Luna’s POV

I was in the kitchen making myself a coffee at 5 in the morning since I couldn’t sleep and I heard someone walk into the kitchen and I looked and saw Alex which made me look down and feel guilty after what happened yesterday.
I turned round and Alex was stood there and I looked and saw he had his arm bandage and I looked back at his face.
“I need to get out of here Luna. Otherwise if I don’t then I will kill myself.” Alex said quietly as he got himself a drink and he walked out the room.
I felt my heart break and I suddenly felt abandoned by everyone.
I sighed and walked into the sitting room and curled up on the sofa hugging a cushion and watching my favourite film while I cried a little until I fell asleep.

When I woke I was being spooned by someone and I moved a little and looked and saw it was Alex and Jay was sat in the gap of Alex’s leg.
“I heard you last night. I thought I would come down and give you a cuddle and then little man woke up so I forced him to join us.” Alex said which made me chuckle as Alex sat up and I did the same which made Jay glare at us.
“Such a glare for a Saturday morning.” Alex chuckled as he ruffled Jays hair which made Jay whine and move away from Alex.
“So grumpy.” Alex chuckled.
“We need to talk about what we are going to do.” Alex said quietly and I looked at him and sighed.
“I’m moving to Wales with Terri. You’re moving to America to Jack and Jay and I don’t have any family in the UK. What’s more is there to talk about.” I said quietly and stood up and Alex pulled me back down and he put Jay on the floor.
“For fuck sake Luna. Can you for once see how much this is hurting me?” Alex said and he looked at me.
“You always pull yourself back.” I said and Alex sighed.
“You know what, maybe last night I should of killed myself because then you would of had nobody. Then what the fuck would you do.” Alex said seriously and he got up and picked Jay up and walked out the room.
I felt myself cry again.

I walked out to the kitchen where Alex was giving Jay his breakfast.
“Lex I’m sorry.” I sobbed and Alex turned round.
“Look do you want to go to Wales with Terri?” Alex asked and I shrugged my shoulders.
“I don’t know what I want Lex. I want mum and dad here so I can talk to them.” I sniffed and Alex smiled softly at me as he looked at Jay and brushed his finger along Jays cheek and Jay smiled at Alex and offered him some of his food.
“I know Luna, I mean I have no idea what to do with Jay. It’s all just guess work these days and I don’t know how to deal with a stroppy teenager as I’m still one myself. I don’t want to have this responsibility it I do have it now and I’m not going anywhere but I just need you to think about this is doing to me as well.” Alex said as he looked at me and I sniffed.
“You have the choice of staying here with Terri and moving to Wales or you can come with me and Jack to America for a while until you find your feet.” Alex said and I looked down.
I heard Alex walk over to me and made me look at him.
“Whatever you choose, you know I will support you 100% unless you spilt with Terri then I might have to slap you.” Alex said and I smiled as Alex pulled me into a hug which I returned.
“Dada.” Jay said loudly and Alex pulled back and looked at Jay.
“You jealous that auntie Luna is getting all the attention? Such a daddy’s boy.” Alex chuckled as he walked over to Jay.
“You mummy him too much.” Jack said as he walked in the kitchen in just his pants.
“How can I not? I mean how can you say no to these chubby cheeks and big brown eyes.” Alex said as he looked at Jack and just eyeballed Jack.
“Those brown eyes are going to get him into trouble one day. Just like how yours did.” Jack said and Alex smirked at Jack.
“Now if I remember correctly, it was you who fell for my eyes. I just fell onto your dick and that’s how this whole relationship started.” Alex said.
“Okay I do not need to know about your sex life and how you landed on Jack dick.” I said and I walked out the room.

I walked to my room where Terri was still asleep since she’s been working really hard the last few weeks and has had hardly any time off.
“Babe.” I whispered as I touched her arm and Terri just rolled over and caught hold of my hand and pulled me into bed where I landed on Terri and she rolled us over so I was between her and the wall.
“You’ve been up all night. Come and get some sleep.” Terri whispered and I rolled over to face her.
“I can’t sleep.” I whispered and Terri just pulled me into her chest and held me close and kissed the top of my head.
“Just relax and let your mind just go blank and shut your eyes and let yourself fall asleep.” Terri said softly as she started to mess with my hair.
I just let my body relaxed and did what Terri said and I didn’t take long for me to just pass out.

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I was sat in the hammock after being asleep for most of the day.
Terri came out and climbed in the hammock and nearly tipped us both out of the hammock.
“Need Jack to teach me how to get into this bloody thing when your in it.” Terri said which made me smile a little.
“Look we need to talk about what is going to happen next.” Terri said and I looked down and felt tears in my eyes.
“Hey, don’t cry okay. Please don’t cry because this isn’t what I want.” Terri said and I looked at her.
“Do you still want to come to Wales with me?” Terri asked.
“I don’t know what I want. I want to stay with you and go to Wales but I don’t know if I’m ready to leave my family.” I sobbed and Terri smiled softly at me.
“It’s okay. Because me, Jack and Alex have all sat down and talked while you was asleep this afternoon.” Terri said and I frowned a little.
“I have all that holiday I’ve been saving so after your dads funeral we are all going to go to America and just escapes from here for a while and then we can move back or we can stay because I know Alex and Jack both want to stay in America as Jack has his family out there.” Terri said.
“Whatever you choose I’ll support you.” Terri said and she lent forward and kissed me which I returned.
I heard the back door open and I looked and saw Alex with this other man.
“It’s the funeral director. Me and Jack are only going to be inside if you want us.” Terri said quietly and I nodded as Terri got out the hammock and I looked at Alex who smiled at me and I climbed out the hammock and walked over to Alex who smiled sadly at me and we had this meeting with this man.

Terri and Jack decided to give me and Alex some space after the funeral director had left so we was both sat by the pool lost in our own minds.
“I’ve got the doctors tomorrow.” Alex said quietly and I looked at him.
“Are you going to say you’re getting bad again?” I asked and Alex looked down.
“If I tell them I’m getting bad then I’ll be in hospital. I can’t do that Luna, I have a kid now and I need to look after the reminder of our family.” Alex said and I put my hand on top of his which made Alex look at me.
“You need to think about yourself Lex, like you said you have Jay to think about now and he can’t have you going crazy. It won’t be fair for you or Jay.” I said and Alex sighed loudly.
“It’s just a blip, it’ll pass and I’ll be okay.” Alex said not sure wether it was to me or wether he was saying it to himself.
“Even if it is Lex, you need help. Maybe your medication isn’t working.” I said and Alex shrugged his shoulders.
“I haven’t taken my medication for a while.” Alex said quietly.
“Maybe you should start taking them again.” I said and Alex sighed again.
“It wouldn’t hurt I guess.” I said and Alex nodded and the back door opened which made me and Alex look up.
Jack walked out helping Jay with his walking.
“Dada.” Jay said loudly as he saw Alex.
“Sorry, But he wants you Lex.” Jack said and Alex smiled a smile which wasn’t fake as he got out the hammock and walked over to Jack and Jay and he offered Jay his hands which Jay took and they walked Of and Jack looked at me and I smiled and he followed Alex inside and I just crawled up in the hammock and went to sleep.

“Baby, Baby wake up.” I heard someone say softly and I opened my eyes and saw Terri looking at me and I sat up and looked around and saw it was still light out.
“What?” I asked sleepily.
“It’s dinner, well I haven’t cooked it yet but I was wondering what you would like.” Terri said and I groaned loudly.
“I’m not even hungry.” I said quietly.
“Baby you haven’t eaten all day, remember what you have to do. I can’t have you going back to how you was.” Terri said and I sighed.
“I still have like 2500 calories to eat though. I can’t bring myself to eat all that.” I whispered and Terri smiled softly at me.
“It’s okay, you don’t have to eat all that. How about I make you your favorite food.” Terri said and I couldn’t help but smile.
“Chicken nuggets with one of my special salads and home made chips?” Terri asked and my belly growled loudly as I could never resist when Terri cooked that for me.
“You can’t say no because your belly has spoken, now come on and help me cook.” Terri said and I sighed and sat up and got out the hammock and followed Terri inside.

“So if your cook, does that mean you are also going to cook for little man for me?” Alex asked as Terri raised a eyebrow at him.
“Please Terri, you are literally the best cook out of us four.” Alex said as Jack walked in the room with Jay.
“Christ, I need to teach you how to cook.” Terri said and I chuckled.
“Just not right now though.” Alex said and Terri rolled her eyes.
“I’m not your bloody mother, this is a one off since I guessed everyone is hungry so I’ve cooked us all dinner.” Terri said.
“I could literally kiss you right now.” Jack said as he put Jay in his high chair and Jay started to babble as in his own way telling Terri to hurry up and feed him which I can understand because I was feeling the same.
“Yeah please don’t. The mrs is over there and so is yours.” Terri said.
“Hey who you call the woman in mine and Jack’s relationship?” Alex asked he seemed to off cheered up a bit since this morning, maybe Jack worked his magic on him and cheered him up.
“You, because you are the woman.” Terri said.
“Please, I made a baby.” Alex scoffed.
“Technically you didn’t cover your dick so that’s how the baby was made.” Jack said and Alex looked at him.
“Shush you.” Alex said and Jack just rolled his eyes as Terri dished up dinner for us.
“Right dinner is up.” Terri said as she gave Jays dinner to Alex and he cut it up and made sure it was cool enough for Jay.
Jay starting to whine about the fact he had to wait for his food.
“I know buddy, trust me if I could cry for my food then I would but sadly I can’t as I get called attention seeker.” Alex said as he blew on Jays food which made Jay bang his hands down on the table of his high chair and screamed.
“Here have your food, don’t come crying to me that you have burnt your mouth.” Alex said sarcastically and went over to Terri and got some plates and brought them over to the island.
“Jayden don’t mess with your food, just stuff it in your mouth.” Alex said and Jay just flashed Alex a smile which Alex rolled his eyes too and returned.

I was sat in my room thinking when Terri walked in the room in just her towel.
“Did you know it’s rude not to invite your girlfriend to join you in the shower.” I said and Terri chuckled as she removed her towel and I just stared at her and her tattoos.
“And did you know that what we are is against the law.” Terri said as she pulled on a oversized top.
“Please, it’s only another 2 months until I’m 16.” I said and Terri climbed into bed.
“I know but the fact I’m 18 and dating a 15 year old doesn’t exactly go down well with the law, I’m Technically a pedo.” Terri said and I couldn’t help but laugh at it.
“Jack was the same when he got with Alex.” I said.
“Technically Alex fucked whoever Jays mother is before he got with Jack.” Terri said.
“There you go, even little Alex got more action at my age then what I’m getting now.” I said and Terri rolled me over.
“We are not talking about your brother dick.” Terri said.
“But it’s true though.” I said and Terri kissed me hard.
“Dicks don’t do nothing for me. So stop talking about your brothers dick please. It’s bad enough I catch him walking around naked in the middle of the night. My eyes should not be seeing that thing flap around at 3 in the morning.” Terri said and I couldn’t help but really laugh at this.
“Don’t laugh.” Terri pouted as she poked me.
“It’s funny though.” I laughed.
“I have been scared by your brothers dick.” Terri chuckled.
“You’ve seen my dick?” Alex said from the door and we looked at him.
“Learn to put clothes on and that just possibly maybe your not the only one up at 3 in the morning.” Terri said.
“My dick is not for your eyes!” Alex pouted and Terri chuckled.
“All I can say is that Jack is a lucky guy and can I just say, the way it tilts left so cute.” Terri said and Alex looked at Terri shocked.
“Okay we are not having this conversation here, especially since my son is down the hall so not so loud if your at it.” Alex said.
“Rich coming from you.” I said and Alex just smirked at us and walked off.
“Bastard could of shut the door.” Terri said as she got off me and walked over and shut the door.
She turned round and looked at me with a smirk.
“So what do you want to do now?” Terri said as she walked over and sat on me again.

“Whatever you want.” I said quietly and Terri smiled as he lent down and kissed me.

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