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Alex’s POV
Since it was the weekend everyone was home, including my oldest sister Ali was down with her boyfriend, Nick who nobody liked.
“Hey want to be part of the master plan to make Nick Leave?” The master mind behind all the plans on Nick, it was my 8 year old Sister called Juno.
“Um no, anyway you are going to make everyone hate you when you get all of your allowances cut for a month.” I said and Juno shrugged her shoulders.
“If it gets the fancy pants out the house then it worth it.” Juno said as she walked off and I just rolled my eyes and I went back to what I was doing.
I went downstairs and dodged all kids and I finally made it to the kitchen and went to the fridge to see if there was anything worth eating.
“Aren’t you going to say hello to me?” A voice said and I peered round the fridge to see Alice or Ali as everyone calls her smiling at me.
“Of course.” I said as I walked over and hugged Ali which she returned.
“Shell we go outside and have a catch up?” Ali asked and I smiled as I nodded as its been over a year since I’ve saw Ali.
“So how have you been? Mum and dad told me about what happened and the hospital stay for 10 months.” Ali said as we sat in the hammock and I started to smoke a cigarette which made Ali roll her eyes.
“I’ve been good I guess, I mean the hospital stay was hard to cope with so what was meant to be a 5 month stay actually doubled because I wasn’t coping. But still can’t seem to give up the weed.” I said as I looked down.
“Well That sucked, what happened there then? As for the weed it isn’t exactly going to kill you, just might turn your brain into mush.” Ali said as she stole my cigarette and smoked some of it.
“Let’s just say I have a massive meltdown and did some stupid stuff and they added time of my hospital stay. Lucky lucky me.” I said as I looked away from Ali.
“Shit Lex, but you’re all good now though aren’t you.” Ali said and I smiled as I looked at her.
“Yeah I’m good, my medication is working and I’m back at school and everything is peachy right now.” I said and Ali chuckled.
“Come on I know there is a guy somewhere on the scene here.” Ali said and I frowned at her, not because she didn’t know I was gay because everybody in the family knew I was gay but because she knew there was someone I liked.
“Okay but don’t tell Jasper, I want to see where this thing goes before I tell him just so he doesn’t kill him.” I said and Ali laughed.
“I won’t say nothing but spill to Jasper.” Ali said and I smiled.
“He started following me around school and tried to get into my pants.” I said and Ali raised a eyebrow.
“Jesus Christ you haven’t jumped into bed with him yet what has happened to you.” Ali said and I chuckled.
“Well I think after a long time in hospital I deserve to be chased a little.” I said and Ali rolled her eyes at me.
“You slut.” Ali chuckled.
“That’s me.” I said as someone came outside to tell us that mum was looking for Ali so we both went inside and Ali went to the kitchen while I was fed up so I went for walk but I made sure that I let either mum or dad know.
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I was sat on the beach enjoying the view as well as the sea breeze blowing through my hair and I smiled to myself as this was something I really missed.
I was enjoying my thoughts to myself when someone sat next to me and I saw Jack.
“Thought I was the crazy one who sat on the beach when it was cold.” Jack said and I chuckled quietly as I messed with the sand.
“Nope, you’re not the only.” I said and Jack looked at me.
“So why are you here and not with your perfect family?” Jack asked and I looked at him as I frowned.
“Believe it or not having a load of siblings is a nightmare, the fighting is unreal between us all. As for perfect yes my parents are together and didn’t abandon their kids like yours did doesn’t make my family perfect.” I spat as I stood up and walked off away from Jack.
I was stood by the house and was just looking at it and I sighed quietly to myself when someone clear their throat and I looked to see dad.
“You alright kiddo?” Dad asked and I shrugged my shoulders.
“A house full of kids giving me a headache that’s all.” I said and dad smiled slightly.
“You sure it’s nothing else, you can talk to me and your mother if want to talk to someone.” Dad said and I looked at him and smiled.
“Just trying to adjust back to normality again, as much as I’ve missed you guys and everything just kinda miss the peace the hospital gave me. I know I can come and talk to you and mum but with everyone else I don’t want to add to the worry with me going awol.” I said and dad chuckled.
“We always worry about you going awol, just hope you know that no matter what you can talk to us.” Dad said and I nodded.
“I know.” I said quietly as dad put his arm over my shoulders.
“Come on, I know Ali has really missed not seeing you and it’s nice to spend time with the whole family.” Dad said and I smiled as we both went inside and I spent some time with everyone.
Even though we was one of the older ones, we have a rule in our house that if you was a twin you had to share rooms. When Ali and Charlie moved out it wasn’t that bad as Jasper was allowed to have Ali’s room and Asher was allowed Charlie’s but when they both was home Jasper had to be in my room and Asher was either on the sofa or was room sharing with Charlie.
“Are we bed sharing by any chance?” Jasper asked as he walked into my room and just made himself at home like he always does.
“You can be my cuddle buddy if you want.” I said and Jasper chuckled as he sat next to me and looked at what I was doing.
“You seriously going Facebook stalking, wow you really don’t have a life anymore.” Jasper said and I just rolled my eyes at him.
“Well I have been locked away from everyone for 10 months, need to find out the gossip out somehow and Tyler gossip is always shit.” I said and Jasper sighed as he rested his head on my shoulder and I felt him frown.
“Why you stalking Jack for? You hate the boy.” Jasper said and I sighed quietly.
“Just wanted to know that bit more about him I guess.” I said and Jasper looked at me as he raised his eyebrow.
“Why, he’s a dickhead and to be honest a bit of a loner as well. He always gets kicked out of class and if he doesn’t he always refuses to do the work. If you are eyeing him up then he’s not the right one for you.” Jasper said and I rolled my eyes.
“Who I am with or interested in has nothing to do with you if you don’t want to support me then you know where the door is.” I said quietly and Jasper rested his head back on my shoulder as we both stalked Jack on Facebook.
“Okay I guess he is good looking and with the right person can probably have his ass kicked into shape.” Jasper said and I chuckled quietly as I left Jack’s page and just went scrolling through my newsfeed u til I got bored of that and me and Jasper then had a game on the Xbox.
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It was a Monday morning and like every morning in this house it was just chaos.
“Jasper can you sort the eggs out for me.” Mum said and me as I walked into the kitchen.
“Wrong one Mum, it’s Alex.” I said just as Jasper walked in the kitchen.
“Sorry Alex.” Mum said and I smiled as I took Meredith off mum and went to sit with Zeke and Meredith since they couldn’t help out in the kitchen.
“Alex could you help with a second.” Mum said and I nodded as I got up and helped mum and everyone else in the kitchen.
Once we had breakfast everyone but Zeke and Meredith made their way to school.
I was sat in the smoking shelter when Asher walked over to me and stole my cigarette which made me glare at him.
“Do you mind I was smoking that.” I said and Asher just shrugged his shoulders at me as he smoke my cigarette.
“Here have one of mine.” A voice said and I turned round to find Jack lighting up a cigarette while offering me one and I stepped over and took one and I started to smoke it.
“Do you think Juno’s master plan of getting rid of Nick was any good?” Asher asked and I looked at him and frowned.
“I really don’t care, all I know is that now their all in a grump because they won’t have any allowance for a month.” I said and I could see Jack being confused by this.
“Yeah but it was worth it and you missed it all as well.” Asher said and I just shrugged my shoulder.
“And I really don’t care.” I said as I lent against the wall.
“Damn that hospital stay has really put you on a downer.” Asher said and I glared at him which made Asher flick the cigarette away and walked off and I sighed really not in the mood for school.
“Sounds like you had a interesting weekend.” Jack said and I shook my head.
“My sister has this boyfriend which none of us like and my 8 year old sister comes up with master plans on how to get rid of him and so far it’s working.” I said which made Jack chuckle.
“How can a 8 year old be so evil?” Jack asked as he walked over and lent against the wall next to me.
“Don’t know, been asking myself that question for 8 years but her twin is completely different.” I said and Jack smiled.
The bell went and I groaned as I got my bag and put it over my shoulders.
“Bunk with me.” Jack said and I laughed sarcastically.
“I had to argue my way into being allowed to stay in the classes that I’m in now and I can’t afford anymore bunking. Think you should do the same, you know since we literally have like not even 3 months left here.” I said and Jack scoffed.
“If you gonna fail school might as well do it in style.” Jack said as he moved away from the wall.
“Yeah but you have a brain but you choose not to use it.” I said and Jack shrugged his shoulders.
“Fine, I hang around you boring nerds for one day.” Jack said and I raised a eyebrow at him.
“You’re not following me around.” I said and Jack just smirked at me.
“Consider it a date baby.” Jack said cockily and I just scoffed.
“This isn’t a date, this is literally you last attempt to go somewhere in life and you are just flushing it down the shitter. Also I’m not your babe, I belong to nobody.” I said as I turned around and walked off.
“Well suck it up buttercup, you are graced with me all day.” Jack said as he jogged over and walked at my pace.
“Oh yay.” I said sarcastically as we both went to our first lesson which was music.
I was sat on the floor with my laptop working in something when Jack came over and sat next to me.
“You know there’s perfectly good tables and chairs for you to sit on and we also have computers to work on.” Jack said.
“The floor is comfier and also the software the school has is shit compared to what I use.” I said quietly as I frowned.
“Wow you really are a little nerd.” Jack said and I looked at him as I rolled my eyes.
“I’m not a nerd, I still get into trouble and all the crap but music is something I want to study once I leave here so might as well focus on this and get the grades and then I’m out of this shit hole.” I said and Jack nodded.
“Here, listen to this and tell me what you think.” I said and just put my headphones on Jack’s head and pressed play and I just studied Jack as he nodded his head to the beat which made me smile slightly.
Once it was finished Jack took my headphones off and handed them back.
“That’s really good, I could happily listen to that all day.” Jack said and I smiled.
“The vocals?” Jack asked I looked down.
“That’s me.” I said as I looked at Jack who looked shocked.
“And you are in a shit hole of a school?” Jack asked and I chuckled.
“To your shock horror I am failing foreign languages.” I said and Jack rolled his eyes.
“I think everyone fails that class.” Jack said and I smiled.
“Anyway, I see you are busy so I will leave you be.” Jack said as he got up and walked over to where he was sat and I smiled slightly to myself as I put my headphones back on and carried on with whatever he was doing.
It was lunch and I was stood in the cue waiting to get my lunch while listening to my music when I felt someone pull me out the cue and I took my headphones off to have a go at the person when I saw it was Jasper.
“Do you mind, I want my lunch please.” I said and Jasper just rolled his eyes as he pushed me back in the cue and stood in front of me.
“What Jasper. You here to give me the talk about Jack?” I said and Jasper sighed which means yes.
“I don’t want to see you getting hurt.” Jasper said.
“Well I’m flattered that you care about my feelings but there is nothing to go on.” I said as I stepped forward and got myself a sandwich and went to pay for it.
“Yeah well if there is I don’t want to see you getting your hopes up and then Jack being the dick that he is will fuck you up.” Jasper said and I rolled my eyes.
“Look I understand you are worried about me and the fact my BPD is another thing you worry about but you don’t have to worry about me Jas. I can look after myself and I’m stable enough to be like everyone else.” I said quietly as we walked through the corridors and making our way to our smoking spot.
“I know Lex, but that breakdown you had was fucking terrifying and I thought I was going to loose you. I just don’t want that to happen again not for a while anyway.” Jasper said and I looked down as we got to our spot and we sat down where Jasper gave me a cigarette.
“That was before I even got the diagnose of BPD and the other thing, now we know what is wrong with me I literally have everyone watching me Incase I go crazy.” I said as I slowly ate my sandwich and offered Jasper the other half which made him smile as he took it and slowly ate it.
“I just don’t want to see you get hurt, especially after everything and you deserve to be happy.” Jasper said and I smiled slightly.
“Well Maybe Jack will be that bit different with me.” I said and Jasper chuckled slightly as he lead down resting his head on my legs.
“That will be the day.” Jasper said and I smiled to myself.
“Well I did manage to get him to go to classes this morning.” I said and Jasper sat up and looked at me.
“Jesus Christ you must have some powers or something.” Jasper said and I chuckled.
“And he can tell us apart which nobody can do, even mum and dad confuse us.” I said and Jasper laughed slightly.
“Hey have you had much with the chick you was after before I went away.” I said and Jasper just shrugged his shoulders.
“We hooked up a couple of times but that’s as far as it went anyway there’s this other chick I’m eye balling at the moment.” Jasper said and I rolled my eyes.
“You straight people are strange.” I said and Jasper smacked my chest and he chuckled.
“And you gays aren’t, I mean you enjoy putting filthy dicks in your mouths and you enjoy it up the ass. I mean it’s bad enough when your finger goes through the toilet roll let alone a whole dick going up there.” Jasper said and I couldn’t help but laugh.
“Put our mouths have magical powers.” I said and you could see Jasper cringing and he playfully gag.
“Your disgusting.” Jasper said and I chuckled quietly.
