What you do to me

Baltimore has a cool, crisp feeling in the air when the sun drops and the day turns into night, a cup of hot chocolate and the stars may seem like the perfect fall night but my night didn't start off like this. I have a few missed calls and unanswered texts from Jack, he had to have known he fucked up...again but this time he really did it. It all started with some simple texts from a blonde girl but it escalated quickly and I found out they were meeting up when he told me he was hanging out with Nano but Jack's cover story soon blew when Nano came to me and told me the real story about Jack and this blonde, who I soon discovered had a name and her name was Blake, nothing hurt more than discovering that you've spent fourteen years loving a man who fed you bullshit stories over and over again because maybe he thought you were too naive to figure out the real story.

When I heard the sound of a vehicle I immediately scooted the puppy into the house and closed the door behind me because I knew something wicked this way would come. As I rinsed out my mug the front door opened and closed as Jack made his way through the house, calling my name before he found me in the kitchen. His hand rested on my side as he stood behind me, I resisted the temptation to pull my body away instead I kept my cool and turned around to face the significantly taller man.

"Why didn't you answer any of texts or calls? Nano said you were trying to get ahold of me but you wouldn't respond after."

"You forgot your wallet on the dresser, I figured maybe you'd need it if you went to the bar with Nano because it's not common for someone to take a friend out for drinks and not take his wallet to pay."

I looked Jack as his facial expression changed, almost like a criminal when they knew they were about to get caught in the act.

"Babe, I can explain"

"Save it, Nano told me where you really were, I knew he wouldn't lie for you much longer, all this time I really thought you were meeting him and a few other buddies but it turns out Blake isn't a man at all, she's a woman who've you been fucking around with on me"

Jack looked defeated, his expression dropped and guilt set in his eyes which was just enough to prove me right, I put my hand on his chest and pushed him slightly out of my way.

"One too many times this has happened, you said you needed structure from me, I got us a house so we could live together, I dropped my job to tour with you and when you proposed I thought you were being serious about this, about us. Turns out I've been the one giving more and taking less."

I slid the diamond off my finger and put it in the palm of his hand forcibly closing his hands around it, my eyes stung with tears but soon my cheeks felt the cool drops hit my skin.

" I'm taking the blame on this but it never went that far, I never meant for you to get hurt which sounds so cliche but I love you, Dani, I can't be without you, you know that. You know I need you."

I wiped my tear-stained cheeks and crossed my arms in front of me, I thought what he'd just said and I couldn't help but let out a chuckle.

"It never went that far but it went somewhere, didn't it? You come home from getting worked up from her and fuck me wishing you were able to fuck her but you couldn't because you had a fiancee at home."

"That's not the case at all, Danielle, you know that's not true, you know that you're all I could ever want, I want to marry you, have a family, I promise this won't happen again, just please don't go."

Jack's voice soon cracked as he pleaded and begged for me to stay, the desperation in his voice almost made feel guilty for having a bag already packed and ready to go so I could stay with my brother and his bride.

"Dani, come on, don't do this"

Were the last words I heard as I shut the door behind me and got into the car with blurry eyes and a clouded mind. I could barely focus on the road in front of me as I took the short drive down to Alex's, he already had been warned he'd have an unexpected guest which he never seemed to mind. As I pulled into the driveway all my emotions flooded and my chest became tight with sadness, I let out a loud cry as I shut off the car and leaned my head against the steering wheel.

When I collected myself together enough I popped open the trunk and grabbed my bag throwing it over my shoulder as I walked up the few steps it took to get up to the front door, I didn't even have to knock Alex just opened the door and the minute I saw him all my filters shut down and I began to cry again, I clutched to his shirt as he shut the door behind us. As my cries turned into sobs Alex did the best he could to soothe me as he did when I was a small child which normally worked but this wasn't just a scrapped knee.

"I'm sorry, Dani, I wish I had the right words to make this hurt go away"

I released my grip on Alex as he walked with me into the living room where Lisa was sitting with Peyton and Baz who jumped to the end of the couch to greet me. I pet each one of them, Alex grabbed my bag setting it on the floor and it was after that Lisa got up and wrapped her arms around me, my tears started flowing again as she ran her hands through my hair.

"I'm sorry, babe, stay as long as you need, you're going to be okay"

I refused the food she and Alex had offered and walked up to the guest room with Peyton following close behind me. I crawled into the queen-sized bed and called Peyton up, when he jumped up he immediately began to lick my face and snuggled his head into my neck and laid there quietly.

"Dani I brought you up some food, you need to eat, you need to take care of yourself and you're not gonna like me after a while of telling you what to do."

Alex spoke as he sat on the edge of the bed handing me the bowl of pasta, as I took a bite out of it my older brother looked at me and smiled.

"You're going to pull through, you two always do I don't know how but you find a way, what he did was shitty because I've done that more than once to Lisa and I would never have wished the feelings I made her feel on anyone else and I'm sorry that you're feeling them now."

"Thanks, Lex, I guess it just feels impossible right now, you know? I had my whole life planned out according to Jack and I never once thought about what would happen if I lost all of it for good. I mean what happens if we don't find a way? This could be it for us."

"Love is a crazy thing but trust me I know he loves you, he won't stop fighting for you just like I know you won't stop fighting for him. Don't lose faith because you two have done this a thousand times, never this severe but nevertheless don't give up because if you love him you won't."

"I love you, Alexander William"

"I still don't know why you picked him, there were two more options."

I chuckled as Alex laughed and looked at me putting his hand on top of mine

"I love you too, Danielle Rose, finish eating and get some rest"

When I was finally alone again I set the bowl of food on the nightstand and turned on the TV, I turned my phone off and took a deep breathe as I cuddled into Peyton. I couldn't help but repeat what Alex said over and over again like a broken record. As much as I wanted to give up I knew I couldn't even force myself to, there was something about that fucking man that makes me crave him, I guess this is what love is.

Notes

I hope everyone enjoyed this first chapter! I'm excited to write more for you all who did read it, no comments about my grammar or the storyline, please, this is just my creative outlet I'm not here to be an author just a girl who likes to write fanfiction and escape from her real world for a moment. xx