Lost In Neverland

“I’ll see you guys inside,” I told the group of guys I’d seen around before.

I walked in and I couldn’t help but feel a little bit bad for Stella. She got dragged into this because of me but I feel slightly bad. I mean, I don’t know why I felt bad at all. She decided to come out here with me, she could have stayed in the venue like Daddy said and she wouldn’t be in trouble. She decided to follow me; it wasn’t my fault she got in trouble for it. I didn’t make her follow me, it was her decision, she was an adult, she could make her own decisions.

I walked into the back and saw them running one last lighting test before they doors would open. The radio station that was on in every venue started playing. I walked into my dad’s green room and saw that he and my mother were talking about whatever. I sat on the couch next to my mother and started playing on my phone. I was just bored of having to constantly be going everywhere. I had started learning other languages in the large amount of free time I had so I figured I’d work on it right now.

“Danny, look up here,” my dad said.

“What,” I snapped.

“Did you really have to get Stella in trouble? It’s day fucking one of tour. You had to go and make Alex hate you on day one?”

“Yeah, so what?

“Can you be nice for once? Is it really that difficult to try with other bands kids? You need to have more friends Danny.”

“It doesn’t fucking matter. Just let me do what I do.”

“Danny, language,” my mother scolded.

I rolled my eyes and walked out of the room. I was sick of them acting like they cared because I was certain they did. It wasn’t like they understood anyway. No one understood me; it wasn’t like I needed anyone else anyway. I was just fine by myself and that’s all I knew anyway. I walked past the room where All Time Low was and I heard Alex apologizing to Stella. She wasn’t even in trouble, fucking daddy’s girl. I don’t think I envied her, I mean, she had friends and had gone to actual school but I don’t think I envied her.

She was so lucky to have done that, to have people that would always have her back. They would only hurt her in the end. She’d learn that soon enough and she’d still trust the people around her and they’d help her up that one time. Then they’d leave. They always left. That wasn’t even an exaggeration at this point. Everyone left in the end.

I sat on the floor, my back against the wall. I scrolled through social media seeing what the bands I listened to were doing. They made tour look really fun and maybe it was when you could party and be with people you wanted to be around all the time. Instead of being where ever I was being dragged this time. Maybe I was tired of being everywhere, people would say I’m lucky cause I’ve been all over the world and I still wasn’t happy. I don’t know why I would be happy to be dragged everywhere. I spent more time in a bus then I did at home. I wasn’t like Stella who had friends around her and I didn’t. There was one person I was friends with and I hadn’t seen him in years. We hadn’t talked in years either. I wouldn’t say we were friends any more. I guess you just got used to being alone, Stella would find that out soon enough.

Notes

Sorry this isn't the longest chapter, I've been really busy lately and stressed out so I hope y'all like this. I'm going home tomorrow which I'm more than ready for and I'm going to a concert tomorrow night which is much needed.

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