Alex's POV

"Your not going to kick off are you?" I asked Jack as we got ready for school so that Drew could give me, Jack and Josh a lift to school since we stayed round theirs for the rest of the weekend.
"If the fucking prick wants a fight I'll give him a fight." Jack said seriously as he sat down and finished this joint we was both smoking the previous night, I sat beside him but was sat side ways with my legs crossed looking at Jack.
"What?" Jack asked seriously.
"Why can't you just drop it Jack?" I asked and looked down.
"I can't drop it because what Robbie said hurt you and don't you say that it didn't because it did." Jack said and I looked at him.
"Yes what Robbie said hurt but I don't want you to kick off about it. That's not what I want Jack." I said and Jack glared at me.
"Don't fucking glare at me. If you want to kick off, fine just fucking do it and get kicked out of school but I'm not getting involved. So when Drew or Josh come out tell them I've walked to school." I said and stood up and grabbed my bag and walked off to school.

I was at my locker sorting my books out for what I need for the day when my door swung shut and I looked and saw Jack leaning against the locker next to mine.
"Can I help you?" I asked and opened my locker door again but Jack pushed it shut completely this time.
"I want to say I am sorry for being a cunt this morning." Jack said quietly and looked down.
I made Jack look at me and I pulled him gently towards me and I wrapped my arms round his neck and kissed him which Jack returned.
"It's okay." I said as I rested my chin on Jack shoulder and Jack did the same to me.
"I'm sorry." Jack said quietly and I kissed the side of his head and pulled back and looked at him.
"It's okay, stop saying sorry. Please your beginning to sound like me." I said and Jack chuckled and kissed me which I returned.
"We need to get to class." I said quietly and slapped Jack ass which made him smirk at me which I returned.
"Lets go." I said and went to pick my bag up but Jack did that for me and I caught hold of his hand and we walked to class.

It was lunch and I was glad about that because I was really hungry since I didn't eat anything while round Josh's.
"You know, you can eat round mine. The food isn't covered in poison." Josh said and I shrugged my shoulders.
"I don't like eating at other people's houses, makes me feel guilty for eating their food." I said with a mouthful of food.
"Don't feel guilty about eating our food. Jack normally eats all our food when he stays round." Josh said and I looked at Jack who was focused on something which made me frown.
"I'm pregnant Jack." I said and Jack snapped out of what he was focusing on and looked at me.
"What?" Jack asked clearly confused.
"Never mind, what you so focused on anyway? Your never that focused on anything." I said.
But before I could get an answer Josh butted in.
"Oh shit, here comes trouble." Josh said and both me and Jack turned round and saw Finn walking towards us with a group of people I didn't know.
"Who the fuck are they?" Jack asked and looked at Josh who shrugged his shoulders.
"Dunno, maybe it's the cunts friends since he's like a year younger than Drew." Josh said and I looked at Jack not liking where this is heading.
"It'll be okay." Jack said softly and I smiled slightly at him and looked at Finn who was standing in front of us.

"We need to talk." Finn said seriously.
"We'll talk when you get rid of those tossers." Jack said looking down at his phone not borthered about the situation which was forming in front of us.
"Their not leaving." Finn said and Jack looked up from his phone.
"Then we're not talking." Jack said bluntly and looked down at his phone but Finn stepped forward and slapped Jacks phone out of his hand which pissed Jack off and Jack stood up.
"Well you have my attention now. What would you like to talk about?" Jack said seriously towering over Finn since he was taller than me, Josh and Finn.
"What you did to my boyfriend the other night." Finn said.
"Seriously? So he's allowed to say things about Alex, who is unstable enough at the minute without your cunt of a boyfriend telling Alex that he's better off dead. If anyone needs to talk about their boyfriends then it should be me telling you that your boyfriend was totally out of line." Jack said and I looked down.
"Yeah I'm being serious about this. What gives you the right to punch him round the face?" Finn challenged.
"Really? I have literally just told you why your cunt of a boyfriend got a right hook." Jack said sounding like he doesn't even care about this.
"Yeah Robbie is no angel but neither is Alex." Finn said and I looked at Finn and he was glaring at me.
"Yeah but we're not talking about Alex though are we? We're talking about me and Robbie so you will leave Alex out of this." Jack said and I looked at Josh who was too focused on what was going on to even look at me.
"Well we are talking about our boyfriends so why not bring Alex into this?" Finn said.
"Alex has nothing to do with this as he was in the bedroom trying not to act on the actions your boyfriend told him to." Jack said.
"But Robbie didn't put the words into his head. He was just stating a fact that the world is better off without him." Finn said and that hurt a lot and I noticed Jacks hand ball into a fist.
"Wow he really has brainwashed you. Well technically your boyfriend did put the words into Alex's head. We're done with this." Jack said and he turned round and I saw Finn go to punch Jack but I stood up and punched Finn hard and he looked at me shocked and so did the audience we had forming.
"You are just as bad as Robbie. You don't go punching someone when their backs are turned, that just shows your weak and pathetic." I said seriously.
"But I'm not the weak and pathetic on since your the one who cuts himself all the time and can't even kill yourself right." Finn spat nursing his face.
"So your going to bring that up all the time? Yes I self harm and committed suicide numerous of times." I said loud enough for everyone to hear because I don't see the point in hiding it anymore.
"I am not weak or pathetic. I have lost both my parents in car accidents. One when I was just fucking 10 years old. I like to see you trying to survive a day in my shoes and you'll see I'm not weak or pathetic. So I suggest you fuck off and don't come running to us if Robbie rapes and beats you because that is what will happen. We aren't your friends anymore." I said seriously and turned round grabbed my bag and walked off.

I was sat at the hill when I people sat either side of me and I looked and saw Josh and Jack which made me smile.
"How's your hand?" Jack asked as he looked at it.
"It hurts but the cunt was worth the pain I'm going through." I said quietly.
"Everyone is talking about you." Josh said and I just looked down.
"Christ I regret saying that now. Was so stupid but I was on a roll." I said.
"But everyone was asking questions on where you had gone and how you got the scars on your arm." Josh said and I just sighed loudly and I felt Jack pull me into his side and him kissing the top of my head.
"Josh, just quit while your ahead of yourself yeah." Jack said.
"Come on Jack, you used to ask questions as well. I even asked his dad and he said he wasn't going to say." Josh said.
"Yes I used to ask questions. But we're going to drop this subject now." Jack said and Josh took the hint and he stop talking about that and he moved on to talk about mum.
"So your mum died when you was 10?" Josh asked.
"Josh seriously just shut the fuck up." Jack said and I put my hand on his chest and looked at Jack who was looking at me.
"It's fine." I said quietly and moved from Jack a little but I was still close to him.
"Yeah my mum died when I was 10." I said and looked at Josh.
"What happened?" Josh asked.
"Mum was coming home from a day out shopping with her friends when a car hit her car. I don't really know, my nan never really went into detail about it. But I remember going to hospital and my nan saying I had to say goodbye to her." I said and looked down and picked at the grass.
"So how did you end up in America then? Why didn't you stay with your nan?" Josh asked and I sensed Jack giving Josh a look.
"My nan couldn't look after me as she was always in and out of hospital and my mums sisters hated me for some reason so my nan got in contact with dad and that's how I ended up here." I said and I stood up and walked away from Jack and Josh and sat back down again.

"You seriously need to learn how to shut the bloody mouth of yours up Joshua." I heard Jack say which made me smile a little.
"Drew says the same thing and then I normally get his dick in my mouth to shut me up, not that I care." Josh said.
"Well isn't Drew lucky that he has that to shut you up." Jack said and I felt him look at me.
"He'll be okay Jack. If he can get through what he's gone through then he a tough cookie." Josh said and I stood up and walked back over and cuddled into Jacks side.
"I'm sorry for sticking my nose into your business." Josh said and I smiled and looked at him.
"It's fine. I can't hide my past if I want to try and sort my head out." I said and Jack gave me a slight squeeze.
"Things can only go up from now." Josh said and I smiled at his positive attitude about everything.
"Got a few demons to try and tame still before I can think of that." I said and Jack kissed the top of my head.
"Well if you need anyone to talk to, a shoulder to cry on then you have me, Josh and Drew." Jack said which made me smile.

Me and Jack was home chilling in bed and watching some shit film.
"What did you mean by what you said to Finn about raping and beating him?" Jack asked and I looked down.
"I was having a meltdown and was wondering round the streets and Robbie showed up pissed out of his face and I had no idea what I was doing and before I knew what was going on I was pulled into a really dark alleyway and felt his dick being rammed into my ass and I didn't notice the pain, sounds really odd but I was still miles away with what was happening to me. I came back to find Robbie was just finishing beating me up. He just staggered off like nothing happened." I said and looked down.
"I remember phoning dad and crying down the phone to him but after that I don't remember, the next thing I knew I either woke up or came back to reality in hospital. " I said and sniffed and I felt Jack wipe the tears rolling down my cheeks which made me look at him and smile.
"How come he doesn't remember you then?" Jack asked.
"I dunno, he was really drunk at the time. I never saw his face or heard him speak but the way his was looking at me just creeped me out and the way he sat really close and I smelt him. He smelt exactly like the person who raped me. He fitted the height of the person and his hair was the same as that person. I know it was him." I said trying to keep myself calm.
"It's going to be okay Lex." Jack said quietly and held me and I hid my face in his chest.
"Did you report it to the police?" Jack asked and I shook my head and sniffed.
"No, I didn't know if I made it up or not. I mean I was really sore all over my body but I thought I fell into a ditch or something. I didn't know what was happening around me at the time." I said quietly and sat up.
"What did your dad say?" Jack asked softly and moved some hair from my eyes.
"He said that he would get the son of the bitch. I dunno what happened after that because I had to stay in hospital for a while." I said and looked at my arms.
"Me, Josh and Drew will look after you. We've got your back." Jack said quietly and I looked at him and smiled.
"I really do mean it when I say a tear stained face doesn't suit you." Jack said and I couldn't help but chuckle and looked down but Jack made me look at him and he kissed me which I returned.

"Lets watch the film and go to sleep." Jack said quietly and I nodded and got myself comfy and watched the film until I fell asleep.

Notes

A shit update which probably doesn't make any sense