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Breaking the Silence.

Chapter Nine

Two weeks has passed and I was getting antsy for his super-secret surprise Alex had scheduled for me, today was the day but he still won’t tell me what it is. The only thing he’ll tell me is that it’s later in the night but, I’m going to be so tired later tonight… We’ve got a late show, and then what? What’s the surprise? Is it going to require effort because I don’t know if I’m going to have the effort to give effort?
“Sam!” Jack’s voice rang through the bus.
I threw myself out of the bunk and walked into the main area and glared him down.
“Whoa, whoa baby sister what is with the mean mug?” He asked
“You’re yelling.” I signed.
“I’m always yelling.” He said
“I am tired. I am grumpy.”
“Why?” He asked
“I’ve never been this busy.”
He just rolled his eyes,
“You’ll get used to it.” He said
“Where’s Lex?”
“He’s outside on the phone.” He said
I nodded and walked outside, we were stopped at a truck stop for gas. I pulled a cigarette out and stuck it in my mouth, Alex looked over at me and smiled.
“Hi baby.” He said walking over to me.
He kissed me lightly and laughed.
“No not you, I’m talking to my girl… Yeah her, I know. well we have our show tonight and then we’ll be there to see you. Yeah, yeah. Alright bye.” He said
He hung up his phone and kissed me again, I smiled at him.
“Who was it?” I whispered.
“Nope.” He said
I pouted at him and he just cocked that bushy brow at me.
“That cute pout isn’t going to work on me.” He said
I rolled my eyes and lit my cancer stick.
“You doing okay?” He asked
I looked around to make sure no one was around.
“I’m just tired, it’s been really busy and I’m still getting used to it.” I whispered
“I know baby, it’ll get easier I swear.” He said
I nodded and let out a big yawn.
“What time is it?” I asked
“It’s about five.” He said
I held up one hand with a shocked face and he just nodded.
“Show starts at six.” He said
“So like we need to get back on the bus anf get to the venue.” I said
“Probably. Finish your cig.” He said
I smiled and nodded, we stood there together while I finished my death stick. When I was done we walked back onto the bus and Chloe and Jack were coming out of the back room; hair all in a mess.
“I hope you cleaned up after yourselves.” Alex sneered.
“We did calm down dad.” Jack said
Alex rolled his eyes and he and I walked into the bunk house and crawled back into bed.
“Alright my baby.” He said
“Just a little eye rest.” I whispered.
He nodded and I cuddled into his chest and closed my eyes, his soft snores came very shortly after. I smiled to myself and just laid there listening to his heartbeat, it was very relaxing.
“GUYS GET UP!” Jack screamed through the bus.
Alex groaned under me and then the curtain to our bunk was thrown open.
“Jack!” Alex yelled.
“It’s go time.” He said
I rolled my eyes and he lifted me out of the bunk.
“Go get cute, I’ll get bed head ready.” He said
I walked off to the bathroom.
When the show and the Samwich was over everyone was rushing me back to the bus, when we got onto the bus Chloe took me to the bathroom to make me get changed into some skinny jeans and a nice cute shirt, no one would tell me what was going on. They just kept telling me that I was going to love it, but at this point I was just agitated with everything and I wanted to go to bed.
The bus pulled up to a big venue and I looked at my boyfriend who had a big cheesy smile on his face, I pushed my eyebrows together and he looked at me.
“What?” He asked.
“Nothing, just very curious.” I signed.
He nodded.
“Well you’re not going to like this.” He said
“What?”
“We’re going to blindfold you and carry you.” He said
“No.” I signed aggressively
“It’s going to be me, do you trust me?” He asked
I looked him in his brown eyes and nodded.
“I do.”
He nodded and pulled one of my scarves out from behind his back, I took a deep breath and looked at him.
“It’s going to be okay, I’ve got you.” He said
I nodded and he wrapped the scarf around my eyes, it was completely dark and I didn’t like it very much. I felt his arms wrap around me and lift me into his arms, I clung to him like a sloth as he walked me off of the bus.
“You got her permission to blindfold her right?” I heard Jack ask.
“Yes, we talked about it and I have her consent.” Alex said, his chest vibrating beside me.
I threw out a thumbs up to make sure Jack believed Alex, I heard his chuckle and Alex kept walking.
“Okay Jack can you get the door.” Alex said
It was really strange being able to hear what’s going on but not see, I didn’t relax until my feet were back on the ground.
“This her Alex?” I heard a new voice.
“Yes, this is Sam.” Alex said
“Take this off.” I signed hoping someone saw.
“Alright Sam, you ready?” Alex asked
I nodded and he pulled the scarf off, I blinked a few times to adjust to the light; that’s when his face came into my view, my jaw could have literally hit the floor.
“Alex.” I signed slapping my boyfriend over and over.
“Sam breathe please.” Alex said
I sucked in a big breath.
“This is the surprise right?” I signed
“Yes baby.” He said
I looked up at my surprise and smiled.
“Hi Sam, I’m Brendon.” He signed a little sloppily, but it made me smile.
“Hi.” I signed.
“Sorry if that was bad, Lex told me you didn’t talk so I did some research on how to say just that.” He smiled.
“Tell him that was really good and so sweet of him.” I signed at Alex.
Alex relayed the message and Brendon smiled at me.
“So we’re about to go on but you and your friends are welcome to come to our party at this club after the show. Is that something you would like?” He asked
I gave him a panicked nod and he pulled me into a hug.
He walked away and I turned slowly and looked at my boyfriend who was standing there just smiling like an idiot. He raised his eye brows at me in a questioning look and I just raised my hands to my face, trying not to cry.
“Was this a good surprise?” He asked
I nodded and took a quick look around the room, everyone else had left and I walked up to him.
“You set this up?” I asked
He nodded.
“Was it okay?” He asked
“I’m going to cry.” I said
“Don’t cry.” He smiled.
“I’m so happy right now. I didn’t know that you knew him.” I pretty much sobbed.
“We have the same record label, I ran into him at the studio about a month ago and we got chatting. We talked about tours and we exchanged numbers so I could get a hold of him for you.
“Oh my god.” I said
“Come on baby, let’s go enjoy this show.” He said
“I just, I can’t believe you did this.” I stuttered.
“I know, come on.” He said
He wrapped his arm around my waist and walked with me to the side of the stage. I looked out to my idol and just looked up at my boyfriend, how did I get this lucky… Well why did I wait so long to be this lucky? This bastard was literally under my nose the whole time. He was bobbing his head to the beat of one of my favorite songs, before I even knew it my hands were signing to it.
Brendon looked over at me and smiled, he waved me onto the stage. Shaking my head no I looked at Alex and he was giving me that signature smile that sways my decisions. He gave me a slight shove and I looked over at Chloe who just nodded at me. I took the finally steps onto the stage and Brendon pulled me over, stopping the song all together.
“This is my new friend Sam, she’s a member of the All Time Low crew! Let’s give her a holler!” He said into the microphone.
I waved and he pulled me into a side hug.
“She’s going to help me out with this song, we’re going to restart. Now Sam helps out in a special way, she doesn’t speak so she’s going to sign along. I know we have a translator already but now we have two!” He yelled
I smiled and the song began, Hey Look Ma, I Made It. I’ve loved this song since they dropped it. The energy of the crowd just fueled me to be so upbeat and look Brendon directly in the eyes; which was so weird because this fucker was my idol.
When the song ended I ran off stage and smacked myself into Alex, I was so happy and so excited. He wrapped his arms around my and we enjoyed the rest of the show together, I was pumped for this after party. I looked back at Alex and caught him just staring at me, I cocked my head at him and he smiled.
When it was time for the party all of the girls were so excited to get wasted, I didn’t want to get wasted. I wanted to have a few drinks and dance with my friends and other famous people, like Panic!. The eight of us walked into the club and was immediately dragged over to the VIP booth by Brendon, he smiled at me and introduced himself to the other girls. Chloe looked like she wanted to fall over when he smiled at her, and I thought I was bad. She looked over at me and smiled this ridiculous fucking smile.
A tray of drinks arrived and we all shouted in glee, I could use a drink, I could use eight hundred drinks but that’s excessive. Alex handed me a a drink and I just stared at him.
“It’s Jameson. I swear, I wouldn’t order anything else for you.” He said
I smiled and took a sip, Brendon passed out the rest of the drinks and smiled at his new group.
“So do you all know sign language?” He asked the group.
“Uh no, all of All Time low does because she’s family, Rae does but Tea and me do not. I’m trying to learn though.” Chloe said
“So Raelyne why do you know it and your sister doesn’t?” He asked
“I took two years of ASL in high school, Teagan took French.” Rae said
Brendon nodded, and the twins smiled at eachother.
“It’s funny because I don’t remember and French, so I should have taken ASL with my sister.” Teagan said
“She even went to France on a class field trip.” Rae laughed “I was so jealous but at least I remember my class.”
I chuckled and sipped on my drink, the Jameson burned as it went down my throat… Oh how I had missed the feeling. An hour passed and everyone, and I mean everyone had a good buzz going on; including me. The girls were out dancing and the guys were playing pool in the corner, I was sitting in the VIP booth still drinking my fourth Jameson on the rocks. Brendon popped over and smiled at me.
“Heya girl.” He said
I smiled at him.
“Are you having fun?” He asked
I nodded at him and he tussled my hair.
“I’m glad, can I come sit?” He asked
I nodded again, I don’t think he knows sign language but I would love to speak to him. Which I mean, why not? I’m getting more comfortable with talking out loud, I just wanted to speak to my mom before the other guys. Brendon isn’t one of the other guys, he’s different.
He plopped down beside me.
“Alex told me your story Sam, I want you to know that I think you are so strong. One of the strongest people I personally know, and I am so glad that I got to meet you.” He said
Wow, wow I didn’t think he was coming over here to make me cry.
“That means a lot.” I whispered.
He smiled “Alex also told me that you were venturing out and started to speak a little, I’m honored that I’m someone you spoke too.” He said
“To be honest Brendon, talking scares me. I’ve been in this silent bubble for almost two years and it’s comfort. I didn’t think anything would pull me out of it.” I said
“What did?” He asked
“I did, Alex did. Everyone helped guide me to this point. I’m not fully there yet but I hope I will get there. I want to surprise my mom, she’s been a big part of who I am.” I said
“I think surprising your mom would really warm her heart.” He said
“I think she would feel comfortable moving on as well.” I said
“What do you mean?” He asked
“When the band got big Jack bought a small house for him and I, we moved out so our mom had our childhood home to herself… When the accident happened I refused to move back in with her so she moved in with us. She’s still paying for the other house but she needed to be with me, and I needed her. But I don’t anymore.” I said
“So you want her to feel comfortable moving back into her home?” He asked
I nodded.
“Do you know what you’re going to do?” He asked
“Not yet, I’m going to brainstorm with Jack.” He said
He nodded.
“I’ve talked to your brother a little bit too, I don’t think you know how proud of you he is.” He said
“He’s never said anything.” I said
“You are that guy’s world, forget the band Sam. If you had died Jack would have spiraled more that Alex would have. Two different kinds of love.” He said
Why is he not a motivational speaker?
“Jack is my rock, he always has been. He’s the one person that I’ve never pushed away… Alex on the other hand I’ve been pushing him away my whole life.” I said
“Why is that?” He asked
“How stereotypical is it for the baby sister to fall for her older brothers best friend? In my heart I think Alex has always been my person but I wasn’t going to accept that because I didn’t want anything to come between Jack and I or he and Alex.” I said
“So what about now?” He asked
“I guess we’re all grown up now, Alex got into the car accident and I thought I was going to lose him. and thinking about losing him kick started something in me, he was the first person I spoke too, he was lying unconscious in a hospital bed but they were the first words spoken out loud to a human in almost two years. Something about seeing him in that bed kick started my heart. I’ve known for like eight years that I’ve loved him but in that moment I knew I’d never love anyone else.” I said
“That was beautiful, does Alex know any of that? And what did you mean by first human?” He asked
“Alex knows a little, but not enough. And I have a pet snake. Elvis, I whisper to him all the time.” I said
“I think you should tell him.” He said
I nodded.
“One more thing before you guys get out of here.” He said
I just looked at him.
“I know it’s scary but keep moving forward. Don’t get discouraged, this is your life and whenever you feel it’s time to take it back over. Do it. Here is my phone number, text me anytime.” He said
“Thank you so much.” I said
He smiled and got up and walked away.
My group came over to me and the girls were so wasted, stumbling and laughing. It was nice to see them having so much fun. The boys were drunk, besides Alex. I think he was just tipsy which was good cause I wanted to talk to him. We all walked back to our own bus and climbed on, the boys took their girls and went to bed. Leaving Alex and I in the kitchen, I was getting advil out for the morning so it’d be ready for everyone.
“Alex can we go into the game room and sleep? I wanna talk.” I said
“Everything okay?” He asked
I nodded.
We got everything ready and turned the lights off and walked hand in hand to the back room. We made the bed and climbed in, I laid my head onto his bare chest and he pulled me tight.
“What’s up?” He asked
“I just have something to tell you.” I said
“I’m all ears.” He said
“Alex, you said you’ve been waiting to kiss me for seven years. I’ve been waiting to kiss you for more, but I pushed you away because I didn’t want to be a stereotype, dating my bros best friend. But the longer you were around the more I my heart screamed at me. When you got into the accident my heart and head got in sync and kick started this flame and that moment I knew I couldn’t love anyone else but you.” I said
“Sam I love you too.” He said.

Notes

Woww I am so sorry that this took me so long, but i'm proud of this. I've been so busy, my boyfriend moved almost an hour away from me so i've been traveling to him and then to work... repeat, repeat, repeat. He's my world guys, But please enjoy this update!

Comments

I'm so sorry I got to this so late! I loved this and I cant wait to read it again.
@Nanook will get her booty in here eventually too!

MyBarakat MyBarakat
11/2/19

Oh no, she was doing so good! She'll get back up do it again I'm sure. Sam is one tough cookie, if that were me I would not have even thought to go back.
She's singing again! That's amazing, I cant wait for another update. And I loved her diva exit as well.

MyBarakat MyBarakat
6/5/19

@Nanook
Jenna! No I didnt even realize that lol. :D Thank you for the edits I really really appreciate it! Yes more to come in the next chapter, I'm kind of throwing a curve ball your way too :O
yeah our birthdays are a day apart and out anniversary is the day before his so they're all in a row in the month of May. Which means it cant forget it!

Mrs. Gaskarth Mrs. Gaskarth
5/29/19

XD It's okay. That's what I'm here for. :D ;)
Great job with the update! Oooh, so it went well at first, but then it went downhill. :/ But that's awesome she made it that far before she had the breakdown.
Two things I spotted:
I pushed the door opened, she didn’t look up from the desk until it closed behind me.
This had me thinking James was a girl at first, lol, which I mean, it could be a thing, Blake Lively named her one daughter Jaymes I think? But since it was a guy it shouldn't be 'she' here, lol.
During the flashback:
I looked up and it was the man who let me use his lighter.
I believe this happened because you took it from the first time you initially wrote what happened? But since you changed some details this time, this line didn't really make sense to be here, since you didn't mention her break this time. Or maybe it should be more descriptive by saying something like, "I looked up and it was the man who let me use his lighter outside during my break." or something along that line, just a little more to it because without that, it just appeared random. Had I not read the other chapter, I would've been thinking 'What man that used her lighter? When?' lol. You know?
Other than that, though, I didn't spot anything else. It was sweet how Alex ended up being there for her, and making her feel safe. <3 And aww, she can sing! :D That's pretty awesome. I wonder if she'll work up the courage to sing on tour.
But uh-oh, she's mad at Alex now. Sigh. Did he overstep? Hmm... trying to think if I would be frustrated too. Actually, I probably would; having experienced therapy, and kind of hating it, I'd be pissed if like, my mom or someone called to make me go back. Like, no thank you. So I can understand her anger.
Excited to see more! :) Loved her cool exit, haha.
Also, that's neat how you and your bf's birthdays fall within a day of each other. :D That's probably convenient, haha. Plus you can celebrate together. :)
Oh, and I should probably note how the one character has my name. :D I'm not sure if that was intentional or not but I thought it was funny. XD

Nanook Nanook
5/29/19

@Nanook
Apparently my editing skills go out the window when I'm writing my fics lol.

Mrs. Gaskarth Mrs. Gaskarth
5/17/19