This is my family
Chapter. Six
I am in my room alone where Keith is out with his friends from our school. I opened my laptop to check my YouTube channel, I got a lot of positive feedback from the people who liked my singing. Some were negative but that's okay. I checked twitter and Facebook, I also checked my email. The first email I saw said "Krystal Lucas".... Lucas? Krystal? I never emailed anyone named Krystal Lucas, the fuck?... I clicked on it and this is what I read:
From: Krystal Lucas
To: JJ Gaskarth
Dear JJ, you're probably wondering who Krystal Lucas is and I want you to know that I am your birth mother. I know you and Keith probably hate me and your father because we abused you. I just want to say at that time I was stupid and dumb as fuck. I was 21, JJ. I didn't know what I was doing with my life and I am so so sorry I said you and Keith were mistakes. I never meant to hurt you guys/or put you guys in danger. I know you guys probably want nothing to do with us and that's fine but I just want you to know that I love you guys and I hope you guys could forgive us? Probably? Maybe? I don't know. I hope you had a good life and you will always be in our hearts.
Love, Krystal.
My heart stopped for a second, is she for real? Is she serious? I know she was 21 when she started abusing us so I sent an email back to her saying I don't know really, and shit like that. We have been talking for a very long time and now it's been 2 weeks since we talked but I also feel guilty because i don't know.
I walked downstairs to see my dads and Keith sitting there.
"H-Hey dad? papa?" I mumbled out and all 3 of them looked at me.
"Hey buddy." Dad said and I sat down next to him. "What's up?"
"U-Um well Krystal Lucas have been emailing me and I emailed her back." I nervously said.
"Who's Krystal Lucas?" Keith asked. My dads and Keith gave me a confused look.
"Oh you know um.....our birth mother-" I nervously laughed because this is awkward.
"what?!" Keith screamed and I flinched.
"JJ, buddy, why would you email her?!" Papa asked.
"She emailed me first, so I emailed her back and we have been talking for two weeks....." I said defending myself.
"HOW CAN YOU FUCKING TALK TO SOMEONE WHO FUCKING ABUSED US. SHE FUCKING LIT YOU ON FIRE ONCE, JJ. SHE FUCKING HIT US, CALLED US NAMES AND HURT US. NOW YOU DECIDE TO FUCKING FORGIVE HER AND YOU'RE TALKING TO HER?!" Keith screamed at me again. I flinched and I look down..
"She said she was 21 and she didn't know what she was doing..." I started but my dad cut me off.
"I don't care if she was 21 but she knew what she was doing....." My dad said and I sighed.
"I am sorry, okay?" I mumbled and Keith screamed in frustration.
"I HAVE FUCKING ANGER ISSUES BECAUSE OF THE FUCKING LADY." Keith screamed.
"She said dad is also doing good.." I commented and Keith just fucking dumbfounded looking at me.
"I don't give a fuck about that man either. HE FUCKING FORCED US TO EAT OUR FUCKING SHIT AND VOMIT. WHAT THE FUCK, JJ?!!?!!??!??!" Keith screamed at me.
"Stop screaming at me...." I said.
"STOP TALKING TO HER THEN!"
"OKAY I AM FUCKING SORRY!" I guess my outburst surprised all of them especially Keith because first off I don't cuss and secondly I don't yell.
I walked upstairs and slammed our door shut. I emailed this lady and said I couldn't talk to her anymore. She replied a few hours later saying she gets it. I fell asleep and Keith walked in our room, I looked at him.
"I am sorry for yelling at you.." Keith apologized.
"It's fine, mate." I said.
We both fell asleep.
Notes
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