Night Drives

Alex's POV

Jack wasn't at school as something had happened to his nan so he wouldn't be in school.
I didn't bother going to school as my head was all over the place at the moment.
"You alright Alex? You seem pretty quiet today." Mum said as she sat at the table with Kit sat on her lap.
"Just have a lot ticking in my head at the moment." I said and sat back looking at my homework I needed to do.
"Have you been taking your medication?" Mum asked and I nodded.
"Don't feel like their working though." I said quietly.
"Go and play with your toys Kit." Mum said and put Kit down and looked at me seriously.
"Why do you say that?" Mum asked.
It suddenly felt like a meeting with the mental health nurses back in the hospital.
"It doesn't matter." I said quietly and got up.
"Alex don't shut me out please. I'm trying to help you and get the help you need to get better." Mum said and stood up as well.
"Why bother? Because if I say something is going on your going to ask if if have taken my medication and if I have send me back to the hospital." I said and mum sighed.
"Not this again Alexander." Mum said.
"Why not, how am I meant to know as soon as I get bad again and tell you that it's getting bad again that your not going to send me back there!" I said loudly.
"I'm not sending you back there Alex! Get that into your thick head your not going back!" Mum shouted.
"Don't shout at me!" I shouted and put my hands over my ears.
"Mum what's going on?" Alaska asked as she walked in since she was staying round for a few days.
"Nothing Alaska." Mum said and I grabbed my coat and put my shoes on.
"I'm going to Jacks." I said.
"Alex." Mum said after me but the door shut and I was in my car going to Jacks.

I knocked on Jacks door and Jack opened the door with red puffy eyes and tear stained cheek.
"Jack what's the matter?" I asked softly but seriously.
"It doesn't matter, why you here?" Jack sniffed.
"It does matter Jack, I needed to get out the house." I said and Jack smiled and moved so I could walk inside.
His nan didn't shout hello in Arabic like she normally does when I come round.
I turned round and looked at Jack who looked like he could cry at any moment.
"Jack, has something happened to your nan?" I asked quietly and walked over to him.
Jack nodded.
"She hasn't been well for a while now and she passed last night at the hospital." Jack said and some more tears rolled down his cheeks.
I put my hand on his cheek and wiped the tears away.
"Jack I'm so sorry about this." I said and pulled him into a hug which he returned holding onto me for dear life meaning I couldn't breathe.
"Can't breath Jack." I chuckled softly and Jack let me go a little.
"Sorry." Jack said quietly.
"I'll forgive you." I whispered and kissed him which Jack returned.

I was cuddled into Jacks side both of us panting heavily.
"Why did you come over?" Jack asked as he rolled into his side and looked at me.
"Me and mum got into a argument and I don't like people shouting at me and she shouted at me and I walked out and came round." I said and looked at Jack.
"What was you arguing about?" Jack asked.
"I feel like my medication isn't working and I told her and it felt like she didn't believe me. I said I don't see why she bother as she's only going to send me back to the hospital and that's where the argument started." I said and looked down.
"Do you do therapy sessions?" Jack asked.
"Nope, complete waste of my time." I said and started to trace patterns on Jacks chest.
"Have you even tried it?" Jack asked.
"Yep. Had to in hospital in order for me to get out of the bloody place. It did nothing to me." I said and Jack moved and sat on me.
"Feel like I'm losing my head again but at the same time I'm not. But nobody is listening to me." I said quietly and looked away from Jack but Jack made me look at him.
"I'm listening. I'm always listening to whatever you say." Jack said quietly and kissed me which I returned.
"I love you." Jack said quietly against my lips which made me smile and pulled his head down and I kissed him hard.
"I love you too." I said and Jack smiled and I rolled us over so I was sat on him.
Jack smiled at me which I returned and bent down and kissed him.

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