The sharpest lives

Abigale--

The drive back to May's house was quite, apart from the relentless rain pouring down on the car and the violent rumbles of thunder. I closed my eyes in attempts to drown out the sounds, that reminded me of my father's bellows.

"You okay?" Mays soft voice questioned, "I suppose... The uh... The thunder. Loud noises." She hummed in a manner that told she understood.

Laying my head on the window I closed my eyes. Attempting to sleep. But it was short lived as we pulled into the driveway "We're here, Abbi" I cracked my eye at her, suddenly not wanting to see what lies behind that door. I cautiously look at her "I have to go back to the station, But Jack can help you out" She smiled, But it soon fell when she saw my expression "Crap, No sorry. I'll come in with you" I nodded before shakily stepping out of the car.

The moment I stepped into the house I relaxed. Seeing it was nothing like I was used to.

Heavy feet brought me out of my serenity and soon a tall boy with light brown flippy hair is stood in the doorway. Despite his scrawny frame and slight slouch I still felt intimidated. "Who's this?" the boy asked, it wasn't harsh or like he was judging me. It was a genuine question.... I think "This is Abigale. She's going to be staying here for a while" May smiled "Cool, Sup I'm Jack, Her brother" He walked towards me and stuck out his hand. I instinctively flinched at the movement. My breath catching in my throat for the third time this night. He was quick to move his hand away. Eyes widening.

"Abigale, Are you okay sweetie?" May asked, but she sounded like she was under water. I nodded despite the aching feeling in my chest. I focused on not letting my tears fall. If I could just hide it then I could get out of whatever punishment that was laid out for me.

I shrunk myself further into my hood wanting to just disappear. I knew all eyes were on me, and I had nowhere to go. May was behind me and Jack was in front of me. The panic was worsening now. "Jack, Is Alex still here?" I was getting tunnel vision now, "No he went home" Any second till I pass out.

I was now crouched on the floor, near tears, Trying to control my breaths. "I'm sorry, I'm trying to stop." I choked out "No one here is mad, You're safe. Just breathe okay?" Jack said calmly, still a good distance away from me "Are you sure you got this Jack?" "Yes, May I'm sure"

I heard a door close and the house was silent, I still hadn't let the tears fall. And I was starting to calm down a little. "Is it okay If I touch you?" I looked up to see the worry in his eyes, Something about his dark chocolate eyes made me relax, And shockingly enough. I nodded.

And soon I was wrapped up in protective arms, The movement was slow, as to not scare me. Instantly I relaxed into his arms feeling an odd comfort in it "You okay?" I nodded, then shook my head. not trusting my voice and he pulled away standing up and disappearing into another room. Moments later a blanket was wrapped around me and I was moved onto a soft seat.

"Good or bad?" His voice shook only slightly, He seemed to know what he was doing makes me wonder how many times he's had to look after one of Mays lost causes "Good" I whispered and he nodded, soon little feet were heard padding down the hallway "JACK!" A small voice yelled causing me to flinch slightly. Jack turned to look at Tyler who's eyes widened "You're here?!" He said excitedly proceeding to run towards me.

He wrapped his small arms around me tightly "Yeah, For now." This caused Jack to frown "Ty, what are you doing awake?" He shrugged "Nightmares." The younger boy stare off into the distance a lost look on his face before he smiled again "so I came down here to surprise you but that didn't work" He giggled, still seated in my lap, His dark brown eyes held tiredness, but also a bit of fear "Nightmares again?" Jack sounded disappointed. Everything about this seemed surreal. There was no yelling, throwing, loudness. Just calmness.

"Would it help if I read to you?" Tyler's eyes lit up and he jumped off me "YES!" He raced down the hall to where I'm guessing his room was "Are you gonna be okay?" Jack looked at me, His eyes holding worry "Yeah..." I said quietly he nodded before following after Tyler.

I sighed to myself. This was the first time in forever that I wasn't in trouble for disappearing. Crying. Or panicking.

About ten minutes later Jack came back in, slowly as to not scare me. "How about we get you to your room, yeah?" I looked at him knowing this would happen. This was my punishment. "Oh. Um. Okay..." I said, knowingly.

He leads me down the narrow corridor to a blood red room. It was big, Well big compared to what I'm used to "Sorry it's so small" Jack frowned and I looked at him Like he was crazy "It's huge?" I said slightly confused and he laughed and I sighed "So what will it be?" I asked, not daring to look at him, He shot a confused look my way "What will what be?" I rolled my eyes "What do you want me to do?" I said, as if he'd have a clue on what I was talking about, he still looked at me confused "Are you going to have your way with me, or do you just want a blo-" He cut me off by pushing his hand over my mouth. A horrified look on his face "What are you talking about?" I could see the disgust in his eyes. I looked at him quizzically "You don't wanna use me?" I saw his eyes gloss over "No, God no. Abigale" He sighed "I'm sorry...." He shook his head "You didn't do anything" I nodded "So what are the rules?" he shot me a look "What do you mean" "I mean what I said" he sighed and thought for a moment "I mean we don't really have rules. Curfew is midnight but, eh" I nodded "What, What If I do something wrong?" he faltered for a moment "I mean, You get a lecture that's about it" I nodded, still not fully believing him "Can I hug you?" I looked at him for a moment before agreeing.

The hug was blissful. There was an odd serenity in the air. He was the first person I felt fully safe in his arms. I pushed myself further into his chest wrapping my arms around his torso. "I feel safe around you" I whispered causing him to let out a heavy breath of air, that I only assumed was a small laugh "Jack?" I mumbled "Hmmm?" His chest rumbled "I'm going to try and trust you" his arm wrapped around me tighter "I'm going to try and be a person you can trust" I nodded into his chest.

The birds chirped happily as the sun shone through the window. I had been up since six, waiting for someone to come get me, Not sure if I was allowed out of my room on my own count.

It was currently sat on my bed as I watched intently out the window, I sighed knowing I should probably get dressed.

By the time I got done it was eight. I sat back down on the bed and let everything sink in... It's just a matter of time before May kicks me out. Or they start getting abusive.

I heard a soft knock at my door before it opened, Jack stood in the doorway. I stood up attentively. "What do you need me to do, Sir?" he furrowed his eyebrows before walking fully into my room. "First, Don't call me 'sir' second, I just wanted to know what you wanted for breakfast, May's going out to McDonadls" I nodded "I'm aloud?" I asked slowly, I could tell he was getting annoyed, At least I thought so. "I- I'm sorry. I'll stop" I sat back down on my bed slightly rocking, Brows creased together. "It's not my place, I should have asked so many questions, I shouldn't have spoken out of place. I... I swear it-" I was cut off again by his hand and my eyes widened. And I flinched slightly "Hey, Abbie, Stop. You didn't do anything wrong, okay?" I nodded, "Yes, I understand" I mumbled into his hand "You don't have to speak to me like that" I nodded "I... I'll have uh... A hash brown" He frowned "That's it?" I nodded at his question "Okay, Come out when you're ready. No rush"

He left the room and I fell back on my bed. I hated this. I was eternally fucked up. As much as I wanted to trust Jack, I couldn't...

I heard feet thundering down the hallway and was soon attacked by Tyler. "MORNING!" He giggled, His brown hair sticking up all over the place "Morning" I laughed, he smiled widely, his dimple caved in more at this. "Wanna come down stairs? Harry Potter is on!" I chuckled trying to Hide the uneasy feeling as I looked at the door, he followed my gaze "It's okay" His voice was smaller now "I was scared too, But thems is good people, I pinky swear!" I smiled at his words "So will you?!" He was now bouncing all over my bed, jumping over me as I was still laying down "Sure, Let go" He squealed and ran out of the room. I hesitantly followed, Stepping into my shoes, Just in case I needed to run.

Tyler was already sitting criss cross on the love seat, intensely watching the movie. I sat down carefully next to him. Five years old... I wish I could say I wanted to be five again... But that's when It all started, was after my fifth birthday...

Shaking that thought out of my head I focused on the movie, and how every time something 'scary' would happen Tyler would shove his face into my arm. I jumped slightly when the front door opened, But I heard the familiar voices and Kew it was May and Jack.

"THEY'RE HOMEEEE!" Tyler screamed whilst jumping off the couch and running towards the door "Hey Ty" I hear Jack laugh before walking through with him on his hip, Moments later an orange juice and hashbrown was handed to me "There is also an egg muffin if you are still hungry" Jack smiled, "Thank you" I said quietly as I took the content from him. I stood up and headed for the kitchen "Where are you going?" I heard May ask "Don't we eat at the kitchen table?" She laughed "Normally, but this isn't a meal meal you can eat in here" She smiled "Oh... Okay." I awkwardly walked back to my spot.

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Tyler giggled crazily on the floor at the new power rangers movie *Which is epic by the way* "BUT WHY DID THEY USE A COW!" He rolled around on the floor. I laughed at his reaction to the movie "This is his fifth time watching it this week" Jack mumbled to me "Just wait, he's gonna start singing during the car chase" I let out an airy laugh just as Tyler started to sing "YEAH YEAH YEAH! OHHHOHHOHOHHOH YEAH YEAH YEAH" this kid was so adorable "WE DON'T BELIEVE WHATS ON T.V." I was amazed that May wasn't getting angry. He was being crazy loud "I LOOVEEE THAT SONNGG!" this little kid has a lot of energy.

"You okay, Abs?" I looked over at Jack who was now eyeing me cautiously "Is May okay with him being so loud?" he nodded "She usually doesn't care unless it's past eight" I nodded turning back toward the T.V. "Hey, I have to take an emergency call, Can you handle?" May said rushing toward the door "Yeah, I've got it" She smiled thankfully at Jack "Oh and Brendon told me Frank ran off again, So if he comes here" She looked at me nervously and Jack's eyes widened "Call me or Brendon right away" Jack nodded quickly "Ou Franks coming?!" Tyler stood up happily. Judging by their faces, I could tell it wouldn't be a happy visit "Yeah, He might" Jack sighed "Will he be bringing Josh?!" The little boy grew more excited "No I don't think this time" May informed "oh... Can you call Brendon and see if he can bring Josh?" May nodded "Tomorrow okay?" Tyler smiled again "Okay!"

He sat back down and got lost in the T.V. again as May left. Everything was silent again until it wasn't.

"Ayyo JACK!" A voice shouted I jumped, Jack's hand reached across to mine and gently stroked it "It's only Alex" I nodded. "In here Lex" I heard feet come down the hallway "Power rangers again" Tyler turned around at his voice "ALEX!" He said happily, running towards him. I turned to look at him, and my jaw dropped, as did his "Abbi?" His voice sounded relieved "Hi..." Jack looked confused "You know each other?" he questioned "Yeah, She would hide out in my old group home when her parents would run off. Back when she was thirteen." Alex explained "You stopped coming around, I thought they killed you, Jesus" he set Tyler down and walked over to me, My eyes widened "Please, don't touch me," I said awkwardly, he frowned "Long story" he nodded understandingly.

Suddenly the door slammed open.

"Please tell me he's here!" a voice yelled, Causing me to flinch. Someone's getting hit.

A tall man with an angry stance marches into the living area "Okay, Brendon just calm down" Jack stood up, "Ty, Go play, Okay?" Tyler smiled and ran off "Calm down? YOU WANT ME TO CALM DOWN" I felt the panic in my chest but didn't dare move "He Fucking Ran Off Again" This man was clearly upset about something, "I thought May called you, Said we'd tell you if we found him" Jack tried reasoning "Fuck. I'm sposed to be protecting him, Jack." This man was pacing now, gripping his hair and visibly shaking. I was not far off. Alex gave me a look and his eyes widened in realization. He had seen me panic countless times. He's the only other person I can somewhat trust apart from Jack now.

Jack turned to look at me worry on his face "Alex, Take her out. Now" Jack demanded and soon I was lifted up and moved to a quieter room. The quiet eased my nerves slightly.

"Abigale look at me" Alex... This was Alex. Alex knows what's happening. Alex has seen me go through this more than once. He won't punish me, He won't yell at me. He will help me.

Slowly I looked up at him "Breathe, Okay? You need to breathe" I let the tears fall and instantly felt guilty, I fiercely wiped them away, but they kept falling. Not letting up. Alex's hands stopped my movement "I'm sorry." I whispered. "Please, I didn't mean to cry. Don't tell them" he put his hand on the side of my face "I'm calm. I'm okay" He laughed bitterly at me then peaked out the door into the hall "Wana go back out now? Brendon's gone" I nodded. He was generous enough to not touch me.

"Everything okay?" Jack asked looking over at us, I nodded... I seemed to do that a lot. He smiled sadly and walked over, And for some reason I curled myself into Jacks side, wanting the serenity I felt last night. And That's the exact feeling I got when he wrapped his arms around me

Notes

Anyone notice the charecter pattern yet? Yeh, It's obvious I know. I'm trahs I know. BUT I dont care