Trigger warning self harm and suicide

Jack's POV

"You like him." Zacharee said in Arabic since we was in the kitchen and so was Alex.
"Bit rude to be talking about him in a language he doesn't understand." I said back in Arabic and looked at Alex who seem to be in his own little world .
"He's doesn't give a shit if we're speaking in Arabic." Zacharee said and I looked at her.
"Just answer my question and we can speak English again." Zacharee said and I rolled my eyes.
"Yes I like him, okay you have your answer." I said and walked over to Alex who didn't even notice me sitting down next to him.
"We'll talk about this later." Zacharee said and I just flipped her off.

"Alex are you okay?" I said in English and put my hand on top of his and Alex jumped and looked at me.
Alex cleared his throat.
"What did you say?" Alex asked and he could see the worry on my face.
"I asked if you was okay?" I said and Alex looked and nodded.
"Yeah I'm okay. " Alex said quietly which meant he wasn't okay.
"Can you leave us some privacy please Zach." I said in Arabic to Zach and she nodded and walked out the room shutting the door behind her which I was grateful for.
"Hey, you going to tell me what the matter is?" I asked and Alex shook his head.
"I need to go home." Alex said quickly and I frowned at him confused.
"Why do you need to go home?" I asked softly and put my hand on top of Alex's but he snatched his hand away and looked at me hard.
"I can't be in a house which is full of terrorist." Alex snapped and what he said really hurt.
"We aren't what you say we are. Why would you call us that?" I said not knowing what way to take this.
"Because it's true, all you dirty Arabs are the fucking same all you like doing is blowing things up and killing other people!" Alex said and I stood up.
"Get the fuck out of my house." I heard dad say and I spun round and went to Alex defense because it was clear he wasn't himself.
"Dad, this isn't Alex talking. He has bipolar and right now he's having a episode and he has no idea what he is saying. Dad you know Alex isn't like this even after only meeting 2 days ago." I said.
"I don't care Jack, I want him out of my house. I will not have anyone call our family a terroist in this house." Dad said seriously and I heard Alex get up and I looked at him to see what he was doing and he was heading out the back do.
"Alex." I said and went to go after him when dad got hold of my arm which made me look at him.
"Let me go and find Alex before he does something stupid." I said in Arabic since we do mainly speak Arabic in the house.
"You are not to go near that boy again Jack. I'm serious, he is trouble." Dad said in Arabic.
"He is my friend, my only friend because I can't make friends. He isn't trouble he is misunderstood by people like you. He has a mental health problem, just like me part from his makes him act crazy when he isn't crazy dad. He is about the only person who understands me and right now he needs a friend and I am going to be that friend." I said seriously and I felt dads grin on my arm loosen.
"The boy called us something we are not." Dad said seriously.
"He doesn't mean it. Alex is the nicest person you'll meet, his episodes make him a completely different person." I said and dad sighed and he let go of my arm.
"Just be careful and if your not coming home then you let me or your mother know." Dad said.
"I will, can Alex come back here if I have to bring him back?" I said.
"Right now I will draw the line of him coming into the house." Dad and I nodded.
"I understand." I said quietly and walked out the house and went looking for Alex but not before I phoned Ollie and told him about Alex.

"Fuck he actually called your family that? Jesus Alex you was doing so well you dick head." Ollie said and I chuckled a little.
"He was really spaced out and he started talking really quickly but what he was saying sounding like he was on a down, but I don't know because I'm still learning about Alex." I said.
"How did he sound?" Ollie asked as we walked through these woods after looking in a couple of Alex's hiding spots but was unable to find him.
"Like he was crazy but at the same time sounding down." I said and Ollie stopped and looked at me.
"What did he say to you before he called your family terrorist?" Ollie asked seriously.
"That he wanted to go home but that's all he said before saying things about my family." I said and Ollie just frowned as he looked down lost in thought.
"He's not at home, he's not in the woods, he's not by the river. Where else could he be?" Ollie said think as he looked round.
"The hill, Alex said that he goes to the hill to escape reality." I said and Ollie looked at me .
"Why didn't I think of the hill, shit that means he's up to something which isn't good, we need to move it now." Ollie said and grabbed hold of my hand and we ran to the hill.
By the time we got to the hill we was both ready to collapse but we found Alex.
"Shit, has Alex been taking his medication?" Ollie asked as we watched Alex rock himself backwards and forwards and I noticed he was bleeding.
"Yeah he's been taken his medication." I said not being able to take my eyes of Alex.
"I have a feeling Alex will listen to you. Just don't take any offense on what he says." Ollie said.
"He called me a terrorist and I still want to help him." I said and walked over to Alex.

"Hey Alex, what you doing up here." I said and I sat down next to Alex.
I could see that he had cut himself badly and that he wasn't he was in a good mind set.
"I need to be with her." Alex said quickly and quietly.
"Be with who Alex?" I asked softly.
"Mum, I need to be with mum. Nobody will miss me when I go." Alex said quickly that was when I noticed a bit of broken glass in his hand which Alex was holding onto really tightly and you could see it was cutting his hand.
"Alex, look at me. Can you look at me Alex?" I said and I was shocked when Alex looked at me with tears roll down his cheeks.
"You don't need to be anywhere but be on this planet okay. Do you know who will miss you if you go?" I asked and Alex shook his head.
"Me and Ollie. We will miss you so much if you was to kill yourself. " I said and Alex looked down.
"I don't want to be like this, I want to be normal for once in my life." Alex sniffed.
"You are normal Alex, you just have a twist to you that nobody understands." I said and Alex shook his head and moved the broken bit of glass up to his neck.
I looked at Ollie and he had a panicked look on his face.
"I can't do this anymore." Alex sobbed loudly.
"Alex, listen to me please. We are going to get you help." I said.
"No, I don't need help! I want to die!" Alex sobbed.
"Alex, buddy, you need help because you are not coping, me and Jack are not going to give up on you like everybody else has. Between us 2 we will get you better but you need to go to hospital and get yourself grounded again because it clear that your medication is not helping you at the moment." Ollie said and knelt in front of Alex.
Alex looked at Ollie.
"I'm not letting my best friend kill himself because your medication isn't working. I have been here for you throughout all the suicide attempts, when your mum died, I have been with you through the good times and the bad times haven't I?" Ollie said and Alex nodded.
"Then I want you to admit to me that you need help and me and Jack will give you the support you really need." Ollie said seriously but with a soft tone in his voice.
"I..I..I need help." Alex whispered and Ollie smiled softly.
"For us to help you, you need to put the glass in your hand down." I said and Alex looked at me confused.
I put my hand out and Alex just looked at it and back at Ollie.
"You can trust Jack." Ollie said and Alex looked at me.
"Remember what I told you the other night?" I asked and Alex frowned but he nodded.
"You have BDD." Alex said quietly.
"Yeah, and I have been down this route. What I'm saying Alex is that I know how you are feeling. I have felt the whole hating yourself and I still do. But doing this isn't a option here Alex, you can get over this because you know why?" I said and looked at Alex and he shook his head when I asked him the question.
"You'll get over this because you are strong, you are the strongest person I know. You have had so much happen to you and you still carry on. Why throw that all away? You have come so far. You can get over this because you are stubborn and you are full of life. You still have a life to live, you can't throw that all away." I said and Alex looked down at the glass.
"Let me have the glass." I said softly and Alex nodded and put the glass in my hand and I gave it to Ollie to get rid of it.
"Call the ambulance now." I said and Ollie smiled.
"Beat you too it." Ollie said and I smiled and put my attention back on Alex.

I took my hoodie off and wrapped it round Alex's arm and I looked at Alex and he was really pale.
"Alex, stay with me." I said and Alex just collapsed on his side.
"Shit Alex!" Ollie said loudly and he moved and tapped Alex's face.
"Come on buddy don't do this to me. Please don't do this too me, I can't lose you Alex." Ollie said sounding like he was about to cry.

"Alex! Don't die on me please don't die on me!" Ollie said and tapped Alex's face but there was no response and Ollie looked at me with panic and worry all over his face.

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