Alex’s POV

Me and Jack have been in our new apartment for a week now and I was bloody loving it. Jack also managed to find himself a job so while he was at work I was to look after the baby and clean the apartment.

I was busy sat on the sofa looking at how the business was getting on and stalking Luna’s social media while keeping an eye on Jay.
Jay was sat on the floor playing with his toys as he babbled loudly to himself.
I was looking through Luna’s instagram and I smiled when I saw that she was happy with Beth and being in Wales.
I sighed loudly but smiled as I looked at Jay and decided to Skype Luna to see if she was around or not.
After a few seconds Luna picked up.
“Hey Lex!” Luna said happily and I smiled.
“Hey Lun.” I said and I looked up and found Jay had disappeared.
“How have you been?” I asked as I got up and went looking for Jay.
“I’ve been really good, miss you and the other two like crazy though.” Luna said and I smiled as I walked to the bathroom and looked in there since it was Jays favorite hiding place.
“We miss you too Luna.” I said and I turned round.
“Jayden where are you.” I said and I could hear a giggle somewhere.
“You lost the baby?” Luna chuckled.
“Yep, me and Jack have our own place now so the baby is exploring and we keep losing him.” I said and Luna laughed.
I walked to a cupboard and looked inside and found Jay hiding.
“Found you monkey, come and say hello to Anuty Luna.” I said and Jay frowned at me as he shook his head.
“Well now I’m hurt.” Luna said and I chuckled as I moved but stayed sat on the floor.
“Don’t take it to heart he’s just a younger version of a clingy Jack.” I said and Luna chuckled as she looked down.
“What’s the matter?” I asked and Luna looked at me and smiled.
“I just miss you guys so much.” Luna said quietly and I looked at Jay who had found something and was sat messing with it.
“We miss you too Luna, hey when we have got this place sorted you and Beth have to come round to stay.” I said and Luna smiled at me.
Jay started to get assy for some reason and I frowned at him as he got up and walked over to me.
“Show auntie Luna you walking.” I said as I turned my phone round so Luna could watch Jay walking.
“Lex he’s gotten so big.” Luna said as Jay stood next to me and looked confused at the phone.
“You can have him if you want him, he’s a bugger right now.” I said and Luna smiled.
“Hey trouble, I miss you so much.” Luna sniffed and I looked down.
“Say hello.” I said and Jay smiled as he hide his face in my chest going shy which made Luna chuckle.
“He’s adorable, anyway I have to go because it’s late here and I ha e to drag myself to school in about 5 hours.” I said and I chuckled and I was glad that Luna was now back at school and making friends.
“Okay, talk again on Saturday?” I asked because it was normally the weekends me and Luna would catch up on how we was doing.
“Saturday as always.” Luna smiled which I returned.
“Come on you, you’ve got to say bye bye to auntie Luna.” I said as I spun Jay round.
“Wave and say bye bye.” I said and Jay smiled as he wave at Luna.
“Bye.” Jay said shyly as he hid himself in my chest which made me smile as I kissed the top of his head.
“Bye Lex, love you guys lots.” Luna said and I nodded.
“Love you lots too Luna.” I said as Luna hung up and I put my phone down on the floor and I wrapped my arms round Jay and just smelt his baby smell which I loved almost as much as I loved Jacks smell.
“Juice.” Jay said as he moved and looked at me.
“Yeah, I can go and get you some juice.” I said as I stood up and went to the kitchen to make Jay a drink.

I was looking at my emails and frowning a lot at them like I always do when Jack came home.
“Hey babe, hey little man.” Jack said happily as he picked Jay up and walked over to me and sat next to me and kissed the side of my head.
“How are things?” Jack asked and I sighed loudly.
“Juliana is saying businesses good and that I shouldn’t worry because she has everything under control, Luna says hey and she misses us and she loves us. Me and Jay had a beautiful nap this afternoon.” I said and Jack chuckled as he stood up and place Jay next to me as he took his top off and I just stared at him.
“Sounds like you had a fun day.” Jack said and I sighed loudly as I put my laptop on the table and stood up and walked over to Jack and hugged him which Jack returned and he kissed the top of my head.
I felt something on my leg and I looked down and saw Jay had joined me and Jack for a hug which made me smile.
“Want to join?” Jack asked as he picked Jay up and we just hugged until Jay got bored and we put him down.
“I’m just going to have a shower.” Jack said and I smiled at him as I kissed him and I looked at Jack as he walked off.
“Dada.” Jay said and I looked at him.
“Sorry, did you catch me dribbling over daddy.” I said as I picked Jay up and walked over to the sofa and sat down where we watched a film until Jack came down and sorted some food out for Jay.

Jack had put Jay to bed and I was downstairs cleaning the mess which Jay had made throughout the evening before going to bed.
“Babe.” Jack said and I looked at him and he was in his pants.
“You’ve been quiet this evening, what’s the matter?” Jack said quietly as he sat on the floor and helped me clean the mess up.
“Just got a lot on my mind right now.” I said quietly as I stood up and went to the kitchen and cleaned like I always did when my mind was a mess and I wasn’t coping.
“Baby come on talk to me.” Jack said as he lent against the kitchen side.
“There’s nothing to talk about okay, just give me some space.” I snapped which made Jack frown at me as I rarely snapped unless my bipolar in swing.
“Have you been taking your meds?” Jack asked.
“Like I have fucking time to do that.” I snapped again.
“You know, just fuck off and let me have some fucking space.” I said as I walked off and Jack caught hold of my arm.
“Look if you’re not coping then all you have to do is tell me Alex, you know I’m here to support you and give you the help you need.” Jack said and I scoffed and I pulled my arm out of his hold and walked over to the pile of shoes and pulled some shoes on and walked out the door slamming it behind me.

I was sat at a park when someone sat next to me and I looked and saw Jack with the pushchair.
“He shouldn’t be out in the cold.” I said and Jack looked at me.
“You left me no fucking choice Alex, you stormed off and you woke the baby up and I had to come looking for you to make sure you aren’t doing nothing stupid so the baby had to come along.” Jack snapped back at me and I looked down and mess with my hands.
“Normally you know I would just let you do what you have to do but we’re not in England anymore and you don’t know this neighbourhood so I had to drag myself and the baby out in the cold to come looking for your ass.” Jack said and I stood up and headed towards home with Jack following behind me.
Jack out Jay back to bed and I was sat on the sofa feeling like a child.

“What the fuck was that all about? I’m not pissed off about the fact you walked out because I know that’s what you do when bipolar in swing, but what I am pissed off about is the fact you woke Jay up. He is completely innocent in all of this so if you want to take it out on someone then take it out on me, not the baby.” Jack said seriously as he stood in front of the sofa.
“I’m not going to take this out on Jay, Christ what sort of person do you think I am? I’m not going to take my problems out on him he has no fucking understanding on the world!” I said as I looked at Jack.
“I don’t even know right now Alex, you’ve been distant since we’ve moved in. You wanted to move remember Alex it was you who wanted to move.” Jack said and I stood up and gave him the death glare.
“I wasn’t the only fucking one who wanted to move so don’t you bloody well dare put all the blame on me. I’m just trying to settle in Jack, you know it takes me ages to settle in.” I said and Jack frowned at me.
“And you being off your medication isn’t helping either Alex.” Jack said and I shook my head as I rolled my eyes.
“This has nothing to do with me being off my meds.” I said and Jack raised a eyebrow at me.
“I think you find that this has everything to do with you being off your meds.” Jack said and I just pushed past him.
“I’m not a fucking child Jack.” I said as I threw my arms up in the air.
“Then stop acting like one then.” Jack said and I turned round and looked at Jack.
“Babe I know we have a lot going one right now but things will calm down soon enough.” Jack said softly as he walked over to me and pulled me into a hug which I returned and rested my head on his shoulder.
“I know the last 2 months have been stressful on you, but we now have our own home with our little man and we can focus on our little family.” Jack said softly as he pushed me back gently and made me look at him.
“We got this babe okay, me and you against the world.” Jack said quietly as he kissed me which I returned.
“I’ll go and run us a bath while you sort down here out.” I said quietly as I went to walk off but Jack pulled me back and kissed me which I returned.
“I love you Lex.” Jack said and I smiled at him as I kissed him softly.
“I love you too.” I whispered as I went to the bathroom and ran the bath and I went to Jays room to check on him and he was fast asleep which made me smile softly and I quietly walked out of his room and went to mine and Jacks room.
Once we had our bath went went into our room and just went to bed since we was both really tired.

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Since Jay was now 17 months old, the days of peace where now long gone and trouble was just seconds away.
“Jayden don’t.” Jack said seriously as Jay was trying to climb on the tv stand.
But like always Jay just ignored us and I got up off the sofa and walked over and removed him away from the tv which made him start to scream.
“Don’t go climbing the tv stand.” I said seriously as I put Jay down by his toys and walked over to the sofa and sat next to Jack.
“Where’s our baby gone? It’s a bloody monster now.” I said and Jack chuckled as we watched Jay play with one of his favorite ride on toys making as much noise as he could in just his nappy.
“He’s growing up too quickly.” Jack said and I sighed as I rested my head on Jack’s shoulder and I heard my phone go off which made me frown and I looked at the number.
“Oh shit.” I said quietly since Jay was coping everything we say these days.
“What?” Jack asked.
“It’s the dragon.” I said quietly and I looked at Jay.
“Go see what she wants.” Jack said quietly and I sighed as I answered my phone and went to mine and Jack’s room.

“Alex?” Lucy asked.
“Yes, how can I help you?” I asked as messed with Jays clothes.
“I went to your house and you aren’t there. Where are you?” Lucy said sounding annoyed slightly.
“Why do you even care where I am?” I asked as I stood up and paced up and down the bed room.
“Because I want to see my son.” Lucy said and I laughed sarcastically.
“So now you want to see him? Where have you been in the 11 months?” I asked.
“I needed a break Alex, I had things I wanted to do and I could have a baby in tow with me.” Lucy said and I rolled my eyes.
“And you didn’t think about the things I wanted to do. Anyway you can’t see him.” I said and I could hear Lucy frown over the phone.
“Why can’t I see my son?” Lucy asked.
“Firstly he isn’t your son anymore since you gave me Jay I have soul custody of him and you lost your right to be his mother. Secondly we’re not even in the country anymore.” I said calmly for once.
“I still have rights Alex! What do you mean your not in the country.” Lucy said.
“Technically you don’t have rights anymore since you gave me Jay and ran away you basically gave away everything to do with Jay. Exactly that me and Jay aren’t in the country anymore.” I said still saying calm.
“You can’t do that to me Alex! I need to see my baby boy!” Lucy shouted down the phone.
“Jay doesn’t even know who you are, me and Jack are his parents he has no idea who you are too him and you’re just a stranger to him and you will stay like that until he is old enough to know about you. If you want me too I can send you a picture of him, but you aren’t coming anywhere near him until he is old enough to understand and make his own choices.” I said seriously.
“How doesn’t he know about me? That’s not fair Alex and you know this!” Lucy said and I rolled my eyes.
“It is fair because you would do exactly the same to me if you didn’t give him to me. He would not have a clue who I was and whoever you are seeing you would say was his dad and it is the same as me and Jack. You will remain nothing in his life until he is old enough. Now I am willing to send you pictures of him but if you don’t want that then you are not to contact me again and you will have nothing to do with him.” I said seriously and Lucy sighed loudly.
“Please tell me he is okay?” Lucy asked sounding like she is going to cry and I could hear Jay laughing which made me smile.
“He’s amazing Lucy. He’s ahead of all his milestones and he’s smart and he’s definitely going to be a heartbreaker when he’s older and he’s a little monster right now. He loves Jack and Jack adores him. Lucy he is so loved by both of us. I promise you that he will get everything he needs.” I said and Lucy sniffed down the end of the phone.
“He’s happy with you and Jack?” Lucy asked and I smiled.
“Yes he’s really happy with us.” I said and Lucy sighed.
“Promise me you’ll look after him and if you ever come back to the uk then let me know as I would love to see him. Just send me pictures every couple of months.” Lucy said and I nodded.
“Course I will, look if you really want to know what the bugger is up to and what trouble he get into then just swallow your pride and just add me on Facebook. There’s always photos on there of him and little updates of him.” I said as I walked to the sitting room to find Jack and Jay messing around.
“Tell him I love him and I miss him.” Lucy said.
“I will. Take it easy okay, and know Jay is in good hands here and we love him a awful lot.” I said and I could hear Lucy smile.
“Thanks Alex.” Lucy said and she just hung up and I sighed loudly as I joined Jack and Jay.

Jay was in bed so like every evening me and Jack was enjoying the peace and quiet.
At the moment we was enjoying this film.
“What did Lucy want?” Jack asked as he looked at me since his head was resting on my lap.
“I think if we was still in England then she would be trying to take Jay off us. But since we are here she can’t do anything about it. I think she’s realising just how much she’s missing out on Jays life. But I said that she can send me a friends request on Facebook and she can see what the bugger gets up too.” I said and Jack smiled at me which I returned his smile.
“Well that was nice of you.” Jack said and I sighed quietly which made Jack frown at me as he messed with the strings on my hoodie.
“I don’t know if I want him to know about Lucy, I mean yeah when he gets older and he understands of course I’ll tell him about her but then it might break his heart learning that his mum didn’t want him.” I said and Jack rested his hand on my face and I turned my head and kissed Jack’s hand.
“You’ll know what to do when the time is right.” Jack said and I smiled at him.
“You are a good dad and Jay is so so happy with everything. Just don’t let anyone tell you your not good enough because that is t true.” Jack said and I smiled as I lent down and kissed him and it soon got heated so I moved so I was now sat on Jack.
But like every time when me and Jack try and have what little sex we’re having at the moment Jay woke up and was calling for me.
“I swear to fucking god this child knows when we are going to have sex.” Jack said and I just head butted his shoulder.
“I don’t think I can take having blue balls for much longer.” I said as I got off Jack and went to see what was wrong with Jay.

“What’s the matter baby?” I asked softly as I walked into Jays room to find him standing up in his bed and he put his arms up for me when he saw me so I picked him up and Jay rested his head on my shoulder as I tried to work out what was wrong with him.
“Does my little man want a cuddle?” I asked and Jay nodded his head as I got into his bed and lead him down and I let him cuddle into my chest as I sung softly to him until he was asleep and to be honest I wasn’t that long behind him either.
“Babe.” I heard Jack whisper and I opened one eye and saw Jack smiling at me.
“Coming to bed with me or staying here to have baby cuddles?” Jack asked.
“I’m coming.” I mumbled but when I went to move Jay moved closer to me and grabbed hold of my hoodie.
“Think the baby is coming to bed with us.” I mumbled as I moved and picked Jay up and walked to mine and Jacks room where I placed Jay carefully in the middle of the bed and I took my hoodie and top off and climbed into bed and waited for Jack to get into bed and we both just looked at Jay.
“I want another one.” I said and Jack chuckled.
“Not yet, wait for him to get a little older and we can have some sort of sex life again.” Jack said and I chuckled quietly.
“Sex shouldn’t always be on your mind, we have a child here.” I said and Jack looked at me.
“It’s hard not to when your around.” Jack said and I just rolled my eyes at him.
“Yeah well we have a baby in the bed so that’s that plan ruined.” I said and Jack smiled as Jay sighed as he rolled over to face me and I smiled at him.
“I think he’s getting ill, remember the last time he was like this. He literally exploded in shit.” I said and Jack chuckled.
“Well hopefully it’s not going to be a repeat of that otherwise you are going to deal with it.” Jack said and I rolled my eyes.
“He’s your child as well.” I said and Jack smiled as he lent up and leaned over Jay and kissed me which I returned.
“If only the baby isn’t in the bed.” Jack said and I kissed him again.

“Well we do so you know where the shower is if you want to use your hand.” I said as I got myself comfy and let myself fall asleep with a protective arm over Jay and Jack linked his little finger with mine.

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