Jacks POV

Alex literally looked like a walking mummy right now.
Both his arms and legs had bandages on them and his stomach also had bandages on them from where he's having a serious relapse.

I made Alex breakfast in the bedroom and sat on the mattress and put the food and tea on the floor and started to mess with his hair which normally wakes him up.
"Babe, I've made you breakfast." I said quietly.
Alex sighed loudly and began to wake up so I stopped messing with his hair and I went to move my hand but Alex caught hold of my hand and put it back in his head which made me chuckle so I went back to messing with his hair.
"You like that?" I asked.
"Yeah, would be better with cuddles." He said his voice thick with sleep.
"Is that a hint for me to get back into bed?" I asked and Alex nodded.
"Well it worked." I said and got back into bed and Alex cuddled into my chest and I carried on messing with his hair.
"I'm going to try and get clean again." Alex said.
"You sure? I know that it took a long time for you to get clean and even got you landed in hospital." I said and Alex sat up and looked at me.
" You don't think I can do it do you?" He asked sou ding hurt.
"Babe you know I think you can do this. But its like what the therapist dude said, its better for you to keep on self harming than trying to stop when your not ready." I said.
"I am ready. I don't want to be like this anymore, I want to be normal." He said and looked down.
"Babe you are normal." I said and made him look at me.
"No I'm not. If I was normal I would be like you. I wouldn't be covered in scars, I wouldn't have people looking at me when I'm having a turn." He sniffed.
"That's because they don't understand." I said quietly.
"People are just stupid." Alex muttered which made me chuckle.
"But if your ready to try and stop I'm with you every step of the way, just like I have been for the last 6 years." I said and pulled Alex on top of me and kissed him while Alex moved and sat on me.
"You could always find someone better than me." He said quietly and ran his fingers down my chest.
"I'll keep on saying this. I will never find a home better than you." I said and got hold of his hand and kissed the back of it which made him smile his shy smile.
Alex bent down and kissed me.
"I can feel your boner sticking in my ass." He whispered in my ear and bit it gently and tugged it a little.
"Maybe you shouldn't be so fuckable then." I said and rolled us over so Alex was bottom.
"Despite the scars?" He asked and looked down.
"I love you no matter if you have scars or not. Your my left side and the person which makes my heart skip a beat every time I see you. I'm so happy that I have you and I don't know what I would do if I didn't have you in my life." I said and kissed him.
"You and your romantic words." Alex chuckled.
"You love them." I chuckled as well.
"Yeah I do." He said and kissed me a bit harder than before.

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We was walking round the shops because we needed food and we couldn't live on take-aways any longer.
I was proud of Alex as he was wearing a T-shirt which meant is scars was very visible to everyone.
Course it made him a anxious mess but he was coping well with better than before.

"We need to think about what to get Eric and Callie for the twins." I said and Alex looked at me.
"Just get them a pack of condoms and write don't be silly wrap your willy or something. I dunno." He said and shrugged his shoulders.
I was to force back a laugh since he was being very blunt about it.
"Maybe not." I said.
"I like that idea though." He said and put some stuff in the trolley.
I couldnt think of anything but Alex had loads of ideas.
"Could always get a card and say congratulations on your mistake, enjoy 18 years of hell of not knowing who is who." He said.
"Do they even know if they are identical?" I asked.
"Fuck knows." He said.
I just rolled my eyes.
"Or we can give them some money so Callie can get Eric's balls chopped of then they won't have to worry about wearing condoms and Callie getting pregnant." He said.
"Think Eric likes his manhood." I said.
"Tell me about it." Alex said and rolled his eyes.
"Oh." Alex said and slapped my arm.
"What?" I said and looked at him.
"Sex toys." He said and smirked.
"We're not talking about that here." I said.
"Why not? Christ you look like you've been fucked into a mattress." He said.
"Maybe because I was." I said.
"And that's why you wear a hat, hides the sex hair well." Alex said and walked off moving his hips since he knew I was watching him.
I just sighed and followed him.

Me and Alex was putting the shopping away and I was miles away when Alex came over and pinned me against the side.
"Can I help?" I asked.
"Just wanted a hug." He said quietly and wrapped his arms round me.
"Could of just said." I said and returned his hug.
"I like the surprise hugs." He said.
"So do I." I said and kissed the top of his head.
"Let's finish putting this away and we can go and watch a movie." I said and Alex nodded and we went and put the shopping away and went and watched a movie.

Notes

such a shit update...
Feels like everything I'm writing at the moment is complete shit...

Dont know if I need fuck loads of vodka, 100 years off sleep or a hug right now.. I'm just all over the place...