Jacks POV

"Why does everyone have to come round here? Why can't we all just meet up at Eric's place since its bigger than our place." Alex moaned as we watched a DVD with Erin but she wasn't paying any attention to Alex moaning.
"I don't know maybe because we asked them if they wanted to help us with sorting the place out since we need to put our twist to it." I said and kissed the side of his head.

Alex just groaned as the buzzer went off.
"I got it." Alex said and got up.
"Alex let us in." Fred's voice said as he banged on the door.
"I might just make you wait." Alex said.
"Oi asshole open up!" Callie said loudly.
"Fine. No fun guys." Alex said as he opened the door.
"Maybe because we have a load of stuff too do." Eric said and walked over to Erin and sat next to her and Erin sat on his lap and cuddled him.
"Like I said before, no fun guys." Alex said.
"Where's Eli?" I asked and looked at Fred.
"I'm here. Was ordered to do coffee run. So people the fairy coffee mother has arrived." He said and put the coffee on the coffee table.
"You mind the coffee okay Erin." Callie said and Erin went over and Callie picked her up.
"Was she good?" Eric asked and got himself a coffee.
"Didn't know we had her." I said.
"You two are life savers." Callie said.

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We decided that everyone was just crash round ours since it was gone 8 in the evening by the time we all called it a day.
We ordered pizza and we was just waiting for it to arrive and for Fred and Callie to come back with beers.

"How come you wont let the poor man have a cat? It'll be harmless and he'll love you even more." Eric said trying not to swear since Erin was sat with us listening to what we had to say while we was waiting.
"Because I'm being mean and making him wait." Eli said.
"That's mean." I chuckled.
"That's me." Eli chuckled.
I smiled and noticed Alex wasn't with us.
"Where's Lex?" I asked and looked round.
"Dunno. Is he okay Jack?" Eric asked and looked at me.
"Not really. But hopefully I've talked some sense into him to actually talk to someone." I said and got up and looked for Alex.

I found Alex sat in the bath lost in thought.
"What you doing in here?" I asked quietly and climbed into the bath since there was no water in it.
Alex looked down, pulled his arm close to him and stayed quiet.
"Lex? Talk to me please." I said quietly.
Alex stayed quiet, the only sound he made was him sniffing.
"Babe." I said and straightened his legs out and sat on his lap it was only then he looked at me.
"I'm sorry." He whispered and sniffed.
" What for?" I asked and wiped the tears away for him.
"Don't be angry at me please. I don't like it when you angry at me." He said quickly and a new set of tears fell.
"I'm not going to be mad at you. Your starting to worry me, tell me what's the matter." I said.
"I..I...I hurt myself. I didn't want to do, but the urges was really bad and I couldn't stop myself and before I could I hurt myself please don't me mad at me please." He said quickly.
I pulled him into my chest and Alex just broke down so I rubbed his back and rocked myself side to side, placing soft kisses on the side of his head as this would normally calm him down.
"Its okay babe. I'm not mad at you." I said quietly and heard someone knock on the door.

"Yeah." I said and it was Fred who answered the door.
"Shit is he okay?" Fred asked.
"He's fine, don't make a big fuss about it okay, he's just about calming down." I said quietly since Alex was spaced out but somehow if you spoke loudly it would start him off again.
"Don't make a fuss? Jack he's hurt himself! How can we not make a fuss about this?" Fred said a little louder.
"Look. There is a fucking reason why I have said that, now go out to the sitting room with the others while I sort Alex out but say nothing. And save me and Alex pizza." I said.
Fred just sighed in annoyance and walked off.
I just shook my head and rolled my eyes and looked at Alex.
"Are you going to let me have a look?" I asked Alex and he nodded and moved away and showed me his arm.
"I'm sorry." He whispered.
I looked at him and stopped him from looking down.
"Its okay, a relapse is going to happen. I'm just glad that I'm here to help you." I said quietly and kissed him which he returned.
"Come on let's get you cleaned up and see if they've eaten all the pizza." I said but Alex shook his head.
"I'm just going to go to bed." He said quietly.
"Okay, but let me clean you up okay." I said and Alex moved from my side so I could get up and I helped him up and out of the bath.

I cleaned him up and picked him up and went to our room.
"I'll come back and check on you in a bit." I said and messed with his hair and kissed him which made him smile.
"I'll even give you the TV remote." I chuckled which made Alex smile since I always hogged the TV remote as well as the bed.
"I'll be back later and bring you some pizza, if you want anything then text me and I'll get it for you." I said and kissed him.
"Love you." Alex said quietly.
"Love you too babe." I said and kissed him again and got up and went to the sitting room.

"What the fuck is going on!? He's meant to be better!" Fred said as I walked into the sitting room.
"He is getting better its a bloody relapse, when your recovering you have relapses. Its the whole part of recovery." I snapped at him which wasn't like me but the last year has been really hard on me and Fred turning round saying that really got to me.
"Guys language young ears are around." Callie said and we looked at saw Erin was slowly falling asleep on her lap.
"Well he's going to be going back to the fucking place again isn't he?" Fred said.
"Freddie!" Eric said seriously because Fred wasn't going to listen to me and I didn't have the patience to be dealing with him.
"What? Your actually happy about Alex doing this too himself!?" Fred ranted and Eli got hold of his hand in a attempt to calm him down.
"No I'm not happy about it. But I know from the drugs that you relapse god knows how many times before you think my life is worth more than drugs or whatever and you get the help and support you need. I was lucky enough to have our parents. Even with the blip a couple of month ago, I had my fucking family. I had to think about Callie and Erin and how much the depend on me. Don't go flying off the bloody handle because Alex has hurt himself." Eric ranted at Freddie.
"And I would like to say that this is the first time he has hurt himself in a year. If your not fucking proud about that then there is a huge fuck you going your way." I said and walked to the kitchen and ran my hands through my hair and sighed loudly.

I heard someone come out to the kitchen.
"Fuck off Freddie." I growled because I want nothing to do with him right now.
"Don't worry its only me." Callie said quietly and stood next to me and pulled me to her side.
"You're doing good Jack, just don't stop doing what your doing." She said quietly.
"Its hard." I whispered.
"I know it is, but you have stuck by Alex through everything. You can do this I know its stressful but these guys aren't exactly plain sailing are they?" She chuckled.
I couldn't help but not chuckle as well.
"No their certainly not." I said.
We heard someone walk out and we looked over and saw Eli.
"I've been kicked out so Eric and Fred can have a chat, so what you guys talking about?" He said and sat on the counter on the otherwise of me.
"About how our other half aren't plain sailing." Callie said.
Eli chuckled.
"That is so true." He said.
"Is Alex okay?" Eli asked and looked at me.
"Yeah, he's just going to be on a down for the next couple of days but hopefully he can get through it." I said and looked down.
"Alex is strong and he can do it." Callie said.
"Where's Erin?" Eli asked and looked at Callie.
"Asleep on the sofa. Hopefully Eric and Fred won't wake her up otherwise they can stay up with her." She said.
"Well its you guys which will be sleeping in the sitting room as I have a bed and someone keeping it warm for me so on that note I'm going to bed." I said and went to make Alex a tea.
"See you later Jacko." Callie said and I got Alex and myself our drinks and went to our room.

I walked in and Alex was lead on his side watching TV.
He smiled when he saw me.
"Thought you would like a cuppa so I've brought you one." I said and put it on the floor next to his side.
I stepped over him and put my drink on the floor and took my top and trousers on which left me in my pants.
I got into bed and Alex moved and cuddled into my side.
"Where you fighting with Fred and Eric because of me?" He asked quietly.
"You heard?" I sighed and looked down.
"Yeah. But Fred was out of order. Thank you for sticking up for me." He said and kissed my cheek.
I smiled and kissed the top of his head.
"The fuck are you even watching?" I asked and looked at the TV.
"Some shit." Alex grumbled and put his tea on the floor and lead down and cuddled into my side.
I did the same.
"Roll over." I said quietly.
Alex sighed loudly and rolled over and I cuddled into his back me being the big spoon.
"Love you Jacky." Alex mumbled.
"Love you too." I muttered and fell asleep.

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