You're the Cherry I'm a Cigarette

Jack

I gripped onto the sheets in my bed as I came to the thought of fucking Alex. Waking up with morning wood was annoying, but I found a way to make it worthwhile. It seemed like this was the only action I was going to be getting anytime soon since Alex was so innocent. Don’t get me wrong, I loved the thought of being the first person to fuck him. I just couldn’t help my teenage hormones that made me horny all the time. I made sure not to pressure him to have sex with me. I actually really cared for him, so I wanted everything to be perfect between us. His grandparents were fucking things up for us now, but hopefully that wouldn’t change anything between us.

I hopped in the shower before getting dressed for school. I figured I better go the whole day a few days out of the week so I wouldn’t lessen my chance of graduating. Joe would probably beat my ass if I didn’t graduate. It was the one thing he was strict on me about.

I walked over Joe’s passed out friends on the ground and went to the kitchen. From there I grabbed my car keys and a quick breakfast and left. I was used to seeing his friends pasted out in the morning. They usually stayed up all night doing drugs, drinking, and playing video games. I learned to ignore all of the noise. Luckily Joe didn’t do the hardcore drugs. He was afraid he would get addicted and use his own supply. He would let me try anything other than weed either, I guess for the same reason. It was his weird way of showing he cares.

I pulled into a parking spot right next to Rian’s car. He was sitting inside listening to his music since we had a few minutes before school started. I got out of my car and got into his. I sighed in relief when I felt the heat in his car.

“Hey.” He said as he turned his music down.

“Hey.” I said back. We both sat quietly after that. It was Monday morning, so we were already bummed about that.

“Where’s your boyfriend?” He joked, and I playfully rolled my eyes.

“He’s not my boyfriend...yet. We haven’t even been on a real date yet.” I chuckled to myself.

“I thought you were taking him out Saturday? You said you were going to his house.”

“I had to sneak in. His grandparents said we’re not allowed to spend time together anymore because he stayed passed his curfew Friday night.” I explained.

“That’s lame. Are you guys like fuck buddies or something for now?” He asked.

“He’s a virgin.” I sighed, and he raised an eyebrow at me.

“Then why do you like him? Besides his looks. He’s nothing like the slutty guys you’re always with.” He chuckled.

“Fuck you. And I don’t know, I just really like him. He’s different you know? He’s cute and shy and funny. Like he actually has a personality and can actually hold a conversation with me. We don’t have to fill awkward silence by pulling off our clothes to have sex, there’s always something for us to talk about.” I laid my head back against the headrest and took a deep breath.

“Uh oh.” He said and I looked over at him.

“What?” I asked.

“It sounds like you got it bad for him. Like you might even be in love!” He teased.

“It’s too early for me to be in love with him. We just met like two weeks ago.”

“The heart wants what the heart wants.”

“My heart wants me to punch you in the dick.” I said sarcastically, and he laughed.

“Please don’t, unlike you, I’m actually using mine.”

“There’s no way Cassadee let you fuck.” I said skeptically.

“Yeah-way. While you were taking Alex home, Cass was screaming my name in Brendon’s bathroom.”

“I don’t know whether to be disgusted or jealous.” I sighed.

“Probably the latter. But I’m sure Alex will probably touch your dick on your three-year anniversary.” He joked.

“Fuck off, Ri. He said he wants his first time to be meaningful and for it to be with someone that really cares about him. That’s definitely me.”

“He probably meant he wants it to be with someone he loves, and you said it’s way too early to know if you love him or not so it’ll be a while.”

“You’re right.” I sighed again. “I’ll just have to continue to jerk off.” I wasn’t used to waiting this long to have sex with someone I was dating. This was definitely a challenge, but for Alex it was worth it.

“That’s the spirit. And there’s your angel right there.”

I looked up to where he was pointing and saw Alex locking his new car. “I’ll see you later.” I told him and got out of his car. I walked over to Alex and he smiled when he saw me.

“Wow this looks badass. Let me see the inside.” I told him, and he unlocked the car. I jumped in the driver’s seat and began looking around and pressing buttons.

“Stop you’re moving my seat back.” Alex complained when I pressed the button for the seat.

“Yeah because you have those short ass legs. The seat is too close to the steering wheel.” I chuckled.

“My legs aren’t short, yours are just long.” He teased. I moved his seat back where he had it and got out of the car.

“Sorry I forgot.” I wrapped my arms around him and leaned down to kiss him. “Good morning.” I told him and he giggled.

“Good morning.” He told me back. We released eachother and he locked his car again.

“I had a lot of fun with you Saturday night.” I told him.

“Me too. I just wish I didn’t have to sneak you in.”

“That’s what made it fun.” I joked.

“More like nerve-wrecking. But we should do that again. I don’t think they’ll catch us. My grandparents are some pretty heavy sleepers. I stubbed my toe last night and yelled out ‘fuck’ and neither of them heard me.” He said and I laughed.

“Well now we know you yelling won’t wake them up.” I chuckled.

“Shut up.” He laughed and pushed my stomach. The bell rang, and it was time for us to get to our first class. I put my arm around Alex and we walked in together.

On the way to class we walked past Kellin. Alex tried to wave at him, but he was too busy giving me a weird look. Alex thought Kellin just didn’t see him, but I didn’t think so. I suppressed my urge to flip Kellin off and continued on to class with Alex.

*****

I stood outside of Alex’s classroom waiting for him to come out so we could go to lunch together. Hopefully he would come sit with me and the guys alone and not bring Kellin.

“Hey!” Alex smiled when he saw me waiting on him.

“Hey, ready to go eat?” I asked and he shrugged.

“I’m not really starving.” He told me as we walked towards the cafeteria together.

“Why? What’s wrong?” I asked and placed the back of my hand on his forehead. He didn’t feel warm so he wasn’t sick.

He laughed and pulled my hand away. “I had a big breakfast, but I can sit with you and the guys while you eat.”

“We can just skip lunch altogether and go test out your backseat.” I suggested, and he rolled his eyes.

“Yeah right.” He scoffed.

“Come on, we can just make out. Nothing more.” I promised, and he playfully narrowed his eyes at me.

“You better be happy you’re cute.” He said and I chuckled. I grabbed his hand and lead him out to his car.

Alex pulled the key out of his pocket and unlocked the car. He let the front seat up, so we could get in the back. I gestured for him to go first and then I got in after him.

“Your backseat is bigger than mine. Why didn’t we just go to your car?” He asked when I finally got the door closed.

“‘Cause your car is newer and your windows are darker than mine.”

“But my back seat doesn’t have any leg room.” He complained and I sighed. I gripped his hips, ignoring his protest and turned so he was lying across the backseat. Then I climbed on top of him.

“There, can we make out now or do you want to complain some more?” I asked sarcastically, and he playfully scoffed.

“I changed my mind. You don’t deserve my kisses. Get off.” He said as he lightly began to push me off. I leaned down and crashed our lips together and he quickly wrapped his arms around my back. I smiled against his lips, laughing at how eager he was to kiss me. It didn’t take long for things to get heated and for me to get turned on. I accidentally grinded down against Alex’s leg, but luckily he ignored it. I used my left hand to grip his hip and he placed his hand over mine. I thought he was going to pull my hand off, but he ran his hand up my arm and to my bicep. I didn’t know what he was and was not comfortable with us doing.

I pulled away from Alex lips and kissed down his checks until I made it to his neck. He took a deep breath when I reached his neck, but he didn’t tell me to stop.

“Is this okay.” I asked between kisses.

“Yes. Just don’t leave any marks on my neck.” He said and I nodded.

I kissed further down, closer to his shoulder and began biting there. Alex let out a gasp and ran his hand up my back. I could feel his dick beginning to poke through his pants. I knew exactly what he needed. I slid my hand down to the front of his pants and tried to rub his dick through his pants. As soon as I began Alex had made me stop. He pulled away from me and sat up.

“Jack, I told you I’m not ready to go any further.” He said, sounding slightly pissed off. His slowly wrapped his arms around himself and he had a small frown.

“How am I supposed to know what’s okay and what’s not okay? You are obviously horny, so I figured you would want me to do something to help.” I told him.

“But I’ve told you-“

“-yeah yeah you’re not ready yet.” I finished for him. We sat in silence for a moment before he spoke again.

“I think I want to be alone right now. Can you please leave?” He asked and I sighed.

“Alex I didn’t mean-“

“-Please!” He repeated, cutting me off. I looked into his eyes and could tell he was on the verge of tears. I didn’t mean to upset him. I wanted to stay and comfort him but leaving was probably best for now.

“Okay.” I said and grabbed my stuff. I climbed out of the car and closed the door behind me. I fought against the urge to look back and continued on into the building. I still had fifteen minutes before the bell rang for us to go back to class. Rian and Zack were probably still eating lunch so I could just go join them.

On my way to the cafeteria I ran into Kellin, who walking out of the bathroom. He looked up at me and rolled his eyes. I don’t know why that pissed me off worse than it normally does, but this time I said something to him.

“Can you fuck off?” I hissed at him.

“Make me.” He taunted and I walked up closer to him. He had to look up at me because he was so much shorter, but he wasn’t backing down. There was so much tense between us and it distracted me from what just happened with Alex. Kellin and I made intense eye contact for a few seconds before pushing our lips together. I slowly backed us into the bathroom, Kellin just came out of, so no one would see us. Kellin kept walking until we reached the back stall. Then he pulled the door closed and locked it without pulling away from me. Our tongues fought for dominance, but ultimately, I let him win. He smiled against my lips as he reached down for my belt buckle. My dick began to get hard again and pushed all coherent thoughts from my mind. I let Kellin undo my belt and unbutton my pants. Then he pulled my boxers down with my jeans and got on his knees.

“Wow you’re really hard. What’s wrong? Your new boyfriend isn’t putting out for you?” He teased as he stroked my dick.

“Just suck my dick.” I sighed, tying hard not to think of Alex.

“Gladly.” He chuckled and pulled me into his mouth. I tried to hold in a groan as he started, but it’s been so long and I couldn’t help myself. I leaned back against the stall wall and placed one hand behind Kellin’s head to guide him. He sucked more of me into his mouth each time his head bobbed. I was so close to his throat.

“Fuck.” I whispered and tangled my fingers within his hair. I was so close to coming.

The bathroom door opened, and Kellin froze for a second. We listened for a second, but the guy was just going to the urinal. Kellin continued to suck my dick and I bit my tongue to keep from moaning out loud. Luckily the guy walked out when he did because I was about to come.

“Shit, I’m coming.” I warned, and Kellin made a noise to let me know he heard me. He pulled my dick out of his mouth and stuck the tip on his tongue. Then he began stroking me until I was shooting off into his mouth. I never knew something so wrong could feel so right.

“Fuck.” I said as I watched Kellin swallow everything down. He chuckled and stood back up while I pulled my pants and boxers up.

“Did that help?” He asked.

“Yes, but why did you do it? I thought you wanted to stop fucking around because you were afraid Caleb would find out.”

“Well yeah, but I just felt so bad when I saw how sexually neglected Alex left you.”

“Also, you’re jealous right?” I questioned, and he shrugged with a chuckle.

“Maybe a little. After all, I did have you first.” He said, and I rolled my eyes. “Look this can be our little secret. I won’t tell if you won’t.” He continued.

“I don’t know if we should do this again. I actually feel really bad.” I said as the guilt started to settle in. I left Alex alone probably crying in his car and I come in here to get a blow job from an ex-fuck buddy. One that happens to be friends with Alex.

“You’ll get over it.” He said and the bell rang telling us to get to class. “I should go. Call me if you need me.” He said and walked out of the stall.

I stayed in a little bit long just thinking to myself. If Kellin told Alex he would be heartbroken and he would definitely stop talking to me. Damnit! I should have know better than to think with my dick. I wanted to skip class and go home to think about what I’ve done, but I couldn’t afford to skip class as much as I wanted. I sighed and picked up my back pack to go to class.

****

*Alex*

I made sure my eyes were dry in my car mirror before getting out of my car. I had kicked Jack out ten minutes ago because I was embarrassed, hurt, and kind of mad. I’m such a prude. Any time Jack does anything pass making out I feel nervous and uncomfortable. I know it’s lame but I’m not ready to do anything related to sex yet. I’ve never really had a boyfriend and I’m scared it’s going to hurt. I thought being with Jack was great because he would slowly get me comfortable with doing certain things, but that hasn’t been working. Maybe I’m going to slow for him. He’s used to having sex with everyone he’s dated, and I can barely let him touch me when we make out.

I sighed and stepped out of my car to go to class. The bell rang as I stepped inside. I went straight to class hoping that I wouldn’t run into Jack. I wouldn’t know what to say to him. Luckily, I had this class with Kellin so I could ask for his advice. He probably won’t want to help since he hates Jack.

I sat in my seat next to Kellin’s empty chair. I knew he was here today because I saw him in the hallway. A few seconds before the bell rang he walked in and took his seat next to me. I smiled and waved, and he did the same. We couldn’t talk now because our teacher was beginning our lesson.
Our teacher finished teaching ten minutes before classes ended. That was more than enough time to get Kellin’s opinion on Jack.

“Hey Kellin, can I ask you something?” I asked.

“Yeah sure.” He sat his phone down and stared at me intensely.

“I’m Jack and I kind of had a small disagreement today at lunch and I need help on what I should do.” I explained and he nodded.

“Wow Alex that’s horrible. What was the argument about?” He asked, sounding more concerned than I thought he would. I liked that he cared. He was really like my closest friend, besides Jack, here at school.

“Um well it’s kind of embarrassing.” I said looking down.

“Alex, come on you can trust me.” He said and I took a deep breath.

“He’s ready to go further than I am. And I can tell it annoys him, but I’m just not ready to do...stuff, you know?”

“Yeah, I get what you’re saying. I think you shouldn’t force yourself to do anything you don’t want. Jack can do other things too keep himself occupied so he doesn’t necessarily have to have sex with you.” He said and I nodded.

“Yeah, maybe I should go talk to him about it after school.”

“I’m sure he’ll tell you he’s already over it.” He said, making me feel better.

“Thank Kellin! I know you two don’t like each other, but I really do appreciate your help.”

“No problem, you’ve actually helped me not hate him as much.” He joked, and I laughed.

*****

Once school was over I walked to the parking lot to meet Jack. I texted him in my last class asking him if we could talk. He immediately text me back saying ‘yes’ with a heart emoji. I smiled when I saw him waiting for me by my car.

“Hey, you beat me out here.” I told him.

“Yeah I kind of got worried by your ‘can we talk’ message.” He said and I nodded understanding. “Sorry I didn’t mean to scare you, I just wanted to talk about what happened earlier.” I said and he relaxed his shoulders.

“Yeah of course. I wasn’t being fair. I-“

“-It’s not completely your fault, Jack. I can also do better. I guess you can say I’m too...pure and it’s not fair that you have to hold back because I’m not comfortable with so much yet.” I told him and he shook his head.

“Alex I honestly don’t mind taking things slow with you. I was just thinking with my dick and not my head. I really do care about you and I don’t want this to be a deal breaker for us.”

“Me either! I like you a lot Jack and I don’t want this to ruin what we have.”

“Great, well let’s just put this all behind us and start fresh.” He suggested, and I nodded in agreement.

“I’d like that a lot. Maybe we can go on that date you promised me. I can tell my grandparents I’m hanging out with Kellin and you and I can go out somewhere.” I said and he took a deep breath.

“Yeah but maybe say you’re going with Cass instead.” He sighed and I chuckled.

“I’m going to get you and Kellin to stop hating each other one day.”

Notes

Jack had a moment of weakness, but hopefully he can do better for Alex.