On my mind

Jack's POV

I was walking round school when I saw Alex and Ollie.
Ollie pointed towards me to Alex and Alex looked at me and then back to Ollie, where Ollie just pushed Alex towards me and Alex just gave up and walked over to me.
"Well hey there partner." Alex said and I frowned at him.
"Look, I need a cigarette. You joining or you going to walk around like Billy no mates?" Alex said and I nodded and followed him outside to the school field.

"So, Jack, obviously my best friend has blabbed to you about my crazy head." Alex said and I looked at him and Alex was looking down.
"Y..Yeah he told me. But I won't tell anyone, I'm pretty much invisible to everyone here." I said quietly and Alex chuckled and he looked at me.
"Well you won't be invisible if you hang around with me. If you have guessed already i have a huge mouth, I have a brain that says I'm fine on my medication and I miss a couple of days and off I go straight to fucking la la land as Ollie would say. Do you actually want to be seen with me?" Alex said and I shrugged my shoulders.
"I'm guessing you don't have many friends and I have no friends so I will take what has been giving to me." I said and looked at Alex who had this side smile on his face.
"You calling me crazy?" Alex asked and I shrugged my shoulders.
"I wouldn't say crazy, more like unique." I said and Alex chuckled.
"Been called many things but unique isn't one." Alex said and I smiled.
The bell went and Alex groaned.
"What class do you have partner?" Alex asked.
"Psychology, you?" I said and looked at Alex.
"Same here." Alex said and I looked at him confused.
"What? Just because my mind is crazy doesn't mean I can't study what happens with the chemicals in my head." Alex said and he stood up and I did the same.

"Never put you as psych student." I said as we sat down after Alex said I could sit next to him.
"It was either psych or philosophy and I don't want to be learning about dragons and all that shit." Alex said as he got his books out of his bag and I couldn't help but chuckle.
"You don't learn about dragons in philosophy." I said and Alex looked at me.
"Seriously? Damnit I've been lied to." Alex said and I smiled.
"Yeah, hate to break it to you but you tend to question our existence and all that shit, I dunno on that but I know you question stuff." I said.
"Damn I think I've taken the wrong class here." Alex said and I chuckled.
"Why do you even take this class?" I asked because I was confused on why he actually took this class in the first place.
"Helps me understand me better, I feel like if I can pin point little things which goes on I might be able to come off my meds and you know be like a normal person for once." Alex said quietly since the class room was starting fill up with the rest of the students and since the class was only small.
"But I might warn you now, sometimes I can't cope in this class as it feels like he's going through my head and I might just walk out." Alex whispered and the teacher walked over.
"Hey Alex, where was you last week?" The teacher asked.
"I needed a few days off." Alex said and pulled at his sleeves and the teacher put some paper in front of Alex and Alex looked at him.
"Do you want to talk?" The teacher asked and Alex shook his head.
"Okay, you know where I am if you want to talk someone." The teacher said and he turned round and walked towards the front of the class.

After that lesson Alex changed and I think it was because what we was talking about made him think of himself a lot.
"Hey guys, how everything going?" Ollie said and he looked at Alex noticing he behavior strange away.
"I..I need to go to my locker. Now." Alex said and Ollie grabbed hold of Alex's arm and dragged him off with me following.
We got to this locker and Alex looked in his bag and he found his locker key and he opened his locker and he pulled out a tube of tablets and he looked round and he popped a couple in his mouth and Ollie handed him some water which he took.
"That better?" Ollie asked and Alex nodded.
"Did you actually take your meds this morning?" Ollie asked and Alex nodded.
"Yeah, psych just fucked me up a little but I'm good." Alex said and Ollie rolled his eyes.
"Why do you even take that class? You know it fucks with your head." Ollie said.
"But its interesting." Alex said.
"It sends you fucking loopey mate." Ollie said and Alex looked at him.
"I have weed, you want weed?" Ollie asked and Alex shook his head which made Ollie smile.
"Jack, we need to work in that project. Want to come round mine and we can make a start." Alex said and I nodded.
"Sure." I said and Alex smiled.
"Come round later if you want." Alex said and Ollie and Ollie smiled.
"I might take that offer up and hear about the details." Ollie said and Alex rolled his eyes and he caught hold of my arm and we went back to his.

Alex let himself in the house and he turned round and looked st me as I was stood awkwardly on the porch as I looked down.
"You don't have to be awkward, nobody is home yet anyway so we have the house to ourselves for a couple of hours." Alex said and I looked at him and he smiled a small smile and stood out the way so I could walk in which I did and Alex shut the door behind us and I couldn't help but look round.
"Did you want something to eat or drink?" Alex asked and I shook my head.
"No thank you." I said and Alex smiled.
"That's okay because if you want a drink then I have some in my room as my room is the attic and I'm not prepared to walk down 2 lots of stairs for a drink." Alex said and I chuckled.
"Follow me then." Alex said and he started to walk up the stairs and I followed him upstairs.

We got to this door and Alex opened the door.
"Ignore the mess, I've just come out of a massive down and I didn't feel like cleaning it." Alex said.
"It's fine, my room is no better either." I said and Alex smiled and I followed him into his room.
I looked round and his room was pretty big and I noticed a guitar on a wall.
"You play?" I asked and turned round and looked at Alex.
"Yeah, if I'm having a bad day it helps distract me from doing things to myself." Alex said and he walked over to his bed and sat down.
I looked round again and when I looked at Alex again he had his top off and he had nasty looking scars on both his arms.
I looked back at Alex's face and he was looking down at his arms.
I walked over and sat on his bed and Alex looked at me.
"I'd rather not talk about them. Yet, I want to see if I can trust you before spilling my secrets and problems to you." Alex said and I smiled.
"It's okay, I understand I would be the same." I said.
"Do you want me to cover them up? I know some of my family aren't comfortable with them." Alex said.
"You don't have to cover them up, this is your space after all, I have no right to tell you what to do in your space." I said and Alex smiled.
"This project then, tell me what we have to do." Alex said and I smiled and got comfy and started to explain what we had to do.

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