Lullabies

"Baby! Where are you coming from?! What's the matter?!" I yell starting to freak out. I slam a hug into her as soon as she got next to me. I also went to kiss her, but she didn't kiss me back like she normally does. She just kept crying. All I wanted was for her to just be happy. "Baby! Answer me. What's wrong? I love you and I will be here for you, no matter what." I was looking in her eyes trying to make it clear that I was worried about her and that I just wanted her to talk to me.

"You aren't going to fucking believe this!" She starts to answer. Shockingly she was starting to calm down, slowly, but at least she was. "I-I'm p-pregnant." Um, what?!

"WHAT?!" I yell. "But how, b-but-but how?" Well, I knew how but I was just in complete and utter shock, plus I was slightly irritated. "Babe, how is this possible?!" I thought maybe she was on birth control or something, so I didn't bother to worry about it. Apparently I should've. I mean, I was partially at fault too but I just couldn't get this through my head.

"Sex Alex! That's how! I wasn't feeling right and I randomly decided to go to the store and see what was up and I took a test and I'm pregnant." She answers. It was odd because she was yelling but also trying to be quiet. Probably so her family couldn't hear. "I just had to tell you. What are we going to do?" I had no idea what she wanted me to say but I knew there was no way this was going to work. We can't manage a baby.

"I can not believe this. I can't fucking believe this!" I start to yell. "I can't take care of a baby! I'm a high schooler Megan!" I just couldn't get over this. It didn't feel real but when I realized this wasn't a dream, I got angry and now I can't be happy.

"Well what do you want me to do Alex?!" She yells starting to cry again... I didn't even want to feel bad because of her crying. It just made me more angry. "It's not like I wanted this to happen! It's not like I'm doing this just to piss you off!" I just sat there quiet while she still cried. There was only one solution, otherwise I was going to lose the girl of my dreams.

"Well you're going to get rid of it right?" I ask her. That was really her only option otherwise our relationship was ruined.

"Are you crazy?! I can't do that!" She answers crying even harder. This was ridiculous. She already had a bond with someone that hardly existed. I couldn't take this anymore.

"Oh my God, I can't believe this shit. No, sorry I need to be alone." I say starting to walk off in a fast enough pace that I knew she wouldn't be able to keep up. I didn't want to be around all the ridiculousness right now.

"Baby wait!" She yells. I could hear her running behind me trying to catch up but I just ignored her and kept going. She then stopped following. I continued to walk when all of a sudden I heard a door slam. I looked back and she had stormed into her house. I instantly had this feeling overcome me. I had felt so bad for her. What have I done? I had acted like a complete ass so that I wouldn't lose her when really I had made it more likely for me to lose her. I decided to just keep going. I was so overwhelmed, angry and upset that I didn't even go back to Jack's house. I told him I wasn't coming back and told him we would talk about it later. I just went straight home. When I got home I went in my room and just laid in bed and did absolutely nothing. I kept texting Megan telling her I wanted her to talk to me, and she ignored all of them. What have I done? I ruined everything with the girl I loved so much. It felt like eternity because she actually wasn't talking to me, at all. I just played video games and when it was dinner time I was very quiet. I still was angry, but then I was upset because I wanted Megan to be happy, but I guess I just couldn't have it both ways. My mom noticed that I wasn't myself.

"What's wrong Alex?" My mom asks me at the dinner table. I sat there quietly for a couple minutes while she just stared at me waiting for a response.

"Megan's pregnant." I answer. "And I really upset her. She won't even talk to me." My parents just stared at me in what looked like anger, but I couldn't tell.