Tough Lover
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Alex’s POV
I was left at home with Rana while Jack had to go to work.
“God sake Jack who ate all the food.” Rana said as I walked into the kitchen.
“Well that would been me.” I said which made Rana jump as she spun round and looked at me.
“Jesus you like a little mouse.” Rana said and I chuckled as I looked down but quickly looked back up again as I didn’t want to look at my beaten up body since I was walking around in a pair of Jack’s trackies which was too big for me and nothing on my top half.
“Fucking hell they did a good job on you Alex. Are you going to go to the police about this?” Rana said and I sighed as I got myself a coffee.
“I’ve been in a lot of shit with the police and this isn’t the first time, I’ve been beaten up in the past and have told the police about and they have done fuck all so I have lost all faith in them trying to find the fuckers who did this to me.” I said and Rana frowned at me.
“Jack hasn’t told you that I’m a street kid has he?” I said but it came out as a question and Rana shook her head.
“He hasn’t told me that.” Rana said and I smiled as Jack had kept his promise that he wouldn’t tell Rana my secrets.
“Well I was a street kid who sold themselves to get money just for food and drink as well as drugs. I got beaten up pretty bad a few times.” I said as I messed with my coffee.
“Jesus, what about your parents? Have they come looking for you?” Rana asked.
“My mum died when I was little and my dad is just a sperm donor. So yeah I have nobody but the guys at the club and Jack.” I said as I picked my mug up and walked to outside and sat outside to enjoy my coffee and cigarette.
I heard the back door open and shut and someone walking over.
“It’s freezing out here Lex.” I heard Jack say and I looked at him as I smiled.
“I’m fine.” I said quietly as I moved to cuddle up to Jack who wrapped his arm round me and I moved closer to him.
“You are not fine, you are like a block of ice.” Jack said as he moved and he picked me up and took me inside.
Jack placed me on the sofa and moved the throw from the back of the sofa and wrapped it round me.
“I don’t want a fuss.” I said quietly and Jack kissed the top of my head.
“Well I am going to fuss over you because I don’t want you getting ill. Stay there until I get you a hot water bottle and I’ll join you to have cuddles and we can watch some crap on tv.” Jack said and I smiled as I nodded.
“Okay, I’ll be back in 5 minutes.” Jack said as he kissed the top of my head and walked off.
Rana walk in the room and smiled at me which I returned.
“I thought you had come in otherwise I would of got you ass in.” Rana said and I sighed as I looked down.
“It’s nothing okay.” I said quietly which made Rana chuckle softly.
“You remind me of my husband.” Rana said and I looked at her.
“You poor fucker you wanted to get away and here you are stuck with me.” I said and Rana chuckled.
“Ricky is better now than what he was a year ago. But you do remind me a awful lot like him part from your a lot younger than him.” Rana said and I smiled.
“Here cuddle this.” Jack said as a hot water bottle landed on my lap and Jack walking over and getting under the throw with me which made me cuddle up to him more as Jack kissed the side of my head.
Jack was upstairs and I quickly looked round all the rooms to find Jack in the bathroom in the bath.
“Can I come in?” I asked and Jack jumped slightly and looked at me and smiled.
“Of course, you can always come and join me if you want.” Jack said and I smiled as I walked in the bathroom shutting the door behind me and walked over to the bath and sat on the side.
“You can join me if you want.” Jack said and I smiled as I shook my head.
“Na, I’ll let you enjoy the bath.” I said and Jack smiled.
“Where’s Rana? The house is really quiet without her.” I said and Jack chuckled as he sat forward in the bath.
“She’s gone out with some friends. We have the place to ourselves.” Jack said and I smiled at him.
“Look my ribs are still really sore and last night really didn’t help matters.” I said and Jack pouted at me.
“Sorry, but they are killing me today and you know since I can’t take anything I’m sort of slowly dying in pain.” I said and Jack chuckled.
“Well take your clothes off and get in here then. I kinda made it too hot so it’ll be good for your ribs.” Jack said and I frowned at him.
“Take your clothes off and get in the bath.” Jack said and I rolled my eyes as I moved and took my top off and I looked up and found Jack watching me.
“I’m disgusting I know.” I said quietly as I looked down and I heard Jack move in the bath and him getting out the bath and making me look at him.
“Your not disgusting, you’re beautiful. Just a little bit battered and bruised but I’ll make sure you’ll be okay.” Jack said softly as he kissed me which I returned.
“Let’s get you out of this and you can have a nice soak in the bath and hopefully it’ll sort your ribs out a little.” Jack said as he gently pulled on the trousers.
“I suppose a soak will do me some good.” I said quietly as Jack gently pulled my trousers and pants down and stood back and looked me up and down.
“So beautiful.” Jack whispered and I looked away from him.
“Please don’t call me that.” I whispered as I turned round and walked over to the towel rack and picked a towel up and wrapped it round me and walked out the room and went to mine and Jack’s room and I sat on the floor.
“Babe.” I heard Jack say as he walked into the room where I was lead on the floor as my ribs was fucking killing me.
“Lex, you need to have something to take the pain away.” Jack said as he walked over and helped me to sit up which made me hiss loudly.
“I don’t fucking need anything.” I spat as Jack helped me to stand and he supported me over to the bed.
“Lex I can’t have you in pain. This is torture for you.” Jack said and I looked at him.
“I can’t take anything because if I do then I will not have the mind strength to not relapse and I don’t fucking want that. I’m 2 years sober and I thought that I would never get to 2 years so I am fucked if I am going to fucking ruin it just to put myself in a bit of comfort.” I said and Jack looked at me as he sat next to me on the bed.
“Okay.” Jack whispered as he got into bed and pulled me gently into his side.
“I don’t want to be the same person I was 2 years ago, I’ve finally got my life together and a life what I always hoped I would have. I don’t ever want to fuck this up Jack.” I said as I sniffed and Jack kissed the top of my head.
“Okay, But I cant have you in pain all night.” Jack said and I sighed loudly.
“It’s not as if it’s the first time this has happened and I’ve been in worse states than this and I’ve been fine.” I said and I stood up and walked round to my side of the bed and climbed into bed wincing and hissing as I did so.
“But you had nobody then, you’ve got me now.” Jack said as he stood up and removed the towel and I just watched him as he got himself sorted for bed and then he carefully climbed into bed.
“I know but we’re not even together so how do I know you’ve got my back.” I said quietly as I looked down and Jack made me look at him and he kissed me softly which I returned.
“I want to be with you but with everything going on and with people still talking about me and Sam it isn’t fair to bring you into all of this mess.” Jack said as he messed with my hair.
“You can move on as well Jack, Sam cheated on you and is still with the person he cheated on you. If Sam is allowed to move on then so are you. You shouldn’t care what people have to say.” I said and I rolled over so my back was to Jack and I heard Jack move and a arm wrapping round me and Jack’s body being pressed against mine and Jack kissing my cheek.
“Yes I do care what people will think, but what about you Lex. If people find out about us then their going to find out...” Jack said but I butted in.
“That I’m a fucking street rat, that the handsome Jack Barakat is going out with a low life scum. I get it you don’t want me, just like with everyone else.” I spat as I moved and ignored how much my ribs was protesting and I got out of bed and walked out the room.
I was sat outside with some clothes on when the back door open and I sniffed as I looked away from whoever came outside.
“Lex it’s freezing out here.” Jack said and I shook my head.
“Fuck off and leave me alone.” I said but a sob escaped my lips as a couple of tears rolled down my cheeks.
“Lex I can’t do that when it’s freezing out here.” Jack said and I shook my head as I looked at him.
“You shouldn’t care what people will think about us. Sam treated you like shit and did what he did to you and you still care about his darling feelings! What about us? Or should I ask is there even a us.” I said as I stood up and I walked past Jack and I went inside.
When I got inside Rana was just coming in from being out.
“Lex, Alex stop.” Jack said as he caught hold of my hand and I just did what came natural to me and I spun round and slapped Jack hard round the face.
