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Sparks Fly

Sixteen.

::Alex::

Waking up the next morning, I felt an unsettling sense of dread in my stomach. My head ached, my throat burned and my stomach felt like I spent the night swallowing rocks.

My mind was fuzzy and I couldn't completely remember what had happened the previous night. I know there was alcohol and I know I said some stupid shit to Brook that I'd probably have to spend the rest of this tour apologizing for and then there was more alcohol.

My argument with Brook was so stupid. I trusted her enough to know that nothing was going to happen between her and this guy no matter howperfecthe was. I had to figure it was just my shitty insecurities and the underlying paranoia that I felt that Brook was going to wake up one day and realize that I wasn’t worth all the crap she would have to go through to be with me.

I laid in bed a little while longer, eventually convincing myself that I felt better to actually move when I suddenly heard a female voice call my name from the bathroom and it quickly dawned on me that while this was the exact same room, I was not inmyroom.

“Are you awake?” the voice asked again and a second later the bathroom door opened and Lina stepped out with a towel wrapped around her body and another holding up her wet hair.

I jumped up straight in bed and felt sick all over again.

I wouldn’t have…
I couldn’t be that stupid…

“Are you okay?” Lina asked, sitting on the foot of the bed, letting her hair loose from the towel on her head and using it to dry her hair.

“Yeah…” I said slowly, trying my absolute hardest to piece together what the hell happened after I hung up with Brook.

“I didn’t want to wake you when I got in but my other meeting today got pushed back a few hours so I was going to see if you wanted to get breakfast or something…” Lina suggested.

“Breakfast?” I repeated, glancing around the room again, my eyes landing on my t-shirt, jeans and boxers in a rumpled mess on the floor. “Shit,” I muttered under my breath.

“What?” Lina asked, turning to look at me.

“What? Oh. Nothing,” I said quickly reaching towards the floor for my boxers and slipping into them under the blankets.

“So what about breakfast?”

“I can’t,” I said shaking my head, standing from the bed and stepping into my jeans.

“Why can’t you?” she asked, a confused look on her face.

“I um- I’m not eating today,” I said stupidly, pulling my t-shirt over my head and slipping my feet into my sneakers.

“Are you sure you’re okay?” she asked, standing up and heading toward her suitcase.

“I’m fine,” I said. “I actually really have to go. I’m supposed to meet Jack and I’m late,” I said looking around quickly to make sure I didn’t leave anything of mine behind.

“Look, Alex… About last night…” she started, looking up at me from her suitcase. “I kind of had a feeling that was going to happen.”

“You did?” I asked, feeling my eyes go wide.

She nodded. “I saw it coming for a while actually. I‘m kind of glad that it did.”

I wasn’t entirely sure I knew what she was talking about. Although I had a nagging feeling I kind of did. Slowly pieces from the night before were flooding back to me and I remember sneaking out of my hotel room in hopes of finding Jack to come hang out with me at the hotel bar. Instead of finding Jack, I found Lina.

It wasn’t like I didn’t know Lina was at this hotel. I had known she was going to be there from a few days earlier when she had gotten into contact with me to see if our paths were ever going to cross while in the UK and sure enough they did. She’d even been hanging out with us at the after party with her co-worker that she was on this trip with and things were fine. I was able to interact with her on a casual basis.

“Look, I’m sorry about whatever happened but it probably shouldn’t have and I’m really sorry but I have to go,” I rambled, stepping closer to her and hugging her quickly. “It was nice to see you out here and good luck with the rest of your meetings.”

“Alex…” she said slowly, looking confused again.

“I’m sorry,” I said, waving quickly before I walked out the door trying my hardest to ignore the overwhelming sense of wanting to throw up I felt when I stepped into the hallway.

I needed to find Jack. I needed to talk to him and I needed him to tell me I wasn’t the biggest asshole on the planet.

I looked down the hallway in one direction and then down the hall in the other direction. I felt so lost suddenly. I didn’t know where in the hotel I currently was. I didn’t know where my room was and I definitely didn’t know where Jack was.

I stuck my hand into my pocket and pulled out my phone that I thankfully had with me. Immediately my stomach sank even lower when I saw I was one unread text message from Brook.

I’m sure you’re either asleep or passed out somewhere right now. I just wanted to say that I’m sorry if I upset you earlier. I didn’t mean to. Hopefully I’ll talk to you tomorrow. I miss you. <3

“Fuck,” I mumbled to myself.

“Alex?”

I spun my body around quickly when I heard my name called and tried not to run to him and throw my arms around his neck when I saw Jack walking towards me.

“Jack! I was just going to go looking for you. I need to talk to you.”

“Well, here I am… What’s up? You look like Hell, man,” Jack pointed out.

“Yeah, well that’s because I’m there,” I said as Jack lead me towards the elevator.

“What happened?” Jack asked once we were seated in the back of the coffee shop next door to the hotel.

“I had a fight with Brook last night,” I started.

“What can you two possibly have to fight about?” Jack asked, picking at the bagel he had in front of him.

“Because I was drunk and being an asshole and snapped at her for hanging out with this guy at work.”

“Hanging out with?” Jack asked, eyebrow raised.

“She’s helping out with the school musical and this guy is the head of the department or whatever… And she was going on and on about how great of a guy he was and how all the ladies at the school were totally in love with him…So I freaked out and kind of accused her of liking him too.”

Jack shook his head. “You know what this is about right?”

“What?”

“You’re guilty about what went on with you and Lina so you’re afraid that she’s going to do the same thing,” Jack said.

I sighed. Obviously, that was a major part of it. “Jack… There’s more.”

“What is it?” he asked.

“After I hung up with Brook, I was pissed off and I wanted to blow off steam. So I left my room with the plan to find you to go to the bar… But I guess I never found you.”

“Who did you find?” he asked slowly and I could see the look on his face change a bit as if he knew the answer.

“I woke up in Lina’s room this morning. My clothes were all on the floor when I woke up and she was just getting out of the shower.”

Jack nodded slowly. “Did you fuck her?”

I shook my head. “I don’t know.”

He raised an eyebrow at me. “How do you not know? Do you need me to show you a diagram?”

“No,” I huffed. “I don’t remember but she was allI saw this coming for a whileandI’m really glad it did… My clothes were all on the God damn floor, Jack.”

“Well, it seems like you’ve got everything figured out there now, huh?” Jack asked with a shrug.

I sighed, rubbing my face with my hands. “This is all your fault, by the way.”

“What? How the Hell is this my fault?” Jack gasped.

“You were the one who told me not to worry about it and let whatever happened with each girl run its course and I’ll figure it out in the end,” I said glaring at him.

“Well, in my defense, you did figure it out,” he said, leaning back in his seat and crossing his arms over his chest.

“What did I figure out? Other than I am a complete asshole and Brook is better off with this Jason guy and forgetting I ever existed,” I muttered to myself, fully aware that Jack could hear me still.

Jack stared at me for a second as if it was supposed to say something else. When I didn’t he opened his mouth. “Yeah…”

I sighed, “Okay, yes. I obviously want to be with Brook over Lina. I mean, duh Jack… But that doesn’t change the fact that I just can’t cut her out of my life. What is wrong with me?”

Jack laughed and for a second I wanted to punch him.

“What the fuck, dude?” I practically squealed. “What could possibly be so funny?”

He shook his head. “It’s just that you and Lina have been dating on and off since high school and no matter howin love with heryou were, you never, ever freaked out this bad when you would fuck around on her behind her back,” Jack pointed out. “And she was your legitimate girlfriend.”

I sighed. “I know. And that’s clearly my biggest problem. I’m way too into Brook already.”

Jack shrugged. “It’s not the worst thing in the world, Alex. She seems like a really great person. She’s not going to hurt you just because you fell head over ass for her so quickly.”

“Yeah. Because clearly my track record with that is so wonderful…”

“Is that what this is all about?” Jack asked, leaning forward towards me again.

I shrugged. “I don’t know.”

Jack laughed at me again. “Dude. What do you know?”

I looked up at him and shrugged. “That I miss Brook and want to go home already.”

He frowned. “You’re almost there. Have you talked to her today?”

“No,” I shook my head. “I got a text from her last night that I guess I was too drunk to notice. She’s apologizing to me for saying what she said about the guy she’s working with. I’m the one the needs to be apologizing. And I’m the one that needs to starting being real with her.”

“Are you going to tell hereverything?” he asked, eyebrow raised.

“Eventually,” I nodded. “Little by little she’ll know what she needs to.”

“Do you think maybe you should talk to Lina?”

“What about?” I asked, shaking my head no already.

“Well, what if you guys really didn’t sleep together?” Jack suggested.

“Oh come on, Jack,” I sighed. “Of course we did. It’s what I do,” I grumbled, incredibly disappointed in myself.

Jack shrugged. “I’m just saying it wouldn’t hurt to mention it to Lina and find out for sure what exactly happened.”

I shook my head. “I think it’s in my best interest if I stay as far away from Lina for a while. I can’t let myself fuck up anymore.”
***


Notes

Story Title: Taylor Swift - Sparks Fly
Chapter Title: All Time Low - Just The Way I'm Not

Comments

I hope you come back to this story and update again. I miss it!

hopeless1313 hopeless1313
1/9/19

i remember reading the first chapter of this a long time ago and I came across it again a few days ago. Ever since then I haven’t been able to stop reading. I know it’s been a while since you last updated but I hope you will start updating again some day. It’s such a good story and you’ve left it on the biggest cliffhanger! No pressure though, just thought I’d let you know that I’m still very interested in finding out what happens next. :)

Chelsea Chelsea
8/12/18

That is very true all great stories must come to an end.
I am going to start reading your other story right away. I bet it’s another great one. :)

BreaClift. BreaClift.
2/10/18

@BreaClift.
That’s really sweet to say! But unfortunately it will have to end eventually... :( The plus side to not having the inspiration to write for is it can live forever that way, haha.

Have you had a chance to start reading my stop Dirty Laundry? I actually put up a new chapter this week. :-)

Newyork_xo Newyork_xo
2/9/18

I will honestly say. That this is one story I don’t want to ever end lol. Out of all the fanfics I have read over the years even about different bands. This is by far the best one.

BreaClift. BreaClift.
2/5/18