Boys don’t cry.

Jack’s POV

Alex was busy cleaning the house while I was busy looking after Jay who was enjoying me blowing raspberries on his belly which was making him laugh a lot.
“When your daddy get cleaning he does do a good job.” I said and Jay babbled as he crawled off and made a b-line to Alex who was in the kitchen and I forgot to put the child gate across.
“Jayden get here.” I said as I got up and walked over to him but Jay thought this was a game and was laughing.
“Alex your child is making his way to the kitchen.” I said loud enough for him to hear me and he walked out the kitchen where Jay sat on his bum and looked at Alex with a huge smile on his face as he caught hold of Alex’s jeans and pulled himself up to stand and Alex smiled at him.
“You’re doing a crap job in looking after the baby.” Alex chuckled as he picked Jay up and put him in his baby walker thing.
“Well he missed his daddy.” I said and Alex looked at me and smirked.
“Dada.” Jay said and Alex looked at him.
“What’s up little man?” Alex asked and Jay pointed to me.
“Mama.” Jay said and I raised a eyebrow.
“Nope, that’s not your mama, that’s papa.” Alex said and I looked at him as Alex got down to Jays level and was messing with him and I couldn’t help but brake out into a huge smile.
“Go and chase papa around while I do some more house work and then we can go and see auntie Luna.” Alex said and Jay looked at me and ran after me and I chuckled and got up and jogged around the house with Jay following me laughing his head off.

Jay had just crashed while me and Alex drove to the hospital so we made the most of it and talked about anything which isn’t baby talk.
“You sure you want me to be another dad to Jay?” I asked and I felt Alex’s eyes on me which made me quickly look at him and smile before I focused back on the road.
“Yeah, you have adopted him Jack. He’s our little boy and we love him to bits.” Alex said and I nodded.
“Can’t believe he called you mama.” Alex chuckled and I chuckled as well.
“All I have to do is tuck my dick between my legs and grow some boobs and then I can be a woman.” I said and Alex laughed.
“No don’t get rid of your dick. I love it too much.” Alex said and shook my leg gently.
“You are bloody disgusting.” I chuckled as I felt Alex smirk at me.
“God yeah baby.” Alex said and I just rolled my eyes and we got to the hospital.

Jay had hold of Alex’s fingers and was walking slowly while I was pushing his pushchair for when he got tired.
“Dada.” Jay said as he stopped and looked at Alex who smiled at him and picked him up and balanced him on his hip.
“You are going to be a ladies man when your older.” Alex chuckled as he kissed Jays cheek which made him laugh when Alex blew a raspberry on his cheek.
“Shell we go and see Luna?” Alex asked as we stopped by the cafe so we could get coffee which we both needed.
“Yeah.” Jay said which made a couple of people look at us as Alex messed around with Jay which made me smile as I got us coffee.

We got to Luna room and we walked in where Luna was packing the last of her things with the help from Terri which Alex looked pleased about.
Alex put Jay on the bed and pulled Luna into a huge hug which Luna returned and they stayed like this for a couple of minutes while Jay managed to pull out one of Luna bras and was messing with it.
“Oi you, that’s mine.” Luna chuckled as she sat on the bed and picked Jay up and forced him to have a cuddle with him.
Alex stood close next to me and I put my hand in his back pocket which made Alex look at me and smiled which I returned as Alex rested his head on my shoulder.
“Have you heard how dad is?” Luna asked as she looked at Alex.
“No, I have been busy with Jay and looking after the studio and making sure that Jack doesn’t kill Jay or burn the house down.” Alex said and Luna smiled as she looked at Jay.
“I need to see dad Lex.” Luna said quietly and Alex moved from my side and Terri came over and we just looked at our other half’s as they looked after each other.
“When you get out of here, I’ll leave Jay with Jack and I’ll take you too see dad.” Alex said softly and Luna nodded and hugged Alex which Alex returned and Jay joined in the cuddle as well.
“We’ll leave you two to have some time to yourselves, we’ll just be outside.” I said and Alex nodded as Jay pulled himself up to stand again.
“He’s gotten so big Lex.” Luna sniffed and Alex smiled as he looked at me.
“Want me to take Jay with us?” I asked and Alex nodded and I walked over to Jay and picked him up.
“Let’s go and see what we can get Grandpa while daddy and Luna talk.” I said and Jay just head butted my shoulder which made me chuckle.

Me and Terri was sat having coffee since I forgot mine in Luna room. Jay was sat on my lap enjoying some food I got him since he was hungry.
“Is Alex and Luna dad going to be okay Jack? I’ve been telling Luna that he is fine but the more I say it and she’s in the room the less she believes me.” Terri said as she messed with her drink.
“I have no idea. The last thing I heard was that he was still in ICU but I have t really heard of anything since. Like Alex said he’s been busy making sure the studio doesn’t go under as well as looking after Jay and I’ve been busy with work so neither of us had time to come here and see Peter.” I said and Terri sighed.
“After what they’ve both been through they don’t need this.” Terri whispered as she stared at Jay who was babbling away to his sandwich.
“It would kill the pair off them. I know Alex almost did when their mum died but I managed to be the one who saved him. If something was to happen to Peter then god knows what will happen.” I said and I kissed the top of Jays head who looked at me with a big smile and offered me a bit of his sandwich which I took as it was being forced into my mouth.
“Cheers Jay, slobber sandwich just what I wanted.” I said and Terri chuckled.
“He’s so cute.” Terri said quietly and I smiled and I felt my phone go off and it was Alex saying that he was with Luna with his dad.
“If you want to go up and be with Luna then you can, their with Peter right now.” I said and Terri nodded as she finished her drink and she cleared up for me as I cleaned Jay up who was protesting loudly.
“Hey, none of that otherwise you won’t see Grandpa.” I said and Jay frowned at me.
“That’s right bud, lets go see grandpa.” I said and got up and put Jay in his pushchair in case he fell asleep as it was after lunch and he is due to have a nap now which I don’t blame him.

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We got Luna home and Terri said that she would stay until Luna is better so that was one less worry for me and Alex to worry about.
“Jayden, don’t you even think about it.” Alex said seriously as Jay has now discovered the electric sockets.
I watched Alex and he had this serious look on his face and didn’t take his eyes on Jay and Jay turned the switch off and Alex got up and picked Jay up who started to cry as he wiggled in Alex’s arms and he put Jay in his play pen.
“I told you no for a reason so stop the water works as it’s not going to work. So you can chill in here and watch a film.” Alex said seriously and Jay looked at me as Alex walked back to me and cuddled into my side.
“Sorry buddy, daddy has spoken.” I said and Luna looked at me from where she was sat next to Terri.
“God don’t call Alex daddy.” Luna said and Alex chuckled.
“It could be a kink.” I said and looked at Alex who frowned at me.
“Oh yeah just choke me daddy.” Alex said sarcastically as he got up and I looked at him with a frown and I caught hold of his hand which made Alex look at me.
“Talk outside?” I asked quietly and Alex nodded as he bent down and looked through my pockets for my cigarettes and lighter and once he found then he went off outside.
“Has Lex been okay Jack?” Luna asked and I looked at her and nodded.
“Yeah he’s been okay. Can you keep an eye on Jay?” I said and Luna smiled as she nodded and I went outside.

Alex was sat by the pool so I sat next to him as I took my shoes and socks off and rolled my trousers up and put my feet in the water next to Alex’s.
“You okay babe?” I asked softly and Alex sighed loudly.
“I don’t know Jack.” Alex whispered and I looked at him and Alex was looking down at the pool.
“Talk to me baby.” I said and Alex looked at me.
“His brain isn’t responding to anything they do.” Alex whispered.
“Baby I’m sorry.” I said quietly and pulled Alex into my side.
“As if it wasn’t bad enough that mum got killed in an accident now dad is also dead from an accident. How the fuck are me and Luna so unlucky?” Alex said as he moved away from me.
“I don’t know babe.” I sighed and Alex looked at me.
“I can’t tell Luna.” Alex whispered and I frowned at him confused.
“Luna was sat with dad when the doctor pulled me out the room and said there was nothing more they can do. I’m not ready to do this Jack, Luna has only just recovered from anorexia if I tell her this then it will ruin here and she will relapse and I cant have her doing that.” Alex said and he sniffed and a few tears fell and I got my feet out the water and I walked behind Alex and picked him up so he was stood up.
Alex looked at me confused and I cupped his face in my hand and I kissed him softly which Alex returned.
“She has Terri this time, Terri will help her through this.” I said softly and Alex rested his head on my shoulder and hugged me which I returned and kissed the side of his head.
“The main question is you.” I said and Alex pulled back and looked at me confused.
“What do you mean by that?” Alex asked.
“Lex you was a mess when you lost your mum and you was close to her but you are also really close to your dad. You was bad when your mum past and I worried you are going to get so down that I can’t get you back.” I said feeling all my emotions about what is happening towards Alex bubble to my chest.
“We have Jay now, I can’t let myself get down because it wouldn’t be fair on him.” Alex said with a sniff.
“You shouldn’t be worrying about me Jack, I am fine.” Alex said and I frowned at him as I knew this wasn’t true.
“I do worry about you Alex, I worry about you all the time because I love you. I also know you aren’t fine Lex, please talk to me.” I said and Alex sighed as he rested his head on my chest.
“I don’t know what to do Jack.” Alex whispered.
“You do what you have to do. You need to tell Luna what is happening and that your dad isn’t going to wake up.” I said and Alex sniffed and looked at me.
Alex just broke down and I pulled him into my chest and held him close to me.
“Alex?” Luna said carefully and I looked at her.
“What going on?” Luna asked as she got closer to us.
“Alex has something he got to say to you.” I said and Alex pulled back and looked at me and I kissed his forehead.
“Take a deep breath and tell her. I’ll give you both some space.” I said quietly and Alex took a deep breath and nodded.
“I’ll sort the baby out. Take as long as you need.” I said and Alex nodded again and I let him go and walked off to sort Jay out.

I was in the middle of feeding Jay when Luna and Alex both came into the kitchen.
“How could you fucking keep something like that from me! I’m his child as well, I needed to know what is going on with dad as well!” Luna shouted which made Jay jump and look at me.
“Because I was protecting you! I can’t have you going back to how you was when mum died! You almost starved yourself to death Luna, not only did me and dad lose mum but we almost fucking lost you as well! I kept it from you because I don’t want you to go down that road again!” Alex shouted back.
“I don’t need fucking protecting Alexander!” Luna screamed which Jay didn’t like and he started to cry and Alex looked at Jay with sorry eyes and I picked him up and held him close to me.
“It’s okay.” I whispered in his ear.
“Yes you bloody do! Christ sake Luna you are still a child.” Alex snapped.
“So are you.” Luna said sarcastically.
“I’m almost 18. I’m more of a adult than you. So I will stand my bloody ground and say that you do need protecting.” Alex said seriously and I just looked at him as before Jay, Alex wouldn’t be like this.
“Whatever, I’m going to the hospital.” Luna scoffed as she walked past Alex who grabbed hold of her arm and Luna spun round and slapped him hard round the face and that’s when she came back to her sense.
“Oh my god, Alex I’m so sorry.” Luna said and Alex looked at her hard.
“Get the fuck away from me before I fucking slap you back.” Alex growled and Luna looked down and walked off and I heard the front door shut.
“Still think it was a good idea to tell her? Well that idea was fucking stupid.” Alex said and he walked off and I heard the front door slam shut and I sighed loudly and looked at Jay.
“So many grumpy people.” I said as I walked out the kitchen and went to mine and Alex’s room and sat Jay next to me and we had a movie night.

I was just falling asleep when someone walked in the room and I looked and saw a drunk Alex.
I looked at Jay and he was fast asleep beside me.
“Where the fuck have you been?” I asked quietly as I picked Jay up and took him to his room quickly and went back to our room where Alex was struggling to get out of his clothes.
“Help me.” Alex pouted and I shook my head.
“Tell me where you was.” I said seriously and Alex rolled his eyes.
“I didn’t sleep with anyone. I got myself a bottle of cider and went to our spot and drank the cider and got a bit drunk.” Alex said and I frowned at him not quite believing him.
“Baby honestly, I won’t dream on doing that to you. I love you and you know I love you and want to be with you forever.” Alex said sounding like he’s about to lose it.
“I can’t lose you Jack. I’ve lost mum and I’m losing dad and Luna probably wants to disown me. Please I can’t lose you too.” Alex started to sob and my heart broke a little and I walked over to him and held him close to me and I smelt him and he smelt like Alex and of me since he was wearing my clothes.
“I’m going no where okay babe. It’s me and you against the world.” I said softly and move my hand so I could mess with his hair.
“I love you too Lex.” I whispered in his ear and kissed his cheek and Alex sniffed as he pulled back and looked at me.
I kissed him which Alex returned and soon we was making out and I moved us towards the bed.

We was just about to take each other out of our clothes when Jay started to cry through the monitor which made Alex sigh.
“Please child just let me have sex.” Alex said and I chuckled and kissed him a couple of times which Alex returned.
“Can the baby come into bed with us?” I asked and Alex nodded as he smiled.
I got out of bed and went to Jay and picked him up.
“Your lucky that daddy is a bit drunk, otherwise you won’t be coming into bed with us.” I said as I walked back to our room where Alex was just pulled his top off and I had to hold back a moan.
“Damn why do you look so sexy.” I said and Alex turned round and smirked at me.
“Because I am.” Alex said as he walked over to me.
“You aren’t stilling my man tonight, I’m having cuddles from him.” Alex said as he took Jay from me and Jay gently head butted Alex’s shoulder and started to coo which made Alex smile and he kissed the top of his head.
“Love you little man.” Alex whispered and held Jay close to him and he looked at me.
“Climb into bed and I be there in a second.” I said and Alex nodded and he climbed into bed putting Jay by the wall which was Alex’s side of the bed and he rolled onto his side and was just watching Jay settle down while I went downstairs.
“Is Alex home?” Luna asked as she jogged over to me as I stood at the bottom of the stairs blocking her a little.
“He is home but he is a bit drunk and he’s in bed with Jay.” I said and Luna looked down.
“Can you ask him if he can speak to me?” Luna asked.
“Luna, Alex is in bed with his son and he has been drinking. Now I’m not going to argue with you at this time of night and waking Jay up again. You can speak to Alex in the morning when he has slept on his emotions and hopefully he will be in a better mood.” I said and Luna just nodded and walked back towards the kitchen where Terri was standing.
Terri smiled and nodded at me which I returned and I turned around and went back upstairs too Alex’s room.
I walked into the room and pulled my top and trousers off.
“Hope your not thinking about sleeping naked.” I heard Alex mumble as I walked over to the bed and climbed into bed and cuddled into Alex’s back.
“Don’t worry, my dick is covered.” I said and Alex chuckled quietly.
“Good.” Alex mumbled and I looked over Alex’s shoulder and found Jay flat out on his back with arms above his head just like how Alex sleeps when I wasn’t being big spoon.
“Christ can tell he is your son.” I muttered to myself as I lead down and pulled Alex closer to me which made him sigh loudly but he stayed asleep.
I put the tv on really quietly and watched something until it lulls me to sleep.

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