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Breaking the Silence.

Chapter Five

One month had passed since the accident and nothing much had changed, they were still keeping him under the last time I had spoken to a doctor; not that I had been there a lot due to work. I got a call from one of my old high school teachers a few days ago asking me to come in and translate for a student because hers was out sick. Of course I was going to do it, I didn’t want a kid to miss some school because she was deaf and her translator was out with the flu. I had been staying at the hospital with his mom most nights in the beginning and when his sisters finally made it in so the four of us girls were taking up the hospital room; decorating it for when he did wake up he wasn’t staring at white walls.
When the school day came to an end the girl I was translating for smiled at me and gave me a hug. She walked off to the buses.
“Samantha thank you so much for doing this for her. I didn’t want her to miss school.” The teacher said
I nodded at her, there was no use in trying to sign to her. She didn’t know sign language. She gave me a small smile and I walked out of the building to my bike, I straddled it and grabbed my helmet off the lock. I looked around as I pushed my headphones into my ears, some high school boys were looking me and the bike over. I pulled my helmet on and the bike roared to life.
I made my way out of the congested parking lot and onto the main road, traffic was bad around this time so I was very vigilant of the drivers around me I didn’t want to end up in a bed as well. As I got closer to the hospital the traffic seemed to get worse, I was antsy to get to the hospital; I hadn’t been able to get there for a good week and a half due to work. I tapped my foot on the pavement as I sat in the unmoving line of cars.
Finally! I finally made it to the hospital, I parked the bike and sprinted into the hospital. I walked up to the receptionist and she wrote Alex’s room number onto a sticker and gave it to me, I stuck it to my shirt as I walked over to the elevator. They had moved him up to a private room so the boys weren’t being surrounded with fans. I walked off the elevator and Jack and they guys were waiting for me in the lobby.
“Look she was in such a hurry to get here she’s still helmeted. Did you think the elevator was gonna fail?” Rian joked.
I pulled my helmet off and threw it at him.
“Fuck off.” I signed.
“Okay Sam, I need you to take a breath because I need to talk to you.” Jack said with his mouth in a straight line
My heart pounded.
“What?”
“We’re going to give you some time with him, the doctors said it’s not looking good.” He said
“What?”
“I know, take a breath. We’re all going to stay out here in support. We’ve said our goodbyes, doctors said it could be anytime.” He said
“How?”
“His lungs aren’t getting any better, and some enteral bleeding has become an issue.” He said looking at his hands.
“Why wasn’t I told about this when it happened?”
“You’ve been at work, we didn’t want to worry you while you were there. You had just gone back after taking a week of vacation for him.” He said
I ran my shaky hands through my hair.
“Go.” Jack said giving me a push towards the room.
“I’m not ready to say goodbye.”
“No one is.” Zach sniffled
I nodded and slowly walked towards the room that held a keeper to my feelings. I stepped into the room and walked over to the bed, there was a chair sitting right next to it; from the boys I was assuming. I stepped over to it and slowly sat down, I took his hand into mine and squeezed it.
“I am not ready to say goodbye to you, you little shit.” I whispered in a very angry tone.
I sat there for a second and angrily but also sadly stared at his still body.
“God damn it Alex, I told you to walk away from the fucking light and fucking come back to us, come back to me. I don’t know what we’re going to do when you’re gone. What I’m going to do… Who else is going to pick on me in a loving way? What am I supposed to do for your voice? Listen to Last Young Renegade over and over?” I asked
“What song would you pick to listen to?” Jack’s voice came through the door.
“Hey!” I angrily signed
“I know private time but I wanted to check on you. You’ll talk to him but not me?” He asked
“He’s dying!”
“I know what song… Dirty Laundry right?” He asked
I hummed a yes and shooed him out of the room.
“Yes Dirty Laundry is my pick.” I said
“You know I wrote that about you.” Alex’s voice came
I looked up at his face and he had a cheesy ass smile stretching from ear to ear.
“What?” I signed.
“Oh come on talk to me. I’m fine.” He said
“Was this planned?” I asked
“Yeah, kinda.” He said
“You mother fucking ass hat!” I yelled smacking his arm.
I got out of my chair as he started to laugh and marched out to the lobby with angry hands ready.
“Are you fucking kidding me!” I signed.
“What’s up sis?” Jack asked
I flashed my angry eyes and ran up to him and started smacking the shit out of him.
“You little fucking prick! You’re all fucking assholes!”
The boys just started to laugh and I started to cry.
“Go back in there.” Jack said
I reached up and slapped him across the face.
“Not cool!”
“Go!” He yelled
I turned on my heel and ran back into the room.
“Calm down angry pants.” Alex chuckled.
“How could you do that to me?”
“Stop signing. You can talk to me, I won’t tell them.” He said
I sighed and plopped back down in the chair, the plastic yelling at me.
“You’re an ass.” I mumbled.
“We thought it would be funny and it kind of was.” He said
“Funny? I thought you were going to die today Alex. In no way is it funny.” I said
“I’m sorry.” He said
“You’re going to be.” I snapped.
“Ohh, what’s that supposed to mean?” He asked.
“It means as soon as you’re able to go home I’m going to beat the fucking shit out of you.” I said
“Oh I’m so scared of your tiny fists of furry.” He rolled his eyes.
“Fine.” I said
“What?” He asked
“Nothing.” I signed
He sighed.
“So, Dirty Laundry is your fav?” He asked
I nodded.
“Well good.” He said
“When do you get to go home?” I signed.
He just laughed.
“What?”
He threw the blanket off.
“They released me about an hour ago.” He said
I looked at him and he was in full normal clothes with the gown covering him to play into this stupid game.
“I hate you.” I signed.
I got out of the chair and walked out of the room.
“I hate you all.” I signed as I snatched my helmet from Rian, I walked back towards the elevator and got on.
“Sami wait!” His voice came as he slid onto the elevator.
I looked over at him and he smiled.
“I’m really sorry about it, we didn’t think you’d take it so seriously.” He Said
“Whatever.” I signed.
“Stop signing I know you’ve been talking to me. Jack told me, he told me you’ve been speaking out loud to be when no one is in here with you.” He said
“You were laying in a hospital bed dying. How else was I supposed to tell you things?” I signed.
“Sam….” He said
“It’s fine.”
“It’s not fine, I know you’re mad at me.” He said
“I am, they got me all worked up telling me you were about to die.”
“I know, I know. It was all my idea.” He said
“Yours?”
“Yeah, the last time you were able to come visit I was slightly awake. You were speaking out loud to me for the first time in over a year.” He said
“So?”
“I wanted to hear it again, I’m a guy we’re dumb. I’m dumb.” He said
“You are dumb.” I said
“There is it.” He said
“Shut up, stop talking. I need some time.” I said
He nodded and the elevator stopped on the lobby floor, I pulled my helmet on and stomped out to my bike.
When I got home I parked and pulled my helmet off fumbling around in my pockets for my cigarettes. When the toxic smoke hit my lungs it was an instant calm, I took a deep breath and exhaled the small bit of smoke. My mom popped her head out of the house and gave me a smile, I gave her a small wave letting her know I’d be in soon. I stubbed it out and walked into the house.
“How was the translating?” She asked
“It was good.”
“You seem mad sweetie.” She said
“I am upset.”
“What happened? Something at school?” She asked
I shook my head.
“Then what?” She asked
“Oh just I went to the hospital to see Alex, and Jack told me he was dying.”
“Oh my god. He didn’t make it! Sweetie I am so sorry.” She said pulling me into a hug.
“Oh, he’s fine. It was all some cruel joke.”
“That’s not funny.” She said
I nodded and that’s when the front door opened and Alex and Jack walked in.
“Jack Bassam Barakat that was not a nice thing you did to your sister.” My mom scolded.
“You told on me?” Jack said
“Not really.”
“It was me Joyce.” Alex said
“That is a terrible thing to do.” She said
“I know, I apologized to her several times.” He said
My mom just rolled her eyes, she was very protective over her children. Her protectiveness tripled with me after the accident; which I guess is understandable. I just looked between the two boys and my mom and Alex smiled at me.
“Alex you just got out of the hospital shouldn’t you be at home?”
“We have a show in a week and I’m very out of practice.” He said
“You’ve been in the hospital in a medically induced coma for a month and two weeks, you should not be doing a show Alexander.” My mom said
His eye widened at the full first name, he eventually nodded.
“I’m about to make dinner, I’ll call your mom and she can join if able and then rest.” She said
“I’ve been resting for what a month?” He said
“Alexander William please do not argue with me, I am a mother and I know where yours would stand on this. You can stay here but rest is happening. And that show is getting canceled.” She snapped.
Alex looked at me and I laughed because he knew she was right.
“Your lungs are finally healed Alex, I don’t think you should be singing so hard right now.” My mom said
“The doctor gave me the okay.” Alex said
“Yes but he also said to take it easy.” Jack said
I rolled my eyes.
“I’m going to bed.” I signed
Everyone nodded and I walked up to my room, I closed the door behind me and walked over to Elvis. I pulled him out of the tank and laid down on my bed with him on my chest, he looked at me with his little eyes; his tongue came out and flicked on my nose causing me to smile. He always had my back. My bedroom door opened and someone stepped in, I looked over and it was Alex.
“Hey.” He said
I smiled at me.
“How’s Elvis?” He asked
“He’s good.” I signed.
“Look Sam, I don’t want to push you. But you’ve been talking to me, and its okay that it’s just me. No one has to know and you can take your time but I’m not giving up on you okay?” He asked
I nodded and he sat down on the bed and grabbed my leg.
“Lex.” I whispered.
“No it’s okay Sami.” He said
I just looked at him.
“Don’t give me that look, your dark brown eyes just do something to me okay.” He said
I smiled.
“You know, I really hate that it took my almost dying to get you to speak up.” He said
“Shut up.” I whispered.
He smiled at me.
“So I have a question.” I said
“What’s up?” He asked laying back on the bed next to me.
Elvis perked his head up and looked over at the man, looking back at me he laid his head back down.
“Dirty Laundry is not about me.” I said
“Listen to it again.” He said
I just looked at him,
“Listen to it again.” He repeated.
“Okay.” I said
I grabbed my phone and pulled it up. The music started and Alex started to tap his fingers.
“Her closets such a mess, filled up with all the skeletons she’s kept. Nobody’s perfect I confess but she’s perfect enough without ever dressing up. Dirty laundry is piling in her room, she’s got her secrets yeah I got mine too. I don’t care about what you did only care about what we do, dirty laundry looks good on you. Now here’s some honesty. Sometimes I trip over your history, I wish I could change my mind but it’s the things I shouldn’t see that always catch my eye.” He sang to me.
I smiled and listened to the song, he reached over and took my hand in his. When the song ended he looked over at me.
“You are the muse for that song and others, I’ve had it written for a while if I’m being honest. After you got home from the hospital I started writing.” He said
I nodded and he leaned over, I looked at him as he leaned closer into me. His lips almost connected with mine and I pulled away.
“I’m sorry.” He said
“No I’m sorry. I’m not ready for that.” I said
“That’s okay. I promise, when you are I’m going to be here waiting for those lips to touch mine.” He said
I nodded.
“Go get some rest Lex.” I said
“Probably a good idea, your mom got pretty scary.” He chuckled.
I smiled and he leaned over and kissed my cheek and then kissed Elvis on top of his head. He walked out of the room and Elvis just gave me this look.
“I know.” I muttered.
He just set his head back down and I sighed, I closed my eyes and just listened to my playlist drone in the background.

Notes

I hate myself.

Comments

I'm so sorry I got to this so late! I loved this and I cant wait to read it again.
@Nanook will get her booty in here eventually too!

MyBarakat MyBarakat
11/2/19

Oh no, she was doing so good! She'll get back up do it again I'm sure. Sam is one tough cookie, if that were me I would not have even thought to go back.
She's singing again! That's amazing, I cant wait for another update. And I loved her diva exit as well.

MyBarakat MyBarakat
6/5/19

@Nanook
Jenna! No I didnt even realize that lol. :D Thank you for the edits I really really appreciate it! Yes more to come in the next chapter, I'm kind of throwing a curve ball your way too :O
yeah our birthdays are a day apart and out anniversary is the day before his so they're all in a row in the month of May. Which means it cant forget it!

Mrs. Gaskarth Mrs. Gaskarth
5/29/19

XD It's okay. That's what I'm here for. :D ;)
Great job with the update! Oooh, so it went well at first, but then it went downhill. :/ But that's awesome she made it that far before she had the breakdown.
Two things I spotted:
I pushed the door opened, she didn’t look up from the desk until it closed behind me.
This had me thinking James was a girl at first, lol, which I mean, it could be a thing, Blake Lively named her one daughter Jaymes I think? But since it was a guy it shouldn't be 'she' here, lol.
During the flashback:
I looked up and it was the man who let me use his lighter.
I believe this happened because you took it from the first time you initially wrote what happened? But since you changed some details this time, this line didn't really make sense to be here, since you didn't mention her break this time. Or maybe it should be more descriptive by saying something like, "I looked up and it was the man who let me use his lighter outside during my break." or something along that line, just a little more to it because without that, it just appeared random. Had I not read the other chapter, I would've been thinking 'What man that used her lighter? When?' lol. You know?
Other than that, though, I didn't spot anything else. It was sweet how Alex ended up being there for her, and making her feel safe. <3 And aww, she can sing! :D That's pretty awesome. I wonder if she'll work up the courage to sing on tour.
But uh-oh, she's mad at Alex now. Sigh. Did he overstep? Hmm... trying to think if I would be frustrated too. Actually, I probably would; having experienced therapy, and kind of hating it, I'd be pissed if like, my mom or someone called to make me go back. Like, no thank you. So I can understand her anger.
Excited to see more! :) Loved her cool exit, haha.
Also, that's neat how you and your bf's birthdays fall within a day of each other. :D That's probably convenient, haha. Plus you can celebrate together. :)
Oh, and I should probably note how the one character has my name. :D I'm not sure if that was intentional or not but I thought it was funny. XD

Nanook Nanook
5/29/19

@Nanook
Apparently my editing skills go out the window when I'm writing my fics lol.

Mrs. Gaskarth Mrs. Gaskarth
5/17/19