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The Lion and The Lamb

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Trigger warning self harm and suicidal thoughts

Alex's POV

"You sure your going to be okay? I can always come round yours and stay with you." Jack said seriously as I finished crying and stood up.
"I'll be fine, I just want to be alone." I sniffed and Jack stood up and pulled me into his chest.
"You know I'm always here." Jack said and kissed the top of my head.
"I know, I'll text you." I said and pulled away.
"You better Alex, if I don't get a reply from any texts within 10 minutes I'm coming round." Jack said seriously and looked at me and I just nodded.
"I love you okay. I don't want to lose you." Jack said quietly and I smiled as this was the first time Jack said he loved me.
"I love you too." I whispered and Jack smiled and kissed me softly.
I smiled and I walked out of Jacks house and went back to mine.

I was lost in thought making sure I was texting Jack when my phone started to ring and I saw it was the hospital number.
"Hello?" I said quietly and sniffed.
"Hello, is this Alex Gaskarth?" The person on the other end said.
"Yeah that's me. Is my dad okay?" I asked quietly.
"Hello Alex it's me doctor SoSo, I'm your fathers doctor as you know." Doctor SoSo said.
"What's the matter with my dad?" I asked and stood up and looked at the picture of me and dad from a couple of years ago.
"Alex, I think you should come down to the hospital as I think it would be better if I told you in person." Doctor SoSo said and my heart went to the pit of my stomach.
"Okay. I'll be there soon." I said and hung up.
"Please be okay." I whispered to myself and I texted Jack saying not to text me as I was busy and I made sure I added that I wasn't doing anything stupid because I wasn't planning on it. It all depends on what the doctor had to say.

I got to the intensive care unit and I went to see dad where doctor SoSo was checking on dad.
He heard the door open and shut and he looked behind him and smiled a sympathetic smile.
"Hello Alex." He said.
"What do you have to tell me." I said seriously and looked at dad.
"Alex I'm so sorry that I have to say this. But we missed a couple of life threatening injuries, I don't understand how we missed them." He said and I looked at him.
"How could you of missed life threatening injuries!" I shouted.
"I can only send my deep apology to you." He said.
"So what you are saying is that my dad is going to die." I said and felt tears build up in my eyes.
"There's no easy way of saying this but yes. We missed that you father has had brain hemorrhage. When we checked his scan his brain was swollen and we couldn't see it until the swelling went down." He said and I sniffed and remained quiet.
"I am so sorry." He said and moved towards me.
"Don't fucking touch me." I growled and he stopped moving.
"Alex..." He started but I looked at him.
"He was fucking brain dead when you spoke to me earlier! Why didn't you tell me then!" I shouted and the tears I had been holding back was now falling.
"We didn't tell you because we didn't know. If we knew then we would of said." He said and I shook my head and looked down.
"Just get out." I whispered and went over to the chair and sat on it.
"I'm so sorry about this. A nurse will be in in a hour to turn the life support off." He said and he walked out the door.
Once he was gone I just cried my heart out as I said goodbye to my only family member I had left.

I don't remember much after that, when I came back to the world I was sat in my room drinking dads favorite alcohol which was Jack Daniels and I had a blade in my hand.
Jack tried to phone me but I didn't answer his calls but he knew I was home since my bedroom light was on but he couldn't see in my room as I had closed my curtains.
"I have no family." I sobbed to myself as I drunk some more of this whiskey which I didn't even like.
I put the bottle on the floor and I sat on my bed and rolled my sleeves up.
"I have nobody." I whispered and dragged the blade harshly across my arm which made the cut really deep since it was a new blade.
"I'm better off dead." I sniffed and wiped my nose in my sleeve since my nose literally had snot running out of it like there was no tomorrow.
I dragged the blade over my arms god knows how many times and I put the blade down and just watched the blood leave my body.
I heard someone banging on the front door and I just made myself into a ball and carried on crying and just watched the blood leave my body.
I heard my front door cave in and I felt myself slip into darkness.
"I'm sorry Jack, I love you." I whispered and everything went black.

Notes

Comments

Oh, no girl! Hope you get better soon. Stay strong!

T-what T-what
9/3/17

Nooo, it was a good chapter, lots of drama revealed.

T-what T-what
8/30/17

Awww. There just so cute together. Love your stories, and how you wrote them in this one.

Try not to be so hard on yourself. I love your stories. They really are great.

Aww, they're so cute together!

T-what T-what
4/9/17

Don't be so hard on yourself, I think the chapters are really good, you write so many stories on here and I really like your ideas they are very creative.

T-what T-what
3/27/17