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The Lion and The Lamb

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Trigger warning self harm.

Alex's POV

When I woke up I knew I was in for a bad day and sure enough I was right.
I was sat with Jack in his room watching 13 reasons why and for some reason it was really getting to me.
I got out of bed and started to get dressed.
"Where you going?" Jack asked.
"I need to go home." I said and pulled my jeans on.
"Why? You have said before that your dad doesn't care what you do as long as he knows where you are." Jack said and I looked down.
"I just need to go home." I said quietly.
"Alex what's the matter?" Jack asked.
"I need to go fucking home okay!" I snapped and looked at Jack hard.
Jack frowned at me a little.
"Your having a bad day aren't you?" Jack asked softly.
"It doesn't matter. I going home." I said and I went to walk off but Jack caught hold off my arm.
"Talk to me Alex, something is clearly wrong today. Open up to me Alex please." Jack said.
"So you can run your mouth off at school telling everyone that I'm a fucking nut case! No I am not opening up to you just so you can go around telling everyone my secrets!" I shouted.
"I have told you that I would not do that to you." Jack said softly.
I scoffed and walked off and went for a walk.

I found myself at a river and I somehow found some weed in my jeans along with papers and a small amount of baccy and I was more surprised when I found a lighter on me.
"Bonus." I muttered.
I heard my phone go off and I looked down and saw that Jack was trying to get hold of me but I just ignored it and carried on with what I was doing.
I was smoking my joint when I looked at my arms and looked at my scars.
I looked at my joint which was half smoked and then looked at my lighter and picked it up and lite it and looked at the flame.
I moved the lighter and started to burn myself as I just needed to feel something.

I was high which normally means I was miles away.
It was also dark but I didn't really care.
"Alex." I heard someone say and I rolled my sleeve down and carried on looking out into the darkness.
"Alex, what the fuck are you doing out here?" I heard Jack say.
"Leave me alone, can't I get high in peace anymore?" I said.
"You can get high if you want, but after how you was this morning I am not leaving you." Jack said and he sat next to me.
" I treat you like shit and you come back?" I asked.
"The good ones will always push you away until they realize they like you too. So I'll keep coming back." Jack said and I smiled a little.
"Your dad is worried, you haven't answered your phone all day. He thinks your dead." Jack said.
"Yeah well right now I feel dead." I said and looked down.
"Babe what's the matter." Jack asked and I shook my head.
Jack pulled me to his side and I winced a little since I decided to burn up my whole arm.
"Alex, have you hurt yourself?" Jack asked seriously.
"N..N..No why do you think that?" I said.
"You winced when I touched your arm, you also stuttered. You don't stutter around me anymore." Jack said softly but with some seriousness to his tone.
"I haven't hurt myself." I said and looked at Jack.
"So if I told you to take your top off and show me, I won't see any cuts or burns on your arm." Jack said and turned round to face me.
I looked down and shook my head slightly.
"Take your top off and show me." Jack said seriously
"Y..Y..You can't make me." I said.
"Do it now Alexander!" Jack said loudly which made me flinch and I gingerly looked up at Jack and saw he was really serious about this.
"Can we go home and do this?" I asked and Jack got up and pulled me up from under my arm.
"Walk now Alex." Jack said and I looked down again and gingerly walked off in front of Jack.

We got to mine and I walked in with Jack following.
I felt like a little kid being told of by mum.
"Alex is that you?" Dad asked and walked into the hallway.
"Jesus Alex you high again?" Dad asked.
"So what if I am." I said and started to walk upstairs.
i could feel both dads and Jacks eyes on me as I walked up to my room.
I was sat on my bed when Jack came up and sat next to me.
"Take your top off and show me what you have done." Jack said a little bit more softly that before but still serious.
I stood up and took my hoodie and top off and turned round so my back was to Jack and I knew he could see some scars I had on my back.
I heard Jack stand up and walk over to me and he stood in front of me.
"Fuck Alex, you need to get that looked at." Jack said and stepped forward and I stepped and I shook my head as I looked down.
"Babe, please you need to get your arm looked at, it's covered in blisters and they are going to get infected if you don't get them looked." Jack said.
"Don't fucking call me that. I don't give a shit. It's my body I can do what I want with it." I said and before I knew it Jack had me over his shoulder.
"Put me fucking down Jack!" I said loudly and hit his back hard but Jack ignored me and walked downstairs.
"Jack what you doing?" Dad asked.
"Alex has burnt his arm, I am taking him to the hospital to have them looked at." Jack said.
"Put me down Jack!" I growled.
"Take him to the hospital. Stay with him for me please." Dad said.
"Fuck you." I spat at both Jack and dad.
"Can organize that if you want." Jack said and he walked to the hospital to the hospital with me over his shoulder.
"I fucking hate you." Was all I said as we went to the hospital.

Notes

Comments

Oh, no girl! Hope you get better soon. Stay strong!

T-what T-what
9/3/17

Nooo, it was a good chapter, lots of drama revealed.

T-what T-what
8/30/17

Awww. There just so cute together. Love your stories, and how you wrote them in this one.

Try not to be so hard on yourself. I love your stories. They really are great.

Aww, they're so cute together!

T-what T-what
4/9/17

Don't be so hard on yourself, I think the chapters are really good, you write so many stories on here and I really like your ideas they are very creative.

T-what T-what
3/27/17