You've got to hold on.

Jacks POV

I woke up and Alex had his back to me which meant his back scars where very visible to me.
I moved a little closer to home making sure I didn't wake him up and slowly started to kiss the scars.
It was then when I realised Alex was actually awake since he stiffened a lot.
"Bab I don't care about your scars. You know this." I said quietly and Alex rolled over and looked at me.
"They make me feel ugly." He said quietly and looked down.
"There's nothing ugly about you bab. If anything they make you more beautiful." I said and kissed the end of his nose which made him smile.
"I just feel like a monster walking round with them." He said.
I smiled as this might be the first step of Alex actually opening up to me.
"Your not a monster, and if you think you do then your my monster and you know I won't ever judge or do anything to you." I said.
"I know you won't. " Alex whispered and looked at me.
I smiled and kissed him which he returned.
"We can't spend all day in bed, aso much as I like that idea but I was thinking about getting pizza and coffee and going to the park and have some sort of date." I said and Alex nodded.
"But first we both need to shower as we both smell and covered in come." I said and Alex chuckled and rolled out off bed and I couldn't help but check him out when he stopped and looked at me.
"It's a waste of water if we do it separately when we can shower together." Alex said and that had me out of bed quicker than anything and dragging Alex to the shower.

We was at the park with our coffee and pizza just liked I said and we was sat by the lake what they had at the park.
Alex was lent against me with his head resting on my shoulder as he nursed his coffee and I was stuffing my face with pizza.
"I love you Jack." Alex said out of the blue.
I looked at him and he looked towards the lake.
"I heard you say that you loved me when I was in hospital." He said quietly.
"And I do love you Alex. Like I said I tried to move on but I couldn't. Because I know that my heart really does belong to you and I am me when I have you by my side or knowing that I can come home and your going to be there." I said and Alex smiled as he looked at me.
"Your my everything Alex. I don't know what I would become if I didn't have you." I said quietly and looked down.
I felt Alex making me look at him and he kissed me and rested my forehead against his.
"You my everything as well Jack. When I was losing my.mind and doing the drugs the only thing I could of was you. You kept me alive out here Jack. After the attack happened I wanted to go and kill myself, I was stood on that building over there on the roof ready to jump." He said and a few tears fell and I wiped them away for him and he smiled.
"I thought off you and how I couldn't do that too you. I knew you would be worried and be looking for me and if you found out I was dead you would of been destroyed and you wouldn't of been able to live with yourself. You saved me Jack. You saved me so many times and I don't know how to thank you for it." He said and kissed me which I happily returned.
"You being here with me and being mine is enough for me and it always will be Alex." I said and he smiled and sniffed.
"I want to give you something." I said and Alex looked at me confused.
I got a box out of my coat pocket and gave it to him.
Alex looked at with a confused look still on his gave which was quite cute.
"Open it." I said and Alex opened it.
"A ring?" He asked now really confused.
"A promise ring. This is.me promising you that I will be here for you every single step of the way and no matter how far you try and push me away I will always come back." I said and Alex smiled and took the ring out of the box and put it on his ringfinger which really made me smile.
Alex just looked at the ring with a huge smile on his face and I made him look at me.
"In time you'll have an engagement and a wedding ring to join this one." I said and kissed him which made him blush which was a very rare thing for him to do.
"I fucking love you, you soppy bastard." Alex chuckled and kissed me.hard which I returned.
"But you would have it any other way." I said quietly and Alex smiled and shook his head and looked down.
"You have one as well?" He asked.
"Well you can't have one if I can't have one." I said and Alex chuckled quietly.
"I'm going to promise you something Jack." He said and looked at me.
"I promise I'll try and get better. I want to be clean from the drugs and the self harming." He said and a look of worry was in his eyes since he knew nothing better than drugs and self harm since he's been on the streets. It was his way of coping with everything.
"And I'll be with you every step of the way." I said and Alex smiled and kissed me again and cuddled into my side as we watched the ducks swim around on the lake and being completely happy and loved up.

Notes

Okay I'm know this is short and rather quick ending but I have a squeal idea and that will then go more into Alex's past...