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Trigger warning

Jack’s POV

“Do you like Alex?” Eddie asked since I was keeping an eye on him while Alex was out with his parents.
“Yeah I like Alex.” I said and Eddie nodded slightly as he thought of a question.
“Do you like Alex on drugs or off the drugs?” Eddie asked and I was really confused on this question.
“Alex off the drugs is the Alex I like the most but I’ll support him if he ever relapses again.” I said and Eddie looked down.
“Do you care that I’m a retard?” Eddie asked and I looked at him shocked at this question.
“I don’t care what you are. So what if you’re a little special but everyone is in their own way. Just because you have you problems that doesn’t mean I don’t like you.” I said and Eddie looked at me and smiled.
“You want to be my friend?” Eddie asked with such innocence in his voice and I chuckled as I smiled at him.
“Duh, of course I will.” I said and Eddie smiled the biggest smile ever.
“I’m glad Alex has found you and that you’re not like Travis.” Eddie said and I frowned a little.
“What was Travis like?” I asked and Eddie frowned at me.
“Travis was an ass, he fucking hated me and he ruined Alex to the point of no return. But you should ask Alex about Travis. I normally would hide when Travis was around.” Eddie said and I smiled at Eddie.
I was going to say something when the door opened and the sound of Alex and his dad laughing about something filled the house.
“Have you got those spicy crisps I like.” Eddie said as he got up and headed towards the kitchen which made me chuckle as I got up and walked into the kitchen.

“What was Travis like?” I asked as me and Alex was walking round the docks since we was both bored and fed up being inside.
“Okay, so is this the thing. You tell me about you crazy brother and I tell you about my abusive ex boyfriend because if that’s so then I’m not going to stay here and talk about it.” Alex said as he stopped walking and turned round and looked at me.
“I was just curious that’s all. No need to turn on me and be a complete asshole about a simple question.” I said and Alex rolled his eyes at me.
“Well don’t be curious about him.” Alex spat and I sighed as I had this feeling that Alex has taken something but it was whether I had the balls to ask was the big question here.
“Okay, I just need to grow a pair and ask here, have you taken anything because you are only like how you are now when you are on the drugs or wanting drugs. Don’t say I don’t know what I’m talking about because I have seen both sides of you and I know you are like this when you need or taken drugs.” I said and Alex scoffed which gave me my answer but it was wether Alex will admit it to me was another thing.
“Why would you care?” Alex said seriously.
“What sort of question is that? I care because you are my boyfriend Alex.” I said and Alex shook his head.
“I am not your property.” Alex spat and I sighed.
“I never said you was my property. But I’m bloody worried about you so tell me what you have taken.” I said and I could see Alex was getting really pissed off now and I didn’t want to push him anymore.
“Okay so clearly you don’t want to tell me and to save me getting punched and shouted at I’m just going to drop this and take you home.” I said and got hold of Alex hand and took him home.

I stayed until Alex’s mum got home and I hoped Alex would sober up a little before hand which I hoped he did as I really needed to talk to him before I went home.
I walked up to Alex’s room and walked in the room.
“We need to talk about earlier.” I said and Alex groaned as he rolled over and looked at me.
“I fucked up.” Alex whispered and I climbed onto the bed and pulled him close to me and I kissed the side of his head.
“I know.” I said quietly and Alex sniffed loudly.
“Please don’t tell my mum.” Alex sobbed and I sighed.
“I’m going to have to tell her Lex.” I said quietly and Alex moved away from me slightly but I was still able to cuddle him.
“I fucked up.” Alex whispered and I shuffled closer to Alex.
“I know, I can stay tonight if you want me to tonight.” I said and Alex nodded.
“Please stay, I don’t trust myself.” Alex said quietly and I kissed his cheek and moved some hair out of his face.
“I can do that. I’m just going to go and get you some water okay.” I said and Alex nodded as I rolled off the bed and went downstairs.

“Hey Jack, where’s Alex.” Alex’s mum said and I sighed as I looked down.
“I think Alex is back on drugs again.” I said quietly and Alex’s mum looked at me and looked really upset.
“But he was doing so well. He is almost 2 months sober.” Alex’s mum said.
“I know he was, but I think Alex has a lot going around his head.” I said and Alex’s mum sighed loudly.
“Wish he never laid eyes on that boy.” Alex’s mum said sadly.
I walked over and put my hand over hers which made Alex’s mum looked at me.
“I promise I will try and bring Alex back.” I said and Alex’s mum smiled sadly at me.
“You’re a good lad Jack, just don’t give up on my boy.” Alex’s mum said and I smiled.
“I can tell you are nothing like your brother. You have kind eyes and a big heart.” Alex’s mum said and I looked down.
“Mum.” Someone said and we both looked and saw Alex.
“I’m sorry mum.” Alex sniffed and his mum walked over and pulled him into a hug which Alex returned.
“It’s going to be okay Lex. We’ll support you okay and we will get you the help you need.” Alex’s mum said as she cupped his face.
“I’m not losing you okay. We will do everything to help you.” Alex’s mum said as she pulled him into another hug which Alex returned and he looked at me and I smiled which Alex returned.
“I don’t want to be like this anymore.” Alex said quietly as he pulled back and gingerly walked over to me and stood in front of me like he didn’t know what my reaction was going to be but I just pulled him into a hug.
“I’ve got you okay. I have your back I promise.” I whispered in his ear which made Alex nod against my shoulder.
“Mum is Alex home.” Eddie asked as he walked into the kitchen.
“Ed, Alex isn’t up for playing on the Xbox tonight okay sweetie, your dad will be home in a hour so he’ll play on the Xbox with you.” Alex’s mum said and Eddie nodded and looked at me and Alex.
“Lex?” Eddie said and Alex sniffed as he pulled back and looked at Eddie.
“I’m okay Ed.” Alex said quietly but Eddie frowned not quite picking up on Alex’s emotions.
“But you’ve been crying.” Eddie said showing some sympathy towards Alex and Alex smiled at Eddie.
“I promise I’m going to be okay.” Alex said and Eddie still wasn’t sure so he looked at Alex’s mum who nodded at him.
“Lex is okay Ed. You don’t have to worry.” Alex’s mum said and Eddie accepted this and walked out the room.
I caught hold of Alex’s hand and we went upstairs to his room where I shut the door and I looked at Alex who was still stood up looking down and sorry for himself.

I walked over and I kissed the top of his head.
“I fucked up.” Alex said quietly and I made him look at me.
“Yeah you did fuck up, but that doesn’t matter because your mum is going to find the best place for you to try and get better again. Then once you’re better you are going to have everyone’s support to stay sober.” I said softly and Alex looked at me with his big doe eyes which was tear stained.
“I can’t keep on doing this. I put my whole family through so much stress and worry that I don’t think I can put them through anymore pain. Then there’s you, the best thing which has ever happened to me and I’m fucking it all up. I fuck everything up.” Alex sobbed as more tears rolled down his cheeks as he stepped away from me.
“Which is why you are going to rehab and you will stay in rehab until you are better.” Alex’s Dad said which made me jump since I shut Alex’s door and I didn’t hear it open.
“I’m sorry dad. I’m so sorry.” Alex sobbed and Alex’s dad face softened as he walked over and pulled Alex into a hug.
“It’s okay, everything will be okay.” Alex’s Dad said as he pulled back and Alex nodded as his dad turned round to face.
“Look after my boy for me.” Alex’s dad said quietly and I nodded which made him smile and walk out the room shutting the door behind him.
“I need a shower.” Alex sniffed as he walked over to the corner and picked up his towel and walked towards his bathroom.
“Want me to join?” I asked as I was worried on Alex was going to do.
“No, I’m going to be okay.” Alex said quietly as he shut his bathroom door but I noticed he didn’t lock it so maybe it was a sign.

I was sat on the bed reading this book what I found when I heard a thump in the bathroom which made me get up and run into the bathroom and I felt like I could cry with what I was seeing.
“Alex.” I said quietly as I walked over to him and stepped in the shower and Alex looked at me.
“I..I..I’m sorry.” Alex whispered as I turned the shower off and got a towel and wrapped it round his arm since he had a really deep cut and I knew Alex was high on something as well.
“Where are the drugs and what have you taken Alex?” I asked seriously.
“I’m not saying.” Alex said quietly.
“Alex you could die. You could die tonight if you do not tell me what the fuck you have taken.” I said seriously.
“Then just let me fucking die!” Alex shouted and I felt my heart break slightly.
“I can’t do that Alex, I can’t let you fucking die because I love you. You hear me Alexander I fucking love you. So I am not going to fucking let you die.” I said letting my emotions out but it made Alex look at me.
“We need to get your arm looked at and I need to get you to hospital so the doctors can look at you.” I said and Alex shook his head.
“I’ll go, but not for the drugs. I haven’t overdosed on drugs.” Alex said and I sighed quietly as I moved the towel and looked at Alex’s arm.
I stood up and went and got a flannel and I ran it under some water and walked back over to Alex and sat on the floor which was still wet.
“Your ass will get wet.” Alex said quietly and I looked at him and smiled.
“You’re worth me sitting in the shower and getting my ass wet.” I said and Alex smiled as I lent forward and kissed him which Alex returned.
I pulled back and cleaned Alex’s wound which made him hiss softly.
“I’m sorry.” I said quietly as I frowned at the cut when I realized it wasn’t as bad as Alex has done in the past.
I stood up and looked for the first aid box when I heard Alex laugh quietly and I turned round and looked at him.
“Why you laughing?” I asked and Alex looked at me and smiled.
“Because you look like you’ve wet yourself.” Alex said and I chuckled.
“Well you are bollock naked in the shower.” I said and Alex smiled as I walked back over and sat down and I started to dress his wound.
“Will you tell mum?” Alex asked quietly.
“I’m going to have to tell her Lex. She needs to know.” I said and Alex nodded accepting that I had to tell him mum.
“Come on you let’s get you out of this this shower before you get a cold.” I said as I stood up and helped Alex up and wrapped the towel around his body and helped him out of the shower.
“I’ll just get you some bottoms to put on.” I said softly and Alex caught hold of my hand which made me look at him.
“I don’t want to be alone.” Alex whispered and I smiled at him as I gently pulled him towards me and I picked him up and I walked into the bedroom and I pulled the covers of the bed back and gently placed Alex on the bed where Alex looked at me and I kissed him softly which Alex returned.
“I’ll get you some bottoms.” I whispered as I walked over to the pile of clothes and found what I was looking for and walked back over to the bed and helped Alex get changed into the bottoms.

Alex was cuddled into my side and he was wide awake while I was forcing myself to stay awake for Alex.
“You can go to sleep.” Alex said quietly and I looked at him.
“I’m fine.” I whispered but Alex chuckled quietly.
“I’m going nowhere tonight. I’m too tired to move from beside you.” Alex said and I smiled as I rolled over to face Alex.
“I love you too.” Alex whispered and a huge smile broke out on my face as I moved so I was on top of Alex who giggled under me.
“Now, I would give you what you want but I’m not going to because I want you to have a reason to get better and I think that in order for you to get better and have sex with me I am not going to give it to you.” I said and Alex pouted at me.
“There you have a reason to get better now.” I whispered as I kissed Alex and he squeezed my ass really hard but I had to ignore him as I rolled off him.
“Asshole.” Alex muttered and I smiled smugly to myself as Alex cuddled into my side again and I kissed the top of his head.
“Go to sleep, I’m not moving anywhere any time soon.” Alex said and I sighed as I rolled over and Alex did the same so he was little spoon.
“I’ll see you in the morning.” I said quietly as I felt my eyes getting.

“See you in the morning.” Alex said quietly as he kissed my hand and I smiled and settled down for the night.

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I love this I can’t wait to see more and more!!

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7/24/18