Luna’s POV

I couldn’t sleep and normally when Alex was having his moments he would be wide awake and we would just watch films but since Jack has a really close eye on him Alex has been going to be which I understand as he now has Jay but the nights get lonely especially since me and Terri was fighting.

I was sat in the sitting room watching something on Netflix when someone came downstairs and I looked and saw Terri.
“Babe we need to talk.” Terri said as I turned my head back to the tv to ignore her.
After a couple of minutes of not talking Terri sighed in annoyance.
“Jesus Luna don’t act like a spoilt brat or like a child.” Terri said which made me look at her and Terri walked over and sat next to me.
“Please babe, we need to talk about this. You’re taking this out of context.” Terri said and I scoffed as I rolled my eyes.
“Taking it out of context? I am getting ready to turn off my dads life machine off and then you turn around and say that we should keep the machine on Incase he wakes up. He’s fucking dead Terri, you hear me? My dad is fucking brain dead and now me and Alex have not got anyone else we can call family. If a 15 year old can accept the fact their dad is dead then so can a 18 year old.” I said as I stood up and I went to walk off but Terri caught hold of my hand which made me look at her.
“I know you are hurting Babe but you have other options out there that’s all I’m saying. You’ve got my family to call family just like how Alex has Jack’s family. I accept it Lun I really do but you know when my other sister died if we kept the machine on for a little longer she would still be alive today. I just don’t want you or Alex to make the same mistake.” Terri said and I sighed as Terri pulled me back to sit on the sofa.
“He’s brain dead Terrance, there’s no getting better from that.” I whispered using the nickname we all gave her in the house and apparently her family call her it as well.
“I know, I just want to make sure that you and Alex are going to be okay.” Terri said as she rested her hand on my knee and I looked down at her tattooed hand and smiled as I put my hand on top of hers.
Terri moved so I went and sat on her lap.
“Come to bed babe, you are starting to look like a panda with those bags and dark circles under your eyes.” Terri said and I smiled at her.
“What a way to flatter a girl.” I said and Terri chuckled and I lent down and kissed her which she returned.
“Let’s get you to bed.” Terri whispered and I looked at her.
“I’m not Jay.” I said and Terri chuckled.
“Well you are my girlfriend and I need to look after and up you get and go to bed.” Terri said and I pouted at her.
“What if I don’t want too.” I said and a smirk found its way onto Terri’s lips and I was on my back with her between my legs.
“Bribe me with sex? Is that your way of getting me to bed?” I asked with a chuckle.
“Maybe.” Terri said as she kissed the inside of my thighs and she stood up which made me frown at her.
“Hey, you was going to give me sex.” I said and Terri chuckled.
“Sex is for the bedroom, not where a baby plays.” Terri said.
“That doesn’t stop Alex and Jack.” I said and Terri smiled.
“That’s because their man sluts and all they think about is what’s between their legs. Now since we’re ladies, we aren’t like them two.” Terri said and I couldn’t help but laugh a little because it was true about Alex and Jack.
I groaned and I stood up and Terri pulled me close to her and she kissed me.
“Love you Luna.” Terri whispered which made me smile.
“Love you too Terrance.” I whispered as well.
“Now bed.” Terri said and I rolled my eyes as Terri dragged me upstairs to our room.

I woke up alone in bed but I could hear Jay laughing downstairs and I rolled out of bed and went downstairs where Jack was messing with Jay.
“Where’s Alex and Terri?” I yawned and Jack looked at me.
“Alex is at the studio and Terri has gone to work so I’ve been left in charge with you two.” Jack said and I frowned at him.
“I don’t need looking after.” I said and Jack raised his eyebrow at me.
“Honestly Jack.” I said and Jack shook his head.
“Alex’s instructions.” Jack said and I rolled my eyes.
“He needs to stop being so protective.” I said and Jack chuckled.
“It’s a older sibling thing. Both of mine are really protective over me. Also Alex just doesn’t want to see you get hurt.” Jack said and I nodded as Jay wobbly walked over to me and I picked him up and balanced him on my hip.
“I know it is but there’s being protective and then there’s being ridiculous.” I said and Jack chuckled slightly.
“We all know Alex and we know how protective he can be, Christ you should it when someone looks at me and Jay for too long.” Jack said and I smiled and looked at Jay.
“Buts that’s because your both handsome, but Jay has the better looks.” I said and Jack chuckled as I put Jay on the floor.
“Well thanks.” Jack said sarcastically which made me chuckle and Jack walked over and put some cereal with a banana on top in front of me.
“So you giving me food now? Okay what the fuck have you and brother have planned.” I said and Jack smiled.
“Alex wants me to make sure you’re eating.” Jack said and I just rolled my eyes.
“I told him I was maintaining. In fact I have been putting weight on which is bloody scary for me but I’m over coming that.” I said and Jack had this proud smile on his face.
“Did Terri say she was coming back for my appointment today? I kinda need a lift to the hospital.” I said and Jack frowned.
“Christ are you like the CSI or something?” I asked and Jack chuckled again.
“I’m not the CSI but if Alex really thinks about moving and convinces himself that he wants to move then he wants to make sure you are okay. The states is a long way from here and he wants to make sure you are 100% in recovery before he even thinks about moving.” Jack said and I smiled but at the same time my heart broke a little.
“Hey, I know you and Alex are close and if you wanted to move with us if we move then you are more than welcomed to come with us.” Jack said and I looked at him.
“I don’t want to be like this Jack. I want to get better and get over this but it’s taking so long and relapse is so much closer than Recovery. But I don’t want to relapse because I don’t ever want to be back to that person I was when mum died. I have a nephew and I want to be part of his life. I have Terri as well, Yeah she being super supportive in all of this but at the same time I’m worried that she’ll leave because I have too much baggage, or that I get too fat for her to like me.” I said and Jack looked around for Jay and he spotted him raiding the cupboards with the pots and pans and he left him to it and he sat round the island opposite me.
“I know you don’t want this and you feel like you are a burden to the world. I know because being around you and Alex I have learnt a awful lot. But recovery is so worth it. I mean Alex was on the verge of killing himself when I got with him and his self harming was out of control. Now look at him, despite having his down days like a normal person with bipolar he’s recovered and now he has his life in his hands and he’s enjoying life. That’s what you focus on, you focus on everything you will be missing out on if you relapse. You are a strong young lady who has been through a lot already. Terri worships the ground you walk on. She wouldn’t leave you if you got fat, despite her annoying accent I think you have a good long happy relationship. If she loves you as much as you love her then she won’t care about baggage. Just like how much I love Alex and he has tons of baggage and he also has Jay. Baggage doesn’t stop people from loving the person they love.” Jack said and I smiled at him.
I got off my chair and walked round the island and over to Jack where I hugged him and Jack returned my hug.
“You’ve got this and you’re gonna kick it’s butt.” Jack said and I chuckled and I pulled back and looked at him.
“Damn why do you have to be in a relationship with my brother?” I asked as I let Jack go and Jack chuckled.
“Because only dick floats my boat just like how tits and other lady parts float your boat.” Jack said and I could help but laugh.
“Why are guys so awkward about saying vagina?” I asked.
“Because I don’t like going down on that. My dick only goes in assholes and mouths. Well Alex’s ass and mouth is better to be honest.” Jack said and I gagged playfully.
“I don’t want to fucking know Jack.” I said and he chuckled.
“Now eat your breakfast as Terri will be here in an hour to take you to your appointment.” Jack said and he got up and walked off.
“Yes mother hen.” I said after him and Jay started to make as much noise as he could.

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I was sat with Terri waiting for me to get called into my appointment.
“Why didn’t you wake me up this morning?” I asked and Terri looked at me.
“Because you looked so peaceful and I didn’t want to wake you up.” Terri said and I smiled at her.
“I wouldn’t mind.” I said and Terri chuckled.
“I’ve heard how Alex shouts at Jack when he wakes him up. I know for a fact you are a female version of Alex.” Terri said and I frowned at her.
“No I’m not.” I said and Terri looked at me.
“Yeah you are now don’t argue with me.” Terri said and I rolled my eyes at her.
“Remember what I said about rolling your eyes at me.” Terri whispered in my ear and I bit my lip as I gazed my eyes down.
“Luna Gaskarth.” A nurse said and I looked up and looked at Terri.
“Come with me please.” I asked and Terri smiled as she nodded and stood up offering me her hand which I took and we went to where we needed to be.

I sat in the chair while Terri was leaning against the wall.
“Miss Gaskarth, how has the last 2 weeks been?” My doctor asked and I shrugged my shoulders.
“They’ve been okay, found out that my dad is dead but other than it’s been okay.” I said and the doctor wrote that down and he looked at me.
“How are you coping with that?” He asked and I frowned.
“Pretty good, I’m still maintaining and I think I have even put weight on.” I said and the doctor smiled at me as he looked through the journal I had to write to show what I’ve been eating and all that.
“That’s really good. How do you feel about the weight gain?” He asked and I looked at Terri and she smiled at me and I looked back at the doctor.
“A little freaked out, but I have the support of my family and they help me get through it and make sure I stick to the meal plan I have and all that.” I said and the doctor nodded.
“You know the drill don’t you?” The doctor asked and I sighed loudly and nodded as I stood up and walked over to the scales and since I’m not allowed to weigh myself between appointments I was almost scared to see what I weighed now.
I stood on the scales and looked at what I weighed and I was disappointed at the fact I lost as I haven’t done anything different to make me lose.
“You know the deal Luna if you lose weight then you will get readmitted again.” The doctor said and I looked at Terri for help.
“She’s been eating. She’s does her normal exercise like going for a run twice a day but that’s it. Luna has been doing really well and there’s no reason for her to be losing weight.” Terri said and I smiled at her.
“Are you taking any pills? Like diet pills or anything to make you lose weight?” The doctor asked and I shook my head.
“No, the only pills I take is a multi vitamin tablet and my anti depressants and that’s it.” I said and Terri walked over.
“Luna doesn’t take diet pills, she doesn’t purge after she’s eaten. She’s improving compared to when I first got with her.” Terri said and the doctor nodded.
“I would like you to come back next week just so we can see if you really are back to gaining or if you’ve lost and then you’ll have to be admitted.” The doctor said and I sighed and nodded as I stood up.
The doctor gave me some paper work and we went home.

We got home and Alex was home but I didn’t want to talk to anyone so I went straight upstairs and sat on my bed and lead on Terri’s side of the bed and I felt myself cry.
A few moments later someone knocked on my door and I looked up and saw Alex standing by the door.
“May I come in?” Alex asked and I sniffed as I raised my head up and nodded and Alex walked over and lead on my bed and faced me.
“I swear I’ve been sticking to everything which we agreed to Lex. I swear on mums grave that I haven’t relapsed.” I sobbed and Alex pulled me closer to him and held me close to him as I cried into his chest.
“I know.” Alex whispered and I looked at him.
“They said they would admit me back into hospital if I don’t gain by next week.” I sobbed and Alex smiled at me and wiped some tears from my cheeks.
“Well that’s not going to happen because we both know that I wouldn’t let that happen.” Alex said and I smiled at him.
“Maybe having Jay has done you some good.” I said and Alex smiled.
“Nope, it’s called manning up and be the man of the house and that means protecting you guys from harms way or hospital administration.” Alex said and I smiled and shuffled closer to Alex.
“I swear I haven’t done anything I shouldn’t do. I want to get better Lex.” I said quietly and Alex started to mess with my hair.
“I know you want to get better and I know you are trying really hard. You just need to focus on proving them that you can do this without being in hospital.” Alex said softly.
“I wish mum was here Lex.” I sobbed into his chest and Alex kissed the top of my head and held me close.
“I know Lun, I wish the same.” Alex sadly as he rested his head against mine.
“When should we turn dads machine off?” I asked and looked at Alex.
“I don’t know.” Alex whispered and I know we both are secretly hoping that dad was going to wake up and walk through the door.
“What do the doctors say?” I sniffed as Alex kept most of this information to himself.
“They’re not saying much. Just saying that dad is comfortable and their looking after him for us and when we’re ready to say bye then all we have to do is say and they’ll be with us every step.” Alex said and I smiled sadly and cuddled back into Alex’s chest.
“Love you Lex.” I said quietly and Alex kissed the top of my head.
“Love you too Lun.” Alex said quietly and we stayed like this for a while until I fell asleep.

When I woke up Terri was sat on the bed playing this game she had on the Xbox and I rolled over and cuddled into her side.
“You coming to have some dinner?” Terri asked quietly and I sighed loudly as I looked at her.
“I don’t want to but I know I need to so I don’t end up in hospital.” I said quietly.
Terri kissed my forehead which made me smile sadly at her.
“You can do and prove everyone wrong about you.” Terri said quietly and I nodded.
“I would say I would take you clubbing with me but since your still well under age I guess Jack will have to be my wing man still.” Terri said and I couldn’t help but chuckle because since me and Alex was both going out with over 18 it means we have to find other ways to get drunk while their out at a club.
“It’s fine, I’m sure that Jay will cheer me up some how.” I said and Terri rolled me into my back and she sat on me as she smiled at me and lent down and kissed me.
“I love you.” Terri said against my lips which made me smile as I kissed her back.
“I love you too.” I whispered and I heard someone walk into my room.
“If I knew girl on girl action was happening then I would of knocked.” Jack said and I chuckled as Terri sat back up and looked at Jack.
“Maybe having the door shut was a hint.” Terri said and Jack just rolled his eyes at us.
“Whatever, just keep the noise down. Alex has just put Jay down for the night.” Jack said and I smiled at him as he returned my smiled and he walled out the room.
“As much as sex Sounds good, but you are still a minor and until you hit 16 I can’t do nothing but kiss you but even that is wrong. So in the mean time I’m taking you downstairs and you are going to have your dinner which Jack made you.” Terri said and I pouted at her.
“Just another month and then we can do whatever we want.” Terri said and kissed me again and she got off me and I watched her put some shorts on since she was just in a hoodie and pants.
“Come on babe, it’s really nice what Jack has made us.” Terri said and I just groaned loudly and rolled out of bed and wrapped myself up in my dressing gown as I live in my dressing gown.

I walked downstairs and Terri and Jack was messing around in the kitchen while Alex just watched looking a bit down.
“You do know them two are the most gayest twats that I know.” I said as I picked at my food and Alex looked at me.
“Come on, you seriously don’t think Jack would cheat on you? He fucking loves you Lex and he loves Jay as well. You are letting your head get the better of you.” I said and Alex sighed which was never a good sign.
“You won’t understand, you and Terri are still in the honeymoon phase.” Alex said and I chuckled and has a mouthful off food.
“Trust me the honeymoon period has been and gone.” I said with a mouthful of food and I looked over and saw that Terri had finished with their play fight they was ha OMG and Jack was staring at Alex just how he did when he first got with Alex.
“He still looks at you like he did when you first got together. He still wants to fuck your ass whenever he can.” I said quietly and Alex looked at me and smiled at me.
“Movie night guys?” Jack asked as he walked over and stood close to Alex and he kissed the top of his head.
“Ask Terrance.” I said and Alex got off the stool and quickly pecked Jack on the lips and walked over to Terri.
“What did he say to you?” Jack asked seriously.
“He’s worried that your going to cheat on him but don’t worry I have told him that you would never do such a thing.” I said and Jack sighed.
“And he moans about me being worried that he’s going to cheat on me.” Jack said.
“Swear you two are like a married couple.” I said as I finished my food and put it in the dishwasher and turned it on for the night and walked over to Jack just and Alex and Terri joined us.

I was cuddled into Terri’s side enjoying watching the film and I looked over and saw Jack was on his phone with Alex both looking at something and not paying attention to the film.
“Are you even paying any attention toon to the film?” I asked quietly as Terri had fallen asleep.
“Yes we are, but then Jack found goats on Facebook so we are now watching goat videos.” Alex said and I rolled my eyes with a smile and I went back to watching the film.

When I looked up again everyone was asleep so I just cuddled more into Terri side and watched more films until I fell asleep.

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