I'm A Walking Travesty
5 Years
**Jack**
Kind of a side note here: If your wanting to avoid the self harm part, when it mentions the showering stop reading because it starts there and ends at the end of the chapter but I hope you enjoy what there is and smile at something, even though this is sad :)
That note that hurts so much, the note that wasn't even tear stained until I read it, the note that read.....
"Jack,
My boy, my baby boy. Im sorry to say this but your dad and I have left, maybe we'll come back in five years to give you more money but you should have enough. All the debts are paid of and the bills for the house are paid off up until a year and a half from now, then you'll either have to get a job or use your grandparents inheritance, which is now yours.
Your dad and I couldn't stand the memories and the suffering things have caused us. I hope you find happiness and stay well.
Love, Mum"
How could the do this to me? Their suffering, it happened to me not them how could they even think about it like that? I read the note over and over again, for hope I guess that my dad forced my mum and and she left something in the not but nothing. I thought she loved me, apparently not. Im cut off from reading and thinking by my alarm, as its morning now I spent the whole night thinking about it. I sigh and turn it off. I go upstairs to shower, i walk into the bathroom and begin to undress.
Im left in my underwear when I begin to look at my scars on my legs, one more wouldn't hurt, right? No, no you weren't going to that anymore, not again. I walk over to my mirror to look at my self, however its slanted and I go to straighten it up but catch my finger on something sharp and flinch back and the sudden pain but then adjust and feel relaxed. I go to the back of the mirror and pull of the blades stuck to it. It wouldn't hurt, just once and it'll be over. I take my underwear off and get in the shower.
I grip the blade tightly between my fingers and place it on my leg. I take a deep breath and drag it along my skin, I smile slightly. I dont dare look at it though, I put the blade down and turn on the water and giggle at the pain coming from the cut as the water hits it. I finish up in the shower, get out and dry myself, bandage my cut and go into my bedroom for some clothes. I pick up some sweat pants and a plain t-shirt. I look in the mirror, wow I look like shit. I look myself up and down, it'll have to do.
Kind of a side note here: If your wanting to avoid the self harm part, when it mentions the showering stop reading because it starts there and ends at the end of the chapter but I hope you enjoy what there is and smile at something, even though this is sad :)
That note that hurts so much, the note that wasn't even tear stained until I read it, the note that read.....
"Jack,
My boy, my baby boy. Im sorry to say this but your dad and I have left, maybe we'll come back in five years to give you more money but you should have enough. All the debts are paid of and the bills for the house are paid off up until a year and a half from now, then you'll either have to get a job or use your grandparents inheritance, which is now yours.
Your dad and I couldn't stand the memories and the suffering things have caused us. I hope you find happiness and stay well.
Love, Mum"
How could the do this to me? Their suffering, it happened to me not them how could they even think about it like that? I read the note over and over again, for hope I guess that my dad forced my mum and and she left something in the not but nothing. I thought she loved me, apparently not. Im cut off from reading and thinking by my alarm, as its morning now I spent the whole night thinking about it. I sigh and turn it off. I go upstairs to shower, i walk into the bathroom and begin to undress.
Im left in my underwear when I begin to look at my scars on my legs, one more wouldn't hurt, right? No, no you weren't going to that anymore, not again. I walk over to my mirror to look at my self, however its slanted and I go to straighten it up but catch my finger on something sharp and flinch back and the sudden pain but then adjust and feel relaxed. I go to the back of the mirror and pull of the blades stuck to it. It wouldn't hurt, just once and it'll be over. I take my underwear off and get in the shower.
I grip the blade tightly between my fingers and place it on my leg. I take a deep breath and drag it along my skin, I smile slightly. I dont dare look at it though, I put the blade down and turn on the water and giggle at the pain coming from the cut as the water hits it. I finish up in the shower, get out and dry myself, bandage my cut and go into my bedroom for some clothes. I pick up some sweat pants and a plain t-shirt. I look in the mirror, wow I look like shit. I look myself up and down, it'll have to do.
Notes
Sooooooo non of you read this but oh well, I was going to finish this with it crossing between jack and Alex but I have Alex writers block..... I've prewritten jack so when I get my Alex vibe back ill finish it and it'll be the school day Kinda thing..... Sorry the chapters still aren't longer but hopefully the next one will be
Title Credit- Tonight Alive
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1/25/17