American Dreams
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Jack’s POV
It was Monday and I really didn’t want to go to school but at the same time I wanted to go to see Alex.
“Hey Jack.” Eric said as I walked to the kitchen to grab a coffee before I went to school.
“Coffee isn’t food.” Mum said as she put some toast in front of me.
“Neither is drinking tea all day.” I said and drank my coffee and walked out the front door and I put my headphones on and listened to my music until I got to school.
“And how are you this glorious Monday morning?” Justin said as he stood beside me as I stood by the school gates smoking a cigarette.
“How the fuck can you be so bloody cheerful on a Monday morning?” I asked as I blew the smoke out my mouth which went in Justin face which made him pull as face and wipe the smoke away from his face.
“Because it means I can come to school and see you and my friends.” Justin said cheerfully and I just rolled my eyes.
“I’ve always been told never trust someone so happy on a Monday morning.” A voice said and me and Justin looked round and saw Alex standing next to me with one of his friends.
“Just because you’re a grumpy bastard and would rather waste your education doesn’t mean that others can’t be happy about being at school.” Justin said.
“Whatever you say sugar tits.” Alex said sarcastically as he looked at me.
“Can I pinch a light?” Alex asked and I nodded and handed my lighter over to Alex and he lite his cigarette and handed the lighter to his mate and he did the same before handing me back my lighter.
“Cheers.” The boy said and I just smiled.
“Why the fuck are you even here? Shouldn’t be hanging around your sisters like their your bodyguards.” Justin said and something in Alex’s face changed.
“Dude just ignore the little cunt. He’s just doing it to annoy you.” The boy said to Alex.
“Well it’s working.” Alex said seriously.
“Let’s go, he’s not worth getting your hands dirty.” The boy said and turned Alex around and they walked off and I just looked at Alex.
“You seriously don’t want to bother with him. Yes he has the looks and the whole bad boy attitude but he’s nothing but trouble and enjoys using people.” Justin said and I looked at Justin.
“What do you have against him? He can’t be that bad.” I said and Justin just shook his head at me.
“I was his fuck buddy last year. Short story I got feelings for him and told him that and he fucked off. Came into school after the weekend and he’s with somebody else. So yeah just save yourself the heartache and don’t fall for him.” Justin said.
“Wait your gay?” I asked and Justin chuckled.
“Bisexual.” Justin said and I smiled at him.
“Hurry up and smoke that yeah, it looks like it’s about to piss down with rain.” Justin said and I flicked my cigarette away and followed him inside.
I was sat in English and I was bored and I happened to be sat next to Alex as I was free from Justin for the next 2 hours.
“Christ if he talks any slower I will literally fall asleep.” Alex whispered and I looked at him and chuckled.
“Trust me I had a history teacher who’s voice was a lot worse than this.” I said and Alex raised an eyebrow at me.
“Well that subject is enough to send anyone to sleep.” Alex said as he flicked some paper across the the classroom.
“Right guys, I need you to open your text books and read the text and answer the questions on the other page.” The teacher said and I sighed loudly which made Alex chuckle slightly.
“You may talk to your neighbor but you need to keep your voices down.” The teacher said and Alex turned and looked at me as I got my stuff sorted to do this work.
“So you a little geek then?” Alex asked and I looked at him.
“Nope, done this shit when I was in England so I know what I have to say to get the higher grades.” I said and Alex raised his eyebrows.
“Damn I’m definitely coping your answers in the future.” Alex said and I chuckled.
“No can do I’m afraid since I’m not going to be able to hold your hand while in exams so you are going to use that brain of yours.” I said and Alex rolled his eyes at me.
“Well your no fun.” Alex muttered and I shook my head.
“So I heard that you and Justin was fuck buddies last year.” I said.
“Well you heard correctly, but honestly I wouldn’t even bother fucking him. He has a tiny dick and he doesn’t last that long.” Alex said and the boy beside Alex chuckled as he peered round him.
“Trust me, Alex is right on that one. Although I didn’t think his dick was that tiny.” The boy said and I nodded slightly.
“Somehow I don’t see Justin being my type.” I said and Alex looked at the boy beside him and the boy rolled his eyes.
“Say, why don’t you hang out with me and my group of friends at lunch. It’s a shame that a pretty face gets wasted by hanging around the retards of the school.” Alex said and I frowned at him.
“I’m still finding my feet at the moment so I think I’ll pass on that.” I said.
“Come on, they are nobody’s and I can see by the way you are and your whole body language that you don’t like them any way who would like them, I mean they spaz out when you mention the word penis.” Alex said and the boy chuckled.
“And yet you fucked one of those retards?” I asked confused.
“Hey I was desperate and so was dear little Justin, he was just desperate to loose his V card and I just wanted some sex.” Alex said and I shook my head at him and went back to my work.
“Bet you’re not as bad as Justin was.” Alex whispered in my ear and I looked at him.
“And That has nothing to do with you. I refuse to be one of your little pawns in you childish and hurtful game.” I said seriously as I stood up and walked over to the teacher and handed my work in and I was allowed to leave early so I grabbed my bag and walked out the room and went to the field where I needed a cigarette.
I was busy finishing of some essay I needed to finish when someone sat next to me and I looked up and saw Alex.
“Jesus now what?” I asked sarcastically.
“Well you’re a good looking guy and with an ass like yours I’m guessing your gay as well so yeah I wouldn’t mind getting into your pants.” Alex said bluntly and I rolled my eyes at him.
“Wow you really know who to woo a guy into bed.” I said sarcastically as I rolled my eyes and went back to my work.
“Yeah but you’ll come back.” Alex said smugly and I scoffed.
“You really think you’re that good? Well if you’re after me then you need to be more of a gentleman than a slut as I happen to has standards and at the moment you aren’t reaching the standards.” I said as I saved my worked and logged of the computer and got up.
“So you agree that you are gay then?” Alex asked.
“Would of thought that you worked that out the first day you saw me. Maybe your gaydar is bit broken.” I said as I walked off and I could feel Alex watching me and I smiled smugly to myself as I went to my locker to get some stuff.
“See I told you Alex would be after you.” Justin said as I picked at the grass since we was both sat at this park catching up since we haven’t seen much of each other today.
“Yeah but I do have standards and unless he changes then his dick is t getting anywhere near my asshole.” I said and Justin chuckled and I looked at him.
“Oh god please don’t tell me I’m your type of person.” I said and Justin chuckled.
“Nope, you look like the sort of person who would go after someone like Alex. Anyway I’m after some chick anyway so yeah.” Justin said and I smiled at him.
“Jack.” I heard someone say and I turned round and saw my brother.
“Fuck sake, I’ll see you tomorrow Justin.” I said as I stood up and walked towards Eric.
“You fucking stalking me now is that what this is?” I spat at him and Eric shook his head at me and I grabbed hold of his arm and dragged him home.
“Jack I’ve fucked up.” Eric said and I rolled my eyes at him.
“Sometimes I wonder who is meant to be the older one out of us, me or you because at the moment you are sucking at being my big brother right now.” I said and Eric rolled his eyes at me.
“Please the only thing you have to worry about is when your asshole is going to get fucked next.” Eric said and I shook my head.
“Well that’s completely bullshit because I have Mum to worry about, I now have you to worry about. I have to worry about if I need to give up my education so I can get a job and help Mum live in this house. I have to make sure that I look after this family because you are doing a fucking shit job of being the man of the house.” I said loudly.
“It’s not my job to be the man of the house.” Eric said and I pinned him against the wall since Eric had no strength in him.
“You are the fucking oldest so there for you took over the role of being the man of the house. But like with everything you run the fuck away like the scared little coward that you are.” I growled and let Eric go and went to the kitchen where Eric followed me obviously not having learnt from the last time.
“It’s not my fault dad decided to get himself killed, it’s not my fault I want a fucking life outside of this sodden family.” Eric said and I turned round and looked at him.
“And it wasn’t dads fault that he got killed either. Thought family meant something to you but clearly we don’t since me and mum are nothing but shit on your shoe.” I spat.
“Jack you know you and mum mean everything to me, but I’ve just lost my family as well. Can’t I just get a little support from you instead of you arguing with me all the time.” Eric said and I just rolled my eyes and grabbed my keys and I walked out the house and went somewhere for some space.
I was sat at the park when I notice someone sitting in front of me and I looked up and saw mum.
“It’s late Jacky.” Mum said softly and I sighed as I looked back down again.
“I know, I lost track of time.” I said quietly and mum put her hand on my knee which made me look at her.
“Eric said that you two was arguing again.” Mum said and I nodded.
“He told me that you was thinking about dropping out of school to help pay the bills.” Mum said and I nodded again.
“They left us with nothing Mum, you’re working 3 jobs and you can still hardly pay the bills. Why should I be in school when I could be out there working and helping you keep the house going.” I said and mum rested her hand on my cheek.
“I want you to stay in school, I know you are safe and I know you will be working hard to get the grades you want so when you are older you don’t have this life. I don’t want you wasting your life away by helping me and my own problems.” Mum said and I looked down and picked at the grass.
“But your my mum, I should be helping you since Eric is at a loss and can’t help who else is there to help you, there’s only me. I can’t watch you go down the path we all went when dad died.” I said quietly and mum lent forward and kissed the top of my head.
“I’m not expecting my boys to be sorting my life out when they should be focusing on being the men what me and your father taught you both to be. If you and Eric was both a lot younger then yes I would be seeking other ways of help. But you are both grown men and are able to do the things you want to do. I shouldn’t have to stop you and say I need you both to help me as that’s not fair on either of you.” Mum said and I nodded.
“I’m going to go home and see if Eric is still there. I want you home in a hour okay.” Mum said and I nodded as mum stood up and I watched her walk off and I sighed as I lead on my back and looked at the sky.
I got to the front door when I heard shouting and screaming and I opened the door and saw some strange man in my home.
“Who the fuck are you?” I asked and mum looked at me and I looked up the stairs and saw Eric coming down.
“Why the fuck are you in our house?” Eric asked standing next to me.
“Boys go upstairs, everything is okay.” Mum said but me and Eric didn’t move.
“No, we won’t go until he leaves.” Eric said seriously and the man let go of Mum and walked past us making sure he slammed his shoulder into mine and Eric moved and punched this man hard as I went over to Mum.
“Don’t you fucking dare touch my mum or brother again.” I heard Eric growl but I put my focus on Mum.
“You okay?” I asked softly and mum nodded as she sat up and I looked at her face and saw she had a black eye and cut on her eyebrow.
“Let’s go to the kitchen and make you a nice cuppa yeah?” I said and mum nodded and I helped her up as I looked over to Eric who was just slamming the door shut and locking the door and he turned round and smiled sadly at me and mum and helped me walk mum to the kitchen where I made her a drink.
Once me and Eric helped mum into bed and made sure she was okay we was sat in the garden smoking a cigarette.
“I swear I didn’t even know he was in the house.” Eric said quietly and I nodded.
“I know, I know she sleeps with people to get some more money. I didn’t know it could get this bad.” I whispered as I sniffed and I felt myself being pulled into Eric’s side.
“Don’t blame yourself okay, I thought about what you said earlier and I couldn’t agree anymore with you. I need to step up and get a job and help mum.” Eric said and I looked at him.
“I am 23 after all, think I should be looking for a job.” Eric said and I smiled at him.
“It’s late and you need to go to bed.” Eric said as he stood up.
“It’s only midnight, it’s not that late.” I said and Eric raised is eyebrow at me.
“Please don’t look at me like that, it reminds me of dad.” I said quietly as I looked down as Eric did look a lot like dad whereas I looked like mum.
