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Secrets Don't Make Friends

Be Happy for Me

Jack

Alex met me at the hospital today once he got off. We were going to decide on how we wanted to take care of AJ and then he was taking me to get a massage. I was actually looking forward to doing that today with him. I needed to relieve a lot of the stress I was feeling.

Alex rocked AJ slowly while I watched the end of an episode of Teen Mom on TV. I usually didn’t like that show but I found solace in watching people facing problems like me. Also, I was happy when anyone came to help with AJ. He was such a needy baby, who always craved attention. As soon as he woke up, he wanted someone to pick him up. I found it very cute, but also exhausting.

"They should have put us on that show. We would have been the most interesting storyline." Alex said about Teen Mom and I laughed.

"Yeah we definitely would have caused ratings to go up." I said. "But now that it's off, let's talk." I turned towards him and he nodded.

I wanted to know exactly how we were going to split our time with AJ. We lived in separate houses, so he was going to have to go back and forth.

"Okay, we both start school in the fall and I was thinking about taking morning classes." I told him.

"Me too because I'll have to work afternoon til night some days." He said, and I sighed.

"Then we'd have to do daycare and that’ll cost a lot." I tapped my fingers while thinking. "Okay, I'll just take a few semesters off-"

"-No, Jack." Alex stopped me.

"Lex, there's no other way. I’m not taking evening classes cause I'm not going to burden my mom, grandparents, or your parents."

"I'll just work while you go to school and then I can go back later." He suggested.

"No Alex. You gave up the band, so you could go to school."

"I gave up the band to help support you two." He clarified.

"But...look how about we both do part time school? I think taking four classes is full time, so I'll take two in the morning and then you take two. You'll come home with time to rest before work."

"That'll take forever to finish. Plus, I've been thinking of switching to working full time and finding a better paying job like maybe at a warehouse. I want us to find our own place and start our life together."

"I'm not letting you do that." I rolled my eyes at him.

"Why not?"

"Because you're giving too much up. First the band, then school, and now you want to work full time at a warehouse. That'll make you miserable." I scolded him.

"I won't be miserable as long as I know you two are happy."

"You say that now and then twenty years from now you'll have so much built up animosity towards me and AJ because you'll realize you hate what you do." I predicted.

"Jack, I'm just doing this to start us off. I'll look for something better in the future."

"I think we should just stay home with our parents and be half time students to save money. It's the easiest way."

"But we won't have to worry about money if I found a good full-time job." He argued.

"Alex, you're going to school and that's that."

"Why do you care about my future more than your own??" He questioned.

"Because I knew I was going to have to make sacrifices when AJ was born so I was prepared for this."

"And I wasn't?"

"I'm not saying that. It’s just I knew for sure I was his father, you didn’t get that luxury and it’s my fault. So you weren’t entirely sure you would have to give so much up.”

“But I know it now.”

“Yeah, but look at it this way, I'm not going to wake up one day and regret not getting my business degree if I can't because of AJ. That hasn't been a lifelong dream of mine."

"But you think I will, because I'm not doing the band or going to school?"

"You might!"
“I'm telling you I won't."

"And I'm saying you might, Lex. And I don't want to experience that in the future. I'd rather you do one or the other right now." I wasn't expecting our talk to become like this. I was glad I suggested we talk now instead of when it was actually time to being AJ home.

"Why do you get to choose everything we do with our future?” He questioned.

“I don’t ‘get’ to choose these things. I didn’t choose for you to quit the band, you did. I’m just trying to think of the best way for us to continue our lives with a kid.” Every time Alex and I talked about this in the past he told me he didn’t want to go to college and he didn’t want to work a boring nine-to-five job. I didn’t want to see him force himself to do something he didn’t want to do.

“I want that too, but that requires you going to school to get your business degree. Technically I don’t have to go to college for my dream.” He tried reasoning with me.

“What do you mean?” I asked.

“Just hear me out, you can go to school while I work until you graduate. Then I’ll see if the guys want to give the band another chance. By then, AJ will be four and sick of me, and you’ll have a great job and we’ll be able to pay for daycare.”

“What if the band doesn’t work out or if the guys don’t want to be in a band anymore? Then what?”

“Then I’ll go to school, I promise.” He said, and I sighed. I didn’t like this plan. There wasn’t a guarantee that Hopeless would want to sign them four years later. Also, it was hard for people to go back to school after taking some time off. I didn’t want that to happen to Alex.

“I don’t know, Lex.” I said while rubbing my head.

AJ began to cry, and Alex and I looked down at him. I knew he wasn’t hungry cause I already fed him. I took him from Alex so I could unwrap him from his blanket and checked his diaper. Sure enough he had a wet diaper.

“Can you get me a diaper, the wipes, and baby powder from that bag?” I pointed to the bag the hospital gave me for AJ. Alex reached in and gave me everything I asked for. Then I changed AJ’s diaper. Alex and I didn’t say much while I did it. I think we needed time to think before talking about that stuff again.

I snapped AJ’s onesie and kissed him before handing him back to Alex. He pulled AJ back to his chest and sighed while looking down at him. I realized it wasn’t having a baby that stressed us out, it was planning around him. This problem wasn’t going to go away by itself, so I started the conversation up again.

“How much would you guys make a month while signed to Hopeless?” I asked Alex.

“Jack, I already said I wasn’t-.” He sighed.

“-Just answer me.” I cut him off.

“We’ll be openers for other bands until we gain more recognition, so they said about three-hundred a show.”

“And you’ll do like what? Maybe 3 shows a week?”

“Yeah sometimes, most of the time just two.”

“So that’s like six-hundred to nine-hundred a week??” I don’t think he understand how much money that was for us.

“Before tax, but Jack, it doesn’t matter. I’m not leaving you two.”

“It’s not really leaving us, Alex. You’ll be on tour for a few months then you’ll be home for a few months.”

“We’ll make most of our money touring which means we’ll have to tour a lot.”

“And we can come visit you a lot.” I said, and he rolled his eyes at me.

“I already quit the band and we don’t have a bass player.”

“I’m sure they’ll take you back. And what about Jaime? He plays bass, doesn’t he?”

“He does, but it doesn’t matter cause I’m still not doing it.”

“Ugggh why are you being so stubborn??” I complained.

“I can’t imagine leaving him.” He said, while looking down at AJ.

“He’ll be right here when you get back and think about how cool it’ll be for him to say his dad is in a rock band.” I said, and Alex chuckled.

“You’d really be okay with me not being here like three-hundred days out of the year?” He asked, with an eyebrow raised.

“I won’t love it, no, but I’ll be happy because you’ll be doing what you love and making lots of money!” I said, and he sighed again.

“If I join the band again-“ he began, and I cheered and cut him off. “I said ‘if’ Jack. If I join the band and we get Jaime and sign with Hopeless, then you have to go to school to get your degree. I’ll send money to pay for daycare while you’re in school, but you have to go.” He bargained.

“Of course I will! And maybe I can get a part-time job on campus for extra money.” I suggested.

“Okay, I should go call Rian and Vic, so we can plan to sit down with Jaime and with Hopeless.” He handed me AJ and began making phone calls.

I smiled down at AJ, happy that everything was going perfect now. “Your daddy is going to be a famous Rockstar and I’m going to be working my way up the corporate ladder pretty soon.” I told AJ. He just stared up at me as I talked.

Alex was finally off the phone twenty minutes later. He told me they were all planning to meet next week. They had to make decisions before graduation in a few months, so they could tour during the summer.

My mom came in a few minutes later, after just getting from work. I handed her AJ, who was now asleep, and she sat down and kicked off her shoes.

“What have you two losers been doing all day?” She asked Alex and me.

“Arguing.” Alex stayed, and I playfully rolled my eyes.

“Arguing about what?”

“Your son has been trying to convince me to join the band again.”

“It all works out perfectly. He’s going to tour and send money for AJ while I go to school. I didn’t want to bother you all by asking you to watch AJ a lot so I’m going to send him to daycare.” I said.

“Sounds like you’ll still be in Jack and AJ’s lives, which is the most important thing, so I say go for it. As long as you don’t get tangled in with all the women throwing themselves at you.” She shrugged, and I nodded in agreement.

“I definitely won’t be making any more mistakes like that. But yeah I’m gonna do it.” He said with a smile, and I kissed him on the cheek.

“Are you ready?” Alex asked me.

“Yep!”

“Where are you two going?” My Mom asked.

“To get massages.” I said.

“Oh okay, have fun.”

We left her in the room with AJ and we walked out to Alex’s car. I could see Alex was still in deep thought about if he was making the correct choice rejoining the band or not. I grabbed his hand and woke him up from his thoughts. I didn’t want him stressing over it too much. If it didn’t work out, then he could always come back home and hopefully I would have my degree and a job to support us while he figured out what he wanted to do next.

Alex opened his car door for me and I thanked him and got in. He got in on the other side, but I stopped him before he could start the car. I had a better idea to relieve our stress that didn’t cost any money.

I pulled open his glove box to see if he had what I needed.

“What are you looking for?” He asked.

“This!” I exclaimed as I pulled out the bottle of lube.

“Wait you serious want to? You said I couldn’t even think about touching you because the scar AJ left from the C-section.” He quoted what I told him a few days after AJ was born.

“Yeah but I’m over it now. And this is a whole lot cheaper than a massage.” I chuckled.

“Yeah that’s true. How about I fuck you senseless and then use the massage money to take you out to eat?” He asked, and I laughed.

“That would be perfect!” I exclaimed and followed him to his backseat.

*****

**Two Months Later**

“Congratulations Daddy!” I exclaimed, while holding AJ. Alex smiled as he walked up to his group of family and friends, while holding his diploma.

Today was Alex’s graduation and it was a week since we were allowed to take AJ from the hospital. I told Alex I wasn’t going to bring AJ because of all the people, but I surprised him.

“You brought him!” He said happily and took AJ from me.

“Yeah we just stayed until they called your name. They we waited in the quiet lobby.” I chuckled.

“Wait I have to take pictures!” Isobel gasped. She pulled out her phone and began snapping away at Alex and AJ. “Now let’s get one with both of the dads.” She said.

I stepped close to Alex and wrapped my arm around him. Everyone was taking pictures at this point. Then I took AJ from Alex, so he could get pictures with his parents, grandparents, and the rest of his family. I had never met Alex’s extended family before. They were all so nice and happy to meet me and AJ. AJ was overstimulated with all the noise here when they first met him, so he didn’t want anyone else but me to hold him. Hopefully he would do much better tonight at Alex’s graduation party.

“Hi Jack!” Cass exclaimed from behind me.

“Hey!” I turned to see her and Rian. “You two look adorable!” I told them.

“Thanks, so do you.” Rian said, making me chuckle.

“Hi Chicken Butt, are you going to come to me without crying today?” Cass said to AJ as she reached out for him. I tried to slide him into her arms, but he began whining. “Okay okay I’ll leave you with your dad.” She laughed.

“Yeah he’s not in a good mood right now.” I settled him back into my arms.

“You’re going to love me one day.” Cass jokingly scolded him.

“Rian, can you get our picture together?” I asked and handed him my phone. Cass and I stood together, and Rian took a couple of pictures of us. “Thanks!” I told him.

“No problem.”

I looked over and saw Alex just now taking pictures with his cousins from out of town. I chuckled to myself as I saw him put on a fake smile for the pictures. He was over this event by now.

“Jack?” I heard someone call my name. I turned around to see Zack standing there. Cass and Rian left to take pictures with Alex, and to give us privacy.

“Oh, hey Zack.” I said, trying to ignore the nervous feeling in my stomach. I felt bad, almost embarrassed, holding AJ right here in front of him.

“Hey, um uh how’ve you been?” He asked, making small talk.

“Pretty good, um what about you?”

“The same. When did he leave the NICU?” He asked, looking down to AJ.

“Just last week. He’s strong enough to do most things by himself now.” I said, and he chuckled.

“He’s so cute. As much as I hate to admit this, Alex is a really lucky guy.”

“I don’t know about that. He had to change AJ’s diaper last night and he almost died.” I joked and we both laughed. “But honestly Zack, I know it seems like we’re living the perfect life with AJ, but it’s really difficult. I think most people like the idea of having a baby more than actually having one. So just go to be a college student, have fun and don’t look back.” I told him, and he smiled.

“I’ll try my best. It was good seeing you, Jack.”

“You too.” I said and watched him walk back towards the crowd of graduate students.

“What was that about?” Alex asked when he approached from behind me.

“We were catching up.” I turned to him and said.

“I thought he was trying to take you two away from me.” He pouted, and I laughed.

“He could never...I mean unless he gets a six-figure paying job then we’d talk.” I joked.

“Oh, is that how easy you are?” He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me close to him.

“Shut up!” I playfully rolled my eyes.

“We’re ready to go now. Everyone is going back to my house for the party.” He told me.

“Yeah your mom told me this morning. Can we catch a ride with you?” I jokingly asked. I rode here with Alex’s Mom, so I wasn’t stranded.

“Hmm I don’t know. You have a kid and that’s kind of a deal breaker.”

“He’s your kid too, jerk.” I playfully pushed his arms from around me.

“Yeah, he’s my little Love Bug!” Alex took AJ and I followed him to his car.

Alex strapped AJ into his car seat and drove us towards his house. We had to stop for gas so his family beat us back to the house. I pulled a sleeping AJ out of his car seat, and followed Alex into his house.

As soon as we walked in I saw a sign that said, ‘congrats Alex & Jack.’ I stared at it confused.

“Hey babe!” My Mom greeted me, and I was shocked to see her here.

“Mom, what’re you doing here?” I asked.

“It’s a graduation party for you and Alex.” She said, as if it was so obvious.

“But I didn’t graduate today.” I got my GED but that was a few weeks ago and I went out to eat with my mom, grandparents, and Alex.

Alex answered for my mom, “I thought it’d be great for you to have a real graduation party, so I decided to share mine.”

“Aw Lex, you didn’t have to!” I exclaimed and kissed him on the cheek.

“I wanted too, you look out for me so much and I have to return the favor.” He told me and kissed me.

“Here, I’ll go put him in his basset.” Isobel said, as she walked by. I handed her AJ and she walked him up to Alex’s room.

My grandparents walked up to me next. I was surprised to see them too. I hugged them and thanked them for coming. They both brushed it off and went to go talk with Alex’s parents and grandparents.

“You spoil me.” I told Alex and he chuckled.

“I just want you to know how much I love you. Especially when I have to leave in two weeks.” He sighed.

“It’s just Warped Tour. It’ll be over in two months and then you’ll be right back home with us.” I said, trying to cheer him up.”

“Yeah, I know. But then I’ll have to leave a few weeks later.”

“But you’ll be playing that Halloween festival and Blink-182 is going to be there.” I teased, and a smile quickly spread across his face.

“I guess an autograph from Mark Hoppus would help me feel better.” He said, making me chuckle. I knew it would make it worth it once he met his idol and once their band got a pretty strong fan base.

“Just promise you won’t leave me for some better-looking guy or girl when you make it big.” I said.

“I been through too much with you to leave you.” He said and pressed a kiss to my forehead. “But if Mark Hoppus makes a move then that’s a whole another story.” He joked, and I playfully rolled my eyes.

Notes

Sorry for the time jump in the middle of this chapter lol Next chapter is the last one :( I've only written half of it and it seems pretty long so I'll split it into two if I need to!

Comments

@dirtylaundry
You’re welcome <3 and thank you so much for reading it!!

Jalex95 Jalex95
10/16/17

@T-what
I’m so happy you enjoyed it! And thanks again for reading it and all your feedback! I hate reading stories that take forever to update and that don’t finish too, that’s why I try to make stories that I can upload at least once a week lol but thanks again <3

Jalex95 Jalex95
10/16/17

I loved this story! Thank you for taking us on this lovely journey and for a wonderful ending!

dirtylaundry dirtylaundry
10/15/17

Awwww, no thank you, it was a lovely journey and I enjoyed this fic so much. Probs to you for never abandoning this and pulling through to the end. I hate reading stories that are put on hold randomly and never get finished.

T-what T-what
10/15/17

@Apathy4Sympathy
Lolol Alex has finally come to his senses. And a PTV and ATL hybrid would be weird in real life now that I think about it lol I don’t know what I’ll do without this fic either, Well I might become bored and write another one haha

Jalex95 Jalex95
10/11/17