You've got to hold on.

Alex's POV

I felt the bed dip behind me and a hand on my shoulder which made me flinch away.
"Lex its me." Jack said quietly.
I rolled over and saw Jack with a sandwich and a drink.
"Thought you would be hungry and thirsty." He said with a small smile.
I sat up and took the food from him and slowly ate it while not looking at him.
"Alex look at me please." Jack said and I turned my head and looked at him.
"What did the do to you?" He asked quietly and went to move some hair from my eyes but I flinched away from him again.
I knew I had a scar on my cheek now thanks to the asshole to held me at knife point and my collection of scars in my back had been added to and I had more burn marks in my chest than before.
"They've completely broken you haven't they?" He said softly and I looked away from him and stopped eating.
"You could off come back Alex, this is your home as well as mine." He said and I shook my head.
"No where is my home Jack." I whispered.
" That's not true. This is your home. You live here now, I even kept your stuff here in case you came back. Even your lyric book I gave you." He said and I looked at him.
When I left I didn't take anything with me, just the clothes I was wearing.

"Your stuff is still in your drawer." Jack said quietly.
"Why didn't you throw it away?" I asked because that's what most people do when they find out their other half has cheated on them.
"Because it gave me comfort when I was feeling down. It gave me hope that you was still alive and that you would come back to get your stuff." He said and picked at the duvet.
"What do you even see in me? I'm fucked up, I have nothing but a bad name towards me. Your friends hate me. I take drugs, I drink, I self harm. I have fucked up past. I have so many problems and yet you don't run away." I said and looked at him.
"I see a very misunderstood person. I see someone who wants to change everything in his past but can't because their stuck in a rut. And most importantly I see someone who is very scared. How can I run away from that?" He said and looked at me.
"You could of just turned a blind eye like everyone else. Your too kind for your own good Jack." I said.
"I can't turn a blind eye on someone I love, especially when they are as broken as you Lex. I'm not kind to everyone, I'm only like this round you because you need someone Alex. You need someone to talk about what has happened to you, you need someone you can trust. Not everyone is made of stone and I know some where deep down and under that wall you have built to keep everyone out, there is a boy who is very sensitive. A boy who needs a friend, a boy who is more broken than anything else. A boy who has seen true horrors that no one can understand." Jack said and I looked away from him again because what he had said was true.
I am scared. I am broken.
But if I showed anyone who I really am then I would have no one.

"You have to trust me Alex. Like how I trusted you." Jack said.
I looked at him.
"Its hard Jack. Its hard to open up after being a closed book for such a long time. Its hard because I have never trusted anyone before and you just come into my life and say that I can trust you. You don't understand d how hard that is for me too do. Especially after what I've been through." I said and sniffed.
I felt Jack get hold of my hand and squeezed it which made me look at him.
"I'm not asking you to open up right away. Give yourself as much time as you need and when you are ready I'll be here and I'll listen to you. I'm always here for you Alex, and nothing is going to get between us like before." He said and I smiled a shy smile at him since I knew Jack loved that smile.
Jack smiled back.
"Now I don't know about you but I feel like ordering a pizza and having cuddles in bed while watching a DVD. How does that sound to you?" He said.
"Sounds like a good idea." I said and Jack smiled.
"I'll be right back." Jack said and ggot off the bed and went downstairs to order the pizza.

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