I'm A Walking Travesty
Hospital For Souls
**Trigger Warning**
**Alex**
I ran towards my mum who was crying her eyes out trembling. I knew exactly what had happened, so I hugged her tightly despite her trying to fight me away before realising it was me. "It's okay, Your okay, he isn't coming." I whispered in her ear. Well at least I hoped not, after we moved far away from dad, mum started having nightmares that she'd wake up screaming from, think that he's coming back to get us. Mum and me are alike so I always know how to make her feel better. After she calmed down I took her upstairs and waited with her till she fell asleep which took a while but when she did I went back to my room.
I got in my room and shut my door and slid down it. I felt tears form in my eyes and fall silently down my cheeks, it hurt to see my mum like that because of him, because of me because I was such an idiot. Thoughts carried on circling my head and I couldn't handle them anymore so I quietly ran towards my drawers and went to the back to get the box with my best friends in. I aat down on my bed and pulled out one, I stopped cleaning them hoping I'd get poisoned or the cut would get infected and I'd die a slow painful death as it was what I deserved.
I put the blade against my skin and let it rip through my skin multiple times and watched the red blobs of blood form on my cuts and watched as the cool streaks ran down my wrist and onto my sheets. Once they dried I needed to bandage them as a few were deep l, after that put my blade away in my box and back in the drawer and then went to wash my hands.
On my way back to my room I went to check on my mum who was awake, so as usual I gave her a hug like she used to when I was a kid, sometimes I think that my mum was more affected than me by my dad, I guess it's because she knew him longer. I said that id wait with her again but I had to get up in an hour anyway so I stayed with her like I said but wide awake staring trying to think about good memories.
**Alex**
I ran towards my mum who was crying her eyes out trembling. I knew exactly what had happened, so I hugged her tightly despite her trying to fight me away before realising it was me. "It's okay, Your okay, he isn't coming." I whispered in her ear. Well at least I hoped not, after we moved far away from dad, mum started having nightmares that she'd wake up screaming from, think that he's coming back to get us. Mum and me are alike so I always know how to make her feel better. After she calmed down I took her upstairs and waited with her till she fell asleep which took a while but when she did I went back to my room.
I got in my room and shut my door and slid down it. I felt tears form in my eyes and fall silently down my cheeks, it hurt to see my mum like that because of him, because of me because I was such an idiot. Thoughts carried on circling my head and I couldn't handle them anymore so I quietly ran towards my drawers and went to the back to get the box with my best friends in. I aat down on my bed and pulled out one, I stopped cleaning them hoping I'd get poisoned or the cut would get infected and I'd die a slow painful death as it was what I deserved.
I put the blade against my skin and let it rip through my skin multiple times and watched the red blobs of blood form on my cuts and watched as the cool streaks ran down my wrist and onto my sheets. Once they dried I needed to bandage them as a few were deep l, after that put my blade away in my box and back in the drawer and then went to wash my hands.
On my way back to my room I went to check on my mum who was awake, so as usual I gave her a hug like she used to when I was a kid, sometimes I think that my mum was more affected than me by my dad, I guess it's because she knew him longer. I said that id wait with her again but I had to get up in an hour anyway so I stayed with her like I said but wide awake staring trying to think about good memories.
Notes
I was gonna do Jack in this but it didn't fit with it so I deleted Jack's part. And I'm gonna carry on the story but I write on my phone and I smashed it so updates will either be short or a while between each one.
Also comment coz I'd like to know what you think.
Title Credit- Bring Me The Horizon
@RecklessButBrave
Heyyyy, you actually commented Yayyyyy..... Thank you so much. Haha.
I write a lot but its never normally all time low related so I dont upload but I won't and I promise to be better on updates :)
thank you again.
love ya too :)
1/25/17