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On my mind

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Jack's POV

I got home and mum just looked at me with a displeased look on her face.
"Where the fucking he'll have you been Jack!" Mum said loudly and pretty much pulled me in the kitchen where dad was sitting at the table in his uniform.
"I go upstairs to check on to make sure you wasn't dead and you wasn't there! No note, nothing. You could of been bloody killed or passed out in a ditch and me and your father would of been fucking clueless to where you was!" Mum said loudly and I looked at dad for a little bit of help but he gave me the same displeased look as mum did.
"Where was you?" Dad said in Arabic.
"I was at the hospital with Alex. He was having a breakdown and he asked if I could go to the hospital and I said yes to going." I said back in Arabic as I looked down.
"And you think it was acceptable to sneak out of the house without telling anyone?" Dad questioned in Arabic and I could feel his glare on me.
"Answer me Jack!" Dad said loudly in English which was something he rarely done in the house.
"No sir, it wasn't acceptable." I said quietly.
"Then why did you do?" Mum asked.
"Because Alex needed a friend, he didn't want Ollie he wanted me so I went and when I got there Alex was a mess so I helped him calm down." I said.
"You could off said no Jack." Mum said and I looked at her.
"Alex is my friend, fuck I have this huge crush on him if you really want to know, I'm not going to say no to somebody who has asked for my help. I would do it again if Alex needed me." I said and mum and dad both just glared at me.
"Jack you know that having a crush on someone ends in disappointment." Mum sighed.
"He was a cunt. Alex is different to him anyway, despite him being a nut case he's actually a really kind and caring person." I said.
"I'm just saying don't get your hopes up on him, he might not even be gay." Mum said.
"Trust me he's gay okay. I don't get my hopes up, been let down by guys way too many times to actually think anyone would be interested in me." I said and mum pulled me into a hug which I returned.
"Your are handsome. Even with what you have wrong with you, if they can't see past that then they don't deserve you to love them." Mum said and I smiled and looked at dad who was busy sorted stuff out before he went to work I'm guessing.
"Me and your father have to go somewhere tonight. You'll be okay on your own right?" Mum said and I had only just noticed that mum was actually dressed up for once.
"I'll be okay, I dunno if it'll happen or not but if Ollie wants t come round is he allowed? He's not that bad and he'll respect the house as well like what Alex did." I said and mum looked at dad.
"Yeah he can come round." Dad said in Arabic which made me smile.
"Okay, we need to get going there's food in the fridge and no trouble okay. If anything goes down then you can call either of us." Mum said and I rolled my eyes.
"Mum I'm 16 think I can cope with being on my own for a couple of hours." I said and mum smiled.
"I know, I need to make sure of these things." Mum said and I chuckled.
"We need to go, he'll be fine, he needs to learn that we can trust him." Dad said and looked at me which made me look down since the last time I was left on my own sort of ended in a trip to hospital.
Mum nodded and they both walked out leaving me in a silent house which I didn't like so I went upstairs to my room and put my music on.

Ollie as round as I was guessing that Alex told him about my panic attack and it was nice to have someone round since I really needed a distraction.
"Your house is well nice." Ollie said as he looked round my bedroom.
"It's just a normal house." I said as I looked at what he was doing from my bed.
"Really? I'm guessing either your mum or your dad maybe both are in well paid jobs." Ollie said as he looked at my collection of concerts tickets I had on the wall.
"What's it to you how well my parents are paid?" I said not liking how Ollie was talking about my parents.
"I was only saying since you have some really expensive stuff." Ollie said and I frowned at him.
"Hey I'm not a thief, I was just saying." Ollie said and he walked over and sat on my bed.

"This your family?" Ollie asked and pointed to the photo on my bedside table.
"Yeah." I said quietly and picked it up so Ollie could have a better look.
"Your Muslim? Shit never though of you as a Muslim." Ollie said and looked at me.
"I'm not, only my dad and my sister are. My brothers might be but I'm not sure." I said and Ollie nodded and looked back at the picture.
"Your brothers are identical twins?" Ollie asked.
"Yeah, Omar is on the right and Samir is on the left." I said and pointed them out.
"Their all really tanned and then your just really white compared to them." Ollie said and I chuckled.
"They all lived in Lebanon all their lives and then I only spent a couple of years there but then we moved to America and that's where we stayed while dad did his part in his job." I said.
"How come you moved? I mean you don't have to tell me I'm just being nosey about your family because they sound really interesting." Ollie said and I couldn't help but chuckle.
"Things weren't the same as when my siblings grew up and it was getting dangerous for us to do anything but spend a lot of time inside. My sister said that despite all he bad stuff which is going on out there is still as beautiful as when she left." I said and looked down.
"Would you go back?" Ollie asked and I shook my head.
"No, I used to want to go back and see what it was like but after what my brothers and sister say about it I don't want to go back." I said.
"So I'm guessing your brothers and dad are in the army since their in uniform. What does your mum and sister do?" Ollie asked.
"Zacharee is a English teacher out in Lebanon. Mum is a stay at home mum and she sort had to be because of me." I said and looked down.
"Wow your parents must be pretty proud of them." Ollie said and I just nodded.

"Now I noticed a guitar in your room so I'm guessing you want to go into music." Ollie said and I nodded.
"And you are half way there on getting into Alex's pants." Ollie said and I looked at him confused.
"Excuse me?" I asked.
"Come on Jack don't play dumb here. I know you have a crush on Alex." Ollie said handing me back the photo and lent back on my bed.
"I don't have a crush on Alex." I muttered as I looked down and feeling my cheeks heat up.
"Well you have the biggest blush on your face and you muttered while you was looked down so you do have a crush on my crazy friend." Ollie said.
"Please don't tell him." I said and looked at Ollie who chuckled.
"What even if I told that Alex has a crush on you and that he wanted to kiss you when you was outside having a panic attack. Mate I know all the juicy gossip about Alex's feelings about you." Ollie said.
"As much as I want to know what Alex's feeling are towards me that would be invading his privacy on what you and him talked about." I said.
"What like Alex noticed you way before you actually noticed him and he was using the people he went out with to get you jealous but you was too dumb to even notice." Ollie said.
"I was really sturggling with my mental health around that time and for your information I noticed Alex and it actually hurt seeing Alex with other people." I said.

"Is that where your scars come from and your strange behavior the other day." Ollie said and I looked at him with a frown.
"Yeah I noticed Jack. I have to watch Alex like a hawk so I know when somebody is displaying coping behaviors and you was doing that the other day." Ollie said and I looked down.
"Nobody but my family notices and even they miss certain coping mechanisms." I said quietly and picked at my bed covers.
"Well I've noticed and I'm not going to tell a soul okay. If you feel yourself getting bad and you don't want to talk to your family about it then you can come to me." Ollie said and I looked at him.
"What about you?" I asked.
"I tough as old boots. I'm close to my foster family anyway so they normally get the back lash of everything that's including me trashing the house if I can't control my anger." Ollie said and I frowned at him confused.
"You don't think me and Alex are friends for no reason? He's just a bundle of craziness just like I'm a bundle of anger." Ollie said and I smiled.
"Sound like the perfect couple." I chuckled.
"Na, me and Alex are like cheese and chalk but somehow our friendship is stronger than most relationships these days." Ollie said.
"Now you and Alex on the other hand, I can see you two getting together on night and hooking up and that will be where your relationship begins." Ollie said and I looked at him.
"Please, I'm a bit more of a gentleman than that." I scoffed.
"Yeah you might be but Alex isn't." Ollie said.
"So you calling Alex a slut then?" I asked.
"Yep and Alex knows that I call him that and he just turns around and says he like sex so I can call him a slut and that in a very few words is how 14 year old Alex told me he was gay and got fucked by someone who he actually never told me who the cunt." Ollie said frowning as he thought about something.
"Okay I do not need to know when Alex first had sex thanks." I said and Ollie looked at me.
"How old was you?" Ollie asked seriously.
"And I'm not saying." I said.
"You haven't done it have you, oh that's something I could tell Alex and he'll be happy about that." Ollie said and I sighed loudly.
"I've done it trust me and it was probably the worst sex I had in my life." I said and Ollie smiled.
"So how old was you?" Ollie asked and I rolled my eyes.
"The day before my 16th." I said and Ollie looked at me shocked.
"Wait I never asked you how old you was." Ollie said and I chuckled.
"I'm 16, I'm pretty much one of the babies in our year group." I said.
"No you are not." Ollie said.
"Yeah I am." I said and I heard someone ring the door bell.
"We're continuing this when you get back." Ollie said as I got up and I went downstairs.

I got to the door and opened it and saw Samir and I knew we was going to be speaking Arabic.
"Sam what you doing here?" I asked in Arabic and Sam looked at me and he looked really upset.
"Can I come in?" Sam said in Arabic and he looked at the shoes and noticed Ollie's shoes.
"A friends, I can tell them to go if you want me too." I said.
"Where is he?" Sam asked getting over protective.
"In my room waiting for me, anyway you never answered my question." I said as Sam shut the door.
"Now isn't a good time Jack." Sam said as he took his shoes off and went upstairs.
"Where's Omar? You two are joined to the hip." I said as I followed him up the stairs.
"Not now Jack." Sam growled.
"Samir he's my brother as well I need to know!" I said as I got to the top of the stairs and Sam flew towards me which made me back away from him so I was now on the stairs and this scared me.
"Omar is missing! They don't know where he is! Yana is going crazy because nobody knows where he is, not even me!" Omar shouted.
"What do you mean Omar is missing because he's always with you or with Yana." I said.
Samir pushed me hard which resulted in me losing my footing and falling down the stairs.

"Woah, I don't understand what either of you was saying but there was no need to push Jack down the stairs." I heard Ollie say and him running down the stairs.
"Jack are you okay?" Samir asked in English so Ollie could understand him.
Ollie stood up so he was between me and Samir.
"You get the fuck away from him. You think you have an anger problem but you seriously don't want to piss me off now sunshine." Ollie said loudly.
Samir backed off and Ollie put his focus back on me.
"Hey you okay?" Ollie asked and I shook my head.
"Where does it hurt?" Ollie asked and looked at me.
"My back hurts and so does my head." I said quietly and Ollie looked at Samir.
"Out the way, I'm a medic." Samir said and Ollie looked at him seriously.
"He is Ollie, this is Sam." I said and went to move my arm but Samir stopped me.
"Don't move, you need to call the ambulance." Samir said taking control like he normally does.
Ollie looked at me.
"Do what he says, he knows what he's doing." I said quietly and felt my eyes getting heavy.
"Jack, don't fall asleep on me okay. I'm going to have to move you on your back so when the paramedics come they can get you on the stretcher a bit more pain free." Samir said and I just groaned at Samir.
"He fell down the stairs because he's clumsy like that." I just about heard Ollie say.
"Jack, Jack wake up you cunt." Samir said and he slapped my face which made me open my eyes.
"Where's mum and dad?" Samir asked.
"At some army do thing, I dunno they never said." I said quietly.
"Okay, what's your friends name?" Samir asked.
"Ollie." I muttered.
"Ollie, what can I get Jack to talk about so I can keep him awake as he's drifting on me." Samir said loudly.
"Get him to tell you about Alex!" I just about heard Ollie reply.
"So who's this Alex then Jack and why haven't I heard of him?" I heard Samir say before darkness.

Notes

I seriously don't know what to make of this chapter it's all over the place.
But have a bit of drama...

Comments

I really like the chapters and how long they are, great work! Can't wait for the Jalex to happen!

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8/5/17

Oh girl, another story! How can you juggle all of these! But I really like this one !

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7/6/17