Alex's POV

"I'm fucking telling you, if I have to sit in his class and listen to him drone on about fucking Indians I am going to go insane. No offense Alex." My friend Ollie said.
"Offense isn't taken because I feel that same way." I said and Ollie chuckled.
"There is a party round my place this weekend, you in or you out?" Ollie asked.
"I'm afraid I have to be out on this one. I have to have some stupid family weekend." I said and Ollie chuckled as we walked out of school since it was now the end of school for the weekend.
"Why do you even have those stupid weekends? It's pointless." Ollie said and I shrugged my shoulders.
"I dunno, because they think that I'm spending to much time getting off my face and the fact the bipolar is making me a different person and their trying to find the lost boy inside my crazy mind." I said and Ollie frowned just as confused as I was when I first heard my parents saying this too me.
"But as long as you take your pills your head doesn't go crazy? So I don't see how that actually works." Ollie said and I couldn't help but chuckle.
"Actually my point. But nobody seems to get it." I said.
"Cool, so you coming to this party or not. I have drugs and alcohol." Ollie said and I chuckled.
"As much as you had me at the party part I still can't go because my step mother will have a fit if she finds out that I bail out of family weekend to go and get fucked out my face." I said and Ollie groaned loudly.
"Well fuck you and your family weekend." Ollie said and I chuckled.
"Your more than welcomed to join my weekend off hell." I said and Ollie shook his head.
"Nope. My plans for this weekend is to get fucked out of my face and get laid." Ollie said which made me groan loudly.
"Really could do with getting laid right now. But there is no cute guys at this shitty school." I said and Ollie chuckled.
"There's that shy dude. He's cute." Ollie said and I looked at him.
"He's a fucking nobody. Also I bet he has loads of issues as well." I said.
"I'm not even going to argue with you since I have delivered you home just like I promised your mother." Ollie said and I frowned.
"She's my step mum." I said and Ollie rolled his eyes.
"Just get inside because she kicks me in the balls." Ollie said and I chuckled.
"She would never do that to you." I said.
"She wouldn't but your sisters would so I don't want to risk my balls thanks." Ollie said and he turned round and walked off towards his house and I went inside.

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"So how's your crazy head ticking then Alex?" My older Step sister, Willow asked as she sat next to me on the sofa and she handed me a beer.
"It's good at the moment. Been taking my meds, getting fucked every weekend so it's all good right now." I said ano I had a mouthful of beer.
"Willow! What have I told you about giving Alex a beer!" My step mum said.
"Mum, Alex is 17 I'm sure he does a lot more shit without you knowing. Anyway it's not like I'm telling Scarlett and Sole to drink now is it?" Willow said and I chuckled.
"He's still under age and it tells you not to drink on your meds." My step mum said.
"Mia, leave the poor boy alone and let him have a drink. It's not like we don't know what he is doing at them wild parties of Ollie's." Dad said and I smiled.
"See the old man agrees with me. Come on mum, lighten up I'm not going to loose me head." I said and my step mum rolled her eyes.
"Just don't go over the top okay." My step mum said and she walked over and kissed the top of my head.
"I won't mum." I said and looked at her and smiled.

I was feeling drunk and I was sat outside when dad came over and he was also drunk because for some reason my step mum actually allowed this for once.
"Can I have a seat?" Dad asked and I looked at him and nodded.
Dad sat down and I felt him look at my cigarette.
"Don't let your mother see you smoking otherwise you can kiss your balls goodbye." Dad said.
"Mum knows. She caught me a couple of months ago when I was having a down. So my balls wont be needing to be kissed goodbye." I said and dad sighed.
"I miss mum. I know Mia has welcomed me into her family 11 years ago but it's not the same as having my mum around." I said and looked down.
"I know you miss her because I miss her as well and I'm sorry I wasn't around when she passed." Dad said and I shrugged my shoulders.
"It doesn't matter anymore. Your job and Mia and her family was more important than me and mum. Ots not as if I'm used to being second best anyway." I said and sniffed.
"Alex it does matter." Dad said and I shook my head and stood up.
"It doesn't matter to you. You only care about me now because I'm fucked in the head." I said.
"Alex that's a load of bullshit and you know this." Dad said.
"Is it though? Because you don't give a shit about me unless I'm having a depressive episode after being manic for like a week. You leave Mia to deal with me and I take my fucking hat off to her for being able to put up with me. You only care about her kids and not your own. Now I need to be somewhere." I said and walked off but I could hear dad walking after me.
"Where you going Alexander?" Dad asked seriously.
"Round Ollie's so I can have some fucking weed and drink more. Because right now I don't want to be around you." I spat and put my shoes on.

"Alex sweetie where you going?" My step mum asked.
"I can't stay here mum. I'm going round Ollie's for the weekend and I'm sorry I spoiled this for everyone." I said and my step mum walked over and pulled me into a hug which I returned.
"You don't have to go. Look you've been drinking haven't you?" My step mum said and I nodded.
"You just need to sleep it off. Okay, do you want me to give you a hand or can you manage?" My step mum said and I looked down and nodded.
"Off to bed then, I'll see you in the morning." My step mum said and kissed the top of my head like she does with the rest of us.
I just nodded and turned round and went upstairs but not before I heard my step mum talking to dad.
"You shouldn't be so hard on him Peter." Mia said and dad sighed.
"He just turned." Dad said.
"You need to spend time with Alex where is no alcohol in your system and drugs for Alex. He is still a lost boy trying to find himself in this family. I know he's been part of this family for a while but he still feels left out because I know Willow feels the same. That's why she stays with her dad. Alex doesn't have that choice, so he needs us." Mia said and I couldn't help but smile as she always had my back.
"He just shuts me out Mia." Dad said and Mia pulled him into a hug.
"I know he does, which is why I suggest you both need to be sober and spend some time doing something you both enjoy. I know there's a music shop in town that Alex wants to go to. Why don't you take him there and just spoil him a little. Just like what you do with Scarlett and Sole. You need to remember that Alex is your child as well." Mia said and I smiled and just went to my room and crashed for the night.

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