Breaking the Silence.

A month had passed since my little ‘let’s relive the scariest moment of Sam’s life’ session at my therapists office. I hated her for it, I really did; but I still went to my appointments. I didn’t communicate with her, the whole hour was literally spent with me mean mugging her.
Today was going to be a great day, Jack and the boys have a show and I really needed to get my drink on and dance. I straddled my bike with a cigarette hanging loosely out of my lips waiting on the boys to get ready. Alex was already at the venue setting up while the other three were riding in Jacks car and I obviously was riding my bike.
“Sam quit smoking.” Jack said
I flipped him the bird and he rolled his eyes. I chuckled and he walked over and kissed my cheek
“For reals though baby sister you need to quit.” He said
I shrugged and flicked the cigarette out and pulled on my helmet.
“Be safe.” He signed at me.
I nodded and took off towards the venue, when I got there Alex greeted me at the gate.
“She’s with the band.” He said to the guard.
The guard let me pass and I smiled at Alex.
“You beat the other three here.” He said throwing his arm over my shoulder.
“I know, I wanted some alone time with you.” I signed giving him a cheesy smile.
He leaned down and planted a kiss on my forehead, I like Alex. I just didn’t know if I was ready.
“Well I just need some help with cords.” He said
“Show me the way.”
We walked over to the stage and I helped him run cords around to the amps and shit.
“How’s therapy been?” He asked
I shrugged.
“She told my mom that I was fine, something else would happen and I would just start talking again.” I signed
“I mean she’s not wrong.” He said
I shrugged again and then I was being lifted up in the air, I looked down to see my brother. I smacked the top of his head and he sat me down, I smiled at him and let him help Alex. I looked back and Rian and Zack were getting out of the car with Annalise. I rolled my eyes, this bitch.
“Hey Sam.” Rian said
“Hi.”
“Hey Sam Sam.” Zack said
“Hi loser.”
Annalise looked at me and rolled her eyes.
“What did she say?” She asked Zack
“She said hi.” Zack said
“Hi Samantha.” She yelled at me like I was deaf.
“I’m not deaf.” I signed.
She just looked at me and I looked back at Jack.
“Annaliese she’s not deaf for the thousandth time. Stop yelling at her.” Zack said
“Why does she speak in sign language?” She asked
“Because she doesn’t talk, but she can hear you. You halfwit.” Alex said
“Harsh Alex.” Zack said
Alex rolled his eyes and I chuckled.
The show was amazing, amazing. I rocked out on the side stage while Annalise played on her phone the entire time, I really hated her. I waved my hand around trying to get someone’s attention, Alex looked at me and smiled.
“I’m going to go home and take a nap. I’ll see you later?” I signed.
He nodded.
“I’ll text you.” He said
I nodded and walked out of the venue and hopped on my bike and left.
When I got home I went into the kitchen and grabbed some pre-thawed mice out of the fridge and ran up to my room. I walked over to Elvis’s tank and put the mice down in there for him, I watched him slither over to them. I turned around to give him privacy and plopped down on the bed, I didn’t exactly take a nap like I said I was going to but I was exhausted. I went through my phone videos and pulled up my last recording of Jack’s band practice, they were working on a new album and I couldn’t get enough of it. I closed my eyes and listened to Alex’s voice come through the speaker of my phone.
“SAM!” Jack’s voice screamed
I opened my eyes and he was slamming his way into my room.
“What?”
“Get up. Get up now we’re going.” He said in a panic.
I sat up and looked at him.
“What’s going on?”
“A semi t-boned Alex. He’s at Hopkins” He said
Time froze, but just for a second while I examined my brother’s face to make sure this wasn’t some sick fucking joke. When his face looked like complete panic I flung myself off of my bed shoving my feet into my shoes at the same time. I shoved by Jack and ran downstairs making a mad dash to the front door grabbing my keys on the way out. I hopped onto the bike and skidded out of the driveway, I made my way to the hospital going a lot faster than I should have been. When the big sign came into view I skidded into a parking spot and ran my ass into the emergency room, running up to the receptions desk.
“How may I help you?” She asked
“Alex Gaskarth.” I signed.
She just looked at me.
“I’m sorry I don’t know sign language.” She said
I pretend to write until she gave me a paper and pen, I scrawled down his name and handed it back to her. She read it and started typing on the computer.
“Are you family?” She asked
“She’s with us!” Zack’s voice rang out.
I looked over and ran to him, he pointed into the room and I sprinted in not liking what I found. He was laying there in the hospital bed hooked up to a breathing tube, a feeding tube and I barley recognized him.
“That’s not Alex.” I signed.
Zack walked up to me and pulled me into a hug.
“That’s Alex Sam I swear.” He said
“What did the doctor say?”
“That he’s lucky to have lived, if the truck had hit on the driver’s side he’d be dead. He’s got a severe neck injury, broken ribs and a punctured lung. They put in a chest tube in the ambulance, the bone in his thigh is broken and he’s really beat up. Sam…” He said
“What?”
“The car flipped three times.” He said
I put my hands over my face to hide the tears, Zack tried to pull me into another hug and I pushed him away. I walked over to the bed and stared at the beaten boy.
“Does his mom know?”
“Rian called her. And then went to pick her up.” He said
I nodded and then Jack stormed into the room, I looked up at him and he was holding my helmet up with an angry look on his face.
“You do not get on that without this.” He scolded.
“Stop acting like dad! This was an emergency.” I signed flailing around.
He set the helmet down and noticed that I was crying, he walked over to me and wrapped his lanky arms around me.
“I’m going to wait for Rian and his mom in the lobby.” Zack said
Jack nodded and I pulled out of his grasp as the door closed behind Zack.
“He’s going to be okay.” Jack said
“Look at him.”
“I know Sam, I know. I witnessed the whole thing.” He said
I sat on the edge of the bed trying to avoid all of his cords and tubes, I reached up and caressed his face lightly.
“Lex.” I whispered.
I rubbed his face very lightly, I could tell that his cheekbone on the right side was broken.
“Alex, I really need you to be okay.” I whispered.
Jack’s hand clamped over my shoulder so I looked up at him, he had some tears in his eyes.
“What?” I signed.
“Don’t I heard you.” He said
I shook my head and he sighed.
“Sam, I miss you talking to me. We used to talk all of the time.” He said
I just looked at him and he let go of my shoulder and walked out of the room. I looked down at Alex and cried a little more, he was so fucked up. When the door opened again Alex’s mom was standing there with the look of fear in her eyes. I waved her over and she sat on the other side.
“Oh Alex.” She murmured
I reached over and took her hand in mine.
“Oh Sam.” She said
“He’s going to be okay.” I signed.
“I hope so, he’s my boy.” She said
I nodded at her and she gave me a weak smile.
“I talked to his doctor. They’re going to keep him under for a while so he doesn’t pull anything out.” She said
I nodded at her and looked back down at her son.
“It’s getting late, you should go home. I’ll stay with him tonight.” She said
“I’m staying.” I signed.
She just looked at me.
“I’m staying.”
“At least go home and get some clothes, a notebook or something. Check on Elvis and come back.” She said
I nodded and got out of the bed, she grabbed my hand and kissed it before letting me leave the room. When I walked in the lobby Jack was standing there alone.
“The guys went home.” He said
“Isabelle wants me to go home and get some clothes and a notebook or something to do.”
“Why?” He asked
“I’m staying.”
“Well I’ll drive you, I don’t want you on the bike worked up like this.” He said
I just stared at him.
“Please.” He begged.
I nodded and we walked out to his car, we when got on the road he looked over at me.
“Thank you for not being in the car with him.” I signed.
“I almost was. But I’m going to keep my eyes on the road to prevent us from ending up where he is. I’ll talk to you when we get home okay.” He said
I just nodded tears sprinigng in my eyes
“I love you Jack.” I cried
“I love you too Sam.” He said
I looked over at him and he had a small smile playing at his lips. He reached over and took my hand. But that was all he was going to hear out of me, I looked out of my window and watched other cars go by.
When we go home our mom was waiting on the front porch for us, when we got out of the car she walked up to us and pulled us both into a hug. Like a mama bear hug, like she was so thankful that it wasn’t either of us.
“How is he?” She asked
“It’s bad mom.” Jack said
“Poor Isabelle.” She said
“She’s there with him. I brought Sam home to get some stuff. She’s going to stay there as well.” Jack said
“Are you sure honey?” She asked looking down at me.
I nodded and walked into the house, when I got to my room I threw some shit into a back pack; I zipped it up and sat it on the bed. I walked over and picked Elvis up out of the tank.
“I’ll be back.” I whispered kissing him on his little nose.
Before I set him back in my mom showed up in the door way.
“It must be tough.” She said
I laid Elvis down and looked at her with a confused face.
“Staring at the man you have feelings for lying in a hospital bed.” She said
“You’re crazy.”
“I’m not crazy, I know my daughter.” She said walking over to me.
“Apparently not.”
“Fine. Deny is Sam but you wouldn’t be spending the night in the hospital if it were Rian or Zack.” She said
“Go away.”
She smiled at me and I smiled at her. I slung my bag over my shoulder and walked back out to Jack.
“Got everything you need kid?” He asked
I rolled my eyes and nodded.
We walked out to the car and he stared at me, I raised my eye brow and stared back at him. He never said anything he just started the car and drove back towards the hospital.

Notes

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