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I'm A Walking Travesty

Vegas Skies

Read with caution if you're easily triggered by bad thoughts its not that bad but ya know thought I'd say :)

**Jack**

Why, why, why? Why did I kiss him, why am I such an idiot he's probably not even gay or like me as a friend anyway. I paced my room for a while longer, after Alex left I wanted to go after him but I thought better of it. Maybe he's another person to hate me just like..... Him. I shiver at the thought. I walk down the stairs looking for something to distract myself with, I head for the video games but something catches my eye, a note, a note which makes everything fall apart.

Next day

**Alex**
I wake up gasping for air , another nightmare. The room feels too hot so I go to open the window but wince in pain as the memory of yesterday come back to me. I sigh but fight through the pain, cold room, cold body more calories burnt. As I open the window I look out its still dark so I glance at my clock 3:42. Well no point going back to sleep now, I could go for a run but would that cause too much pain? I question to myself more and more.

I walk into my bathroom and look in the mirror above the sink, another day my face has bruises on. I open the cupboard and take the foundation out. Yes, I own foundation I have no other choice my mum would freak if she saw me like this, its not like I want to wear foundation, its a more a must. I apply the foundation and brush my teeth I could've showered but I did that last night plus my room should be colder by now so that would make up for the calories I would've burned in the shower..... Hopefully. I grab my straighteners and walk back into my room and turn it on next to the tall mirror in my room. Once heated I tame my hair as much as i can be bothered to, still doesn't make me look any better.

I walk out of my room and start going down the stairs but go back up to check on my mum. I open the door slowly but speeding up part way to avoid the creaking sound. I quietly walk in and look at my mums sleeping body on top of the covers, I lift the covers from underneath her and cover her up. I kiss her cheek and I whisper "I love you." And creep back out and down the stairs. I do love her we're all each other have but sometimes,most of the time im a burden and she'd be better of without me , that if I died she wouldn't notice all that much but then I remember how she'd be alone and I wouldn't want that for her.

I think to myself, sat on the sofa, do I go to school or skip, do I want to face all the people especially jack, no. But do I want mg grades to slip even more, no. I go get my back pack and leave for school.

Notes

Heyyyyyyy, So im back...... Kinda. I really need to stop being so shitty with these chapters, I dont even know what this is right now i mean I know where its going and I could've finished the day but decided against it..... But what's written on the note that jack reads? Answer what you think in the comments so i know if any of you even read this or im just rambling for no reason. Hope you're all having a good day/ night whenever you read this..... Also hey to the four subscribers and thanks for reading this (the people subscribed and not) and for getting it to 1,000 and something veiws

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Comments

@RecklessButBrave
Heyyyy, you actually commented Yayyyyy..... Thank you so much. Haha.

I write a lot but its never normally all time low related so I dont upload but I won't and I promise to be better on updates :)
thank you again.

love ya too :)

Hey. I'm the new subscriber. I love this story so much. When I saw that you updated I made a very girly fan girl scream.

Please keep writing, and don't ever stop. You are amazing.

Love ya!

Thanks btw sorry I haven't had the time to read more because I just slept all day again. I'm happy if I helped I'm not finished tho I really want to know how you're gonna put everything in place through the story.
I don't know maybe I'll post something one day. But for now I need to tell myself I won't because if I don't everytime I'm gonna write something I'm gonna think about wanting to be perfect for the reader and that would fuck everything's up. Changing little things are okay but in the end you've got to do something that you like because if you force yourself it's just not worth it you know.

Costati Costati
10/10/16

@Costati

thank you so much for the advice it helped and I call everyone dude anyway so Yeh and I will try add some of these things in, I guess with my writing it comes and goes and then I have no time to write and then I post something short and and not entirely what I wanted but I had this idea a while ago so but it did take a lot to upload but I decided to get it over with before I changed my mind. Also you should post something sometime id like to read something of yours.

If you want my advice...(if you don't just don't read this I don't want to make you mad I really just want to help)..

I mean personnaly I don't like abbrevations in a book except for SMS or well dialogue. It just breaks the reality of the thing in a way. We're like projected in Alex's and Jack's head (by the way I love that we swing back and forth between the two. It's just cute and funny how it's kind of dialogue between them and their thoughts without them knowing it) and I don't think people put abbrevations in their thoughts. Speaking of thoughts explore what Alex thinks of himself or Jack, when Alex says he's stupid and other things. It would be super interesting to know more about that.
I'm going to bed, so I'll do the rest tomorrow it's 6am where I am and I have to wake up at 10 so I really should sleep.

Costati Costati
10/8/16