Dreaming of You
Nerves on the Way
I walked to my car with so many things on my mind. Party at my one-bedroom house...PARTY AT MY ONE BEDROOM HOUSE. what do I do? I have so much to get ready before they come over. I met Kylie by my car and we jumped in. I began driving towards my house and Kylie was completely silent.
"You okay?" I asked.
"Jack fucking said I had daddy issues or relationship issues. who the fuck does he think he is?" Kylie said, clearly angry.
"Kylie you kind of do have those things" I said shrugging.
"So? He doesn’t know me, he has no right to say anything!" She huffed angrily. I turned on the radio in hopes to calm her.
"What happened?" I asked, Jack seemed pretty cool to say something so kind of mean.
"Well, I was walking around backstage and I watched Jack leave the dressing room and I knew I had to talk to him. I approached him and made a flirtatious comment. do you know what he did? HE IS FUCKING LAUGHED. I said something a little steamier. Then Alex came up and Jack made up some shit about me having issues and offered my dinner and I left him alone. a little later he approached me, let me know he is interested but wants a real thing before an intimate thing and then told me to go to the car" She said, she seemed kind of angry. It seemed like Jack wants her just not in the sexual way... yet.
"He probably wants you just doesn’t want you to be all broken, or he thinks your broken" I said, turning onto a new street.
"What the fuck ever. So, you and Alex...real deal?" She asked, curiosity edging at the end of her lips.
"Yeah, he really likes me" I said, smiling.
"So you going to fuck him?" Kylie asked. Her words caught me off guard. My mouth dropped, and my face got hot. Is that what Alex's plan was for tonight? Are we going to sleep together? shouldn't we like kiss first? What if that’s what he does, kisses as he shags. I'm not ready for this, not at all. I can't take this.
"Um, no" I struggled out through my anxiety.
"He is a Rockstar! he is going to get you hammered and fuck you. Hope you enjoy being a little virgin for now" Kylie had no shame.
Alex would not do that. not to me...I hope. Even if that is his plan I don't even know if I’m going to end up drinking or not. Odds are not drinking and no sex for me, I hope to god it stays that way.
