Alex's POV

"So mam and pops want us to go to md for Sunday lunch." I said as I sat back on the bed which made Jack groan loudly from under the covers.
"I would say we could say no but mam is saying we're not allowed to turn this down." I said and I moved the covers from Jacks head.
"Why? Tell her I'm ill or your at work." Jack said and moved over and cuddled into my side and I just kissed the top of his head.
"Well Wes has probably told them that we was both drunk but you more than me and he's probably open his mouth up and said that I wasn't working today." I said and Jack just groaned even more and hid under the covers.
"Anyway, your going to be 18 in 5 days. I know this week is the last time we'll see Milly before she goes back to the mother land." I said and I felt Jack put his arm over my lap.
"So, I'm hungover and tired." Jack said.
"Well we don't have to be round mams until 2 and it's 11 now so you can have a couple of more hours sleep before you have to get up and get ready." I said and Jack just nodded falling back asleep again and I set alarm and Jack rolled over and I just cuddled into his back and kissed behind his ear before we both fell asleep.


"Alexander William Gaskarth! What are those on your boyfriends neck!" Mam said seriously and I just flinched at the fact she used my full name meaning I was going to be in the shit for giving Jack hickies.
"Hey I've got them along my collarbones as well." I said and showed mam the hickies Jack gave me along my collarbones but mam wasn't having any of it.
"That's not the point Alexander, you are old enough to know better." Mam scolded and Jack was walking past his hand running along the side so he could find his way round and probably get himself a drink.
"Jack Bassam." Mam said and Jack jumped and dropped the glass he had hold off.
"Shit, I'm sorry I'll clean the mess up. Don't hurt me please I didn't do nothing." Jack said as he backed away from mam walking in the glass.
"Baby, stop walking okay. Your walking into the glass and your getting glass in your feet." I said and caught hold of Jack's hand which made him jump.
"I'm sorry, I'll clean the mess, please don't hurt me." Jack sobbed and I pulled him into my chest and held him close to me and I rocked myself from side to side and I kissed the side of his head and I looked over at mam and she looked worried.
"Mam, it's okay. I'm going to take Jack upstairs and sort his feet out. You can clean up if you want but f you don't the don't worry I'll tidy up after I've seen to Jack." I said and I picked Jack up and carried him up to my room and sat him on the bed as I quickly got what I needed.

I sat next to Jack which made him jump and I put my hand on his knee and I kissed Jacks cheek which made him tense up.
"Baby, it's me Alex. Nobody here is going to hurt you here." I said softly.
"Don't hurt me please, I'm sorry I broke the glass." Jack sobbed and I pulled him to my side.
"Baby nobody is going to hurt you under this roof. I'm not going to hurt you okay. It's just a glass, mam can always replace it, it's no big deal. But what is a deal is the fact you have glass in your foot. Am I allowed to take the glass out?" I said and Jack looked at me.
"If I was too kiss you would you believe me when I say I'm Alex." I said and Jack shrugged his shoulders.
I pulled Jacks face towards mine and I kissed softly at first but then I moved and sat on Jack and I looked at Jack too see if there was any sign of Jack being scared but there wasn't as Jack pulled my head back towards his and kissed me hard and soon we was making out and taking each other's clothes off.

"We're going to have to go downstairs soon babe." I said as Jack cuddled into my side and I kissed the top of his head.
"You can go I'm staying here." Jack said quietly.
"Baby your going to have to talk to me about what happened." I said and started to mess with Jack's hair which made him sigh loudly.
"Not here, I don't want Jasey to hear or know what happened." Jack said quietly.
"Okay, we'll talk when we get home yeah." I said and Jack nodded and someone knocked on my door and it opened and I saw mam.
"You two okay?" Mam asked and I looked at Jack who was inside his own little mind.
"Yeah, I don't think we'll stay for dinner mam. Tell Mills we say sorry and that she stays safe in England." I said and mam nodded with understandment.
"That's fine sweetie." Mam said and she walked out the room shutting the door behind her.
"Shell we go home? We can stop for food on the way back if you want." I said and Jack nodded.
"So we need to get dressed first." I said and sat up which made Jack sit up.
I looked at Jack's back and saw all the old scars he had on his back and I could feel my heart break because of what Jack had to put up with and neither me or Jasey could help him because he kept it to himself so Jasey wouldn't worry about him.
I moved and kissed one of the scars which made Jack freeze.
"I told you not to touch or kiss them." Jack said seriously as he stood up and put his pants on.
"Jack I don't care about them." I said and started to get dressed as well.
"You might not care, but I do. Please respect it when I tell you not to touch or kiss them." Jack said and put my hoodie on and walked out the room and I just sighed loudly and I carried on getting dressed and once I was dressed I went looking for Jack who was sat outside smoking so I caught hold of his hand which made Jack jump and look at me.
"Let's go home." I said quietly and Jack nodded and smiled as he stood up and we walked home in silence.

"Babe you're going to have to talk about what happened to you." I said as I sat next to Jack on the sofa which Jack rested his head on my shoulder.
"The scars are from my parents and Patrick." Jack said quietly.
"The rope scars on your wrists?" I asked carefully and Jack moved away and he looked down and rub his thumb over his wrists.
"Patrick." Jack whispered and he stood up and walked off and I knew he was going to go to our bedroom so he could cry.
I got up and walked to our room and saw Jack on his side of the bed crying so I walked over and lead behind Jack and cuddled into his back and kissed his cheek.
"Don't cry, I don't like seeing you cry." I said quietly and wiped the tears from his cheek.
"I can't talk about it." Jack sobbed and I rolled him over so he was facing me.
"It's okay." I whispered and pulled Jack into my chest where he carried on crying and I just kissed the top of his head and traced patterns on his upper arm.

Jack had fallen asleep so I quietly got off the bed and went to the sitting room and started to clean the mess what had been piling up for the last week.
I put the tv on quietly for some background noise while I washed up.
I looked down and saw the scars on my arm and thought of Jack and the scars on his body and I just pulled down the sleeve with a sigh.
"Lex?" I heard Jack say quietly and I looked up and saw Jack walking into the sitting room with the duvet wrapped round him.
"Yeah babe." I said which made Jack jump a little and he looked in my direction.
"Why aren't you in bed?" Jack asked as he walked over to the kitchen.
"Because I couldn't sleep and the apartment needs a clean." I said and Jack hugged me wrapping the duvet round us both.
"You should of woken me up." Jack said and I rested my head on Jacks chest and Jack kissed the top of my head which made me smile and hug Jack tighter.
"You had a shit day, anyway I don't mind cleaning the place as it makes me think of something else than what I was thinking off." I said.

"Are you one of these angry cleaners?" Jack chuckled and I looked at him and kissed him which made Jack smile and return the kiss.
"I might be one of those angry cleaners." I said and Jack chuckled.
I caught hold of Jack's hand and guided him into the sitting room and we both sat down on the sofa and I cuddled into his side and Jack kissed the side of my head.
I felt Jack roll my sleeves up and him running his fingers up and down my scars.
"You used to cut deep?" Jack said quietly.
"Not exactly, the deep scars are from a suicide attempt." I said and looked down.
Jack moved and sat on me and made me look at him.
"The scars on my back are from where Patrick and my father would burn me with their cigarettes." Jack said quietly and I ran a finger down Jacks scared arm.
"Patrick would get jealous if I spoke to another person and he would get high and get really drunk to the point he didn't know what he was doing, he would act all nice and everything and then he would push me hard where he would then sit on me using his body weight to burn me and he said that once I was scared nobody would want to be with me because not only was I blind but I was ugly and nobody would want someone who was blind and ugly." Jack said and he sniffed and I wiped a stray tear which was falling of the end of his nose.
"Well I don't care that your blind and you are definitely not ugly." I said and Jack smiled and looked at me.
I lent forward and kissed Jack which he returned.
"I love you Jack." I said and ran my thumb over Jacks cheek bone which Jack lent into with a smile on his face and he kissed my hand.
"I love you too Lex." Jack said quietly and I pulled his head towards mine and I kissed him which Jack returned and he worked on taking my clothes off like I was doing to him.

Notes

So this chapter is just shit.
Haven't updated for a while as I've been working really long unhuman shifts and I have literally been physically and mentally exhausted and my mental health has been all over the place so I'm not coping well at the moment.