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Everything is fine

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Alex’s POV

“Mum I don’t need to go to the fucking doctors, I’ve got this under control.” I said as I sat on the table in the dining room, since I didn’t have to go to school today which I was thankful for but I also don’t want to got to the doctors but you can’t have it all.
“You said that last time and you nearly ended up dead so yes we are bloody going to the doctors and then if anyone notices you going down hill we can get you into the doctors for help.” Mum said and I rolled my eyes.
“I’ve been taking my pills though, my head is fully stable right now.” I said and mum looked at me.
“And what was last week then? You took drugs Alex and you went out partying nearly every night.” Mum said.
“Last week was just a blip. Honestly I haven’t been to any other drugs since last week and I’m back on my happy pills. Alex land is back to being same again.” I said and mum sighed.
“And your weight, your father and I have noticed you aren’t eating breakfast anymore and Eddie said you don’t eat lunch.” Mum said and I rolled my eyes.
“I never ate breakfast before being ill, I do eat at school maybe Eddie just doesn’t see it.” I said and mum shook her head.
“You know the deal Alex.” Mum said quietly.
“I’m fucking maintaining if I’m not maintaining then how come I’m still 11 stone that was when I last went to the doctor to get weighed.” I said and mum frowned at me.
“That was before we left Alex, that was almost 4 weeks ago. You should of gained a bit of weight since then.” Mum said and I rolled my eyes and I got off the table.
“Well I’ve probably have gained but who knows since we don’t have scales in the house.” I said as I pulled my pajama pants up slightly since they was still a bit big for me since I haven’t worn them for 2 years and I was also hinting that we owned a pair of scales in the house.
“And we’re not getting any, now go and get changed as we need to leave in an hours time.” Mum said and I groaned loudly as I walked out of the room and went upstairs and had a quick shower and got dressed.

Me and mum was sat at the doctors waiting to be called.
“Please accept the help this doctor will offer you.” Mum said quietly.
“I don’t need help right now, I am good at the moment so there for I don’t need help.” I said and mum rolled her eyes at me.
“Maybe you don’t need it now, but you might do in the future.” Mum said and I just rolled my eyes and looked down as I messed with the bracelet I had on my wrist.
“You’re going to be okay Alex, I’ll make sure nothing bad happens okay and you get nothing but the best.” Mum said quietly and I looked at her and smiled.
“I know.” I whispered and mum smiled back at me and her phone went off.
“What do you mean my son has been beaten up?” Mum said and I looked at her and quickly looked at my phone and saw that Jack had called me a couple of time and I quickly called him back.
Jack answered a few seconds later.
“What the fuck happened to Eddie?” I growled down the phone.
“Some shit beat him up. But don’t worry okay, Eddie is with me and Roo and we’re looking after him for you.” Jack said calmly.
“Was it the same shit which beat him up last time?” I asked and Jack thought about it a little.
“Eddie said it was.” Jack said and I felt my blood boil.
“Is Eddie okay?” I asked trying to stay calm.
“He has a cut on his lip and on his eyebrow but that’s all what Eddie is letting me see.” Jack said and I nodded.
“Well I just to see the fucking doctor and then I’ll be there and I’m pretty sure Mum will be too.” I said and I could hear Jack smile.
My name got called and I looked at mum.
“I’ll see you in a bit.” I said and hung up.
“You better hope and bloody pray my older son doesn’t get his hands on this kid and that there is no injury to my youngest otherwise shit is going down.” Mum said seriously as she hung up and looked at me.
“Let’s go.” Mum said as she stood up and I followed her to the doctors office.

“Alex has depression along with anorexia. He is also a recovering drug addict and has had problems with alcohol.” Mum said to the doctor who looked at me.
“I’ve also got a touch of suicidal tendencies and problems with self harm.” I said and the doctor looked shocked.
“Wow that’s quite a mixture you have Mr Gaskarth.” The doctor said.
“I’m fucked up what do you expect.” I said and mum kicked me which made me look at her and she had this look on her face warning me not to let my mouth get the better of me.
“At the moment my son is stable, but he is easily lead astray and can soon get himself into trouble again. I just need to know that if Alex relapses or anything like that, that I can come here and me and Alex can both get the support that we need.” Mum said and I looked down as even most of the doctors in England refused me due to my long list of problems.
“I want to say no and say that Alex’s problems are to complicated for us to deal with but I can tell that he is stable and I’m hoping you are the sort of man who will come for help when help is needed and not when you are at your worse.” The doctor said and looked at me and I frowned at him.
“Alex you are now my patient and I’m hoping that you will continue the good work on getting better.” The doctor said and I smiled slightly and nodded.
“Mrs Gaskarth is is okay if I speak to Alex in private.” The doctor said and mum smiled as she nodded.
“Of course, I’ll just be outside okay.” Mum said and I nodded and mum walked out the room.

“Because Of you recovering from all these problems I need ask you some questions, if that is okay with you.” The doctor said and I nodded.
“Shoot away.” I said and the doctor smiled slightly.
“Okay When was you diagnosed with depression and anorexia?” The doctor asked.
“The depression was when I was 14 and the anorexia was when I was 15.” I said quietly as I looked down.
“How long have you been recovered from anorexia?” The doctor asked and I shrugged my shoulders.
“About 2 months but that was by having to go to inpatients after coming out of rehab.” I said quietly.
“I need you to answer me honestly. Are you relapsing in any of your problems?” The doctor asked and I nodded.
“Please don’t tell my mum, I have it under control.” I said quietly.
“What have you relapsed in?” The doctor asked avoiding what I said about telling mum and that put me on edge and I just kept my mouth shut.
“Alex I can’t help you if you keep quiet.” The doctor said and I shook my head.
“You know, I’m alright I don’t really need help.” I said as I stood up and put my jacket on which made my top raise so you could see me hip bones.
“You know that the body burns the muscle when there’s no fat left.” The doctor said and I just looked at him.
“Trying to scare talk me doesn’t work. I know what happens to my body when I don’t eat so I don’t need the lecture.” I said and the doctor just looked at me.
“I want you to come back every week to get weighed.” The doctor said.
“And that’s a no from me. Honestly I am fine, I have everything under control and I don’t need help. This was just my mother over reacting like normal.” I said and the doctor stood up as I got to the door.
“Your mother has the right to be worried. You have very dangerous addictions Alex and you need the help before it gets a lot worse and you ending up in hospital or even dead. I am offering you the help with you need not to relapse.” The doctor said and I rolled my eyes.
“I have my addictions under control, I do not need help because there is nothing wrong with me. It won’t be the first time I have ended up in hospital and it won’t be the first time I died and come back to life again.” I said as I opened the door and walked out.
“So how did it go?” Mum asked.
“Rather not talk about it.” I said quietly and we went to the school to pick Eddie up.

We got to the school and Jack was sat with Eddie.
“Jesus what the fuck happened?” Mum asked as she looked at Eddies face.
“Think that little shit needs another lesson.” Jack said as he looked at me and I left my blood boil.
“Alex it’s nothing okay. I’m fine, he’s a friend.” Eddie said and I looked at him.
“This is something because I told him not to go near you again, you are not fine as you have a busted face and friends don’t do this to each other, they will be there for you when you need them and not beat you up.” I said and Eddie looked down.
The head showed up and that was it Mum was on one of her arguments and since she was a lawyer she wasn’t going to back down either.
“What the bloody hell is this? My son have been beaten up for the third time in the space of 2 weeks. Surely the kids who have done this have been told off and been kicked out of the school.” Mum said and Eddie looked at me and I shrugged my shoulders and walked out the office leaving mum to have her battle with the school.
“How come you weren’t at school today?” I head Jack ask as he joined me for a cigarette.
“I had to go to the doctors.” I said quietly and Jack just nodded.
“How did it go?” Jack asked and I looked at him.
“I’m trying to be a friend here.” Jack said and I chuckled.
“Well let’s just say it’s a debate wether I need help or not.” I said not really wanting to go into details as I still didn’t trust Jack.
“But you are fine though, aren’t you? Well minus the drugs I guess you’re fine aren’t you.” Jack said and I rolled my eyes slightly.
“Well I’m not fine let’s just say that and the drugs are the least of everybody’s worry.” I said and Jack frowned at me.
“Alex come on, we’re going home.” Mum said seriously as she walked past with Eddie following a couple of steps behind.
“I better go, she’s on the war path and she’s wanting blood for what has happened to Eddie and I’m not prepared to have my balls on the line.” I said and Jack chuckled as I stood up and walked off.
“Hey Alex.” Jack said and I stopped and turned round and looked at him.
“I’ll text you.” Jack said and I smiled at him.
“Okay then.” I said as I spun round and walked towards the car and got in and went home.

I was sat in my room playing my guitar when Eddie walked in and sat on the beanbag I had in my room.
“You know, I could of been getting myself off.” I said and Eddie frowned at me.
“Yeah but you wouldn’t have the door open though would you.” Eddie said and I shrugged my shoulders.
“You never know.” I said and Eddie rolled his eyes at me.
“Was it the same kid that beat you up?” I asked and Eddie looked down as he nodded as he messed with his hands.
“Yeah it was the same kid.” Eddie said quietly.
“Want me to bash his head in?” I asked and Eddie chuckled.
“Mum is sorting it out for me, so I don’t need you to bash his head in.” Eddie said and I pouted at him.
“But it’s been so long though.” I said and Eddie chuckled and reached out and took my guitar off me and started to play it.
“You’ve got your own guitar.” I said and Eddie looked at me.
“But yours is better.” Eddie said as he carried on playing it.
“It’s was a present from grandma.” I said as I looked down and Eddie stopped playing and I felt him sit next to me.
“She’s watching over us.” Eddie said quietly and I smiled sadly as I rested my head on his shoulder.
Mum shouted up the stairs telling us that dinner was ready so we went downstairs.

“So you and Jack seem to be getting close.” Mum said and I looked at her as I picked at my dinner as I didn’t really like what we had.
“We’re literally just becoming friends, not exactly that close to him.” I said as I pushed some rice around my plate.
“But you still have a friend though.” Dad said and I looked at him.
“Yeah until I show my true colours and then I’ll be Billy no mates all over again so it’s just better if he stays at arms length.” I said as I helped myself to some water.
“Don’t fill up on water, eat some of your food.” Mum said and I rolled my eyes.
“I don’t even like this anyway.” I said.
“Just have half of it, I’m sure Eddie will finish the rest of it for you.” Mum said and I looked at Eddie who was stuffing his face since he loved curry.
“Well I have eaten half of it and here Ed have the rest of this.” I said and put my plate next to Eddies and sat at the table.
“There’s a party at one of Jack’s mates place.” I said and both Dad and mum looked at me seriously.
“Don’t worry there’ll be no drugs as this friend of Jack doesn’t agree with drugs and all that, it’s just going to be alcohol.” I said and mum sighed and looked at dad.
“We can’t keep in wrapped in cotton wool. He needs to learn that he can go out and be sensible and not go to the drugs.” Dad said and I smiled at him.

“I don’t see why not since it’s the weekend, but you have to promise no drugs Alex. You’re just getting over the last party.” Mum said and I smiled as I got up and walked over and kissed the top of mums head and walked out the room and went to my room to get ready and wait for Jack to pick me up.

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I love this I can’t wait to see more and more!!

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7/24/18