ago but it already seemed like it had been forever, I just want to be right there with him all the time.

''Well hello to you too!" I laughed smiling at him once he'd pulled away.

He just blushed, his hands still resting on the back of my neck.

''So, you gonna help me or what?'' I continued, bringing his chin up to look at me.

''O-on your single? Like your single?'' He emphasized.

''Yeah, myyyy single, you know I think you're a great writer, Lex, and we have the opportunity to write a song together, and I want to do it, I wanna write a song about us.'' I smiled, nervous at the last part realizing how stupid I sounded.

His eyes widened and he began to stutter. ''A-about u-us?''

''Yeah, just like, immortalize our feelings, so it'll last forever and ever and ever and I can listen to your beautiful voice as I fall asleep if you're not there and aww, yeah.'' I let out all in one breath.

''Dude, no need to fangirl over me, I'm already your boyfriend,'' he giggled, still sat on my lap. ''But that sounds like a perfect idea doll face.''

''Doll face? Since when was I the chick in this relationship? You're the one that takes it in the bedroom!" I laughed, earning a swift nudge in the ribs.

I nibbled my lower lip for a while, debating on how I was going to put my feelings towards this insanely perfect boy onto a sheet of paper, and truthfully, I was scared to find out his true feelings, I mean, what if I like him way more than he likes me? I can't be in a one sided relationship, I just can't.

''Wanna get started then?'' He asked, pulling me from my thoughts.

''I-I can't Alex, I just-''

''Hey hey hey, what's wrong?'' He questioned, noticing my eyes darting across the room looking for an escape.

''I can't do this, I don't like it-''

''Don't like what....me?'' A look of pure heartbreak washed over his face as he climbed off of my lap.

I stood up and took his hand, playing with his fingers whilst looking down at them, not wanting to make eye contact. ''Don't be so stupid, it's just...the complete opposite.''

''Sooo, you like me too much?'' He asked confused.

''I just...'' argh why was this so hard?! ''I just...I've never felt like this before with anyone Lex, and it scares me, a lot, I'm not used to heavy feelings or caring about people, but you, you blow that all out of the water.''

''Jacky, feelings are fine, feelings are good! You don't have to-''

''No just listen, please?'' I paused, trying to figure out how to phrase the emotions that had been building up inside of me for the past few weeks. ''I care about you so much it's unreal, even more that myself, I've known you.....eight months so far and you're already the most important person to me and I don't know how to deal with that-''

''I do.'' Alex stopped me, crashing his lips onto mine all of a sudden. I was kind of frozen due to the unexpected kiss and him totally ruining my speech, but I soon started to kiss back, wrapping my arms around his small waist and pulling him into me, he placed his arms behind my neck and pulled away from the kiss, nuzzling my nose with his own. ''I don't know if you were about to say it, but Jack Barakat, I love you.''

''Well, I wasn't going to use my name,'' I laughed to myself. ''But I love you too Lex.''

A sudden thud at the door and Austin popped his head around the door. ''Stop being cute and get back to work, you don't have long left until you go back.'' He mused, then closing the door again, leaving Alex and I laughing in a hug in the middle of studio 13.

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''So, how's this going to work?'' Alex asked, putting a pair of headphones on and making sure his microphone stand was at the right height.

I pulled up a stool and set my guitar on my lap, making sure it was in tune. ''Erm, like we did it just now I suppose?'' He nodded. ''You ready?''

''For sure!" He smiled, wrapping his fingers around the mic.

I started to strum the chords I had written out a few hours ago, waiting for Alex to start his verse.

Hey there it's good to see you again
It never felt right calling this 'just friends'
I'm happy if you're happy with yourself

The memories of us deciding that we both wanted more came flooding into my head, and how happy we were when we were cuddled up in that hotel room in New York, calling each other ''boyfriend'' for the first time.
I sucked up a bit of air before it was my turn to sing.

Take off your shirt, your shoes
Those skinny jeans I bought for you
We're diving in, there's nothing left to lose

We'd both admitted how we really felt, now it was sink or swim or even a matter of how long before I drown Alex with the mess that is my life.
I carried on for the chorus, the boy to my right coming in with the backing vocals.

I'm gonna break down these walls (down these walls)
I built around myself
I wanna fall so in love (so in love) with you
And no one could ever mean half as much to me as you do now
Together we'll move on just don't turn around
And let the walls break down

I was really happy with the chorus, mainly because I had wrote that part whilst Alex went to the bathroom, so it was purely my emotions, and every word was true; I wanted to let him in, I didn't want to be scared of being in love, I wanted to embrace every single drop of it.

Next it was Alex's turn for the verse he'd wrote solo, he flicked his fringe from his eyes and grabbed the stand. He told me about how this part was about when we were on holiday and after that night of partying he couldn't control himself, which led to our first ever time of 'sharing a bed' and also how he never wanted drunk sex to happen again, he wanted to experience it properly from here on out.

I used to wear you like a ball and chain
I'd run and hide at the call of your name
It was obvious you were too much for me
Oblivious I was young and horny
In retrospect I wouldn't do it again
Stop talking shot to every one of your friends
I'm not the same boy you knew back then

Now it was time for the chorus again, but this time I did it on my own, Alex's piercing eyes on me the whole time.

'cause I can break down these walls I built around myself
I wanna fall so in love with you
And no one could ever mean half as much to me as you do now
Together we'll move on just don't turn around
Let the walls break

Alex had claimed the bridge in this song, written about New Years Eve, the night of Austin's party, the night we made love to one another without either of us knowing how we really felt, well, up until now.

I can't breathe, my body's shaking
You've got a way with the way you take me
'cause you break me down
You know you break me down

He carefully picked up his stand and placed it opposite mine, looking deep into my eyes as we sang the chorus twice more, never breaking his gaze once, him taking charge of backing vocals once more.

I'm gonna break down these walls (down these walls)
I built around myself
I wanna fall so in love (so in love) with you
And no one else could ever mean half as much to me as you do now
Together we'll move on just don't turn around
Let the walls break down

Break down these walls I built around myself
Let the walls break down (break down these walls)
'cause you break me down (cause you break me down, cause you break me down)
Let the walls break down

I looked up at my gorgeous boyfriend, remembering how talented he is all over again. A huge smile broke out on my face as I mouthed an ''I love you''across the recording booth.

Notes

Awh have some fluff:3

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I was in a really good mood all day today, I even went outside and smiled at strangers I walked past whilst listening to Fall Out Boy, I also turned my sister in a Killjoy :D And I died her hair red and cut it like Gerard's :) WOOP

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