Give Me Therapy

I wanted to thank everyone for being nice to me on alltimelowfanfiction. All the personal messages and sweet comments were much appreciated. I love writing, I love reading and I love seeing the creativity of others! Admittedly, I have been struggling with depression and wanting to live. Life is hard when you don't have friends in real life, I had a boyfriend who was nice to me and had a loving family, but that's over now too, he loves another girl more than me and I didn't see it coming.. I lost all my notebooks so now I have nothing to post and I have been too sad to write.. Not that any of you beautiful people really care or understand, I know it's just dramatic to most people.. You all are so smart and I have had no education, my sister taught me everything I know about writing but she is too busy all the time and I probably won't ever see her again. I feel like I'm not good enough anymore, like all my efforts are wasted anyway. I don't want to play victim or make anybody sad for me, that's not my intention. I'm kind of tired. Actually, really tired, and I don't think I can continue with this. I feel like every day is just something I have to survive through and I'm just so sad all the time. My boyfriend broke my heart, I thought he was the one, but I guess I was just being stupid and unrealistic.. I don't want to think badly of myself but I feel like I'm not good enough. My life isn't good without someone to save me from my everyday hell at home.. I hope all of you never stop writing, I have enjoyed every second on this website and every one of you have been so lovely to me, I could never thank you enough. I hope everyone has a beautiful spring and summer and hopefully for my own sake someone will reach out to me in my life. I just want everyone to know how hard I tried to be loved. Keep smiling. -Mari

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