I'm A Walking Travesty
Vegas Skies
Read with caution if you're easily triggered by bad thoughts its not that bad but ya know thought I'd say :)
**Jack**
Why, why, why? Why did I kiss him, why am I such an idiot he's probably not even gay or like me as a friend anyway. I paced my room for a while longer, after Alex left I wanted to go after him but I thought better of it. Maybe he's another person to hate me just like..... Him. I shiver at the thought. I walk down the stairs looking for something to distract myself with, I head for the video games but something catches my eye, a note, a note which makes everything fall apart.
Next day
**Alex**
I wake up gasping for air , another nightmare. The room feels too hot so I go to open the window but wince in pain as the memory of yesterday come back to me. I sigh but fight through the pain, cold room, cold body more calories burnt. As I open the window I look out its still dark so I glance at my clock 3:42. Well no point going back to sleep now, I could go for a run but would that cause too much pain? I question to myself more and more.
I walk into my bathroom and look in the mirror above the sink, another day my face has bruises on. I open the cupboard and take the foundation out. Yes, I own foundation I have no other choice my mum would freak if she saw me like this, its not like I want to wear foundation, its a more a must. I apply the foundation and brush my teeth I could've showered but I did that last night plus my room should be colder by now so that would make up for the calories I would've burned in the shower..... Hopefully. I grab my straighteners and walk back into my room and turn it on next to the tall mirror in my room. Once heated I tame my hair as much as i can be bothered to, still doesn't make me look any better.
I walk out of my room and start going down the stairs but go back up to check on my mum. I open the door slowly but speeding up part way to avoid the creaking sound. I quietly walk in and look at my mums sleeping body on top of the covers, I lift the covers from underneath her and cover her up. I kiss her cheek and I whisper "I love you." And creep back out and down the stairs. I do love her we're all each other have but sometimes,most of the time im a burden and she'd be better of without me , that if I died she wouldn't notice all that much but then I remember how she'd be alone and I wouldn't want that for her.
I think to myself, sat on the sofa, do I go to school or skip, do I want to face all the people especially jack, no. But do I want mg grades to slip even more, no. I go get my back pack and leave for school.
Notes
Heyyyyyyy, So im back...... Kinda. I really need to stop being so shitty with these chapters, I dont even know what this is right now i mean I know where its going and I could've finished the day but decided against it..... But what's written on the note that jack reads? Answer what you think in the comments so i know if any of you even read this or im just rambling for no reason. Hope you're all having a good day/ night whenever you read this..... Also hey to the four subscribers and thanks for reading this (the people subscribed and not) and for getting it to 1,000 and something veiws
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I write a lot but its never normally all time low related so I dont upload but I won't and I promise to be better on updates :)
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1/25/17