Dreaming of You

I was by myself in a small room for a while. I thought that maybe I would be there forever until the whole scene changed. There Serenity was, she was sitting in my childhood house from Baltimore. She was on the couch looking beautiful, I wanted to tell her that, but my mind was somewhere else. My mind was on Sara.
"Serenity we have to talk" I said, sitting next to her.
"Isn’t that what we always do?" She questioned, she was shy but damn this girl was always full of sass.
"Are you real?" I asked her, it sounded completely dumb and unnatural, but she knew exactly what I meant.
"I'm an actual person Alex, I wake up, go to work, watch TV, play video games and dream of you" She said, blushing slightly.
"If you are real then I’m going to see you tomorrow correct?" I asked her, knowing that I would be in her hometown tomorrow and she had mentioned previously that she had tickets.
"Yeah" She said smiling, I smiled back.
"Serenity, I have something I need to tell you about and I need you to try to see things from my point of view" I said, realizing I had to tell her about Sara.
"You know I will" She said, scooting closer to me.
"There is this girl named Sara, She was my best friend, we did everything together and one day, one thing led to another and she became my girlfriend. I'm not sure when it happened but I fell for her, hard. She knocked my off my feet and kept me going on days when I thought I could not. One day, Sara changed, maybe she was always this way I just never noticed, but she was rude and manipulative to Jack and that’s when I realized that maybe she wasn't the best person in the world. But damn did I love her. I went on with my band and she went on with the entire football team. We ended it there. But she sometimes calls me...she says things like she misses me and loves me, shows up, takes money, occasionally we mess around, and then she leaves again. I still haven't completely gotten over her to be honest. Then I met you in my dreams and things changed a bit and now I’m all confused. Mostly because I’m still convinced that you're not real" I confessed, after I got it all out I felt so much better. The entire time I rambled I avoided meeting eye contact with her because honestly I'm not even sure what we are, what she is or even if she really exists.
I finally got the courage to look at her and she looked completely fine, waiting for me to continue to tell her why I was so upset.
"Alex, stop I am a real person, an irreverent person, but a real person...How did I change anything?" She asked, her blue eyes toying with me.
"Serenity, I like you a lot. Hell, I could say I love you, but I also love Sara and its really fucked up. This is why I’m not an emotional person unless I’m alone or, well, sleeping. My point is your my dream girl and I want to be with you but it’s hard to tell myself to just drop Sara and it’s also hard to convince myself that in the morning when I wake up, you will be waking up in a bed of your own instead of just remaining in my imagination till I sleep again" I said, scooting to her so that way we were finally touching.
"Alex, you don't love me, you love the girl you see occasionally when you sleep, not the over analytical weird girl form nowhere Tennessee that actually exists!" She said laughing, I threw my arms around her and pushed her down so she was laying on the couch with me, I moved so I was laying directly on top of her, pinning her body down with mine, she giggled.
"Shhhh, Let’s just forget this for now, I’m just stressed" I admitted, maybe I’m too hormonal around her.
"Alex, you're crushing me" she said below me, voice strained.
"What? I can't hear you, speak up you sound distressed or something" I said sarcastically,
"I hate you" she mumbled, pulling my hair. I jerked my head back to avoid the pain of her pulling some hair out and we both just laughed together, In that moment I looked deep into her eyes, and she looked deep into mine, I leaned in close to her, maybe I could just plant a kiss on her, maybe that would solidify her even more for me.
I was merely an inch away from her lips when she disappeared from under me and I plopped on the couch. Either Serenity just woke up somewhere in Coffee County Tennessee or my mind made her disappear because we were so close. dammit, I really have to get my act together…that or learn how to handle blue balls.

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