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Touch of winter

03-Poison

[First person POV Olivia]

"Are you feeling alright? Liv?" Alex inquired, referring to the full plate of food that sat in front of me, taunting me. After the little incident at my house, I've been eating in front of him but using the Exlax sometime after. "I'm divine, don't fret, Alex" He nodded "Just feeling Ill is all" He smiled "So long as you're good" I nodded, trying to mask the unignorable dizzyness I felt. Sure I was eating less, But my weight wasn't moving. Or I thought I wasn't.

"Have you lost weight, Olivia?" Alex questioned "Maybe a little" I offered, taking a sip of my ginger ale "well you look good" I smiled triumphantly "I appreciate that, Lex, Thank you" "My pleasure" He grinned cheesily. I knew I could do better though. And that's what brought me to the drug store...

Looking at all the diet pills. That promised weight loss, or to burn fat. Only one way to confirm what they're preaching though. I bought my bottle, after a concerned look from the cashier I was on my way back home, It was super cold even though I pretty sure when I left Alex's house the temperature was +8*celcius* out...

It was like the snowflakes kissed my skin and left winter in their wake.

I shivered as I stepped into the heat of my home. "Momma?" I called out to the otherwise empty house. No answer... I walked into the kitchen and saw a note. Saying she was gone on a work trip. as per usual.

I know, I've seen multiple posts on how bad diet pills can be for people. But I just couldn't help it.
How about we stop eating?
Only five hundred calories a week, that's a hundred cals a day and two fast days plus 2 diet pills a day.
On top of that your workouts.
Then Alex will think your perfect, Then Alex will like you


__ This facade went on for weeks, Faking how fine I was, Lying to Alex...
Skipping school and eating the diet pills like they were candy.

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"What has gotten into you?!" Alex all but shouted, standing in the doorway of my home, the half blizzard outside behind him, whipping the bitter wind inside my slightly warm home, or who knows it could be very warm, I was just cold "What do you mean?" I was perplexed as to what he meant "Can I come in? Liv?" He sighed, I stepped aside and let my distraught friend inside.

"Olivia. I'm worried" I laughed at his comment "About what, Alex? Another swine again?" I asked he shook his head "About... About you..." His voice wavered, my face fell "Al-Alex why?" he swallowed thickly and opened his mouth before closing it again, tears arose in his beautiful eyes "Ca-...Can I see your arms?" now I was lost "Alex? do you have an arm kink?" I tried joking "GOD DAMN IT OLIVIA PLEASE, YOU HAVE ME WORRIED SICK, YOU NEED TO STOP WITH THE JOKES AND SMART ASS REMARKS, PLEASE!?" He all but sobbed out "I'm just trying to figure out what my arms have to do with our conversating... Lex" I informed, "You flinch, every time I touch you, You're always in sweaters even in math class, the hottest room in our school!" He stood up and ran his fingers through his hair, I stood after him and crossed my arms "I still don't see what that has to do wi-"

I was cut off by Alex ripping the sweater over my head and tossing it on the couch. He grabbed my arms and examined them "I don't... I don't get it then wh-" He cut himself off, staring at my abdomen. This action causing anxiety to spark inside of me. I pulled away harshly and wrapped my arms around myself "Stop staring, I get it I'm fat" I choked out, Alex's face fell more. If possible and his face whitened "yo- WHAT!?" my eyes widened "OLIVIA!" he cried desperately "You Are So Tiny" He continued.

I shook my head "Alex st-stop" I choked out "You told me you were eating!" He accused "I am, You saw me eat!" I argued back he shook his head "Then what, did you throw them up?" I looked down "No... Alex... Why are you being so harsh right now..." He let out a shout of frustration "You are killing yourself!" my face fell more... "You are my best fri-" "YEAH AND THAT'S THE FUCKING PROBLEM, ALEXANDER!" I screamed, his eyes widened at his full name and the sudden outburst "Wh-What..." I could see the tears in his eyes but I was to mad to see the choice of words hurt him, I kept screaming, I wasn't thinking.

"THE PROBLEM IS, WERE ONLY FUKCING FRIENDS AND TIME AFTER TIME I HAVE TO WACHT YOU GET WITH CUNTS AND YOU CRY TO ME, IT HURTS EVEN FUCKING MORE BECAUSE I KNOW YOU DONT THINK OF ME ANY OTHER GOD DAMN FUCKING WAY THAN JUST A FUCKING FRIEND AT THAT, ALEXANDER, IS THE FUCKING PROBLEM" He was in shock. I let out a sob and ran out of my own house, grabbing my sweater on my way out.

I didn't even know where I was running to, I was just running. I needed to get away from him, from the house, from this fucking town.

My slippers didnt have enough grip and I ended up slipping and tumbling down a hill, into a small forest.

'good enough'

And imagine all the calories you just burned, I mean do you even know where you are? You ran for a good hour. Good on you!


Not the right time Ana...

I let out a small sob, knowing Alex wouldn't come looking for me after what I had just said...
Why did I have to always fuck up? I'm so fucking stupid I couldn't have just left well enough alone because at least I had Alex in my life...

It was much colder than I thought, or that could just be because I'm in a sweater...
Either way, the cold was getting to me and I was feeling extremely weak...

Resting my head on a tree stump I slipped my eyes closed... But wait, I couldn't just stay here, I rolled my head and saw a small shack.

Slowly I got up and walked over there. Maybe the shelter will prolong my life a little...

I collapsed beside the wall and let out a heavy breath. The cold seeping into my bones, Making me numb...

"Olivia, Pl-please!" I heard... Or thought I heard Alex yell... But my mind was just playing tricks on me.

"FUCK OLIVIA, WHERE ARE YOU!"

I knew I was alone... I knew it... But I called out any way to ease myself

"A-A-Ale-Lex..."

It wasn't all too loud but I heard someone curs lewdly and twigs breaking rapidly.

"Oh fuck..." I heard closer now, I felt a hand on my face "Lo-Look at me" but I don't think I could...

"Olivia, Love please" My heart swelled and I leaned my face into the warm hand "M'cold" I whispered "I'm gonna get you warm, Liv. I promise. Just stay with me. Please.

I felt my weight being shifted and I heard Alex breathe in sharply and mumble something about being way to thin.

What felt like moments later I was hit with a wall of heat. A blanket was then wrapped around me and I was pulled into a chest.

"Ho-How dare you" I mumbled "You ca-cant just come back after I ye-yell my feelings out, When I kn-know you don't feel the sa-same, DO you kn-know how stupid I fe-" I was cut off by a pair of lips, he kissed me with so much passion.


"Ya know" Alex mumbled into the kiss "If it's calories your worried about. Sex burns calories, And your mom n sister are out of town" He smirked. I did as well.

He moved so he was above me and my legs were wrapped around his waist.

"Topping with burn more calories"

I flipped us around and Alex groaned at the new pressureand that started 45 minutes of pure bliss.

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"Holy. Shit." Alex breathed out "Same" I breathed "For the record... I like you too" Alex admitted... I nodded "Good, at least I know this want pity sex... This... Wasnt. Pitty was it?" Alex's head snapped towards mine "Fuck no, Liv... I promise. This was pure, 100% love. I love you, Olivia. I always have loved you" Alex pressed.

He's lying. Sure he loves you, but he will love you more when you're thin

I shook my head lightly "I love you too"
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"Here ya go, Your burger and fries" Alex smiled placing my food down in front of me.

I discreetly took one of the diet pills I've been taking "What was that?" Alex questioned "Oh nothing.. Heh. Just a pain pill is all" I lied, He nodded "Okay"

He was clueless. For about three weeks he was clueless. That's until one night I was in pain and had him get me my pain pills.

"Are you sure you're okay, Livvy?" I shook my head "Can you go into my drawer and get me my pills" I whined "Yea sure"

I heard some rummaging around, and then his breath hitched "Olivia." His voice was harsh... Oh, fuck my diet pills.

"Yeah lex?" I questioned, acting nonchalant "What. The hell. Is this?" I bit my lip and rolled over to face him "My uh... My diet pills?" he shook his head "This crap is like poison. Liv, it kills your liver and you could end up sick or dead!" I shook my head "I'll be fine Alex" He nodded "You're right. You will be" He picked the bottle up and walked to my window, I sat up "ALEX?!" I shouted as he dumped my pills out the window and into the snow "I'm not letting these pills kill you, and I'm not letting you kill yourself! because you think you are fat. What you are is insane and it needs to stop!"

My eyes widened "Excuse me?"

"Not you yourself. The way you're acting is insane" He mumbled "Can I just... Have my pain pills now" I sighed, he tossed them at me.

"Please, Stop this" He pleaded sitting down on the side of my bed "I'll try... For you"

Notes

Ayyy, how is everyone?

Comments

Oooh, okay, thanks for clarifying!
Great job with this new update! Very intense, though, with the nightmare. :O I wonder how much this will affect her and her way of thinking... it's hard to say.
But that's sweet how he knew he needed to be there for her. :) <3
And interested in seeing what you mean when you say the stuff coming up will be angsty. Hmm... Feel like that story has already had that kind of mood going, along with a bit dreary.
Excited to see more! :)
Oh, and random question, when you said "no hydro"... did that mean "no power"? I've just never heard the term hydro before so I wanted to clarify. Maybe it's a regional thing. XD

Nanook Nanook
3/15/18

@Nanook
I was just about to start the chapter i just updated and somehow posted just the first part of it so had to delete it right quick, because all it said was "First person POV Olivia" and thats not much of a story lol, its fully updated now though love XX

Hmm... so, for some reason, I got an update notification for this a few days ago. Maybe because you went back and edited? I'm having a hard time remembering it before the update notification. lol.
But I reread everything again and I do remember it's pretty much the same stuff I read before, so... again, maybe you were editing something and so it sent me one, lol.
I know you were working on your other one, but if you do continue this one, I'll be here to read as well.

Nanook Nanook
3/11/18